Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 18 Divorce Edge (1)
After get off work, Yang Xuewu was about to go home, but his colleagues in the department forced him to come to the hotel, saying that he was invited to the hotel by name.Yang Xuewu has been in a bad mood recently, depressed, the wine on the wine table is like boiled water, pouring down one cup after another.During this meal, Yang Xuewu was very drunk. Seeing that he was too drunk, his colleagues didn't let him drive, so they called a taxi for him and took him home.Back home, Xue Xin frowned and helped him to the bed, and asked, "Why do you drink so much wine? Is there something wrong in your heart?" When Yang Xuewu heard this, his brain stimulated by alcohol became hot, and he was excited. With a wave of his hand, he pushed Xuexin staggeringly against the wall, he faltered inarticulately: "Qi... Xuexin, why do you always... face me with that nonchalant face? You just Can't you give me a smile? I know... know... you have always looked down on me from the bottom of your heart, you are like your snobbish parents, you feel that I have wronged you, in fact... what's so good about you, Aren't you just a primary school teacher, graduated from a middle school! What do you have? I really... I don't understand why I was so obsessed with you back then? You... Now I feel more and more disgusting about you..." When it came to the end, Yang Xuewu, who was screaming desperately, was almost exhausted.Xue Xin rubbed her sore arm, waved to Yang Jing who came in to check, and signaled her to leave.Xuexin calmly took off Yang Xuewu's underwear, covered the quilt, and quietly closed the door.After that, she went to the living room, picked up the remote control of the TV, turned off the TV, and sat quietly on the sofa. Yang Xuewu's drunken words numb Xue Xin like an earthquake. It was a chilling feeling, she remembered. There used to be, but now this feeling has become so dense.She remembered that she had betrayed her dear parents and obtained a marriage certificate with Yang Xuewu without hesitation, and moved to the one-story house of less than 30 square meters that their unit gave him, and lived there for 3 years. In the past 3 years, her in-laws and her family have been constantly disturbing each other. One day, they ask for money to buy this, and the next day they ask for money to buy that, or they ask for money to see a doctor. She gritted her teeth and endured it.The path she chooses, she can only move forward.After giving birth to her daughter, she was even more disliked by her mother-in-law. Her mother-in-law often spoke badly to her, and he never blushed with her, but dealt with her lukewarmly.She thinks that she has done a good job, and she deserves no one.At that time, facing this mother-in-law, she felt a chill.But now, Yang Xuewu gave her this feeling even better than her mother-in-law.Xuexin closed her eyes and suddenly smiled, a very weird smile. The muscles on her face tensed up to match the gloomy lighting atmosphere in the living room, which made Yang Jing who was standing at the door very scared. She walked over to hug her mother, mourning Called: "Mom!" Xuexin opened her eyes, touched her daughter's head and asked, "Have you finished your homework? Go to bed when you are done, and rest early."

"Mom, I'm so scared when you look like this! Mom, if you think you can't live on, just get a divorce! Don't think about me!" Yang Jing's words surprised Xuexin, it turned out that her daughter saw everything in her eyes.

Yang Jing bit her lip again and said: "Mom, your skin has gotten better recently, and your waist has become thinner. I am very happy to see these changes in you, really! Mom, I hope you can be happy every day , I support you in all the choices you make. Mom, marriage is your own business, you don’t have to think about me, but I hope you will give Dad another chance! If, I mean, if, if you divorce, mom , I hope to live with you. Father and mother, if I have to choose one, I will choose mother!"

Yang Jing's mournful expression caused guilt and heartache to grow and grow in Xuexin's chest like a bubble without limit, causing stagnation. Xuexin hugged her daughter tightly, and said with determination: "No, you won't be without a father or Mom, I want to give you a complete home!" Yes, she can't let an outsider or a third party destroy her home...

In the room, Yang Xuewu groaned in a low voice, falling into a bizarre dream.

He lay limp and sweating profusely on the bed, staring at his bright red abdomen with wide eyes, at a loss for what to do.

He Yun with a big belly looked calm and calm, her face was tired but serene, and one corner of her mouth was slightly upturned.She stroked his cheek gently, her eyes full of warmth.Suddenly, she lowered her head to look at his bloody abdomen, her gaze made Yang Xuewu terrified and terrified.He Yun gave him a charming smile, revealing her snow-white teeth, and she shone coldly.She said: "You made me pregnant with a child, but you don't want to control me, then I will return this child to you..." She tore open her stomach vigorously with her hands, and grabbed out the unformed child.Yang Xuewu was frightened out of his wits, straightened his neck vigorously and lifted his head from the pillow, but the head seemed to weigh a thousand catties. He heard his neck rattle, as if he would break it if he was not careful, and finally he I still gave up trying, put my head back on the pillow, closed my eyes, and resigned myself to fate.

He Yun looked down at the fetus in her hand, showing a satisfied expression. Her face was very close to him, and the tip of her nose was on his. He could vaguely hear her softly whispering "" like a vampire in a movie. Hissing" sound.She reached out and tore Yang Xuewu's shattered abdomen vigorously, and forcefully stuffed the bloody fetus into his abdomen. She opened her mouth, and a mouthful of fangs clearly caught his eyes, and a thick bloody smell rushed to his face. to make him almost throw up...

After vomiting for a while, all the pictures suddenly disappeared.Yang Xuewu stared blankly at the drunken vomit on the ground, recalling the dream just now, the back of his head couldn't help but feel chills, what does this dream indicate?He rubbed his head, which was so painful that it was about to burst, and called Xue Xin's name loudly. After calling a few times, Yang Jing walked in in her pajamas.Yang Xuewu was stunned, and asked, "Where's your mother?" Yang Jing raised her eyelids, and said angrily, "My mother is afraid that you will die of drunkenness, so she went out to buy you sober medicine." After speaking, she glanced at you in disgust. Glancing at the filth on the ground, he muttered: "I'm going to ask my mother to wipe your ass again..." After speaking, he turned around and wanted to leave. Yang Xuewu looked at his daughter in surprise, wondering why her daughter treated him like this. Gathering her mind, she called Yang Jing to stop, and said: "Daughter, go and pour a glass of water for Dad, my throat seems to be on fire." Yang Jing stopped, turned around and stared directly into Dad's eyes: "It's on fire!" Let your little lover put it out for you, why do you still go home and let us serve you? Why do you dare to yell at my mother? You just want to abandon me and mother, as for treating me like this Mom?" Yang Xuewu was completely stunned by Yang Jing's few words, the world became quiet in an instant, even his own breathing became so harsh, Yang Jing's disdainful and dissatisfied words were as frightening as sharp blades As if poking into his heart, Yang Xuewu couldn't help shivering.After a long time, he roared angrily and madly: "What nonsense are you talking about? Did your mother tell you something? She really went too far, actually in front of the child..."

"Don't involve my mother in everything. My mother doesn't know anything. She still doesn't know that you raised a young and beautiful little fox outside. I saw it myself!" Yang Jing screamed. stand up.

Yang Xuewu was stunned. He couldn't figure out when he let his daughter see it. He never took He Yun out of public places.Yang Xuewu's mind froze, he couldn't think.For a long time, he repeated Yang Jing's words as if seeing the dawn: "Your mother doesn't know anything? She doesn't know anything?"

Yang Jing said excitedly: "I didn't say it doesn't mean I forgive you. I just don't want this to hurt my mother. This is your mistake. My mother shouldn't suffer!" After finishing speaking, Yang Jing turned her head walked out.Yang Jing's words pierced Yang Xuewu's heart like a needle, once and for all, deeply and thoroughly.He suddenly felt that Yang Jing was too precocious to be a child, she was only 12 years old!Yang Xuewu couldn't sleep anymore, he hurriedly got up from the bed, walked to the door of his daughter's room and knocked on the door vigorously: "Xiaojing, Xiaojing, open the door, Dad has something to tell you..."

"I have nothing to say to you."

Yang Xuewu didn't give up, and continued to knock on the door: "Xiao Jing, you must have misunderstood, you probably saw me walking with colleagues from the hospital..."

Yang Jing still didn't open the door, and for a long time threw out a sentence: "The woman drove your car to my school to show off her victory. What could I have misunderstood you?"

Yang Xuewu stood there stupidly for a long time. He finally remembered that He Yun borrowed his car to go to the supermarket. It turned out...it turned out that Yang Xuewu had been played by this woman all this time and he didn't even know it.Alcohol made Yang Xuewu's stomach churn, and his mind was almost blank.Xuexin opened the door with a bottle of hangover medicine, and saw Yang Xuewu standing in front of her daughter's room in a daze, and couldn't help but ask strangely: "What are you doing here? Why aren't you wearing shoes?" At that moment of joy, Yang Xuewu felt a little sober as if he had been injected with a booster. He hurriedly explained: "The floor is dirty, I...I want to ask Xiao Jing to get up and help me clean it up..."

Xuexin said with a smile: "You are so kind, let your daughter help you clean up those dirty things, and you are not afraid of disgusting people."

Yang Xuewu smiled embarrassingly.

The hospital's air conditioner was blowing warm air, Yang Xuewu sat on the armchair in the office and stared out the window blankly, thoughtfully.Suddenly, I feel that the marriage between him and Qi Xuexin is like the weather in the twelfth lunar month, frozen, trust and patience are gone... Xuexin has not let him touch her for a long time, every time he touches her She shook his hand away as if bitten by a poisonous snake, and coldly threw it to his back.He had a feeling that Xue Xin might have a little knowledge of what happened between him and He Yun.He pressed his swollen temples, and it was already time to get off work. He picked up the car keys and decided to go to He Yun's place. To express his dissatisfaction with He Yun, he hadn't gone to her place for a long time.No matter what, running away won't solve the problem. Thinking of He Yun's big belly, his head hurts again.On the way, Yang Xuewu kept thinking, how should he talk to He Yun?He is willing to give her all the money he can come up with, as long as she is willing to take the child away.Yang Xuewu feels that life is like sailing a boat, not every helmsman can control his own course, he made a wrong step, and now he really doesn't know how it will end.Perhaps, man is born a greedy animal.Yang Xuewu laughed at himself.Yang Xuewu parked the car, and as soon as he walked into the corridor, he saw He Yun walking downstairs carrying garbage. She was wearing a dusty down jacket and slacks, her long hair was scattered, her face was pale, and her bloated figure set off the The chin on the small face became more tapered.Seeing him, He Yun showed unbelievable eyes, and slowly, slowly, tears came to her eyes. In He Yun's almost empty eyes, Yang Xuewu seemed to hear the hard wall in his heart being destroyed like lightning, The sound of a crash, a crushing defeat.

Back in the room, He Yun sat on the sofa with her head bowed, without saying a word, tears dripping down on the floor of the living room, like a bird with nothing to rely on, Yang Xuewu sighed, thinking about it before I can't say a word of good and cruel words.Yang Xuewu moved a chair over, sat across from He Yun, and said softly to her, "Oh, why do you bother to kill yourself and me."

He Yun sobbed and said, "It's really impossible. After the baby is born, I will give it to others to raise."

Yang Xuewu was startled, and then scolded her excitedly: "Are you mentally ill? Then why do you insist on having this child?"

He Yun raised her head and wiped her tears vigorously, stood up, picked up a sheet on the table and handed it to him, and said timidly: "I went to someone to have a B-ultrasound, it was a boy, and his development was very good... I... I can't bear to kill him no matter what. Besides, I'm already 28. Whether I can have a baby after I kill him is a problem. Even if I can't support him and give him to others to raise him, at least I have a life in this world. My own flesh and blood. Learning martial arts, can't you let him live? He is also your son!"

Yang Xuewu silently looked at the B-ultrasound sheet, and it seemed that something began to sink slowly in his heart, and something quietly floated up again.Influenced by his mother, he was more or less patriarchal. The word "son" hit his heart heavily, and he even showed a bewildered expression on his face.He Yun quietly raised her eyelids, seeing all the changes in his facial expressions, she secretly rejoiced: the patriarchal thought of Chinese people has been planted in their brains since ancient times, and she made the right bet.

"You... have a good rest. With such a big belly, it's cold outside and the road is slippery. If you have nothing to do, don't run outside." Yang Xuewu murmured to her after a long time.These few words flowed into He Yun's ears slowly like the sounds of nature, and He Yun looked at him flattered. Seeing her like this, Yang Xuewu's heart softened, and all the sweetness of the past emerged one by one. He really liked her, and He Yun's cuteness and understanding also moved him very much. She used to be as sweet as a fragrant green apple, but he made her like this.I don’t know if it’s because of the B-ultrasound sheet, all Yang Xuewu thought of was He Yun’s goodness, looking at He Yun who showed a timid expression in front of him, Yang Xuewu felt that if He Yun lost his protection He couldn't avoid the invasion of the cold wind, and some pity came from the bottom of his heart. He took out his wallet, took out thousands of dollars and handed it to her, comforting her and saying, "Look at your skinny, buy some delicious nourishment Body, don't think too much, take a good rest!"

He Yun took the money, looked at him, blinked, and asked, "What do you want to eat? I'll help you."

Yang Xuewu waved his hand: "No need. I have to go back to my hometown later to see my mother. You have a good rest, I'm leaving."

Coming out of He Yun, Yang Xuewu stood downstairs in a daze for a while, then walked to a long wooden chair by the side of the road, sat on it with his legs crossed, lit a cigarette, and in the smoke His heart became more and more heavy, thinking of his daughter Yang Jing, thinking of Qi Xuexin, his throat slowly choked up.Xuexin, Qi Xuexin, where did that Qi Xuexin who was so beautiful that he didn't dare to look at it go?However, some memories are engraved. Qi Xuexin, who was wearing a golden dress and stepping on the sun, could not be erased from his heart.He always felt that his memory was grown in that warm summer, and it took root in his heart, and he couldn't pull it out no matter how hard he tried.He knew that it could only disappear with his heart.How would he give up on her?That beautiful and lonely princess, and his first wife who lived with him through hardships!
After smoking a cigarette, Yang Xuewu stood up and walked towards his car. The deep grief and powerlessness made him eager to seek comfort when he was over [-] years old. At this time, he especially missed his old mother.When I drove to my hometown, Xuewu's mother was feeding the chickens with a chicken food bowl. Seeing him, Xuewu's mother eagerly opened the courtyard door: "Xuewu, why don't you have time to go home today to see your mother? Come in, come in."

Lifting the thick blue cloth curtain, standing in the warm room, Yang Xuewu looked at the dark walls, and complained: "Mom, didn't you give you a sum of money to repair the house last year? Why is it still the same?"

Xuewu's mother chuckled and said, "You guys won't live in this house anyway. I'm an old woman, so what's the use of living in it? It's better to save the money for the elderly, so that I can ask you for money in the future. A daughter-in-law is not a cheap lamp, asking her for money is like cutting her flesh..."

"Mom, when did you ask Qian Xuexin to stand in your way? You must have a conscience." Xuewu couldn't help defending his wife.

"Look at you, being instigated by your precious wife, you are becoming more and more disobedient. This year, you didn't even buy mooncakes for your mother during the Mid-Autumn Festival... Don't stand there, sit down and talk, have you eaten yet?" Xuewu's mother reached out to pick up a dirty towel on the wall next to her while talking, and handed it to Yang Xuewu to wipe the stool.

"Mom, isn't the money usually given to you not enough? Didn't I tell you to stop raising chickens, and chicken feces are everywhere in the house." Yang Xuewu looked at the ground and said with a frown.

Xuewu's mother handed him the messy collar, and said: "Xuewu, your brother hasn't married yet. I want to subsidize your brother with the little money you gave me. Your father is gone. Who can he rely on?" ? You don't care about him."

Yang Xuewu said impatiently: "My younger brother is almost thirty, he can stand on his own!"

"Hey, your brother only has a little money a month, and now the house price is so high, how can you afford a house? I talked to a few girlfriends and they all collapsed because of the house. Now we are talking about this, let your brother pay for the decoration , it’s good for the woman to rent out the house. However, your little brother doesn’t have enough money every month. Where can I get the money to decorate? Xuewu, you go home and discuss it with Xuexin. Can you just watch your brother being a bachelor all his life? If you do this again, your brother will really not be able to marry a wife. At that time, I told your wife to buy a house for your brother, and your wife scolded me. , I am so angry... I don't want to go to your house now, just to see her face. I have worked so hard to bring you up, and in the end I have to see other people's faces. It's all my fault. Xuewu, you go home Say something nice to Xuexin, your father is gone, your eldest brother is like a father, you are financially good, if you don’t help him, who will help? Besides, you just gave birth to a girl, and you have saved a few houses for her Isn’t it enough? You want so much money, it’s not easy for others in the future, let your girl take it to someone else’s house to spend it for others..."

Yang Xuewu frowned, and said angrily: "Mom, don't worry, my brother, can I leave him alone? Isn't it just a decoration money? I'll pay! Xuexin will definitely agree, and I will tell her when I get home."

Seeing what her son said, Xuewu's mother stood up happily, wiped her hands on the scarf, and said, "I'll get you a bowl of dumplings. I just made them this morning."

"Mom, don't be busy! I have something to tell you, please give me an idea." Yang Xuewu stopped his mother and said with a bitter face.

(End of this chapter)