Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 41 Remorse (4)
"It's not that serious! It's just a ruined city, we don't want it! Be good!" Li Zhi reached out and stroked He Yun's hair, his eyes were a little red.

"Li Zhi, how can you live so clearly?" He Yun asked tearfully.

Li Zhi's eyes were a little sad: "Sober? In fact, which woman doesn't want to talk about a relationship for the purpose of marriage? Which woman is born with such a reality? In this society, it is not easy to find a true relationship. I still remember when I was a child. Is that a fairy tale? In order to chase her true love, the mermaid sacrificed her fish tail as a price, but the result of her sacrifice is only a pile of bubbles. Although I also know that true love is like a layer of phantom, which can be met but not sought. But I still couldn't resist the temptation of that layer of phantom, I stretched out my hand to touch. The initial feeling was endless warmth, but after the warmth, there was only a cold hand. I was hurt, then healed, hurt again, and healed again. Now I have It's made into steel, and at the same time, I can't afford to love it. That's why I'm so sober!"

"Now I understand that Yang Xuewu's city is covered with a beautiful shell. When I hug it, it reveals a thorn and pierces deeply into my heart. If I can't escape, then I am destined to take my life with me." I live with this mansard. My life now feels like years!"

"Come on, let's not talk about this! It's still too late to make up for it. Some things are far from reaching the point where you need to use your life to solve them. Come on, eat something quickly. After eating, I will take you to a place to relax and vent your emotions. .” Li Zhi took the lead in eating, she was really hungry.

He Yun also lowered her head and took a few sips of coffee, thought for a while, and asked, "Why are you getting divorced again? Are you planning to return to Taiwan?"

Li Zhi said without raising his head: "Sex life is not harmonious! That old thing can't do it."

He Yun couldn't help laughing: "No, you can still get pregnant?"

Li Zhibai glanced at her: "That's right, it's less than 1 minute each time, and you can still make my stomach bigger, so depressed!"

He Yun looked at her worriedly: "Didn't he buy a house in your name? After the divorce, what will happen to the house?"

"I have already sold the house. He is not bad. I am not planning to go to Taiwan this time. This city is better. I have studied in university for several years and worked for several years. I have feelings for it. I I have some money in my hand, I want to open a travel agency by myself, Yun, come and help me! After the divorce, Yang Xuewu promised the house to you? Now that the house price has risen so much, you sell the house, You have some money left for retirement. Come and help me, I won’t pay you, but I will help you count the shares, and we two will work hard.” Li Zhi raised his eyebrows and said, looking at He Yun still looking sad, he endured Can't stop cursing: "A worthless thing. Character determines fate. A person's character determines his choice, and his choice determines his fate. A person's character is like a material substance. Just like tree roots can only be used for root carving and cannot be used as pillars and beams. I have suffered no fewer blows than you. Look, don’t I just get up and pat the ashes on my buttocks and continue to live well? You , if you do this again, I really don’t care about you! You can’t live without a man. Rather than relying on a man to live, it’s better to start a career yourself. A man has a career without worrying about not having a woman, and a woman has a career. Of course, she doesn’t have to worry about finding a woman Good man!" Li Zhi grabbed a napkin, wiped his mouth and threw it into the trash can next to him, stood up and grabbed He Yun and left, "Let's go, my sister will take you to relax today."

Li Zhi took He Yun to a bar called Judian, where the lights were feasting, the people were drunk, and the eyes of all kinds of unidentified people shone blue under the flickering lights.He Yun fell in love with such an occasion as soon as she walked in, where she felt all her troubles, hatred and anxiety were slowly absorbed and washed away by the flushing toilet.Li Zhi helped her order several different wines. He Yun raised her head and drank a glass of whiskey, rubbing Li Zhi's soft hair with her hands: "Li Zhi, it's good to have you as a friend, thank you very much!" Li Zhi smiled Laughing, without saying a word, he silently opened another bottle of wine for her.He Yun gulped down another glass of wine, and Li Zhi asked again, "Are you feeling better now? Do you want to smoke a cigarette?" He Yun nodded.She smoked the menthol cigarette Li Zhi gave her, sipped the good wine, and looked around.The music gradually attracted her attention, and she felt like she was sitting on the threshold of Paradise, and the music made her scalp tingle.

The main event has begun.

The drummer at the front desk has long hair loose, like an ancient mysterious religious leader, mastering the ghostly drumbeat and rhythm, swinging his body madly, and screaming a few times from time to time.

As soon as the music started, everyone was shattered into fragments. Everyone here was equally depraved, equally crazy, equally hopeless, and their excitement was out of control.

On the stage was a girl wearing a black sequined cheongsam, with the sides of the cheongsam slit unusually high, swinging her body to the beat of the drums, flying like a planet out of orbit in the flickering lights.The crowd became more excited and turbulent.The effect of alcohol blurred He Yun's eyes. The girl on stage turned forward, backward, twisted her hips, shook her upper body, and performed difficult movements. Aww! Aww!" cried the ground.Excessive excitement made people dizzy, and He Yun stared nervously at the fluorescent lights on the ceiling.She suddenly held Li Zhi's face and said to her seriously: "Li Zhi, I want a divorce!"

Li Zhi patted her face comfortingly.

The most difficult thing for people is to get rid of their own troubles. If there are too many things on people's hearts, they are doomed to walk heavily and cannot breathe freely.In fact, figured it out, letting go is easier than holding on!
He Yun raised her drunken face and shouted to the crowd on the dance floor: "I want a divorce!"

Yang Xuewu lay in a daze on the single bed in his small office less than fifteen square meters.Today is not his main class, but where else can he go besides staying in the office now?He felt that his current life was like eating a bad stomach. He knew that the food would not be digestible, but he couldn't spit it out anyway.Now he is afraid of seeing the word "He Yun" appearing on the screen of his mobile phone, those two words simply give him nightmares.He knew that He Yun refused to divorce, so he gave up on divorce.Just like a person who walks in a cave and cannot see the light, he wanted to turn back at the beginning, but suddenly found that he had walked too deep, and the road in front of him was too narrow for him to turn around, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue. Go forward.

The nurse on duty knocked on the door: "Doctor Yang, Section Chief Xing from the Human Resources Department of the hospital invites you to go."

Yang Xuewu was startled, he tried his best to shake his head to clear his head, and replied, "I'll be there right away." It seems that everyone knows that he takes the hospital office as his home.Yang Xuewu smiled wryly.

When I came to the personnel department, Section Chief Xing was watering several potted flowers, and when he saw him, he quickly gave up his seat: "Xiao Yang, sit down."

Yang Xuewu smiled awkwardly: "I'm already 40 years old, and I still call me Xiao Yang."

Section Chief Xing smiled: "I'm already fifty. You are Xiao Yang in front of me." After finishing speaking, he looked at Yang Xuewu's face, and said, "Xiao Yang, you don't have a good face! You see Your face is so thin! Oh, I have heard about you, no matter what, I still have to go home, how can I stay in the hospital all the time!"

Yang Xuewu blushed: "Thank you for the leadership's concern. It is more convenient to stay in the hospital. Recently, there are many patients admitted. I keep abreast of the condition of my patients. The other doctors on duty don't know much about my patients..."

Section Chief Xing picked up the dry towel on the back of the chair and wiped the water on his hands, bent down to open the drawer, took out a form and handed it to him, saying: "There is a place for further study in the department, go to Johns Hopkins University in the United States To study in the affiliated hospital of the medical school for a year. This is an opportunity, and I recommend you. In your current situation, it is good to go out to study for a while. What do you think?"

Yang Xuewu couldn't believe it for a moment, he took the form gratefully, and said a few polite words.

Section Chief Xing said again: "Xiao Yang, this family life is also a matter of knowledge. It is reasonable to say that this is your private matter, I shouldn't say so much, but as the leader of the department, I can't bear to look at the young and promising You look devastated. Between husband and wife, sometimes cold treatment is needed. Cold treatment is an adjustment of the mentality of both parties, and a reflection on their own behavior. Hot treatment may be right at the time, but after thinking about it, it may be wrong. Cold treatment can leave room for both parties to think and maneuver, so as not to regret it in the future. So I think it’s also good for you to go out to study at this time.”

Yang Xuewu said blankly: "Thank you for your concern! I don't even know how to live my life..."

Section Chief Xing said meaningfully: "Xiao Yang, a person's personality and living habits are deeply influenced by parents and family. Marriage cannot change a person's personality and living habits. Trying to change a person's personality and habits will It can only be futile, and it can only be self-seeking. It will lead to civil war, create family disharmony, cause dissatisfaction between husband and wife, and hurt each other. So instead of changing others, it is better to change yourself, adjust your mentality, adapt to the environment, and seek peace of mind. What do you say?"

"I lost a watermelon and picked up a sesame seed. I also want to keep silent, tolerate the other party, turn a blind eye, close one eye, and get by. However, there are still civil wars, wars escalate, and the family spends all day long. It is filled with gunpowder smoke, and the chickens and dogs are restless."

Section Chief Xing laughed: "This cooking is about good color, fragrance and taste. Only when this standard is met, the dishes can arouse people's appetite. To achieve this, the heat is very important, and it is not too late. When the fire should be fierce, the water should be fierce. When warming the fire, it is necessary to warm the fire, and adjust the firepower at any time according to the softness and hardness of the dishes, so as to ensure that the dishes are tasty and colorful. The relationship between the husband and wife is also like cooking, you have to master the heat, and when you encounter problems, when you are about to get angry, press down Press down on the fire, calm down your emotions, stop in moderation, and let the other party step down, so that you can live in peace. Otherwise, if it is not burnt, it will be raw, wasting time and raw materials, and asking for trouble. Xiao Yang, what I said may be wrong, but I am doing it myself. It’s just a little personal summary in the handling of the relationship between husband and wife, hehe, in short, only by doing a good job in the family relationship can you be free from distractions.”

Walking out of the gate of the personnel department, Yang Xuewu's mind was in chaos. He looked at the form in his hand blankly, should he leave?After coming back, is everything still like this?Driving the car slowly out of the hospital gate, Yang Xuewu involuntarily drove towards his ex-wife's residence. He seemed to be suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder. Whenever he was free, he couldn't help but want to see his ex-wife Qi Xuexin quietly. He seemed to have returned to the original , the shy boy fell in love with the beautiful princess.He parked the car in an inconspicuous place, and silently looked up at the window facing him—the tulle tea-colored curtains fluttered freely in the wind, and the half-opened glass windows were densely stained with flakes. They are fiery red, and they tremble gently, like butterflies fluttering their wings.The curtain looked so dear now, but he could never go back.

A nauseous feeling crawled from the bottom of my stomach and hit my throat.Thirsty lips trembled slightly, and the cold current ran along Yang Xuewu's back to his bones. An Audi slowly passed by and stopped not far away, and a familiar figure got out of the car, it was Xue Xin.

Xuexin even learned to wear skirts in winter.Yang Xuewu stared blankly at Xuexin. She was wearing a long dress with a tight waist and slight slits on both sides of the skirt. The pure cotton sarong made her look graceful, and she was wearing a long snow-white down jacket.Because the skirt is made of cotton, it doesn't fall down, as if there is a western classical skirt inside, which further accentuates Xue Xin's slender waist.Xuexin bent down to talk to the people in the car, Yang Xuewu wanted to prick up his ears to listen, but he was too far away to hear a word, he looked at Xuexin Shi Shiran's skirt through the car window He fluttered into the corridor.When the Audi turned around and drove towards him, he saw that the owner of the Audi was a well-mannered middle-aged man wearing glasses.I hate four eyes the most!Yang Xuewu's angry eyes were about to bleed, this was the second time he saw Xuexin riding in this Audi.The first time he didn't pay much attention, thinking it was a friend or a student's parent's car, this time it was undoubtedly a slap in the face to Yang Xuewu, and then he realized that Xuexin had divorced him, and she could find a new partner marry.Yang Xuewu lost his behavior under the blow of this sap, he opened the door suddenly when the Audi passed by, the owner of the Audi stepped on the brakes in fright, opened the window angrily and asked him: "Are you sleepwalking in broad daylight? "

Yang Xuewu felt that Xuexin, who had gone far away, turned his head, and he quickly started the car... He was completely confused. The moment his car drove away from the Audi, he saw Xuexin really regained consciousness in the rear view mirror. Going down the stairs and talking with the owner of the Audi, she seemed to glance at his car, did she know it was his car?Yang Xuewu was entangled in his heart, stepped on the gas pedal, and soon, Xuexin disappeared from his sight.When he glanced at the study form, he suddenly felt depressed. When he came back from study, Xuexin would have become Audi's hostess, right?Yang Xuewu angrily crumpled the form with one hand.

After a long time, Yang Xuewu stopped the car, sat silently in the car and smoked a cigarette, then gently smoothed the form and looked at it with grief and indignation. He was stimulated unprecedentedly, and he sat with a sullen face, thinking about whether to go or stay.If he didn't leave, he really couldn't face this second marriage.If he left, he didn't know how to face the hope deep in his heart.Suddenly, the phone message rang, and when I opened it, He Yun sent it: I agree to divorce, the house belongs to me, when will I go through the formalities?

The words on the screen floated into his eyes along with the wind, and Yang Xuewu raised his right hand to cover his eyes, covering his sore eyes.He felt that his marriage was a one-way street, and there was no way back. His heart was like a river of spring water flowing eastward, like a wisp of green smoke flying out of the sky, lost and returned, never to return.

(End of this chapter)