Paper rose

Chapter 46 You are a special blank (5)
Bai Yan breathed a sigh of relief, got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face, then changed out of his sweaty pajamas, thinking about making an appointment with Leng Feng to go to the hospital, he hurriedly picked up his phone and dialed it.

Almost as soon as the call was made, Leng Feng answered it.

"How's it going?" She asked briefly, but couldn't hide her trembling.

"I was sweating profusely and slept for a long time. I felt that my throat was not so itchy and my breathing was light. It's much better. Doctor Leng, I..."

"I know, Nurse Liu has already passed away. She asked for two weeks of sick leave for you. You should rest well and come to the hospital as much as possible tomorrow for a lung X-ray."

"Well, Doctor Leng, what about tomorrow?"

Leng Feng paused for a moment, looked at the restless people around him, "He's right next to me."

"Thank you, Dr. Leng." Bai Yan didn't ask Leng Feng to answer the phone tomorrow, but hung up the phone and dialed another tomorrow.

"Xiao Yan." When Shang Ming heard Bai Yan's voice, his hanging heart shook in the air.He and Bai Yan don't communicate often, and Bai Yan always reports good news but not bad news.He thought she was really doing well, but only after meeting her did he realize that it was not the case.

Leng Feng played with his phone and shrugged.

"Well, well, I know, I won't go back to Yun County for the time being. I can stay in a hotel, or at Leng Feng's place. Yes, I called the star, but why did her cell phone stop?"

Bai Yan said a series of numbers, "Is this the number you dialed?"

"Yes, that's the number. Do you know where she lives?"

Bai Yan pondered for a moment, "I'll finish hanging the water tomorrow, so let's go with you!" Before going, she had to go to Sanqiansi to let Shang Mingxing make preparations.

"Xiaoyan, are you alright?"

"It couldn't be better." Bai Yan giggled.

Shang Ming resignedly pulled up the cable, and the image of Bai Yan laughing appeared in his mind: eyebrows and eyes curled up, dimples gleamed.

"Leng Feng, I want to see Xiaoyan's husband." Shang Ming said.

Leng Feng glanced at him, "What do you want to say?"

"If you love Baiyan, cherish it. If you don't love it, let it go."

Leng Feng laughed, "Tomorrow, do you think this is a military camp? One is one, and the other is two. The group of scumbags in the officialdom are much more complicated than you imagined. I really don't know why Bai Yan married him in the first place?"

"Xiaoyan's behavior like that shows that there must be something about him that makes Xiaoyan's heart flutter."

Leng Feng disagreed, "That's because he is too good at wearing a mask, Bai Yan has misread it, and he is not interested at all. I advise you not to go, lest he be suspicious of Bai Yan and accuse him of crimes in vain. After all, you are just Bai Yan's neighbor brother What's more, Bai Yan is already planning to divorce."

Shang Ming closed his eyes and let out a long sigh.

Leng Feng didn't know that the word "divorce" was not an easy word for Bai Yan, it was not a relief, but a desperate tear.

What happened to make Bai Yan make such a heavy decision?Just because of that ex-girlfriend?

Shang Ming shook his head lightly, to be honest, he didn't believe it.

On Bai Yan's side, the doorbell rang.

Kang Jian opened the door, Jian Jian and Liu Jing walked in from the outside.

Liu Jing lowered her head, as if she had lost her soul, she staggered upstairs.

Kang Jian raised his eyebrows at Jian Jian in surprise.

Simple grinned and laughed twice, "At the corner, the car was driving fast, and I almost kissed a red sports car. In fact, nothing happened, and then she just looked like a ghost, without saying a word, her eyes Hair straight."

"You drive too hard. This is on the street, not on the highway. Safety comes first. Do you know that?"

He briefly glanced upstairs and grimaced, "Understood, Kang Zhu. Shall we go to Huaxing Hotel now?"

Kang Jian picked up the briefcase, "Let's go!"

Liu Jing drew the curtains, and the room became much brighter.Only then did Bai Yan see that Liu Jing's face was as white as a piece of paper.

"Liu Jing, what's the matter?" She pulled Liu Jing with the hand that didn't insert the needle.

Liu Jing sat down awkwardly, and suddenly covered her face and cried.

"Yan, I really... really want to give up on him. I just saw him on the street. He was sitting in that woman's car, grinning all over his mouth, like a little boy who was taken care of by a rich woman. I don’t feel ashamed. Have all the books he read become straws, was he moved by that woman’s appearance, or was he moved by that woman’s money? How did it become like this?”

Don't say, this "he" must be Li Zehao.

Bai Yan sighed, if she told Liu Jing that Yi Tongtong's car and house were all given by Kang Jian, would Liu Jing feel even more unacceptable?
By this time, Li Zehao's slight image of being a teacher has completely faded in Bai Yan's heart.

"Does it hurt here?" Bai Yan patted Liu Jing's heart.

"It hurts, it hurts like a knife is cutting." Liu Jing replied with tears in her eyes.

"It hurts, it hurts enough at once, and then you can grow new flesh. Liu Jing, look, Li Zehao can't stand the temptation of beauty, and he is greedy for money. You should feel lucky that you saw through it before marriage. His true face is better than finding out after marriage and having a child!"

Liu Jing blinked, "What you said seems to make sense. But, I have loved him for 14 years."

"Compared to breaking up after 14 years of marriage?" Bai Yan calmly reminded.

Liu Jing couldn't help shivering, "Yan, you speak very frighteningly."

"Liu Jing, then you can compare with me! You are now called a lovelorn woman, and I am called a divorced woman, which one is worse?" Bai Yan laughed.

"Yan..." Liu Jing took a breath, "Do you really want a divorce?"

Bai Yan lay on his back on the bed, watching the medicine drip drop by drop, "I don't want it, but I must."

Liu Jing was so shocked that tears hung on her eyelashes, and it took a long time before they rolled down her cheeks.

After infusing the liquid, Liu Jing waited for Bai Yan to take a bath, washed the changed clothes to hang out, and made some food for Bai Yan.When she left, she took a big suitcase with her.Bai Yan handed her the keys to the rented apartment.

Outside the window, it was slowly getting dark.

Bai Yan didn't turn on the light, and let the darkness creep into the room bit by bit, wrapping himself up.She felt no particular sadness, nor any inseparable nostalgia.

The so-called disease comes like a mountain fall, and the disease goes like a silk thread.This disease seems to have taken away all the branches and tendrils in my heart.

The loud voice of Mrs. Wu, the rolling of Li Xinxia's rocking chair, and Lili's cry were not heard, and the room was so quiet that it made one's heart palpitate.Her breathing was the only sound.

Bai Yan grew up very used to being alone.But tonight, she felt alone like a cold ocean, over her head.Is it because she is in the same city as her tomorrow, but she can't see him?

Looking back on the days in the cultural compound, it was really the best time in my life.

She is his little goose, not someone's wife, he is her tomorrow, not someone's fiancé, and she likes him purely and foolishly.

A tacit understanding of the eyes, can be happily aftertaste for a long time, can block all the loneliness and hardship.

Bai Yan got up and took out the paper rose from the clip pocket of the bag.Tears floated up little by little, fell drop by drop, hit the plastic wrap, gradually blurred the eyes, and turned into thick mist...

"Cough, cough..." Bai Yan slept until midnight, woke up by the smell of smoke, and couldn't help coughing.He opened his eyes and saw a dark figure standing in front of the window.

Hearing her cough, Hei Ying hurriedly opened the window, and threw in the cigarette butts in his hand, letting the night breeze in and blowing away the smell of smoke in the room.

"What time is it?" Bai Yan was completely awake, she blinked.

"Two o'clock." Kang Jian sat down on the sofa, resting his chin on his hand, and looked at Bai Yan.

She took a breath and tilted her head slightly, "Why don't you go to sleep?"

Kang Jian didn't make a sound.In the darkness, he changed his posture, took out the cigarette case from the bag, was stunned, and stuffed it back.

"Bai Yan, my mother was not like this before." Kang Jian bit his lower lip, and suddenly said in a whisper.

Bai Yan frowned, and let out an oh.

"My grandmother gave birth to her when she was 45 years old, and she already had four older brothers. For this belated daughter, you can imagine what kind of atmosphere she grew up in, and her grandfather received a State Council subsidy The experts and uncles all hold important positions in various departments in Beijing. This kind of pampering has formed my mother's self-willed and arrogant character. But when she was in college, she suddenly seemed to be a different person. Grandma It is said that she has become sensible, well-behaved, considerate, and considerate of others. All this is because she fell in love with a person, and this person is my father Kang Yunlin."

Bai Yan didn't expect that in the middle of the night, Leader Kang would be in the mood to talk about family affairs, so she was taken aback, but she didn't interrupt him.I don't feel sleepy anyway, so just listen!
"Father's family background is average, a southerner. My mother was afraid that her family background would scare him away. She didn't tell him the truth until the two of them graduated and fell in love deeply. At the same time, she firmly told him that she would not give him money. Wherever he goes, she will follow. My father has never been used to the climate in the north, nor can he eat the food in the north. He wants to go back to the south. My grandfather found an acquaintance and secretly found a job for my father in the provincial government. My mother was assigned to work in the provincial trade union. After graduation, my parents got married and gave birth to me a year later. My grandfather took me to Beijing for fear of affecting their work. I remember, At that time, my father loved my mother very much. He always reminded her to add clothes and put on socks. When she went to the street, she remembered to bring back some candied fruit she loved. I came to them when I was six years old, because I was going to school. My father hoped to educate me personally. But when I came back, my father was transferred to Yun County to serve as the deputy county magistrate, which is to gild the future promotion!"

"At the beginning, my father came back three or four days a month. If he was too busy with work, my mother would take me to live there for a few days. In autumn, when I started school, it was not convenient for my mother to go to Yun County. And my father suddenly became He is very busy and doesn't come back for two or three months. Sometimes he goes to the provincial capital for a meeting, and then leaves in a hurry after only meeting at home. But he has become more and more particular about his appearance, and the clothes he wears are more elegant and trendy than before. My mother has A friend works as a manager in a large shopping mall in the provincial capital. She told her mother that her father once bought several high-end women's clothing at once, and asked her mother if she was happy to drive. My mother asked for a car that night and suddenly decided to go to Yun County. Three Two days later, she came back with her father. The whole person was emaciated, she hugged me and cried desperately, and my father was smoking in the living room outside."

"Xinxia, ​​I've been thinking about it, and I don't want to procrastinate any longer. You are only in your early thirties, and you can still find a better man than me. Let's get a divorce! Sleeping on the bed at night, I heard my father say to my mother. Mother was like a lunatic, smashing everything in the house. Then, she cried and told her father that she could forget everything she saw in Yun County, as long as he never saw Bai Mumei again. This name, it was the first It appeared in their mouths once. Later, the name was brought up again and again like a demon. Every time it was mentioned, the family would feel like being ransacked. Father did not agree with mother's suggestion, so he went to Yun County again. "

"My mother chased after each phone call. My father came back and formally filed for divorce from my mother. He also proposed to the provincial government to transfer all relations to Yun County. That night, my father moved out of the house and lived in a guest house of the provincial government. My mother Sitting on my bed in a daze until midnight, I don’t know when I left. I had a dream, woke up from the dream, opened my eyes, and walked to the window in a daze.”

When Kang Jian said this, he was silent for a few seconds.

"It was just winter, and it rained for several days, and the temperature dropped a lot. I was barefoot and shivering from the cold. I saw my mother standing on the balcony through the window, motionless. Suddenly, she Push open the glass window. I blinked and saw her flying down like a fallen leaf, and then I heard a "bang". Our family lives on the sixth floor."

Kang Jian stopped again, and fell on the sofa, feeling tired and exhausted, as if he had returned to that night many years ago, terrified, stunned, boundless darkness, and boundless cold.A fine layer of dampness oozed from his forehead.

There was a dead silence in the bedroom.

"You... smoke a cigarette!" Bai Yan's voice reached his ears like a fish swimming through a dark lake.

"Okay!" He lit a cigarette and smoked slowly, his fingers trembling.The lumps accumulated in my heart also turned into lingering green smoke, and I spit them out one by one with a faint bitterness.Xin said: Cigarettes are really a good thing. If there is no cigarettes, it is almost impossible to support my life.

He took a few puffs of a cigarette, and then he reached the end of the cigarette. He snuffed out the butt and threw it into the trash can.

"Do you want some water?" He asked Bai Yan.

Bai Yan shook his head, thinking that he couldn't see without the light on, so he said, "No."

Kang Jian cleared his throat, and continued: "I ran downstairs barefoot. My mother was drowned in a pool of blood. The neighbor's aunt called 120. The doctor said she was lucky. When she fell, she met the clothes drying downstairs. The obstruction of the pole affected the speed. She didn't die, but the high position was paralyzed. My father rushed back from the hotel. I didn't see him like that. He was so trembling that he couldn't speak a word, and he had to be supported when he walked. My mother closed her lips tightly. He refused to look at him. He swore to his mother that he would be transferred back from Yun County, that he would never see Bai Mumei again, and that he would have a good time with his mother in the future. The mother kept silent and resisted all treatments, she still wanted to die wholeheartedly. I begged her not to, and told her that I would honor her and love her in the future. My mother looked at me and cried."

"After he was discharged from the hospital, my father moved back home from the hotel. He rushed to do housework and took good care of my mother. Grandpa found someone, and he was successfully transferred from Yun County to the provincial government and was promoted to a higher level. All the procedures were handled by the secretary. Finally, the family is together again, but the warm atmosphere before is no longer there. Mother seems to be a different person, always swearing at her father, throwing dishes and bowls when she gets angry, and her father treats her only Well, whenever there is an opportunity to go on a business trip, it’s like an amnesty. Slowly, he finds all kinds of reasons not to go home again. As long as he doesn’t come home, my mother will be like a lost soul, calling around, Let me follow the secretary to look for someone. After finding someone, the door is closed, and the house is full of gunpowder. At this moment, grandma brought Mrs. Wu from her hometown in the Northeast."

The corner of Kang Jian's mouth turned into a self-mockery, and he touched his nose.

"Sister-in-law Wu didn't just come to take care of my mother in our house. Grandma had a good heart, so she talked to her mother. After her mother was paralyzed, Bai Yan...you doctors know that most of her body lost consciousness. I can no longer live as a married couple. My grandmother was worried that my father would go out to play tricks again, and wanted to guard the house for my mother's family. Mrs. Wu was still young at that time, her husband died early, and one child was taken by her in-laws. They raised their children. Aunt Wu is... like a concubine that her grandmother took for her father. With the persuasion of her grandmother, the mother slowly accepted the truth. On the day when Aunt Wu arrived, she asked her secretary to prepare a banquet , prepared a room for Mrs. Wu. At night, my father entered Mrs. Wu's room, and my mother sat in a wheelchair all night."

"Sister-in-law Wu is very diligent. After she came, our family was rejuvenated. She really likes this family, treats my mother and me very well, and tidies up in an orderly manner. It's just that she didn't read After reading many books, I have no common language with my father. After a few months, my father returned to his old life. But no matter what, he always remembers going home. In front of people, he and his mother always act as a loving couple , even though they quarrel upside down at night. Once they quarrel, mother will bring up the old things again, and Bai Mumei is like a ferocious devil, smiling at them in the dark."

"Father's official career was prosperous, and he rose up level by level. In the year I worked, he became the secretary of the Provincial Political and Legal Committee."

"I am a university and master student at the Beijing People's University. Maybe because of my family background, there are many girls around me who chase after me. In fact, there were many girls in high school. At that time, I was a non-marriage advocate, and I could even I say it’s a love insulator. Watching my parents change from a pair of lovers who love deeply to enemies who hate to the bone, I don’t have any imagination about feelings. I just want to be outstanding and make my mother proud of me. In this world, There are many things to choose from, except parents."

(End of this chapter)