Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 21: Let's Divorce (1)
Yang Xuewu didn't return all night, and Qi Xuexin didn't sleep all night.The next day, when the alarm clock rang, Xue Xin jumped up in shock, and subconsciously opened the closet to look for the tie Yang Xuewu was going to wear today, and suddenly realized that she was going to get divorced, what kind of tie should she be looking for? Tie now!Xuexin rubbed her eyes and rushed into the kitchen to prepare her daughter's breakfast.When a bunch of things were put on the dining table and finished breakfast with her daughter, Xuexin quickly washed the dishes with her schoolbag on her back. She looked at the clock on the wall, and it was almost time for her to go to work. Hastily grabbed the brown leather bag, threw off the slippers at the door, and looked at the shoe rack mirror at the door. She found herself in the mirror—black professional attire, with neatly coiled hair. She leaned forward and picked up the mirror. Wipe the mirror surface with a paper towel, and there was no dust on the mirror surface. Xuexin found that her face seemed to have become rougher overnight, and some spots began to appear on her cheeks. Going out, extending to an unseen distance - when did it become like this?Xuexin's heart felt as if it had been raked countless times, and it was full of deep wrinkles.She sighed deeply, God didn't even give her a message, and didn't even say a word of discussion, just took away her days!

The first class was originally Xuexin's class, but Xuexin didn't sleep well at night, feeling dizzy and uncomfortable, so she adjusted the class with other teachers, took a piece of cold medicine and leaned back on the chair to rest.When class was over, Yuxiu was startled when she saw her face, she touched Xuexin's forehead, and exclaimed: "Ah, you have a fever." Xuexin smiled weakly: "It's okay, I have a bad cold After taking the medicine, you’ll be fine.” Yuxiu looked at her worriedly: “Then you go home, do you still have classes? I’ll help you.” Xuexin shook her head: “Just one class, It's been tuned." Xuexin shook her head, stood up, and said, "You can accompany me to the playground, walk and keep your head clear."

The two walked around the playground without saying a word. Yuxiu knew that Xuexin must be in a bad mood, and she didn't know what to say, so the two remained silent.Finally, Xuexin said, "Yuxiu, I'm getting a divorce."

Yuxiu was startled: "Are you stupid? What did Yang Xuewu say?"

"I kicked him out of the house. I guess he went to that woman's place last night." Xue Xin said lightly.

Yuxiu looked at her in disbelief: "Qi Xuexin, what is your head made of? You thought you were seventeen or eighteen years old? Now you are already old, and your beauty has long since disappeared. , and Yang Xuewu is at the time when his career is in full swing, he can find even the best girls, but what about you? You are pushing him to other women, do you know that? Maybe I It’s a bit harsh to speak, but what I say is from the heart.”

Xue Xin took a deep breath and tried to force the tears back into her eyes: "I understand what you said, but I really can't bear it anymore."

Yu Xiuyu persuaded her earnestly: "Xuexin, actually, when a husband and wife are together, they have to tolerate each other, and there is always one who has to tolerate the other, so just give in to him once, men are like this!"

"Why do I have to put up with him? Has he thought about me? I put up with him and his mother and his family, what did I get? In the end, I put up with a big green hat!" Xuexin said excitedly .

Yuxiu said disapprovingly: "Xuexin, in fact, men are like this. As a woman, don't be unreasonable. Now that something has happened, why do you have to go to extremes to get a divorce and destroy a good family to benefit others? What? You can try to solve it in another way. Even if you can't solve it now, you can extinguish your anger first. When you and him are calm, have a good talk in person and speak out what is in your heart. You have been husband and wife for so many years, what can you say? Let me give you an example. It is like, when the car is driving very hard and suddenly brakes suddenly, the people in the car will definitely be injured. Therefore, you must A short buffer, first slow down the speed, and then stop safely, so that the people in the car will not be injured. Do you understand what I mean?"

Xue Xin shook her head, bit her lip and said, "I understand the truth of what you said, but Yang Xuewu's betrayal of me, everything he did, can never be removed from my heart." Yes, they are like A deep bony scar that scabs and fades over time, but ultimately leaves an ugly scar that won't fade away.Xuexin couldn't face Yang Xuewu's betrayal, and his betrayal reminded her of her childishness and poor vision all the time.

Yuxiu said: "Actually, if you want to be more open, it's not a betrayal or an injury. The husband and wife have lived together for a long time, and life has become a stagnant pool. He has no passion for you. Looking for a little excitement elsewhere does not mean He has no feelings for you. On the contrary, the relationship between you and him for so many years has penetrated into the bone marrow, and the bones are broken. How about divorce? He is still the father of your child. When you mention him, you What should be hated is still hated. Divorce can't solve anything. If you can keep this family wisely, it is the real victory. In fact, it is normal for a person to be middle-aged, and marriage fatigue is normal. It depends on how both parties solve it. Some Men cheat, some women cheat, forgive or not forgive, will leave scars. If you leave, the scars will really be irreparable. If you don’t leave, you can slowly mend it.”

Xuexin's expression was a bit ugly. She clenched her fists and said firmly and firmly: "I've made up my mind. I don't want to live this day anymore. I also think very clearly. I think if one of the parties in the marriage cheats, Then the next marriage will be tasteless to the other party, and it will be difficult to leave or not to leave! However, in real life, the impetuousness of people's hearts, the openness of the social environment, and various reasons, there are many people who guard the unfortunate marriage! Especially A middle-aged woman like me, with seniors and juniors, facing the cheating of her husband who has lived with her for many years, is by no means a simple divorce. Living with my own husband, that kind of heartache life is also very sad! I entered the wrong city, and I can't be trapped in this city for the rest of my life. This marriage, I am divorced. I want to live for Yang Xuewu to see, Let me see for myself!" Having said that, Xue Xin looked into the distance firmly, she would never allow herself to guard the cold gray in the besieged city all her life after entering the wrong city, and then use her tears to accompany her. Ashes turned into mud, and a city wall was built to trap himself in this besieged city.She wants to give up this city.

Yuxiu wanted to persuade her again, but Xuexin shook her head to stop her and said, "Don't persuade me anymore. In fact, the relationship between me and Yang Xuewu has already had problems. His extramarital affairs are just a fuse. His and my family background , the economic views are too far apart, I was the one who was blindly forbearing back then, and I have long felt that my forbearance has made this marriage sour, but I have been unwilling to face it head-on.”

Yuxiu looked at Xuexin's unusually determined face, and sighed dully. She originally thought that she would fight a protracted marriage battle just like herself, but she didn't expect Qi Xuexin to abandon her armor and run away so soon. It's really satisfying!
Although Xuexin was determined to get a divorce, she still felt sad whenever she thought of Yang Xuewu, and even saw Yang Xuewu's clothes hanging in the closet. Yang Xuewu hadn't come back for more than 20 days.Outside the window, it is already full of stars, the winter sky is always so sober.Xuexin stood in front of the window, subconsciously looking towards the gate of the community, maybe she still hoped that Yang Xuewu would come back.Through the reflective floor-to-ceiling glass, Xuexin saw that her face was still fair and healthy, but she hadn't done maintenance for a long time, and there were a few fine wrinkles at the corners of her eyes. The eyes were big but lacked some expression, and the curvature of her lips was still beautiful.Xuexin's mood suddenly brightened. She has always been a beautiful woman, and since she has some flaws, she should repair them.Thinking of this, Xuexin grabbed her coat and told her daughter, then changed her shoes and walked to the beauty salon.

At this time, Yang Xuewu was sitting in the living room smoking one cigarette after another. He Yun was unhappy but didn't show the slightest bit on her face. Yang Xuewu was so preoccupied that he didn't notice her at all.He Yun touched her big belly and sighed.Yang Xuewu was finally kicked out of the house by his wife and fell into her arms. She was really happy for a while at first, but gradually, the alienation in Yang Xuewu's eyes made her heart gradually cool down. Tossing and turning, my heart became more uneasy.Li Zhi told her: "Now you have to speed up to get that legal certificate. That little marriage certificate is your protection. Without it, Yang Xuewu would not be your husband! That piece of paper is a memorandum of responsibility." , is the birth certificate of the descendants, and with that piece of paper, the descendants will have an identity, and the origin will not be unclear..." Thinking of Li Zhi's words, she felt that from the day she met Yang Xuewu, she felt like walking on the road with a gun on her shoulders. out of the battlefield.In this materialistic society, in order to live, if a person is not intelligent, he will face physical exhaustion.The same is true for marriage and relationship. Survival of the fittest is an eternal law of nature.Looking at Yang Xuewu's worried appearance, He Yun's heart suddenly ached. When he talked sweetly to her back then, his wife was thrown to some corner of the earth by him, but now he is really asked to make a choice. He is so sad.Yang Xuewu's kindness and sweetness to her in the past turned into tens of thousands of worms eating He Yun's heart. Fragments of memory slowly approached from the north and south poles of the earth, and then hit her heart. The patchwork picture is a sad picture. Woman, that sad woman used to be as clear as water, but now she has become such a potbellied woman.He Yun's heart seemed to have been cut a big hole in an instant, and the blood was flowing crazily in his body.She suppressed her anger, and the impulse of anger was like a flood. The levee of her heart carried too much flood, and the valve opened quietly under the huge pressure. She really couldn't pretend to be a reasonable and considerate little woman anymore. .Thinking of this, tears gushed out, she choked up and sat beside Yang Xuewu, feeling extremely wronged: "You just don't want to get a divorce! You want to play me for nothing, now I wish I could kick me far away and then Go back to your happy home and continue to live a happy life. Why didn’t you explain it to me at the beginning? So that I can fully understand your true thoughts, then I won’t be where I am today !"

Yang Xuewu was stunned, He Yun, who was always gentle, also complained a lot to him?Except for the matter of the child, He Yun seldom disagreed with him. Recently, he patronized himself with a frowning face, and did not take care of He Yun's emotions. He thought she had always been so considerate, but unexpectedly She also has emotions, maybe pregnant women have greater mood swings.Yang Xuewu saw that there was more melancholy in He Yun's eyes, and his eyes were not as clear as before. He suddenly felt pity, and he stretched out his arms to hug her and explained with all his heart and soul: "Yun, although Qi Xuexin and I said that our relationship is already Deteriorated, no longer the same, but when I was young, when I was in adversity, she never left me, when I was not healthy, she took care of me, and she accompanied me to raise my siblings, Send them to study. Now, although her beautiful face is no longer there, I know that she is transplanting her beautiful face to me little by little in spring, summer, autumn and winter for me and for the family. In my heart. After all, she is my long-haired wife. How to put it, she still has feelings. Now let me pull her out of my heart. Her roots have penetrated too deep, so my heart hurts. But... ..." Speaking of this, Yang Xuewu's eyes turned red: "I haven't had a married life with her for more than half a year, and the life was boring. How should I put it... Divorce, I really hurt , I... I remember her cooking for me while I lay on the couch watching TV, I remember her rummaging through my tie for me to tie the next day before I went to bed, and I remember when she was angry and I read from her The scene of hugging her back...He Yun, I suddenly realized that the couple who always thought they were getting along peacefully had already become a part of each other's lives. In the days when I left her, no matter how bright the sun was, no matter how beautiful the environment was, It doesn't make me happy either. I...I can't sleep well."

He Yun's heart became confused, as if she had fallen into the clouds and fog, and she couldn't find the way forward, she chuckled lightly and said, "Let me tell you a story.

The mirror of Buddhism.

According to the woman's previous life.

In her previous life, she died on the beach, and her body lay bleakly on the shore.

The first man walked by,
Soo glanced, fearful in his heart,

Hastily left.

The second man bent down,

stroked the woman's algae-like hair,
He hesitated for a while, then walked away.

The third man stopped,

What a poor man he said.

So he took off his shirt and covered the woman's naked body.

Still go, even if you take one step and look back three times.

Finally, a fourth man appeared.

He wept for the woman and kissed her cheek lightly.

Then picked up the cold corpse, in a place full of flowers.

Bury lightly.

this life.A woman is destined to meet the man who looked back at her in her previous life.

It's just an acquaintance.

Destined to have a brief tangle with the man who stroked her long hair,

Then, back to plain.

She is destined to repay the man who draped lightly for her with affection.

Even if she gave him a beautiful body.

But in the end, she must use the marriage of a lifetime to repay the benefactor who buried her.

He gave her a home.

That destination, in this life, is called home. "

Yang Xuewu looked at her in dismay, and asked: "Did I give her a home in the previous life? So in this life, she gave me a home?" A burst of sadness welled up in He Yun's heart. After a few seconds of stunned, she couldn't help but laugh Laughing wildly: "Haha, what about me? Why aren't you the third man? Could it be that you in the previous life covered me lightly and then turned around and buried me? So we have to be so entangled in this life? Yang Xuewu, you couldn't in the previous life Only one woman was buried..." Yang Xuewu's face changed, and his eyes were full of guard: "Are you complaining about me too?" He Yun's chest seemed to be hit hard by some heavy object, and she sighed with difficulty. Tone: "I didn't complain. I'm just a little uncomfortable." Yang Xuewu said seriously: "He Yun, no matter how uncomfortable you are, the relationship between me and Qi Xuexin for more than ten years cannot be reduced to zero."

He Yun was silent for a while, and asked sadly: "What about me? Do you have half a heart for me? If you leave me completely now, will you feel happy?" Yang Xuewu was silent for a while, serious Said: "Neither! I went wrong! It is impossible for me and Xuexin to go back to the past, even if you leave now, she will not forgive me!" Yang Xuewu's answer made He Yun feel sorry for him from the bottom of his heart. A ray of hope dissipated like a cloud of smoke, and the whole world seemed to be laughing at her. It turned out that it was only because his wife didn't forgive him, and he didn't feel any guilt towards himself.He Yun wiped away her tears vigorously. She shouldn't have expected too much from him. She has been regarded as the seasoning of life by him from the beginning. What else is there to look forward to now?What she is looking for now is a long-term meal ticket, a stable life!He Yun raised her head, turned her face to Yang Xuewu and comforted her with a smile: "Pig head, you are such a kind and righteous man, Qi Xuexin is really lucky! I understand you. Don't worry, I will give you time to go slowly. It’s settled, I don’t care about waiting!” Yang Xuewu was moved in his heart, and he put his head on He Yun’s shoulder and murmured, “Yun, don’t worry, even if I don’t get a divorce, I will settle down the future life of you and your children. Will save a sum of money for the child so that he can go to college in the future..."

He Yun's heart trembled involuntarily, and she smiled indifferently, with a faintly indescribable bitter feeling lingering in her heart.In fact, Yang Xuewu has not made up his mind to divorce at this time, he still has a glimmer of hope for Xuexin, and hopes that Xuexin can forgive him and live a good life as a family regardless of past suspicions.But he hadn't waited for Xue Xin's peace call. On this day, Xue Wu's mother rushed to the hospital, dragged him to stand in a corner of the department and said a long talk. Xue Wu's mother meant: let He Yun give birth to a child, If Xuexin is willing, if she can accept it, she will take the child, and tell the outside world that she is an adopted orphan.If Xuexin can't accept it, then get a divorce!

Yang Xuewu said: "Xuexin can't agree!"

Xuewu's mother curled her lips and said, "She is 38 years old, what do she think of herself? She is an old lily! If she is determined to divorce you, don't keep her! This woman who pushes out, splashes Get out of the water. Don’t say whether she will turn back, even if she turns back, as you wish, do you know what kind of dragon’s pond and tiger’s den will be waiting for you to jump down in the next life? She will live with you with peace of mind Will she use this to blackmail you in the future? If she can really forgive you, she will definitely be willing to accept this child! That's your son!"

Yang Xuewu's heart was moved. This is indeed a double win. He can save his family and have a son. He hesitated and said: "This... Can Xuexin agree?"

Xuewu's mother slapped her thigh: "Why didn't she agree? My son is capable now, and it's not that he can't find a young girl! She is waiting for you to step down for him now! Listen to me, it's true, this woman's thoughts Ah, I know best. She's sure to be overjoyed when you go home now."

Yang Xuewu frowned and thought for a while, then said: "Mom, I know what's in my mind, you go back first, don't let people hear the joke when colleagues come and go!"

Xuewu's mother responded, turned around to leave, and suddenly stopped in her tracks, leaned over and asked him in a low voice: "Xuewu, you have been kicked out by Xuexin for a few days, did she call you to come back?"

Yang Xuewu shook his head awkwardly.

(End of this chapter)