I'm Mrs.

Chapter 453 You Help Me
"Mommy mommy……"

When they saw me crying, they didn’t wipe my face with their little hands, but kissed my eyes in turn. The soft touch really melted my heart. I was a little puzzled, sniffed and looked at the two children Pouting her lips, she squeezed my eyes hard, "Mom..."

My heart was in a daze, and a voice came from behind, "Lu Er taught the child. When I saw my mother crying, I wanted to kiss my mother... They are very smart..."

Turning around, Shen Mingya had already stood behind me at some point, her figure was still very skinny, her complexion was much better than a year ago, not as sallow as before, just as I was about to speak, she said with a faint smile on the corner of her mouth , "You can play with the children first, let's talk after they fall asleep..."

I hummed, and Shen Mingya immediately turned around and entered the room. The two children here were still scrambling to stare at my eyebrows. It was like a game, and I didn't care about anything else. Standing up holding the two children on one side, "Mom, don't cry, don't cry..."

"Bao Si, it's very heavy..."

Uncle Xu reminded me in a low voice, "It will be very tiring to hug like this."

I shook my head, looking almost greedily at the little faces of the children close up, "It's okay, it's not sinking."

Uncle Xu smiled, walked up to me and said, "The old lady arrived at noon. She knew you were going to the provincial capital and said that she didn't need to tell you on purpose. She was afraid that you would drive in a hurry, but I... I am afraid that you will leave again." Come back late, the child can sleep well, so..."

"I know!"

I glanced at Uncle Xu and I still smirked, "Thank you, Uncle Xu, this is such a big surprise! Just don't use the excuse of falling off the roof of the flower house next time, I'm just as anxious!"

Uncle Xu sighed, and stood there with such a trace of apology, his eyes were sad, but happy.

My arms are a little sore, to be honest, it’s not easy, but I just like to hold him, and I look at the stars carefully. He is completely a cute version of Xiao Luer. The one who arrived was fatter, with a tender face like all children over one year old. When pinched, it seems that water can be wrung out.

Seeing me looking at him, he was also looking at me with blinking eyes, as if he was looking at me curiously, touching my face with his little hand, and calling, "Mom...Mom..."

Siyue was different, she was very lively after being picked up by me, giggling all the time, hugging my neck and pointing back at the rabbit on the ground, "Mom...rabbit...rabbit..."

I knew they were not very good at talking, so I nodded with tears in my eyes, "It's a rabbit, little white rabbit."

"Rabbit...rabbit..."

Siyue was still talking, and after being hugged by me for a while, she pushed her small body towards the ground, looking at me with bright round eyes, as if I was in a hurry to play with rabbits, very familiar, a little Made me look in the mirror illusion.

I have seen the pictures of Baitian taken by my family, and looking at Siyue now, it is completely like looking at myself when I was a child. The most important thing is that the child's behavior seems to be exactly the same as when I was a child!
If there is a comparison, you will find the difference. The younger sister is lively, and the older brother is more calm and quiet.

I hugged them until I couldn't hold them any longer, then let go of them and let them go to the ground. I watched the two of them stagger and go to play with the rabbit. I didn't see the child for a second Move away.

What they like to play, I just play with them without any temper, and even teach the two little guys like repeaters to learn how to speak. For the first time, I discovered that I am so patient.

The rabbit wants to run, and when I see that Siyue is in a hurry, I will help catch it. After I grab it and hug it, Xingchen will point to the rabbit in a Lu Er style, and make two ahhs in his mouth, Siyue over there When he saw it, he ran over, squatted beside the stars with a smile on his lips, touched his mouth with his little hand and said, "Tutu...Tu..."

I smiled and sat in front of them and nodded, "Yes, this is the little white rabbit, who is that star?"

Siyue would point her little finger at the stars and say vaguely, "Baby...baby..."

I couldn't help laughing, "Where is Yueyue, which one is Yueyue?"

Siyue especially praised me and pointed at herself, "Baby...baby..."

I was overjoyed, and looked at the calm Xingchen, "Xingxing, who is the mother?"

He raised his chubby face and blinked at me, as if he was saying don't think that I was such an imbecile question when I was young, maybe he was looking forward to seeing my expression, and stood up tremblingly. Zhong kissed my face, "Mom..."

Seeing this, Siyue on the side was unwilling to lag behind, she also stood up, threw herself into my arms in two steps, and said 'baji' to the other side of my face, "Mom!"

I feel like I'm dying of happiness!
The two little guys fell asleep when the sun went down. I heard from Uncle Xu that the two kids have been playing in the yard since they arrived. They should be tired by now. It’s because I’m happy to see me back, so I made a few more Hour.

I hugged Xingxing, and the nanny brought by Shen Mingya helped me hug Yueyue. When I went upstairs, Shen Mingya followed me and reminded me in a low voice, "This posture is not right, the child will be uncomfortable..."

I study very humbly. Although the child is more than one year old, I am still an absolute novice. Fortunately, the child will remind me when he goes to the bathroom during the day. He reacted quickly in a few seconds, he was going to relieve himself!

Si Yue does not mean that this child has a lot of words. When she wants to go to the toilet, she will say directly, "Hush ... Hush ..."

In contrast, Siyue expresses her demands more clearly and directly. However, I like the contrast between them. I always feel that there are different surprises every minute of the stay. The two children, That's two kinds of surprises!

Carrying the child to Lu Er and I's bedroom, I thought that Shen Mingya would disagree with me sleeping with the child at night, but unexpectedly she didn't say much, she just reminded me in a low voice after putting the child on the bed, "Drink before going to bed." They should sleep until dawn tonight, use diapers at night, and change to another one when they get up in the middle of the night, otherwise they will feel uncomfortable."

A nanny brought by Shen Mingya saw that my technique was too jerky and came over to help me put on diapers for the baby. The movement was really fast and nimble. I don’t speak Chinese very well, but the key words can still be expressed clearly. Wipe the butt first, then Folding, sticking, testing for tightness, and tidying up ruffles can be regarded as one-stop operation.

I muttered, she wore one and I put on the other. After I finished, I looked at the two sleeping little angels on the bed and I was sweating profusely. Don’t say, this thing looks simple, but it’s easy to do. really tired.

The main thing is that you have to be more careful. Seeing that the child is sleeping so well, I am afraid that it will wake up and make it uncomfortable. Fragile products, I really think they are like fragile products, and I can’t wait to hold them, hold them in my hands I didn't dare to exert too much strength.

Shen Mingya didn't look at me, and after covering the child with a quilt to prevent her from catching a cold, she said in a low voice, "Being a mother is like this at the beginning, she was in a hurry, when I was the eldest, I washed diapers by myself wherever there was such a thing as diapers, I have to wake up five or six times at night, because I am afraid that the baby will be uncomfortable if the baby is wet and the buttocks are not changed..."

I was a little dazed, I didn't expect her to speak so softly, I didn't know what to respond to, I just nodded, bent down and kissed the little cheeks of the two children, I just wanted to accompany them like this, no matter what willing.

"Let them sleep, I want to talk to you..."

Shen Mingya asked the nanny to go out first, and spoke directly to me. I naturally agreed, and turned around every step of the way when I got out of the bedroom. Before closing the door, I adjusted the light in the room. It was too bright, and it was too dark. I was afraid that they would cry when they woke up suddenly.

After being transferred, I would have obsessive-compulsive disorder, so I followed Shen Mingya to the study room. Oh, I really don't want to be separated from the child for a minute!
Walking into the study, Shen Mingya was already standing by the window with her back to me, "Actually, Lu Er asked me to bring the child back to show you last year, he was afraid that you would miss the child, but at that time, his grandfather was sick, The spirit is very poor, so I can only take the two little guys to accompany his grandfather, so I delayed bringing the kids to you until now, don't blame me..."

I was really surprised by Shen Mingya's attitude, but when I thought about it, she also said that she let it go, so I wondered more, and responded, "I know, my father told me about this, that is, Uncle Xia."

Shen Mingya didn't turn around, looked at the yard through the French windows, and sighed, "It's been more than a year, and I know everything you've done, you've worked hard."

It's not easy, she actually said this to me!

No response, what do I say, no hard work?Serve the people?
"...You don't look like Xue Ruojun at all."

There was a bit of bitterness in her tone, and I suddenly understood why she didn't turn her head back, because she was afraid that looking at my face would make it hard for me to say something, "You and her, except for the fact that they look alike, have nothing to do with everything else." Unlike, in fact, your personality is a bit like mine, you are very strong, if it is not because of Xue Ruojun's relationship, I will appreciate you very much, really..."

I'm still standing, as long as her tone pauses, the study will be extremely quiet, because I really don't know what to say, I have to let her smooth my temper before, and it's the same now, no matter what she says , Whether it is praise or hatred, I am very calm.

"You still hate me..."

Shaking my head, this time, I said, "I don't want to torture myself, so I don't hate."

If people want to live a relaxed life, it is best to look for the initial state, otherwise, they will continue to torture themselves in the past, and in this life, why bother with themselves.

Shen Mingya smiled lightly, "I hate myself, every time I see Lu Er, I hate myself... My son, I shouldn't have to bear this..."

Thinking of Lu Er, I lowered my eyes, it would be great if he came back with the child.

Opened his mouth, "The past is the past, people have to look forward..."

"Yeah, the past is the past..."

Shen Mingya took a deep breath with her body shaking slightly, and tilted her head back slightly, as if she was desperately suppressing certain emotions, "Actually, there is one thing that I have kept in my heart for more than 30 years. Both Xia Wendong and Xue Ruojun are concerned about this. You misunderstood me and thought I was ruthless, but the truth is not what everyone thinks, it's just that I'm too lazy to explain."

I didn't speak, but when Shen Mingya finally turned around, his eyes were rosy, "Lu Er's father, my husband, committed suicide by himself."

"suicide?"

Isn't it the sleeping pills you gave him?
Shen Mingya walked up to me, breathing slightly trembling, "At that time my eldest son was gone, and he kept watch for several days without sleep. I knew he had a heart problem, so I was afraid that something might happen to him, so I went home After letting him rest, guess what he told me?"

Looking into Shen Mingya's eyes, I think I can guess, nothing less than divorce.

Shen Mingya smiled self-deprecatingly, "My son is still dead, and he is going to Anfeng to find Xue Ruojun. I said it was impossible. In this life, as long as I live, I will not let you be with that woman. I will always remember the last sentence he said to me, he said, Mingya, are you going to force me to death?"

She was crying, but the corners of her lips were smiling, the smile was sad, and the tears kept pouring out, "I said, you are going to force me to death. If you are with her, I will take Lu Er to die with you until you die." In front of you, let you live in our shadow for the rest of your life!"

I didn't say anything, I watched Shen Mingya cover my heart, "I just wanted to keep him, but he didn't reply to me, he closed the door of the room by himself, and when I knock on the door again in the morning, there will be no sound from inside." , I was afraid that something would happen to him, so I found the key to get in, only to find out that he had taken sleeping pills... and didn't leave me a single word..."

The tendons on Shen Mingya's neck were deeply sunken, and his eyes were resentful and miserable, "He didn't give me a word, but he still held a photo of himself and Xue Ruojun in his hand. Tell me, what does this mean to me?" ?!"

I don't know, I just can imagine the panic, hesitation, humiliation, grievance and anger of a married woman at that moment.

"I sent him to the hospital, even if his body was hard, I still asked the doctor to rescue him! I can't let him die, I'm afraid my child will not have a father!"

Shen Mingya wiped away her tears, "But the result is already like that, and I have to accept it, he would rather die than leave me..."

Taking a deep breath, Shen Mingya seemed to be forcing herself to calm down, "Actually, you were right before, my eldest son may not die, he begged Lu Zhixin not to leave, and when Lu Zhixin pushed him away, as long as I stretched out my hand, he would I grabbed him, but I hesitated for a second, I thought the child was hurt, so Lu Zhixin couldn't walk even if he wanted to, just at this second, when I stretched out my hand, the child rolled downstairs..."

I looked at her quietly, what should I say?Self-inflicted?

Shen Mingya smiled sadly, "When I was young, I always felt that there was nothing I couldn't do. Even my teacher when I was in school would get nervous when he saw me. I believed that I would lose my faith, but in the end, it was Chi Guoguo's blow..."

She said and turned around again, turning her back to me to adjust her emotions, "Xue Ruojun questioned me, saying that her child's stillbirth was due to the nutritional supplements that I had manipulated. I'm about...

Because in those days, I was cursing her every morning and evening, cursing that Xue Ruojun would not be able to give birth to a child, and cursing that she would die badly. I was beaten back and forth, and I used a needle to viciously pierce the paper man's stomach... You said, the stillbirth was caused by me, or God opened his eyes. "

"I will not make unnecessary judgments about things that have passed."

Shen Mingya laughed, "Yeah, I'm not sure, but Xue Ruojun is sure, she thinks it's my fault, I don't care, anyway, if the goal is achieved, I resign from the public office and go to sea In business, I am so busy that I am like a lunatic. The reason is to show everyone the results, to show Lu Zhixin how far I have left Xue Ruojun, and how she compares to me, but..."

Her voice was a little weaker, "I ignored Lu Er, when I wanted to stop and be with him, he was already estranged from me, I am an unqualified mother, many people say that I am ambitious, only myself You know, I am driven by vanity, what I am most afraid of is that people will see that I am actually a failure, I have lost my husband, my eldest son, and even my youngest son has a heart for me, I am too much of a failure."

I listened quietly, throwing out those grievances and hatreds. The person in front of me was nothing but a sick and weak woman.

Widowed for more than 30 years, the six relatives who almost tossed about denied him, pitiful and hateful.

"Aunt……"

"Call me mother-in-law."

I nodded and exhaled, "Why are you telling me this?"

Now that I've put it all down, let's just wave my hands and laugh it off, the present is the most important thing, the dusty past is meaningless to me.

Shen Mingya turned around and looked at me, "I just want to ask you one thing."

"what's up?"

She took a few steps towards me, "I want to meet Lu Zhixin."

I was a little puzzled, "See Lu Er's father? But he has..."

"I know he's still down there."

Shen Mingya grabbed my hand, with tearful eyes filled with longing, "Other masters told me that this kind of man won't be able to leave in a while, and he will have to stay down there for a long time. I have been exposed to so many yin and yang." Teacher, I also want to see him, but if he doesn't come up, I won't be able to invite him any time. In my life, I only have one wish, that is, to talk to him, don't leave me with nothing, don't remind me of him I remember when he asked me if I wanted to force him to death, I didn’t want to, I really never thought about it, Bao Si, please help me... Please..."

My nose was a little pantothenic, I took a breath, "Okay."

(End of this chapter)