I'm Mrs.

Chapter 58 Stimulation
"Fourth sister, don't feel bad, if you knew that I would go up the mountain with you to the crematorium on the day of the funeral, maybe you wouldn't be scared."

When I was about to eat in the evening, Xiao Liu seemed to muster up the courage to go to the kang and look at me. I opened my mouth, "I followed my grandma and mother one night to burn a lot of paper, including cars, cows, and paper figures. It’s the same as the real thing, my mother said that those are all down there to take care of grandma, and grandma won’t suffer down here.”

I sat there still motionless, my heart was sore, I clearly understood that Xiao Liu was trying to comfort me.

"Fourth sister, don't keep talking, you can go out with me to play, let's go on the swing..."

I didn't say a word, looking as if I was still in a daze, the second uncle came into the room and took a look at me, then sighed and asked Xiao Liu to come to the table to eat, turned around, he looked at the grandma who came in and muttered in a low voice, "Mom, are we all wrong?" , no matter what Sibao was like before, at least the child is cheerful and happy, but now that he is so stimulated, he is crying, so he can't be sick."

Grandma didn't answer my second uncle's words, she stepped forward and gently patted my head, "Sibao, let's eat, come on, put down the box your grandma left for you, and when the time comes..."

I stubbornly held my grandmother's wooden box and shook my head, but I still didn't want to talk.

Grandma pursed her lips, as if she was desperately trying to suppress a certain emotion, "Sibao, don't scare grandma, it's grandma's fault, grandma shouldn't have brought you into that room, you can blame grandma for whatever you want, but we have to eat Ah, come on, grandma doesn't move the things your grandma left for you, can you hold it, hold grandma to feed you."

I glanced at my grandma, moved to the ground, put on my shoes and made it to the edge of the dining table silently.

Grandma took a deep breath and sat down next to me. After filling the meal, she delivered it to my mouth spoon by spoon. No matter how big things happened to me before, I always wanted to eat when I was hungry. An instinct, the instinct to know that if you don't have enough to eat, you can't do anything.

In other words, when I was short-sighted, I knew the truth that the body is the capital of the revolution.

But now, I don’t want to eat, I really can’t eat, my stomach is empty, but my heart is blocked, but looking at my grandma’s red and swollen eyes, I somehow know that if I don’t eat, grandma will be worried, so, I want to eat, even if I can't eat, I want to eat.

It's a strange feeling, isn't it? It turned out that crying made me worry about other people's thoughts. I started to fear that others would be unhappy because of me. My mind was in a mess. I knew a lot, but why was my heart so uncomfortable?

The dining table was very quiet, and even Xiao Liu, who always liked to make trouble at the dining table, just picked up the rice in his bowl quietly, maybe it was too depressing, Mingyue cleared her throat and looked at me with a flattering smile, " Baosi, there is something I haven’t told you yet, after you finish your meal, there will be ice cream waiting for you, creamy ice cream, eat it with a spoon!”

After hearing this, Xiao Liu put down his chopsticks, "Mom, you bought ice cream for Fourth Sister, so I want to eat it too."

"I bought it, it was Xiao Linzi from the Han family who bought it. He bought two boxes. You can eat it with Baosi's light. He said that this ice cream was an agreement with Baosi. Before he left, he asked I bought it for Bao Si, Bao Si, I think you haven’t woken up, and I’m afraid it will melt, so I sent it to the old Niutou’s house to freeze it, and I’ll get it back in a while, and then I’ll give it to you!”

After hearing this, Xiao Liu became anxious, "Mom, Brother Da Lin is leaving, where are you going!"

Mingyue looked at him and raised her eyebrows, "What do you mean you have to leave? He's already gone. When you were playing in the backyard, his father came to pick him up. When the car stopped at the door, Xiao Linzi of the Han family hurried I ran into the courtyard, and I was startled, seeing that Baosi was still awake, he put down the ice cream and left..."

"Mom! Why didn't you call me, I didn't even know Brother Dalin was gone!!"

Xiao Liu felt aggrieved and wanted to cry again, "Who am I going to play with in the future!"

That Mingyue let out a hey, "How old are you and Han Lin? Can you go play together? Besides, things in their house are so messy. It's not a bad thing for Han Lin to leave. Going to the city is no better than staying in the countryside. You What do children know!"

"Second aunt."

I pushed away the spoon handed over by my grandma and watched Mingyue open her mouth, I really couldn't eat it anymore.

"what?"

That Mingyue was startled, seeing that I didn't react for a long time, she thought she had an auditory hallucination, "You, what do you call me?"

"Second aunt."

I repeated softly, "Give Xiaoliu all the ice cream, I will never want to eat ice cream again."

"Oh, you, you don't want to eat ice cream anymore, that... no, mom, did you hear that, did you hear Baosi call me something!!"

Mingyue was incoherent in excitement, and quickly looked at her second uncle for confirmation, "Ruowen, Baosi called me my second aunt, you called me my second aunt!! She's really normal, she's normal!"

The second uncle looked at me but couldn't laugh, "Sibao, why don't you want to eat ice cream, isn't that your favorite food?"

I shook my head sullenly, "I don't want to eat any more in the future."

As I said that, I looked at my grandma who had the same complex expression, "Grandma, I want to find my uncle, can you take me to find my uncle?"

Xiao Liu sniffled and reminded her next to her, "Fourth Sister, you haven't gone to school for several days, if you don't go, you will still have to be last in the exam this time."

I didn't look at him, just looked at grandma and repeated again, I know I'm going to school, but I want to go to my uncle and tell him about the secret.

Grandma put down the remaining half bowl of rice and nodded, "Okay, grandma will take you there tomorrow."

Regarding my reaction after waking up and my ability to express myself, I don’t need to talk about it myself. My family will naturally see it and feel relieved. Like that bright moon, she can’t wait to run out of the courtyard and tell her neighbors. I called her Second Aunt. In my memory, it seems that I really called her Aunt for the first time. I used to call her Rabbit Mother, but I omitted the title later. I had no idea of ​​her identity in my mind. Naturally, I just called her I won't call her anymore.

Of course, the second uncle, grandma, and grandpa looked at me a little complicated. They treated me carefully, even a little depressed. I don’t know what they were suppressing. Maybe, as the second uncle said, I was afraid that I was stimulated by something and couldn’t be relieved. bring it on.

Am I stimulated? The fire scared me, but most of the time I was digesting, digesting a lot of things that I didn't understand or understand before, such as joy, anger, sadness, heartache, and right or wrong.

When I was about to go to bed at night, Mingyue brought over Xiaoliu’s quilt, and grandma spread the quilt on the kang, saying that she would sleep with our siblings in the future. I didn’t respond, and sat quietly on the kang with the box Waiting for grandma to lay down in a corner of the bed.

Xiao Liu has been immersed in the sadness of Han Lin's departure, and while his grandma was going to fetch the pillow, he carefully approached me and said, "Fourth sister, brother Da Lin is gone, what if Sun Hongsheng bullies us in the future, I will fight you." But him."

I regained my senses in a daze, and looked at Xiao Liu's words, "With me here, no one can bully you."

(End of this chapter)