Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 5 Return My Four Years of Love (1)
Legend has it that names are related to fate, which is not a scientific truth.But He Yun is really worthy of her name, she has an unassuming face, but her bones are soft and her heart is clean and elegant.She has a round face, a pair of beautiful almond-shaped eyes with double-fold lids, and she always walks with such air, and when she jumps and jumps, her ponytail dances with her.She was originally a pure and innocent girl with bright eyes and full of longing for life.But now, she wants to pretend to be "wild" and "good" for this man, and she has to be sexy.He Yun looked at Yang Xuewu who was lying on the bed snoring, and then at the red silk translucent suspender skirt on her body, suddenly felt powerless all over, as if a weight was hanging on her heart, heavy pain, she bit her lip and took off with hatred. She dropped it, put on the cotton nightgown she always liked, turned off the light, just as her head touched the pillow, tears poured down...

Thinking about the enthusiasm of the two just now, He Yun felt that it was a kind of irony.

In fact, when you think about it, Yang Xuewu is not very good, but she has already wasted several years of her youth on him, and she is in a quagmire. Those are her best years!Leaving him now, He Yun felt that she was really at a loss.Sometimes, she herself also felt that she had somehow become a third party and got into such an embarrassing situation?
Thinking about it, He Yun suddenly got up from the bed and put on the red silk suspender dress again.She quietly turned on the alarm clock-shaped invisible camera beside the bed and adjusted the angle. She was sure that Yang Xuewu's face could be clearly captured from this angle.After finishing all this, He Yun hooked Yang Xuewu's neck, who was still sound asleep, with both hands, and kept pecking at his face, lips and neck like a chicken pecking at his lips. Yang Xuewu was quickly woken up, He exclaimed: "Yeah, do you want more?"

He Yun said coquettishly, "Will you give it?"

Yang Xuewu was in a cold sweat, can you not give it?

The clothes quickly spilled on the floor, and the two were entangled like two snakes.Yang Xuewu was like a wild beast seeing a delicious prey, pounced, tore and bit fiercely, He Yun tried her best to wake up all the parts of Yang Xuewu's body and mind one by one, so he couldn't grasp it any more. Be yourself, this is a hearty battle.After finishing, Yang Xuewu lay there quietly looking at the ceiling in a daze.He Yun always makes him so happy, he tasted the taste of youth again in her body, He Yun never hides his feelings, when he is happy, he calls out, unlike his wife Qi Xuexin, who is always cold of.Her coldness is not pretended coldness, but a coldness deep in the bones, like a saint, but it can bring him a kind of warmth like nectar, that kind of warmth, very nourishing.So occasionally, he still needs Qi Xuexin to irrigate himself.Most of the time, he still likes the madness brought to him by He Yun.

He Yun pouted and said, "Pig head, have I been with you for four years?"

Yang Xuewu became vigilant: "What's wrong? What are you thinking?"

"I don't think about anything! I just feel a little old. What if one day you don't like me anymore? Or what if a younger girl appears?"

Yang Xuewu laughed: "How could it be? You are a monster that penetrates into my bone marrow, I love you forever! By the way, I won't tell you anymore. Today I told my wife that I am going to middle school, and I will be in junior high soon." It's time for work, my wife don't call the hospital to find me. I should go."

He Yun looked coldly at Yang Xuewu who was putting on clothes beside him. He looked dignified and handsome when he was fully dressed. His upper body was a pure cotton gray short-sleeved shirt, his lower body was a pair of black vertical trousers, and his feet were paired with a pair of black round toe He has leather shoes, but his eyes are very depressed, and his handsome and mature face is also a little thin.But now this mature and handsome face no longer moved her so much. She felt more and more that this man was not as good as she thought at first. wife's life.Now that he is the head of the department, his career is in full swing, and he will not let the divorce ruin his good reputation. The one he loves the most is himself.Remember that he also said that he and his wife are in free love?This man may not have known how sweet he was with his wife at the beginning, but in the end he found her outside in order to satisfy his own selfish desires.

After Yang Xuewu left, He Yun changed into soft cotton pajamas.He Yun opened the curtains forcefully, it was raining outside.Standing in front of the wide floor-to-ceiling windows, the luxurious cashmere carpet in the room, the large floor-to-ceiling glass windows, the pleasant and lonely street view outside the window, the noise of mahjong downstairs... All these made her feel like she was in a dream.Since living here, He Yun always felt that she was floating and never landed on the ground, but would fall to the ground and be smashed to pieces at any time.This house is good or bad, but the biggest flaw is that it does not belong to her, it was rented by Yang Xuewu for her.I remember that Yang Xuewu generously said to her at that time: "Rent a good one, something more luxurious." At that time, she was very touched for a while, but now that I think about it, I really think it is too ironic.He Yun was sitting in front of the computer, admiring the wonderful scene just shot, the excited expression on Yang Xuewu's face was clearly visible, and he was working hard on the screen... After He Yun carved the disc, be careful put it away.This is her trump card, and she won't show it until the end.She has been with him for four years, he must give her an explanation, how did he chase her back then?Now, just give her some pocket money every month and help her pay for the house rent?She gave him all the good times, but he never thought of finding a good way out for her.

At the beginning, He Yun, who was only 24 years old, had a boyfriend who had been in love for four years.On the eve of graduation, her boyfriend suddenly informed her that he had passed the IELTS TOEFL exam and was about to fly to Australia.He Yun looked at her boyfriend in a daze, as if it was April Fool's Day.The boyfriend gently stroked her face, smiled and whispered to her: "Yunyun, find a good man, don't wait for me, I probably won't come back."

She asked blankly, as if talking to herself: "Can you not go? Can you not go? It is agreed to get married after graduation. For me, can you stay?"

He Yun put her face close to his, supported his chin with both hands, and looked at her boyfriend's tightly pursed mouth. He Yun understood that he was not discussing with herself, he was just informing her.What an old-fashioned plot, the scene of the betrayal of love that is often staged in novels on TV and movies actually often appears in our lives.He Yun had no choice, she didn't even have time to digest the shock her boyfriend brought her, he had already patted his ass and disappeared from her life forever.He Yun doesn't have much time to grieve. She is about to graduate and must find a job if she wants to stay in this city.In the process of looking for a job, she realized that the current college students are like products on the assembly line, and they are sent out one by one. She can only lower her status again and again.In the end, a small advertising company hired her. From the first day of work, she knew that her work included sweeping the floor, mopping the table, answering the phone, printing documents, and running errands... To put it bluntly, she was actually just a handyman, but she still chose to do it After all, there are not many choices in life for her, survival is the first.

I met Yang Xuewu by chance. At that time, he was the attending doctor of He Yun’s colleague Xiao Wu’s son. That day, Xiao Wu made an appointment to treat their department doctor to dinner. Before leaving, Xiao Wu’s husband had a small car accident, so Xiao Wu was in a hurry. Reluctantly, he had no choice but to ask He Yun to go to the hotel that he had made an appointment with beforehand to greet her first.Just like this, two people who could not have known each other met each other.

Now He Yun thinks, in fact, when he was in love at that time, it was true love. He loved her beautiful and simple, and loved her smiling like a flower, but she loved him mature and steady, and loved him gentle and considerate.

I still remember the first date at that time, the shadows of the sycamore trees were fluttering, the sun was streaming down from the gaps, and the spots were so beautiful.Yang Xuewu stood under the tree and smiled at her, that mature and charming smile made her heart flutter.At that time, she thought in a trance that this man would be the destination of her life.His smile is so warm, it makes her feel that living at home is also a kind of enjoyment.

He walked towards her gently, as if the whole world was quiet, only the heartbeat and breathing of each other remained.The deer in He Yun's heart bumped desperately, and her cheeks were quietly stained with a blush.She saw his eyes looking at her, gentle like water, so clear and beautiful.

Yang Xuewu said to her: "I miss you very much."

He Yun nodded, she knew he missed her.Otherwise, he wouldn't park the car downstairs where she rented every night, and she would know he was coming when she heard the sound of the car engine going off.

Thinking about it now, in fact, Yang Xuewu used this method to tie her footsteps. His thoughts were very delicate, and he knew the potential weaknesses of girls of her age.

Thus, He Yun fell into his gentle eyes.Unexpectedly, happiness is also a sharp edge with a venomous thorn.

Like every couple in love, they enjoy their happiness all the time.Yang Xuewu helped her re-rent a luxurious house and gave her pocket money every month.At that time, she felt that she was the happiest person in the world, and he cherished all her little tempers, and he cared about her little thoughts.

When the love was the strongest, Yang Xuewu would also say to her: "Wait for me, I will give you happiness." At that time, He Yun was so happy that she shed tears, although she never expected that he would really divorce and marry her.

Two years later, Yang Xuewu said to her: "Let's go with her. After all, I have to take care of it slowly for me to have children and take care of the elderly, okay?"

OK, how can it be bad?He Yun thought, why would she make things difficult for her lover?

Gradually, as time went by, He Yun's heart became colder and colder.Yes, the direction is wrong, no matter how fast the speed is, it is also backwards.If you choose the wrong person, the more sincere you are, the more you will be hurt.The time he spent with her gradually decreased, and he no longer felt restless when he didn't see her for half a minute like at the beginning.When he was not around, she turned on the TV to his favorite sports channel by herself, imagining his engrossed expression.She would also imagine his appearance in a white coat, his movements of playing basketball... Thinking about it, tears wanted to flow down, so she quickly raised her head to look at the ceiling and forced back the tears.

She gradually understood that in her life, he was a dream that would not blossom.Thinking about it this way, sometimes when I look at him carefully, I feel that he is just a mess of scenery in my eyes, neither surprising nor amazing.Those true loves disappeared quickly like gorgeous soap foam in the setting sun.

Years are always so unhurried, she didn't have the courage to leave him, so she continued to love neither salty nor light.

In the past four years, she always spends the holidays alone, dressing up beautifully and looking for a corner to eat.

When she is in a bad mood, she travels alone, looking at the sea in a demure and elegant way with tears.

When he didn't come, she waited alone, reading and writing in a trance.

In love, she felt that she was really in love.

Just, why the more you love, the colder you are?
But today's He Yun, born in 84, is 28 years old and will be 30 years old in a few years. She has to plan for her future.Sometimes, she really hates him, how long will he delay her?She also figured it out completely, he and her are good because they have a sweet relationship now, why did he get married in the first place?Isn't it also because of the sweetness at the beginning?It's just that he was young and sweet at the time, and he reached the age of marriage, so he and his wife got married, and now they can't divorce, just because they have children and have the approval of the elderly on both sides. Although there is no sweetness, he has the responsibility With his wife, guarding an unhappy marriage.

And what she and he have now is sweetness, without the approval of relatives and friends, and without children... She can't guarantee that in 10 or 20 years, they will still be as sweet as they are now?Can she guarantee that he will treat her as before?
The so-called sweet feeling was just the feeling of being in love that he was looking for.

One day, when they were no longer sweet, he would turn around and leave without any responsibility to her.

Thinking about it, He Yun sneered, when he was at his worst, he took advantage of it.She remembers the money he spent on her. After all, she has been just playing the role of a cheap chicken, and chickens can still make money.What did she earn?Can't you lose your identity if you find a chicken?Is it safe to find chicken?
He Yun, who re-recognized her position, had to make plans for herself.She began to cater to him cautiously, and started a contest with his wife secretly.One, she never mentioned Yang Xuewu's wife in front of him. She understood that any man would feel guilty about cheating, and she wanted to cooperate with him to ignore this guilt.Second, she wants to be stronger than his wife, comprehensively stronger from the inside out.She took care of his daily diet and cared about his work pressure.As long as she knows that his wife made the soup, she will immediately cook a full feast of man and man, and she will have to eat both meat and vegetables; if his wife treats him like a character, she must at least know what kind of underwear Yang Xuewu likes to wear most; She knows that his wife respects her mother-in-law, so she often prepares gifts for the old man for him... Only in this way can he make a psychological comparison, and it turns out that she, He Yun, is the better one.Too good to be invulnerable, too good to be dizzying, before the idea of ​​replacing it sprouts.San's aura is enough to be a mistress, and when she gets along with Yang Xuewu, she is definitely a slut, but she is definitely a chaste and strong woman.Doing what his wife does, playing with the lady's position, but reassuring him that she's just his own slut.In the end, she has to be patient.If you can't bear it, you have to bear it, and you can never show the temper of crying, making trouble, and hanging yourself, otherwise you will fall into the infinite abyss.

He Yun stayed in the corner of the room indifferently, she didn't want to recall the past memories, even if she recalled the sweetness again, she couldn't let the tears flow anymore, she felt that her tears had dried up.Looking at the rain curtain intertwined with the heavy rain, the dead silence in the house made her lonely, feeling that as long as a speck of dust fell into this pool of water, it would ripple.Closing her eyes, she also tried to think about the future, but the rain curtain seemed to block her thinking, and she could only hover in the room, and then her mind went blank.

He Yun didn't know what he was busy with all morning, so He Yun sat on a chair and took a sip of water to catch her breath.Say she didn't do anything, she obviously spun like a spinning top all morning, but she couldn't see the result.She really hated this kind of life of answering the phone, turning on the water and wiping the table.At the beginning, she was also high-spirited and wanted to start a career, but she didn't know when, this dream was shattered silently like soap bubbles.Memories are like eating a strange-flavored bread, causing a bottomless vortex in He Yun's stomach.Her head was dizzy, and the memory ran out again while taking advantage of the void.

"Xiao He, what's the matter? Dozed off? Didn't sleep well yesterday?"

He Yun opened her eyes and saw that it was Manager Chen from the company's sales department.Manager Chen is a middle-aged man in his 50s. Although he is over half a century old, he will always be dressed as a young man in his twenties, wearing a jackwack and carrying a shoulder bag. He will never take a middle-aged man with him. The kind of bag caught under the armpit.On his body, it fully demonstrates a middle-aged man's longing for young and beautiful things.When He Yun first came to this company, he was courteous for nothing, and He Yun was extremely disgusted with him.

"No! I'm closing my eyes and resting my mind!" He Yun yawned with a half-smile.

Manager Chen leaned against her desk and said with a smile, "What kind of spirit can you raise? What kind of spirit can you raise your eyes with closed eyes? Women, especially women of your age, rely on men to help you raise your spirit..." The company It was almost time for lunch after work, and everyone was sitting in their seats. Hearing Manager Chen's words, they all glanced to this side with the attitude of watching the show.He Yun got angry, and she calmly reminded him in a voice that could be heard by everyone in the audience: "Manager, you have opened the zipper."

Manager Chen, who always cares about face-saving and appearance very much, was fine when he heard this. He jumped up with thunderous speed, and subconsciously lowered his head to check the zipper of his trousers.The colleagues in the office burst into laughter.

He Yun innocently pointed to Manager Chen's bag and said, "I mean, the zipper of your bag is open."

Manager Chen blushed and left angrily.

He Yun felt very happy, and finally let out a bad breath.

The text message on the mobile phone rang, He Yun picked up the mobile phone, and there was a text message from Yang Xuewu.Yang Xuewu's name was displayed as "pig head", He Yun's nickname for him, but on Yang Xuewu's mobile phone, He Yun became Zhang of the Nursing Department. Yang Xuewu said it was safe and he was not afraid of his wife's investigation.

The pig head said: Let's eat alone at noon, I won't go there.Obedient!

(End of this chapter)