Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 15 Premeditated Pregnancy (1)
Xuexin walked on the street silently, aimlessly, just to walk.Looking at the pedestrians on the street, everyone is running towards somewhere.Xue Xin was confused, the world was spinning rapidly in front of her, but she remained where she was.Can't keep up with its footsteps, but have to face it.She felt like a misplaced chess piece, unable to find a place where she could stand.It was my own fault, it must be.But what went wrong.Why is it her.Why her?Last night, when she was throwing a pile of laundry into the washing machine, a white shirt of Yang Xuewu caught her attention. It wasn't that there was something wrong with the shirt, but a hair attached to the shirt.It was a long curly brown hair, Xue Xin knew very well that it was not hers, she never permed or dyed her hair, because she was allergic to hair dyes.When he first fell in love with Yang Xuewu, Yang Xuewu liked her soft and flowing black hair the most, saying that her long hair was blown into his heart like a gust of wind when he first met.In addition, there was a faint scent on the shirt, a faint, elegant perfume.The more she thought about it, the more confused she felt. She had an intuition that Yang Xuewu was getting more and more rampant. He used to do a good job of hiding things, but now he doesn't seem to want to hide anymore. Could it be that he is ready for a divorce? ?Xue Xin stood there in a trance. For a while, her brain was spinning at high speed, but her thinking was blank.Thinking of the word "divorce", she immediately shivered, and the first thought in her mind was: how should she face her elderly parents?How to face the colored eyes of acquaintances?

"Please come in, come in and take a look." At some point, two shopping guide girls stood in front of her and opened the door for her.Xuexin looked up and found that she was standing in front of a bra shop.She was stunned for a while, and then walked into the store surrounded by two shopping guide girls.Xuexin looked at the dazzling array of bras, each of which was brightly colored, she unconsciously squeezed a pink bra, and the beautiful shopping guide immediately smiled professionally at her: "What kind of bra do you wear? This one is very breast-supporting, do you want to try it?" Xuexin glanced at the price, 288 yuan, and she was shocked: a bra actually costs so much?She usually wears bras that cost 20 yuan each in the commodity market, and she has never bought such an expensive bra.The shopping guide probably saw what she was thinking, and advised her: "When buying bras, you must choose a brand, and never force yourself to wear an inappropriate bra. The design and materials of the brand's bras are definitely the same as those you usually buy in small commodity markets." A dozen bras are different, even if you think those bras are very good and sexy. Because a bra that is too tight will squeeze the breasts, resulting in poor lymphatic flow; Effect. Auntie, you should wear a better bra at your age, so as to cope with the attraction of the center of the earth. Women’s breasts are very important, and sagging breasts don’t look good in anything. Our bras can hold up well The breast enhancement effect is also very good. How about I choose one for you to try? Don’t be too harsh on yourself as a woman.”

Xuexin was awakened by the shopping guide's last sentence "Don't be too harsh on yourself as a woman". Yes, why should women be harsh on themselves?If she doesn't even treat herself well, who else can she expect to treat her well?He was so frugal and was not willing to spend money, Yang Xuewu was lucky, he raised a lover outside, and such a little saving by himself was not enough for him to take his lover for a meal.Rely on her to save, save some money for that woman outside to spend?Thinking of this, Xue Xin suddenly realized, she took several bras handed over by the shopping guide lady, and went into the fitting room.

The shopping guide looked at Xuexin's breasts, and re-selected several suitable bras for her, and explained: "Your figure is a little fat, and your breasts are a little drooping. You should pay attention to exercise at ordinary times, and you must choose a good bra. A good brand, a good bra can properly help you correct some breast problems. The bras you tried just now are not suitable for you, and those bras decorate your original sagging breasts into a cone shape. These methods must be too far-fetched. Not only will the overall curve of the body feel discordant, but you will also feel uncomfortable. These magic bras with breast pads push your disc-shaped sagging breasts inwards, thereby improving the bulge. After you buy a bra You must pay attention to it when you wear it. If you have sagging breasts, you must use a steel bra to support the sagging breasts and make them look perfect. Look in the mirror and see if your breasts are beautiful now?" The shopping guide lady helped Xuexin wear them Good bra, Xue Xin looked in the mirror, her breasts were indeed much higher, without any sagging.The chest is high and straight, and the waist looks thinner. Xuexin never thought that a small bra has such a great knowledge. It seems that she was indeed too harsh on herself before.With the help of the shopping guide, Xuexin picked out three bras and five pairs of underwear in one go, spending more than 1000 yuan.

Walking out of the bra shop, Xuexin took a deep breath and suddenly felt better.Thinking of her daughter Yang Jing's words, Xuexin immediately went to the nearest beauty salon to apply for an annual card for herself, and then went to the fitness club to apply for a fitness card. After doing all this, she checked the time and found that it was It was past 8 o'clock in the evening, and she hurried home, wondering if her daughter had eaten.

Back home, Yang Jing did not eat, and Yang Xuewu was cooking noodles in a hurry. Seeing Xuexin, she immediately blamed: "Where did you go? I came back so late, and my daughter hasn't eaten yet!"

Yang Jing complained dissatisfiedly on behalf of her mother: "Why does my mother have to cook for me? Have you ever cooked a meal for me?"

"Hey, you child..." Yang Xuewu looked at his daughter helplessly.

Xuexin fried some shredded pork and put it in the noodles, the taste improved immediately.After eating the noodles, the daughter went to wash and read. Xuexin squatted down and began to clean. She looked at her rough hands, thought for a while, stood up again, took a pair of gloves and put them on. Women are not good to themselves. Hello!Yang Xuewu was lying on the sofa and pinching the remote control, but his gaze followed Xuexin's body. For some reason, he felt that Xuexin had changed, but he couldn't tell exactly what changed.Looking at Xuexin's black hair, her face is still pretty. Although her skin is a little rough and her figure is a little out of shape, she is undoubtedly a beautiful woman.Looking at Xuexin's busy figure, Yang Xuewu suddenly felt that no matter how time passed, she, Qi Xuexin, would always be the most unforgettable woman in his heart.

When Yang Jing fell asleep, the TV screen showed that it was exactly 11 o'clock.

"Xuexin, go to bed." Yang Xuewu walked out of the bedroom and said to Xuexin who was leaning on the sofa and watching TV.

"Oh. Okay..." Xuexin looked at him and smiled lightly: "You go to bed first? I want to watch it for a while." Under the faint light of the TV series, Yang Xuewu found Xuexin's face Filled with brilliance and aura, he swallowed involuntarily, and stretched out his hand to pull her: "Xuexin, come, sleep!"

Xuexin broke free from him, and said coldly: "I'm not sleepy!" Yang Xuewu had no choice but to go back to the bedroom disconsolately.I don't know how long it took, Xuexin probably thought he was asleep, so she tiptoed into the bedroom, pulled the quilt away and got in.Yang Xuewu opened his eyes. He pretended to be in a daze and pressed his hands and feet on Xuexin's body. However, in the darkness, he immediately felt Xuexin's soft but firm resistance.This kind of resistance is not like the time when they quarreled and fought in the cold war before. At that time, Xue Xin's resistance was direct and violent with emotions, including anger, dissatisfaction, anger, and unscrupulous negative emotions.But now Xuexin's resistance to him is tactful, restrained, and instinctive, trying to hide as much as possible to avoid embarrassment for both parties.Yang Xuewu felt that there was a thin, transparent and flexible film between them, which seemed to be nothing, but it was enough to separate them.Yang Xuewu let go of his hand a little annoyed, Xue Xin's reaction made him very embarrassed, he suddenly remembered Xue Xin's recent abnormality, recently she seemed to wait until she was asleep before going to bed, could it be that she was avoiding him?Thinking of this, Yang Xuewu couldn't bear it any longer. He sat up suddenly, turned on the light and lifted Xuexin's quilt, and asked aggressively: "Qi Xuexin, what do you mean? Your behavior is an insult to me. !"

Xue Xin looked at him with wide eyes, without saying a word.Yang Xuewu looked into her eyes, trying to understand how real and how fake the emotions in it were.I have never observed Xuexin's eyes at such a close distance for a long time before, and suddenly found that there are too many inexplicable contents in them, which are bottomless, and I have long been unable to read them.Facing Xuexin's eyes covered by long eyelashes, Yang Xuewu suddenly became short of breath and timid. He turned off the bedside lamp in embarrassment, and lay down angrily, but couldn't fall asleep again.

The weather was getting colder and colder. Yang Xuewu was as busy as a spinning top when he came to the hospital in the morning, and he didn't have any free time.The suddenly cold weather caused Yang Xuewu to catch a bad cold. In addition to being busy, he felt that his head was so heavy that his neck could not bear the weight.Coupled with Xuexin's attitude recently, Yang Xuewu felt that he was extremely depressed. He was afraid of going home after get off work, afraid of facing Xuexin's lukewarm face.Is Xuexin using cold violence against him?Cold violence!Thinking of this word, Yang Xuewu panted silently. Could it be that Xuexin found out about her?He was lost in his own thoughts when the nurse came to him and told him that a dialysis patient had a sudden increase in blood pressure. Yang Xuewu quickly followed the nurse and ran over to deal with the patient.

After get off work, Yang Xuewu changed out of his white coat and put on a suit. He was sweating after rescuing the patient just now, and his cold seemed to be better.He looked at the time and decided to go to He Yun's place, he didn't want to face Xue Xin's alienated face.Yang Xuewu thought that He Yun was still at work at this time, but after opening the door with the key, he saw He Yun lying on the sofa in the living room watching TV, and there were several boxes of opened and unopened Huamei snacks on the coffee table.Yang Xuewu looked at her in surprise: "He Yun, are you not going to work today?"

Seeing him, He Yun jumped up and ran over to hug him: "Pig, you're here! I'm on leave today, I'm not feeling well!"

Yang Xuewu looked at her suspiciously: "You're not feeling well yet eating so happily?"

He Yun said coquettishly: "It's because you feel uncomfortable that you have no taste in your mouth, and you want to eat snacks when you don't have any taste!"

Yang Xuewu picked up the snacks on the coffee table, and joked casually: "Why are they all plums? You only like to eat these things when you are pregnant. Why do you like them too?"

"Yes! I'm pregnant!" He Yun showed a sly and innocent smile to Yang Xuewu, showing dimples on her cheeks, and she smiled beautifully.

Yang Xuewu stared at her blankly, his face changed instantly, and he lowered his voice: "He Yun, I really don't like you making such jokes!"

"I'm not kidding! I'm pregnant!" He Yun stretched out her fingers and squeezed a plum into her mouth, her face was calm, like the cold wind in late autumn, piercing one's skin and penetrating into her heart inch by inch.Yang Xuewu felt that he couldn't breathe, as if something was pressing on his chest, but he couldn't point it out, couldn't speak.After a long time, he squeezed out a few words from between his teeth angrily: "Why? The security measures are well done!"

"That time, I was actually in a dangerous period. I lied to you that I just had my period." He Yun said nonchalantly.

Yang Xuewu suddenly felt like five thunderbolts, and completely lost his ability to think. If the disaster was a landmine or a hand grenade, what Yang Xuewu encountered now was definitely a miniature nuclear bomb, which could blow him up instantly, make him bloody and skinny. The scorched meat is more than rotten.

Yang Xuewu gritted his teeth and said, "He Yun, are you playing with me? Hurry up and kill the child!"

He Yun stared at him blankly, tears streaming down: "Yang Xuewu, I am 28 years old this year, I am already an older pregnant woman, this is my first child, I can't kill him! I don't know if I can get pregnant with him in the future. I don't have much extravagance from you, don't I even have the right to have a child of my own? After following you, how many rights have you deprived me of? Deprive me of my reproductive rights, Yang Xuewu, I will never kill this child!"

"You... What are you worried about? Immediately, immediately, you go to the hospital and get rid of this child!" Yang Xuewu was anxious, fearful, heavy, and painful, and all kinds of moods came together and mixed together. There are mixed feelings, and he himself can't describe his current state of mind. The extensive and profound Chinese characters can't find a suitable word to describe his current situation and state of mind.

"Never!" He Yun shook her head desperately, grieving like a fool, Yang Xuewu's attitude made her feel that she was ruthlessly thrown into hell.

"What do you want if you don't kill him? Give birth? How will you raise him after birth? Let him be an illegitimate child for the rest of his life?" Yang Xuewu roared out of control, his eyes widened with anger, and his face turned red with excitement.

As soon as He Yun changed from her usual weakness, she looked straight at him and her face became as pale as paper. She told him word by word with firmness and abnormality: "Yang Xuewu, if you want to get rid of me as a child, you must first Just kill me!"

Yang Xuewu was terrified, he felt the blood on his face recede like a tide, and was replaced by a thin layer of paleness in just a moment, standing in front of He Yun wringing his hands helplessly, a huge Panic covered him, he felt fear and powerlessness for the first time, how would he clean up this mess?I really hope this is just a dream.I hope that I can wake up in the next second and return to the place where I should appear.After a while, Yang Xuewu raised his head and rushed over to grab her hand, begging her stammeringly: "He Yun, baby, listen to me, get rid of this child, okay? You can't have this child now, you want this one." What will you do in the future, child? How will you get married?"

He Yun's tears fell down hard, and she looked at him sadly: "Do you think I can marry someone like this? Who else would want me? Is there any way for me to turn back after being your mistress? This is I have no choice but to be trampled on by thousands of people and scolded by thousands of people! Yang Xuewu, if you have that little bit of affection for me, if you still have that little bit of humanity, you shouldn’t be Tell me something like getting married, and let me keep this child!"

Yang Xuewu felt that the world was falling apart, all the fragments collapsed in front of his eyes, his breathing became difficult and weak with the pain in his chest, and he couldn't see or hear anything as if it was dark in front of him. Standing, at this moment, he suddenly understood that he had really played too big this time, what would happen if Xuexin knew?What will happen if the daughter finds out?My God, how would he deal with everything in front of him!He Yun, this woman made him a problem and created a problem for herself.Yang Xuewu was furious, his eyes were fierce, he gritted his teeth and said: "He Yun, do you want to become a regular? Let me tell you, I will not get a divorce!" After speaking, he felt that it was not enough to relieve his anger, and he added: "Even if My wife is divorcing me, and I won't leave if I die! I won't marry you if I leave! Give up!"

"Whether you marry or not is your business, and whether you live or not is my business!" He Yun who woke up from the daze was even more ashamed, as if she had fallen into a long and heavy dream alone, and was called After waking up, she found that the reality was even more messy. At this moment, she didn't know what she could do to change the mess in front of her.Apart from crying and expressing grief, she had no idea what else to do at this moment.

"Why are you doing this? I love my family, and I will never be able to give you a home!" Yang Xuewu murmured to himself. He felt that the world was pale, just like his whole brain now, completely filled with a blank , the nerve lines are all in a dead state, and they don't have the ability to think.

He Yun pursed her lips tightly. Although she already had enough courage, facing Yang Xuewu's naked confession, she still felt a twinge of pain, but she finally understood a truth - she was no longer qualified to cry. Losing his mistress is like playing a wrong game of chess, which cannot be changed step by step.Although cruel, she must face it!
Looking at He Yun who said nothing, Yang Xuewu saw stubbornness and recklessness in her eyes, he grabbed his coat viciously, turned around and walked out the door without looking back.Seeing the door close with a bang, He Yun seemed to be left with only a shell, floating in the sky like a walking dead.She walked slowly to the bathroom and stared at herself silently in the mirror.Wandering thoughts, haggard face, all movements are just mechanical repetitions, she found that she is not as strong as she imagined, just because she doesn't cry doesn't mean she won't be sad, and her lack of words doesn't mean she doesn't want to talk, the pain hidden in her heart , can heal?Yang Xuewu, what you owe me, I must get it back!He Yun smiled resolutely in the mirror.At first, I thought it was love!Since you don't love, why do you provoke me and give me hope?

A change of night and day, the dawn of dawn illuminates the field of vision, Yang Xuewu, finally see who is standing next to you, and who will win?For this victory, I will do my best to fight!
(End of this chapter)