Marriage Crisis: Lonely Apricot Blossom

Chapter 21 Forgiveness is not the same as forgetting (1)
On the first day of work after the National Day, the attendance rate was only 60.00%, and even Lin Lei and Fang Zhenqian did not show up.

In a rare leisure time, Aju spends all morning in front of the computer sorting out photos of her travels.

"Look at this picture, how do you like it?" Aju happily asked Yan Jia for advice.

"Yes, Not Bad."

"Hey, this one is by the sea, does it feel like it's fluttering in the wind?"

In the photo, Aju has her hair loose, and she is also very charming.

"Well, it's good."

Even after asking a few questions, Yan Jia just perfunctory listlessly, and Aju's face darkened.

"What's the matter with you? You've been absent-minded all morning, are you bored at home?"

Yan Jia didn't argue, but forced a smile, and quickly glanced at the door again.Of course everything remains the same.

Aju turned her head angrily and ignored her.

In the afternoon, Lin Lei finally appeared in the office, but her expression was not very good.

She greeted Aju in, and closed the door and talked for a while.

In the end, Aju came out with a serious expression on her face. She walked up to Yan Jia and said in a low voice, "Boss Lin let you in."

Yan Jia became uneasy, "Did you say anything?"

Aju hesitated for a moment, leaned closer to her ear, and said in an extremely soft voice: "Boss Fang is gone."

It was like a huge thunderstorm, making Yan Jia's ears buzzing.

In fact, she should have expected such a day. Didn't she always look forward to such a day?

But why is she so anxious at this moment?
With a pale face, she didn't ask any more questions, and went into Lin Lei's office in a daze.

Lin Lei signaled her to close the door.

"Sit down." Lin Lei's voice was full of tiredness.

Yan Jia silently sat in the chair opposite her.

Lin Lei glanced at her, with indescribable emotions in her eyes.

"Two days ago, my family and I were still in Hong Kong. Fang Zhenqian called me and asked me to resign." She said slowly, "I asked him why, and he said it was a personal problem and had nothing to do with others, but my intuition told me , it's not that simple."

Lin Lei's inquisitive eyes seemed to want to see Yan Jia's bottom.

Yan Jia felt that her breathing was not enough, so she took two deep breaths, trying to force a smile on her face that had nothing to do with her.

After a long while, Lin Lei let out a long sigh, but didn't pursue it further, "Everyone has his own ambitions, and we can't force them. Fortunately, Fang Zhenqian is a considerate person, and he has already recommended a suitable successor for me. I just came back from him, and I spent a whole morning thinking about it. In handover procedures."

Yan Jia was startled, so he hasn't left yet, he's still in Hangzhou?
Her mind was spinning wildly, but she was like a fly locked in a glass bottle, flying around, but couldn't find a way out.

Yan Jia didn't say a word, Lin Lei seemed to have expected it. After a short pause, she slowly picked up a file bag on the upper left corner of the table and handed it to Yan Jia, "This is just now, Mr. Fang... entrusted me to bring your."

The little flies buzzing in Yan Jia's head disappeared all of a sudden. She stared at the bag in front of her tightly, not daring to pick it up, and asked cautiously, "What is it?"

"I don't know, he didn't say anything, and I didn't ask." Lin Lei explained without emotion.

Yan Jia bit her lip, hesitated again and again, and took it anyway. The file bag was very thick, as if it were some hard documents.

"There's nothing else, you can go out." Lin Lei didn't seem interested in the bag in her hand, so she made a clear statement and issued an order to evict her.

Yan Jia bumped into the file bag and walked out dejectedly, even Aju disappeared.

She returned to the table and stared at the bag for a long while, as if she didn't have the courage to open it. After a long time, she slowly opened the rope buckle.

When I took it apart, my hand trembled involuntarily.

The first thing she pulled out was a page of letter paper.

Unfolding it carefully, there are extremely neat and dense characters written on it, and Yan Jia recognized that it was Fang Zhenqian's handwriting.

"Jia Jia,
It is four o'clock in the morning, it is very dark outside the window, there is no moon, and there is no wind. Strangely, the world seems to have stopped.

Only when I think that you are also in this city, I feel full again.But, I'm leaving tomorrow.

Before picking up the pen, I thought that I had a lot to say to you, but I didn't know where to start when I picked up the pen.

People are really complicated individuals, they think they know themselves very well, but suddenly, on a certain day, at a certain point, they will discover another self, a strange but more real self.Just like our separation is more unforgettable to me than our union.

For a whole year, I resisted the urge to find you again and again, telling myself to give you time.

I inquired about your news from various channels to understand your situation.

A year later, I thought you could forget the pain I brought you, at least, it had faded, so I appeared in front of you.

You didn't run away, which gave me hope.I can see the viciousness you deliberately pretended to be. I know you don't want me to get close, so I waited carefully.I thought there would always be a day when I could melt you away.

But, I was wrong, your tears woke me up and made me understand how selfish I am, so selfish that I don't even give you the chance to think about a new life.

I finally realized what it means to be 'too late to regret'.

Saying this now, are you laughing at me again?

It can be seen that you like this city very much and can live well here.In this case, I leave and give you back the peace that belongs to you.

Fortunately, Hangzhou has never been my destination.

I have already bought your hut for you, and your name is written on the real estate certificate, please don't refuse again, just treat it as helping me once.

As long as you live well, I am willing to let go. This time, it is true.

Fang Zhenqian. "

After reading the letter, Yan Jia burst into tears.

She seemed to have just realized how cruel Fang Zhengan was to her that night.

No, maybe she realized it a long time ago, but she thought he could bear it, that he would turn back, but she forgot that he was just an ordinary person, and his nerves were not iron-clad.

She rushed into Lin Lei's office without even wiping the tears off her face.

"Where is he now?"

Lin Lei looked at her in surprise, as if she frowned, and then shrugged slightly, "He didn't say that since the day he resigned, his whereabouts are no longer under my jurisdiction."

Yan Jia's face contorted, and she felt like crying again. Seeing Lin Lei's plain expression, she held back.

"Sorry to bother you." She said with restraint, turned around and left.

"Wait a minute!" Lin Lei called out from behind, "When I came out with him just now, I heard him tell the driver to go to the airport."

Yan Jia looked up at the ceiling, grinning about to smile, but tears fell down her face.

"Thank you!"

She dropped everything and ran out of the company.

People are slow animals, and they only know how to cherish when they are lost.

Yan Jia stopped a taxi at the gate and went straight to the airport. Along the way, under her threat, the driver almost ran through the red light many times.

"I can't go any faster, girl, I'll be in big trouble if I get caught." The elder brother explained helplessly to this crazy girl.

Yan Jia kept dialing Fang Zhenqian's cell phone, one call after another, but no one answered.

He didn't even answer her phone.

Finally arrived at the airport.

After getting off the car, Yan Jia's eyes scanned from the door to the waiting hall like a scanner.

Seeing the silhouette from behind, he rushed up and shouted, and ran to the security check gate.Security officers stopped her.

"Sorry, you can't go in."

Yan Jia looked inside desperately through the security gate, but no, there was no sign of him anywhere.

In this way, he once again quietly exited in her life.

Yan Jia walked out of the airport in frustration and stood in the vast crowd like a lost child.

As soon as she looked up, there was a plane roaring towards the blue sky. She put her hands around her mouth and shouted at the plane regardless: "Idiot! I forgive you, idiot—"

Her voice was drowned out by the rumble of the engine, making it pale and weak.

The plane was quickly lost in the far end of the clouds.

Another Christmas is coming.

Yan Jia was half-leaning on the bed, and there was an unknown script playing on the TV as always. She watched it with gusto, laughing at the lines of the actors from time to time to cover up the desolation of the room.

A-Ju has already left her small nest, and she and Tang Bo bought a second-hand house together. Although it is smaller, older, and farther away from the urban area, it finally feels like home.

"In these days, it's very difficult to get it right in one step, but fortunately, we are all young and have a lot to do." Yan Jia's experience made the pragmatic Aju even more pragmatic.

Yan Jia also changed jobs, but she didn't get a promotion because she couldn't stay with Lin Lei any longer. There were too many things that couldn't be explained clearly, and she couldn't get rid of them, so she had to leave and let everything stop. related.

In the first week after Fang Zhenqian left, she contacted almost everyone who might know his whereabouts, but no one seemed to know where he had gone.

The first thing she thought of was Chen Liwei.

The answer the other party gave her was a long sigh, "Since he left my place, he hasn't contacted me again. Back then he didn't listen to my advice and went to Hangzhou desperately. Now it's a good thing, he even lost him. Yan Jia, we I really don't know what to say. There was something wrong with Lao Fang, but he saw you clearly. You, oh..."

She also approached Fang Zhenqian's younger brother.

Zhenkun reacted the most, "What, you guys are divorced? Why didn't my brother mention it to me? Well, what's going on? I don't know where he is, but he calls me occasionally. Ask me to give you Send a message?"

"No need." Yan Jia said sadly.She didn't know what to say, did she want to tell him that she had changed her mind?
When a person wants to hide, it is really difficult to find him.

The pleasant mobile phone rang, and Yan Jia lazily crawled over to pick it up to answer it.

It was Aju who called and asked her to go out to buy furniture.

Yan Jia thought it would be fine anyway, so she agreed.

They met in a big furniture store.Aju was still chattering non-stop, making tedious evaluations of furniture of various styles and materials, bargaining tirelessly with the shopkeeper, and feeling the joy of conquest.

In contrast, Yan Jia seemed a little silent.Even the eyes that look at things are half-hearted.

"Hey, Yan Jia, I asked you to come out to give me a reference, not to wander in the air! Can you be more professional?" Aju was very dissatisfied with her attitude.

Yan Jia defended, "I'm really not good at this, at most, I'll treat you to dinner later."

Aju immediately jumped up, "You said it, don't go back on your word."

Tired of shopping, the two found a nice restaurant near the store.The end of each year is a great opportunity for marriage, so many young people come to the furniture store, and even this restaurant is bustling.

Aju was not polite to Yan Jia at all, and ordered a luxurious business set meal, plus two servings of ice cream, and sat and enjoyed it with Yan Jia.

The lonely expression on Yan Jia's face made Aju feel really uncomfortable. A woman in love can't look down on the loneliness of her partner.

"You, since you quit your job, you have lost your three spirits and lost your six spirits. You are absent-minded all day long. What are you thinking?"

"It's nothing." Yan Jia glanced at her, then lowered her head and drank her juice indifferently.

Aju stared at her for a while, then suddenly opened her eyes, and asked with a smile: "Hey, do you want to introduce a boyfriend to you?"

Yan Jia only thought she was joking, gave her a white look, and continued to drink juice.

"I'm serious, you will be [-] after the new year, why don't you hurry up and send yourself out?"

"I think it's fine now."

"What's so good," Aju snorted, "You are lonely all day long, you... don't you still think about Fang Zhenqian?"

Yan Jia lowered her eyebrows and was pleasing to the eye, but her heart moved a little.

"He should have appeared long ago. For some people, if you miss it, you miss it. You wait in vain, and in the end, you find that what is wasted is your own time, which is meaningless. It is better to be realistic."

Aju's mind is always clearer than hers.

For some reason, Yan Jia suddenly thought of Hua Mei, the woman who couldn't let go of her for a long time and turned her head back, but in the end she left with nothing.

Yan Jia is a little uncertain, whether one day, she will become another Huamei?
Aju was still lobbying enthusiastically, but Yan Jia had already lost her interest. She seemed to realize in an instant that the people around her seemed to be paying attention to her with pity. This was definitely not what she wanted. However, the road ahead She was still at a loss as to what to do.

During the New Year's holiday, Yan Jia didn't respond to her parents' call to go to Beijing. She signed up for a super expensive tour group to Lijiang.These days, she urgently needs to be alone, away from the hustle and bustle. Although her parents are helpless, there is nothing they can do about her. After experiencing a series of unexpected setbacks, this daughter has begun to learn to make up her own mind.

She thought of the old fortune teller she met when she went to Shaoxing on the National Day. He taught her how to let go. During this trip, she hoped that she could find another true meaning of life.

However, when she returned to Hangzhou after enjoying the beautiful mountains and rivers in Lijiang, she found that she hadn't gained any inspiration.Perhaps, once it becomes utilitarian, people's hearts will be closed.

But after returning from the trip, she finally found a happy mood.

Time always slips away inadvertently, and in a blink of an eye, another year of spring and flowers bloom.

In early spring, Yan Ming came to Hangzhou on a business trip and met his younger sister by the way.

Now, Yan Jia, who lives alone, is no longer as careless and sloppy as before.

The house was cleaned and things were neatly organized.The sight in front of him made Yan Ming speechless, is this still his lazy little sister from before?

However, seeing Yan Jia manage his life in an orderly manner, he was greatly relieved.

"Mom often worries that you will be in a mess living alone. It seems that she underestimated your ability to take care of yourself."

"Everyone has potential, but it was very hard at the beginning." Yan Jia was chopping vegetables quickly in the kitchen while chatting with his brother, "I used to be at home, and my mother wouldn't let me do anything. Now that I think about it, it is a deprivation. Great opportunity for me to practice!"

Yan Ming put his hands on his waist, admiring his younger sister's capable appearance in cooking the kitchen. She was completely different from her delicate and crisp appearance when she was a child, which shows that people can change.

It took about forty minutes to finish a meal, three dishes and one soup, both meat and vegetables, clean and refreshing, Yan Ming expressed his satisfaction, and Yan Jia became more and more proud.

"Don't look at me living alone now, I won't treat myself badly! The most important thing in life is to enjoy food, of course! So three meals a day can't be sloppy."

She handed Yan Ming a pair of chopsticks and a spoon, and asked casually, "How is Mom and sister-in-law doing now?"

Yan Ming grinned, "As usual, I have to argue from time to time, mainly for the sake of the children, but it's much better than before. At least there will be no overnight hatred. Some things, just say it at the time. Since we want to live together, we just Let’s make room for each other and be considerate.”

Yan Jia pursed her lips, deeply convinced, "Yeah, it's not bad to have such a thing, the teeth and the tongue are still touching, not to mention that the two adults are both women!"

Yan Ming chuckled, "You don't seem to be a woman!"

He glanced at her, with some deep meaning in his eyes, raised his hand to pick up a chopstick, as if casually mentioned, "Last week, I saw Fang Zhenqian in Beijing."

Yan Jia was stunned, completely unaware that he would mention this person. Fortunately, the soup in her spoon was finished before he spoke.

She put down the spoon calmly, and smiled at Yan Ming, "Really? He's fine, right?"

"It should be okay. I'm a little thinner, but I seem to be in good spirits. He took the initiative to contact me and treated me to a meal."

"What did he go to Beijing for?" Yan Jia still couldn't help but want to be concerned. More than two months ago, she went to the sky to find him, "After he left Hangzhou...where did he go?"

"It's said that he participated in some kind of training for three months. I don't know what's going on with him now. If he doesn't say anything, I can't ask more questions. I feel like he doesn't have a fixed place to live."

Yan Jia was silently thinking about something.

"Jiajia," Yan Ming called out to her, "you don't hate him now, do you?"

Yan Jia shook her head, "There's nothing to hate, it's been so long, I hope we both can live well in the future."

Yan Ming breathed a sigh of relief.

"Brother, in fact, I should have learned from you a long time ago and became independent earlier. If I didn't stay by my parents' side, maybe I wouldn't suffer the hardships later."

She turned her head to look out the window, eyes blurred.

But even in that case, she might still meet Fang Zhenqian, fall in love with him without hesitation, and then get hurt and leave.

"I once told him before that I felt that there was no passion in life, and I wanted Hongxing to have sex. At that time, it was just a casual joke. I didn't expect the result to become like this. It can be seen that there are some things that cannot be said nonsense."

Sometimes, fate is like an equation written by God. There are many solutions, but all lead to the same goal, and there is no room for negotiation.

Yan Ming looked at her with deliberate eyes, "Jiajia, I feel that Fang Zhenqian, he still has you in his heart, he is the most loving man I have ever seen, although at that time...cough...I didn't say it for him Good words, if you treat him well... I can help you connect, isn't he still in the north..."

"No need, brother." Yan Jia interrupted him calmly, "Let's let the past go, I'm doing well now, I believe he is the same."

(End of this chapter)