What do you want in life

Chapter 22 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (1)
The coffee had already been drunk, but the cup was still held in her hand. When she regained consciousness, Xiaoying felt a bone-piercing coldness in her palm.

Shen Juncheng was still standing beside the venetian blinds by the window, looking out through the gaps in the curtains, only occasional light shining in the vast darkness.

"When I saw you in the warehouse, you acted so calmly, I thought you had forgotten the past and me..." Shen Juncheng's voice sounded slowly in the silent space, "I didn't realize until just now that you Nothing has changed... No matter what happens, it will not surprise and surprise you..."

Xiaoying lowered her head and stroked the cup. She wasn't surprised, it wasn't that she wasn't surprised, but she couldn't write all these on her face.

"Han Xiaoying, did I look very stupid to you at that time?" Shen Juncheng finally turned his head to look at her, with a self-deprecating smile on his lips.

During the first days of separation, he kept writing to her. At that time, he always thought that he could be the master, so even though she never replied to him, he still insisted on sending her letters, and did not forget to write to her every day. Add a sentence at the end of the letter, "I will always be waiting for you!"

During the vacation, he tried his best to sneak out of the house to meet her, but she always avoided him as if she wanted to erase him from her life.

He also asked Xiaoyu for help. At the beginning, the two of them could keep in touch with each other intermittently, but after a while, perhaps because Xiaoying found out, Xiaoyu stopped giving him any feedback.

Half a year later, he had no choice but to respect his mother's wishes, and full of helplessness and melancholy, he traveled across the ocean to study in a different place.

Even when he was abroad, he still did not forget to write to Xiaoying, telling her about his troubles of being alone and how he missed her.

Until one day, his letter was returned unopened—the complex where Han Zhengsheng lived was demolished, and the whereabouts of the owner were unknown.

Time and space eventually became a barrier to block them—no, to block his missing of her.Gradually, new things and new friends constantly interfered in his life, and slowly healed the sadness of losing her for him.

Growing up is such a process of constantly losing and gaining, and no one can avoid it.

One day, he suddenly thought, maybe he was too stupid back then, Han Xiaoying had already seen through the road ahead of them, so she did it so decisively and cleanly!

Or maybe, she never loved herself at all, and she was just a silent bearer in that unreasonable emotion that burned his whole body and mind.

It's easy to get confused if you think too much, but Shen Juncheng can't control himself not to think. Even today, after a long time, knowing that asking such a question means stupidity, he still can't help but open his mouth, wanting to talk about the past years. There is a complete confession.

Xiaoying didn't know how to answer his question. She lowered her head, thought for a moment, then smiled, avoided talking, and said, "Mr. Shen, I should go."

This "Mr. Shen" once again inspired a self-deprecating smile on Shen Juncheng's face, and this time, he was really sober and no longer had any expectations.

Since it is meaningless, why bother to pursue it persistently?Han Xiaoying was indeed much calmer and more rational than him, as before.

"I'll see you off." He took off the coat on the hanger, it was getting late, and he didn't want to stay in the office for long.

Xiaoying was about to decline, but saw him pursing his lips hard. It was his expression of displeasure, and it also meant that he did not intend to compromise on this matter.She laughed, and finally gave in.It turned out that it was beneficial to know each other before, at least to know when not to make futile efforts.

They took the elevator downstairs, went out the door, and turned a corner to his exclusive parking garage.Before Xiaoying could make a choice, Shen Juncheng had already opened the passenger door for her. She smiled inwardly and dived in.He is still the same, likes to help people make up their minds.

The interior of his car is open and clean, and there is no strange smell, and even the noise is low and inaudible, only a little sound from the subtle heating.

"You don't have a full-time driver?" Xiaoying was at a loss for words. She remembered that Mr. Zheng used to have two drivers who took turns driving for him.

Shen Juncheng turned it on, looked ahead and replied, "I don't like being monitored all the time."

Xiaoying glanced at him and stopped talking.

When the car passed the employee parking lot, Xiaoying glanced casually at the dimly lit carport, and suddenly saw a figure still wandering there, it was Li Zhen.

Her heart skipped a beat, and she suddenly remembered the agreement he had made with her. Looking at the time, it was past 11:30, but she didn't expect that he was still waiting there.

The sentence "can you stop for a while?" Before he could say it, the car had already driven to the gate of the factory area.Xiaoying's thoughts turned sharply, and she asked herself, after stopping the car, does she want to go back and walk with Li Zhen?
Shen Juncheng glanced at her quickly, seeing that she hesitated to speak, he asked, "What's wrong?"

"Oh, it's nothing." She perfunctorily took out her mobile phone from her bag, and was about to dial when she suddenly remembered that she didn't have Li Zhen's number.

"You..." She had to turn to Shen Juncheng for help, "Do you have Li Zhen's phone number?"

"Yes." Shen Juncheng said, freeing up one hand, took out his mobile phone and handed it to her, "I just called him at night, it should still be saved, you can find it."

Xiaoying took it hesitantly, bit her lip and pressed the button twice, then paused, "That requires a password."

She handed the phone back to Shen Juncheng, wanting him to decrypt it himself, but he didn't reach out to pick it up, and directly reported a series of numbers from his mouth.

Xiaoying felt embarrassed. For a while, she froze there unable to move. She didn't expect Shen Juncheng to be so defenseless towards herself.

Shen Juncheng seemed to understand what she was thinking, turned his head and glanced at her, and asked with a half smile, "Will you inform me? No way."

Xiaoying smiled before waking up. It seemed that she was too sensitive and cautious, so she lowered her head to decode.

"I've never seen anyone who is more persistent than you, Han Xiaoying." Shen Juncheng seemed to be feeling helpless, "For eight years, you never thought of contacting me, even if you only regarded me as a friend. I can still count on Are you 'surrendering the enemy and rebelling against the factory'?"

All the intense emotions in his youth turned into a thin wisp of smoke in this bland joke, and slowly dissipated.

Xiaoying was amused by him, "Boss Shen, today is not what it used to be, maybe I am short of money, and someone wants to buy Nanxiang?"

Shen Juncheng snorted, "You're overthinking, this is just my mobile phone password."

Seeing her burying her head, he carefully and laboriously pressed a series of numbers on his mobile phone into her own mobile phone one by one, and smiled again: "I don't mind if you dial directly with my mobile phone."

"But I don't mind." Xiaoying replied without raising her head.

The corner of Shen Juncheng's mouth twitched slightly, Xiaoying's attitude towards him returned a little bit, maybe she didn't even notice it, but he realized it.

In a short while, Xiaoying had dialed Li Zhen's phone number.

Li Zhen had been in the cold wind in the garage for a long time, when he suddenly heard the phone ringing in his trouser pocket, he shook his head and picked it up quickly, as expected, it was Xiaoying who called, and he asked anxiously, "Where did you go? You probably haven't come home yet? I see your car is still here!"

"I'm sorry Li Zhen, don't wait for me." Xiaoying hurriedly explained, "I took a ride, cough, my colleague's car left."

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, Xiaoying felt very guilty, "You go home quickly. I'm really sorry, I... forgot to tell you."

"...Okay." Li Zhen finally spoke, with a forced smile and unconcealed disappointment in his voice, "Then I'm leaving, be careful on the road."

After hanging up the phone, Xiaoying was always in a depressed mood.

Li Zhen's momentary silence after the anxiety made Xiaoying feel more guilty. He must have been embarrassed, but Xiaoying couldn't think of any suitable way to get along without hurting him.

"Li Zhen is chasing you?" Shen Juncheng asked while driving the car.

Xiaoying looked out the car window and didn't answer him.

"You don't like him?" He continued to guess based on his own impression.

The answer to him was still silence.

"Did I ask too many questions?" Shen Juncheng shrugged, and smiled a little relaxedly and carelessly.

"Mr. Shen," Xiaoying suddenly turned to look at him, "If it were you, what would you do?"

"Me?" Shen Juncheng frowned, and quickly replied: "I don't know, I don't have much experience in this area."

Xiaoying instinctively felt that he was joking, so she grinned.

"I always thought you wouldn't come back. You said before that you wanted to be an architect, and you wanted to go to France or Spain to study hard. You can't make it in ten or eight years..." She finally said a few words buried in her heart Long words.

Of course, when he said these words at that time, he dragged on, "I will take you there with me at that time!"

As time has passed, this sentence naturally does not need to be mentioned again.

"Do you think it's possible?" Shen Juncheng laughed, unable to tell whether it was sarcasm or helplessness, "My parents, as well as my family's company, are all here."

He once issued a declaration with his mother confidently, and that was when he had just received the admission letter from H University.

"I don't want to go abroad now! I want to stay in H University, study design hard, and go out after laying a good foundation. I want to be the top architectural designer in China!"

"Then what do you ask me and your father to do?" Wu Qiuyue stared at him and asked, "Who will our company ask to shoulder the burden in the future? You think mom and dad won't be old?"

"Dad has so many right-hand men! Why can't..."

"Those are 'outsiders'!" Wu Qiuyue frowned, "Do you understand 'outsiders'? No matter how high the treatment is given to them, one day there will be a better opportunity, they will just leave! Isn't it that you have worked so hard to train you so that you can be more promising than us in the future and run the company better?"

That time was a rare calm and equal communication between him and his mother.

"Xiaocheng, even if you become a designer, you will end up starting a company to make your dreams bigger and become an outstanding businessman. Since you have a ready-made business at home, why do you have to go around a big circle? ?”

"But I don't like business, I only like design." Shen Juncheng muttered and replied, obviously a little tired, and he would never be his mother's opponent in terms of reasoning.

"There are so many people who study design, how many do you think can really stand out? How many ambitious young people have to make ends meet in a small company to earn a living. I have seen such a situation too much. A lot!" Wu Qiuyue stood up, intending to end the conversation, "Xiaocheng, your current thinking is still too immature. Your future path, your mother has paved it for you, you just need to work hard to walk in the direction I said Just do it."

"but I……"

Wu Qiuyue patted the back of her son's hand to stop him from arguing, "Remember, mom won't let you suffer..."

The car was about to face a crossroad, Shen Juncheng asked Xiaoying how to get there, she told him, and Shen Juncheng said: "Your uncle's house should have moved long ago, right?"

"That's right! That old town was demolished six years ago." Xiaoying said, thinking of the changes in her uncle's house after that, she felt a little sad.

"You still live with them?"

"No, they divorced three years ago. I live alone now, in a rented house."

Shen Juncheng was silent, and after a while, he asked again: "Where's your brother? Is he okay?"

Xiaoying thought for a while, "It's okay."

Everyone's lifestyle is different, as long as you feel satisfied, you should be fine.

The house Xiaoying rented was not far from the company, and the car drove there, and the journey took less than 10 to [-] minutes, as if they arrived in a blink of an eye.

She originally wanted to get off at the gate of the community, but Shen Juncheng insisted on taking her downstairs to her residence. She had no choice but to show him the way to enter the community. He drove in crookedly, but in the end, he sent her downstairs smoothly.

As soon as the car stopped, Xiaoying touched the doorknob, turned her head and smiled at Shen Juncheng, "Mr. Shen, thank you for taking me home!"

"Han Xiaoying!" Shen Juncheng called her in time.

Xiaoying froze by the half-open car door nervously. She thought that after meeting tonight, they would be able to "disregard past suspicions" and coexist peacefully in the same place in the future.

However, in his tone at this time, there was a sense of familiarity that made her shudder.

But Shen Juncheng only considered it, and said slowly, "I'm thinking, maybe you're right." His expression fell into a kind of serious thought.

She had foreseen early on that he would not be able to escape his mother's control.

How to escape?Everything about him is here, his past, his future, and the glory and success he craves.

He also struggled. When he was in a foreign country, he felt extremely uncomfortable and lonely, so he skipped class, walked around with his travel bag on his back, and was eventually chased back by his relatives.

His mother and aunt rushed over to see him overnight, his mother scolded him for his unfilial piety with red eyes, and his aunt advised him, "Even if you have a big opinion on your mother, she is your mother after all, don't you want her to raise her for nothing?" You one? Once you leave, will you really be happy? Xiaocheng, I guarantee you that you will regret it in the future!"

Whether he will regret it in the future, he has no way of knowing. In the end, he succumbed to his mother's tears and became a good son who obeyed his words again.

His originally lively and cheerful personality probably changed at that time, and his heart was filled with heavy burdens prematurely-the sadness and helplessness left by his youth.Since then, although he has had happiness and pride, he is no longer pure.

The past is like smoke, there is no need to think about it. At this moment, his heart is calm and unwavering. He likes to be in such a state of control.

Xiaoying looked back while listening, under the yellow light of the car lights, she saw the sincerity surging on Shen Juncheng's handsome face, as if there was a bright light cast on her face in his eyes, "I hope, We'll still be friends from now on."

Under his seemingly expectant gaze, Xiaoying nodded with a wry smile. She wanted to believe that being friends with someone at the general manager level would always pay off.

She had already gone far away, yet Shen Juncheng was still sitting in the car watching her leaving back, that scene made him feel like a dream.A long time ago, he often saw her turning her back like this in a dream, getting farther and farther away from him...

He slammed on the accelerator, and the car made an unusual roar in the quiet and quiet night.

When Xiaoying looked out from the aisle window on the third floor, he saw that his royal blue car had already gone away.

After returning home, Xiaoying simply washed up and lay quietly on the bed, but her thoughts ran wild without obeying orders.

She couldn't sleep, got up and took out a square biscuit box from the innermost layer of the locker. The colorful patterns on the box had already been mottled with the passage of time.

Opening the lid of the box, it was full of letters. She took out one at random. The stamp on it was well preserved. It was sent from a country completely unfamiliar to her on the other side of the ocean. The old address of my uncle's house is written in my handwriting.

She hadn't looked back at these letters for a long time, and even seldom thought of them for two full years, but she knew that they were always there, occupying a corner in her heart.

She carefully stroked the line of dark and strong characters with her hand for a moment, then turned it over to look at the date marked on the postmark.

She doesn't need to take out the letter inside to read it, just glance at the date, and she can recite the contents of the letter, because she has read it countless times.

This used to be her most secret way of reminiscing about her youth. That short summer was as gorgeous as fireworks, but the bright light was fleeting, and after the splendor, there was endless silence.

In this regard, she never complained, just as she never had hope, but she never thought that one day, she would bump into the characters in her youth again.

She looked at the letters slowly, hesitating and tossing in her heart, is it necessary to keep them now?
When tiredness swept over her, she never made a decision. In the end, she still put the letter back into the box and stuffed it back into the inner layer of the cabinet, as if she had never dug it out.

Xiaoying finally got the daytime shift again, and finally got to go out with Guo Jia again. They didn't feel like they were tied together before, but now they feel that such a reunion is very precious.

Guo Jia overheard Xiaoying talking about her younger brother Han Xiaoyu going to Beibei Bar to sing, and immediately shouted that he had to go and watch.

"It takes a bit of strength to be able to enter that bar and sing. Xiaoying, your brother is amazing! No, you have to take me to see what you say this time. I'm really angry if you keep dragging your feet. !"

Her threat was tried and tested to Xiaoying, Xiaoying couldn't be bothered by her, so she had to give in, "Then I'll discuss it with him."

"There's nothing to discuss." Guo Jiabai glanced at her, "Let's just go directly, and you can just let me know when he comes out! Since it's your younger brother, I can always afford the show fee."

The two were chatting enthusiastically, when Jiang Fang suddenly passed in front of them, coughed a few times in a serious manner, and gave Guo Jia a displeased look.

Xiaoying turned her head to do things wisely, and Guo Jia had no choice but to shut up and not mention it.

As soon as Jiang Fang walked out of the warehouse, Guo Jia immediately pulled his face away and began to curse the perverted boss in a low voice, "What a plague god! Hey, why didn't President Shen consider killing him when he adjusted the organizational structure?"

Two weeks ago, Shen Juncheng partially adjusted the middle and senior management personnel, and at the same time dismissed several managers whose performance could not be improved.From the day the news was announced, Guo Jia was looking forward to Jiang Fang's name appearing on the adjustment list almost every day. However, unfortunately, the result disappointed her.

Lao Yang happened to pass by their seats, and Guo Jia's complaints were all heard by him, and he immediately reprimanded, "If you want to stay here, you should stop complaining. The backstage is tough! You , If you don’t have a tough backstage, you know your mouth is tough!”

Zhao Tao also came up to express his opinion, "That's right, Guo Jia, I advise you not to treat President Shen as the savior, even if he wants to get rid of someone, he has to weigh the consequences, otherwise, wouldn't this company be messed up? Look at the few managers who left, all of them are not locals, right?"

Guo Jia couldn't listen to people talking about "locals" and "outsiders". He sneered and said, "Yes, locals are people, but outsiders are not people. If you have the ability, all the locals will be recruited!"

(End of this chapter)