The rest of your life is too long, you are too unforgettable

Chapter 49: Mu Xue Tage (2)
Slowly and hesitantly, she stretched out her arms to hug him tightly - he must be very afraid of the cold now after losing so much blood.

Mu Zheng rubbed lightly on the top of her hair.

It's not worth getting angry between two people over such a trivial matter. It's better to let her owe him one more time, and then slowly make up for it later.

It's just that when hugging each other to keep warm like this, he never thought that there might be no future between him and her.

Liang Zhixuan and Liang Wendong came back from sweeping the tomb together. Both siblings had red eye circles. They had obviously cried a lot, and their emotions were a little complicated. They didn't speak much on the way back.

When she got home, she spread out the dumpling wrappers she had bought, and began to chop the stuffing and seasonings to make dumplings. Liang Wendong approached curiously, "Sister, do you know how to make dumplings? Are we going to eat this today?"

She smiled, "This is for Mu Zheng. Today is the winter solstice, and everyone in the north eats dumplings."

Liang Wendong didn't speak any more, and when she looked back, he had already returned to the room.

Liang Zhixuan made two drawers of dumplings, half boiled and half steamed, then boiled another pot of water, made some glutinous rice balls and boiled them in the pot.

She brought two bowls of glutinous rice balls into Liang Wendong's room, and he was sitting on the bed looking through old photo albums at home.

She handed him the bowl, "What are you looking at?"

Liang Wendong smiled, "Look at when we were young, it was our birthday, this is Chinese New Year... here, this is also eating glutinous rice balls."

Liang Zhixuan looked at it and smiled, "It was so young at that time, you were not half as tall as me. At that time, the adults were worried that you would not grow up!"

"Who made you really tall, and you're not short now." He scooped up the glutinous rice balls and took a bite, "It's delicious, my favorite peanut filling."

She didn't really have any appetite, so she watched him eat, "When you like to eat, buy some quick-frozen ones and put them in the refrigerator. It's good for breakfast and supper, especially when you go to work in the morning. It's not good to be hungry, you know?"

Liang Wendong responded, and said with a smile: "You are becoming more and more like your mother. You see, your parents were still so young at that time, and your mother is just like you now."

She took the photo he pulled out at random. It was a group photo of his parents. The outfit looked very rustic now, but they were sitting together smiling so happily.

Liang Wendong suddenly pointed at the photo with his finger and said: "Sister, look at the words on the back of this photo, what is written?"

She turned the photo over, and her father's handwriting was a bit scribbled, but she could read it.

However, after she understood it, a deeper grief flooded her heart.

Seeing her face change, Liang Wendong snatched the photo and recognized with difficulty: "Qin...after the extubation...I will die first...Poverty without suffering, children...live a clean life..."

The scribbled handwriting was not fully decipherable, but he seemed to understand the coherence of the meaning, and raised his head anxiously and said, "Dad knew that Mom would be extubated... because he didn't want to drag us down?"

In fact, he still didn't dare to face it calmly. It should be that his father was by his side when his mother was extubated, or even he started to end her pain and the grievances between Liang and Mu's family.

However, he couldn't make such a decision on his own. This must be what my mother meant.

Liang Guoxing was unwilling to face such a cruel fact until his death, and even subconsciously felt that he did not do it after suffering from Alzheimer's disease.

Faced with the belated truth, Liang Zhixuan was so sad that she couldn't help herself, and ran back to her room covering her mouth.

She was locked in the room alone, and cried again.

Liang Wendong was so worried that she wouldn't open the door when she knocked, but finally found the key and opened the door. Seeing her sitting on the ground crying, he walked over and hugged her in his arms, his voice choked up, "Sister..."

He didn't know how to comfort her. Although he was also sad, after all, he didn't directly face and participate in many things, which was not as intuitive as her feelings.He could only pat her on the shoulder, "Thinking of the best, at least the death of parents was not caused by Mu Zheng, any disagreement is just a misunderstanding, you and him... can still be together."

Liang Zhixuan looked at him through tears, "So many things have happened, do you think I can still be with him?"

"It doesn't matter what other people think, I just want my sister to be happy."

She squeezed out a smile and couldn't help touching his face. This brother has really grown up.

She has nothing to worry about, it's time to go around and have a look.

After the winter solstice, Liang Zhixuan didn't show up, but the dumplings she made were brought over.

Mu Zheng only took a bite and asked, "Where is she?"

Mu Rong hesitated, and Xiao Zeng came over with his mobile phone, "Fourth brother, your call is from Ms. Liang."

Mu Zheng held the phone to his ear. He already had a bad feeling, so before Liang Zhixuan could speak, he said, "No matter where you are now, I'll give you time to come to me immediately."

The other end was silent for two seconds before saying: "Sorry, I can't come, my flight is about to take off."

Mu Zheng held the phone tightly, as if he didn't hear what she said, "The dumplings you made are the worst I've ever eaten. If you come back now, I can ask Mrs. Wang to teach you, or my sister-in-law... ..."

"Mu Zheng," she interrupted him calmly, "Stop talking, it's useless, I'm leaving. After leaving Nancheng, I may never come back again."

"Are you going? Where are you going?" He couldn't think of where else she could go.

She seemed to understand his thoughts, "The sky is big and the earth is big, there is always a place for me to stay. I don't think we will meet again in the future, you... Take care of yourself."

He didn't speak, and she didn't have anything else to say. She wanted to say thank you again - since he blocked the knife for her until now, she hasn't really thanked him.

However, in the end, they still didn't say it out, maybe this is the best, and both of them are fine.

The two were silent, silent, and the radio at the airport was always ringing behind them, as if urging people to leave.Knowing that she was going to hang up, Mu Zheng stood up suddenly and shouted: "Liang Zhixuan, you dare to hang up...you dare to leave Nancheng and try it! I said you owe me, forever! Why do you... Why just leave like this, you speak clearly! Speak clearly!"

She, a liar, tricked him into believing that she would come back, tricked him into thinking that the two of them would embrace each other for a lifetime.From the beginning until now, she has been lying to him, and she never really wanted to stay by his side and be with him.

All the good things are illusions, and what he got in exchange for his life is nothing more than a show of hypocrisy.

She lied to him, but she refused to lie to him for the rest of her life.

Before Liang Zhixuan could speak, tears were already rolling down the corners of her eyes. Fortunately, there was no one around, so she wiped them calmly, and then said: "Mu Zheng, there are too many things between us, and it was wrong from the beginning. After so many years...I'm tired, really tired, and I don't want to go on like this. Believe it or not, I can give up what you can, but I just can't...I can't stay by your side anymore. "

She wants to be alone and live quietly for a while. Those feelings may or may not be cleared up, but it doesn't matter.In some relationships, it is destined that there is no coincidence, nor is there such a thing as waiting.

There seemed to be a lump in Mu Zheng's throat, "Does it really make you feel so uncomfortable to be with me?"

"There is no happy memory between us, is there?"

Two people who are lonely and sensitive in their hearts take pleasure in hurting each other. What is there to cherish in such a relationship?

In fact, why ask?During the days when he was injured, they got along day and night, she had a headache and she was overwhelmed, there were traces to follow.

Maybe there will be an indefinite period, and neither of them can say goodbye.Mu Zheng simply threw away the phone, took the car keys and was about to go out.

Mu Rong stopped him, "Where are you going, even if you go to the airport now, it's too late, you can't catch up with her!"

"Step aside!"

Mu Rong didn't move, "You haven't healed yet, so you can't make such a fuss. Besides, what if you catch up with her, she doesn't want to come back with you, are you forcing her like before?"

Mu Zheng's eyes were red, and he grabbed his shirt, "Shut up! I told you to get out of the way...get out of the way, don't stop me!"

"I won't let it! If you have the ability today, you can get over me, or stay at home!"

He didn't expect Mu Zheng to make a real move. In fact, he just wanted to stop him, and he didn't dare to fight back at all, so he was hit several times for no reason.But Mu Zheng was like crazy, and Mu Rong didn't realize something was wrong until he was exhausted and flung himself on the hood, curled up in pain.

The blood seeped through the dressing, and it was a bright red patch, probably the wound had split open, but he couldn't feel the pain numbly.

There was a greater pain deep in his body, oppressing him, making him unable to breathe or move, and he couldn't cry out even if he wanted to, like a wounded animal, he could only hear his rough breathing.

He lost her after all, as if she had never been in his life.

It's snowing in the winter, and it's another year in a blink of an eye.

Mu Rong shivered as soon as he entered the room, took off his coat and yelled: "Ah, brother, it's better that you are comfortable here, it's freezing to death outside! It's snowing even in Nancheng, which makes people alive gone?"

This year, the whole country suffered from extreme cold weather. He traveled from Beijing to the south city to avoid the cold. Unexpectedly, the cold wave seemed to be chasing him. Within a few days, the south city was also affected, and it was the first snowfall in nearly a century.

Standing in the central square of the city, he was almost frozen into a sculpture, and [-] alpacas ran past in his heart—whether he had some misunderstanding about the winter in the south, how could it be so cold, even colder than Beijing!

It's still Mu Zheng who knows how to enjoy. It's still the same villa. The underfloor heating was renovated before winter, and this year a fireplace with an open fire was added. Once you enter the door and sit in the living room, you will feel warm.

Mu Zheng knew that he was back and didn't look back. He sat on the rattan chair with a thin blanket on his body, and kept looking out of the French windows.

The two cats, Pirate and Xiaobai, were lying beside his chair, lazily and motionless.

"Is it snowing?" he asked.

"Well, yes. I heard that this is the first snow in Nancheng in the past hundred years." Sitting on the carpet, Mu Rong grabbed the cherries on the coffee table and fed them to his mouth. "You really should go to the street to see, How many people in Nancheng have never seen snow, the old and the young are all crazy."

Mu Zheng still didn't speak, completely immersed in his own thoughts.

Mu Rong sighed, and patted the handle of the rattan chair vigorously, "I said, didn't you go to the doctor again today?"

"I'm not sick, see a doctor."

Mu Rong clicked his tongue: "No one said you were sick, so you can just talk to someone, isn't it good? This doctor is also very difficult to make appointments. You missed the appointment last time, and you won't go today. All right?"

Mu Zheng didn't seem to listen. He didn't remember the day when he saw a doctor. He only knew that Liang Zhixuan left on this day last year.

Everyone stopped him, he insisted on going his own way, tore the wound, and went back to the hospital to lie down for more than half a month.After he recovered, he never thought of Liang Zhixuan again, nor did he mention looking for someone, but his body has always been like this, intermittently good and bad.The elders in the family said that he had lost his vitality, that he couldn't make up for the big fish and meat, and that he had no effect after eating deer antler and bear bile, and the whole family was worried.

During those six months, Mu Rong only saw him eat something with gusto once. It was in the middle of the night, thinking about the chocolate cake in the refrigerator, he quietly came downstairs and saw Mu Zheng sitting at the table. While eating supper.

Those were the dumplings that Liang Zhixuan brought to him before he left. They were frozen in the refrigerator, and he was reluctant to finish them all the time.

Forcibly erasing the memory in my mind, but my senses are still only thinking about the taste that belongs to that person.

At that time, Mu Rong hesitated - did they do something wrong, shouldn't they have kept Liang Zhixuan's whereabouts from him, and shouldn't have even stopped him from chasing people at the airport?
Maybe there is hope?Maybe he really went, and Liang Zhixuan was moved by him?
But all the women in the family, the eldest sister-in-law, the second sister-in-law, the third sister, and even Hemei all said with certainty that there was nothing wrong.The eldest brother also patted him on the shoulder as if he had come over and said: "It is of course best for lovers to get married eventually, but sometimes people who love each other may not necessarily be together. If the relationship lasts for a long time, how can it be in the court?" Day and night?"

He probably won't be able to comprehend such a profound truth in his life, and Mu Zheng has become very, very busy since then.Although the company's equity is clear, just the daily affairs are complicated.His father gave up all the shares in his hand to recover from his illness; Feng Yaru also simply signed an agreement with him to become a person acting in concert, and took Feng Xiaoxiao abroad for treatment.He should feel relaxed when all the troublesome things are solved one by one, but the fact is that he paralyzes himself with high-intensity work, like a robot.

He became even more reticent, hardly going out except for work, occasionally seeing him playing the piano at home, and going to the hospital when he was sick, three o'clock and one line, monotonous and boring.

After Mu Kun relaxed his mind and recuperated, his physical condition improved. He was more concerned about his son's immediate happiness than what happened after his death. When he saw Mu Zheng like this, he was worried, and he tried to introduce a girl to him.

After all, forgetting old love can only rely on time and new love.

Mu Rong persuaded him: "Forget it, do you think he seems to have that kind of thought now?"

Ever since Liang Zhixuan left, Mu Zheng didn't seem to be interested in anything, not to mention women, he used to like playing ball and dancing, and sometimes went clubbing and drinking, but now he's probably unfamiliar with it; Unhappy, it looks like chewing gravel to others.

He seems to be more closed in his own world, and his reactions to people and pain are a little slow, which may not be felt by others, but Mu Rong is his twin brother, and he is the first to realize that his unhappiness has reached a level. critical point.He's kind of living like a walking dead, and if it goes on like this, it may be more severe depression, or even self-mutilation.

So instead of introducing him to friends of the opposite sex, it is better to make an appointment with a competent psychologist.

But people like Mu Zheng are often the worst patients. They don't cooperate well with treatment, and they miss appointments with doctors every now and then.The big professor probably couldn't stand him anymore, so he transferred him to one of his favorite students.

This is a rare beautiful doctor who is very responsible.

Mu Zheng was not surprised by her visit, and said coldly, "Go back, I'm not sick, and I don't need any more treatment."

Qi Yan took out a pen and paper, "We don't have to define it as treatment, it can be used as consultation, or chatting with friends."

"I'm not your friend."

"You can take it as it is."

He glanced at her suddenly, "I remember one of your codes of conduct: you can't have other feelings for your patients."

Qi Yan froze for a moment, "What do you mean? Do you think I have different feelings for you?"

"I'm not as familiar with psychology as you are, but I'm a man." Have a man's intuition.

Qi Yan smiled and did not deny it, "Even if it is, but you are not my patient yet. You didn't go even once when we made an appointment, and I haven't had time to create a file for you."

"So you found it here?"

"I just think it's better to change the way, start with friends, maybe there will be different gains."

Mu Zheng stood up and said indifferently: "You should know everything about me. If this is the case, you should understand that there is no such possibility."

He was tired of coping, and felt that there was no room for freedom in this world, no wonder Liang Zhixuan wanted to leave.

"Mr. Mu."

Qi Yan called to stop him from behind, and he stopped out of politeness without looking back.

She didn't mean any reluctance, she just said: "The weather outside is sunny today, and the air is also very good. You should go for a walk."

Yes, he should go outside more often, but whenever he goes out, he always goes to places related to Liang Zhixuan without knowing it.

The ground of her university campus is always covered with dead leaves, the neighborhood where she once lived is still mottled and outdated, and the construction site where her father died began to rise tall buildings... Even if you think of going to other cities, you can’t avoid the airports and flights she once served .

This city is full of her shadow, and it is about his and her memory.

He drove around block after block, and finally stopped in front of a new auto repair shop.Liang Wendong looked helpless when he saw him, "Ask my sister again? She's fine, but I really don't know where she is."

The auto repair shop he served opened a new store, and he is now in charge of the new store.Mu Zheng came here about once or twice a month. He was in a bad state at first, but then he gradually regained his composure. In fact, there was only one purpose, which was to ask him where Liang Zhixuan had gone.

(End of this chapter)