let me look at you

Chapter 13 Allow me to look at you - 1997 (1)
You say, what should I do?Say something to me, just one word.

Ju Nian went back to the house and brought out an old ladder, leaning it against the loquat tree, Han Shu wanted to say: "I'll do it." She had already climbed up it unsteadily.As a gentleman, Han Shu took it for granted to reach out to help the foot of the ladder, but Ju Nian didn't appreciate it. She stepped on the fourth step tremblingly, as if struggling for a while, before saying: "Well, can you please?" You let go of your hand, your hand is shaking so badly, I don't want to die yet."

Han Shu was a little annoyed at the moment, he thought she was deliberately against him, but her fear when she clung to the ladder was so serious that he had to believe that he seemed to be doing a disservice, so he let go embarrassingly.After he withdrew his kindness, Xie Ju Nian said thank you very ignorant of the times.Hearing her sincere thanks, Han Shu almost threw away the apologies he had accumulated over the years to her, and thought bitterly in his heart, it would be better to throw you to death.But things backfired. Although Xie Ju Nian was teetering on the ladder, he miraculously stood still.She picked a handful for Han Shu, not to mention using it to boil water to treat cough, even if it was used as a meal, it could also keep him from starving for a while.

Han Shu doubted the subtext of her actions, she didn't want to give him the chance to ask for it next time if he ran out of it this time.But he said in his heart that if this matter is not resolved, even if she digs the tree roots, it will be endless.

When he left, Ju Nian said goodbye.Once again, Han Shu deeply despised her insincerity, because when he walked near the car and turned back, he clearly saw her secretly put a lock on the iron gate.What goodbye, she sure hoped never to see each other.

On this side, Xie Ju Nian closed the door, just in time to hear the sound of someone jumping back on the bed quickly.She walked back to the room, passed a room with the door ajar, and opened the door, only to see the little figure on the bed in an extremely standard sleeping position.

Ju Nian said to the person on the bed disapprovingly: "Put it on, try your best."

After a while, the girl got out of bed and followed Ju Nian into the kitchen.

"I saw it, who is he?" Nowadays, children are all precocious, in their early ten years old, they have reached the age of doubting everything, and they are beginning to be extremely curious about things between men and women.Ju Nian thought, compared with them, she was really far behind. When she was in elementary school, she still firmly believed that she was pulled out by her mother when she went to the toilet.

"Huh?" Ju Nian looked back at the girl, "Oh, he's alone."

Her answer was basically nonsense, obviously unable to satisfy the curiosity of a child who was about to enter puberty.

"I know he's a man! It's strange what you're talking about, girl. We haven't caused any trouble, have we?"

"There are so many troubles that we can get into." Ju Nian smiled, who did this child inherit from? When she said the word "trouble", there was no fear in her tone, but a bit of excitement.In fact, she didn't understand at all that the real trouble was not the seasoning of life.

The girl was obviously quite dissatisfied with her aunt's perfunctory attitude: "Auntie, don't lie to me, I'm not an eight-year-old child, I'm ten years old."

Although Ju Nian didn't know the essential difference between an eight-year-old and a ten-year-old, she decided to let the girl go back to bed after answering the question: "It's just someone I knew before. Loquat leaf, a little excited. You know, he has been coughing for a long time."

"But I think you're weird."

"Why do you say that?"

The girl curled her lips: "Your smile is fake."

"If you have such strong observation skills when writing compositions, I guess your Chinese scores will improve faster."

"You hate him?"

Ju Nian finally couldn't help laughing, she was most afraid of children pretending to be adults.

"Do you know what hate is?"

"I hate Zhang Li when she speaks ill of me to other students in the class, and I want to rub her into a ball. Otherwise, you just hate your rag."

Ju Nian lowered her head subconsciously, the stove was empty, she hadn't boiled water at all, and the rag she was going to use to wipe the table was almost torn by her.She threw the rag back on the chopping board and washed her hands: "Yes, this idea is very creative. Here, your milk."

"Auntie, is he your ex-boyfriend?" The girl took the milk and sat on the small bench in the kitchen. The child's gossip spirit is also very strong.

"Why are you so interested in a stranger?" Ju Nian sat beside her.

"Because he's handsome."

The key words of the problem finally surfaced. The child is not forgiving, not because she is afraid of getting into trouble, love or hate, true or false, but because she thinks others are handsome.

"Hehe." Ju Nian laughed twice, looking at the pair of eyes that almost turned into a heart shape on the smiling face opposite, "Adults and children really have a lot of difference in aesthetics."

"If I had known him before, I would never forget it. Auntie, will he still come? Did you tell him that our loquat tree will still bear fruit?"

"Well, probably not."

The child rested his chin on one hand in disappointment, and lost his mind for some reason.After a while, a sentence suddenly popped up: "Auntie, do you think my father is more handsome than him?"

Ju Nian is used to no matter what is discussed, the final topic is related to her father.

"Of course, your father is very handsome. You speak as if you have never seen your father before."

"No!" The child put down the bottle, and under the excitement, there was still white milk froth on the corner of his mouth, "I'm not talking about Sinian's father, I'm talking about my own father, the one who gave birth to me!"

At this time, Ju Nian would rather that she continue to be entangled in the question of "hate or not", at least that kind of question is abstract enough for a child, and her answer can also be abstract.One of the things she did wrong was trying to bring this child to the parents last year and let her meet "father-in-law and mother-in-law".She feels that after so many years, her parents should be able to forgive her, and the child also needs a more normal family atmosphere.As a result, the stalemate between myself and my parents has not changed for many years, and the old and talkative mother even tells the fact that her cousin Xie Sinian is just the child's adoptive father in front of the child.

The child was already nine years old at the time, and because her parents were not around since she was a child, she had a special sensitivity to her own life experience. She was still watching cartoons at the time, and she actually understood the meaning of a sentence mixed in the quarrel.

What surprised Ju Nian even more was that the child didn't cry at that time, and there was still a strange excitement when he came back here.Perhaps in this girl's heart, she has been looking forward to a turnaround in her life. Her father is not the mysterious Sinian father who is never around, and her mother is not a dead person. There is no need for her to be with an ordinary aunt. Live in solitude.One day, her young, lively and loving parents will come to her side stepping on colorful auspicious clouds, pick her up, and live a happy life from then on.Ju Nian's mother's words just confirmed her hazy fantasy, making her feel that all this is possible and her life will turn around.

Since then, the child has never stopped being highly enthusiastic about finding relatives. She kept asking Ju Nian about the whereabouts and conditions of her biological parents.When Ju Nian repeatedly told her that she didn't know, she began to fantasize about her parents again. Anyone she likes, a star she likes, or even the protagonist of a cartoon may have something to do with her life experience. get in touch.Answering her endless and ever-changing questions made Ju Nian very annoying. If the child was not in a boarding elementary school, she would have turned gray hair in front of these questions sooner or later.

The most frightening thing is that I don’t know if it’s the TV series or the shoujo manga that caused the trouble. One day, the child even asked her seriously: “Auntie, tell me the truth, was I born by you? You gave birth to me when you were young. I dare not admit it, so I was adopted by Si Nian's father. Are you my mother?"

Ju Nian was dumbfounded at the time, and hurriedly used many photos and many words to finally convince the child that she had never given birth, although she was eager to have such a big baby.

How disappointed the child was at that time, tears were in her eyes for a long, long time, Ju Nian pretended not to know that she curled up in the bed and cried, because she was completely helpless in the face of this disappointment.In the face of many bad answers, Ju Nian was willing to give her a not so bad answer.Who doesn't have fantasies, didn't Ju Nian fantasize that his true identity was a princess when he was young.She put a pea under her mattress and tried desperately to feel it, but she had a good night's dream. She didn't know where the pea rolled. How could a real princess be so nervous?

Isn't fantasy just to be shattered?
Fortunately, since then, questions about biological parents have significantly decreased in frequency.Just as Ju Nian breathed a sigh of relief, she didn't expect Han Shu's appearance today to disturb the peace again, making her most troublesome question mark appear in front of her again.

"You look so cute, of course your biological parents are not so ugly. You think of them in your heart, and they also think of you in your heart. Maybe one day you can really be reunited." Ju Nian is no longer Then try to convince the child that she was born by his cousin Xie Sinian.Maybe it's better for a child to make up a parent in her mind that will never show up than to let her accept the fact that her Snian dad hasn't been around for three years.

The girl seemed to appreciate the compliment, and she finally managed to divert her attention: "But Zhang Li said that I am not as beautiful as her!"

"Zhang Li is jealous." Ju Nian said in a very fair tone. At this time, of course Zhang Li must be wronged.

"I also don't think Zhang Li is pretty, and her mother is also fat. By the way, Auntie, I almost forgot one thing. Can I invite Li Xiaomeng and the others to my house to play at noon tomorrow?"

"Of course." Ju Nian pinched her cheeks, "Wow, Li Xiaomeng is your new friend?"

"Yeah, they didn't play with me before. Many people wanted to play with them, but they didn't like it. Now they agreed to let me join the four sisters. Li Xiaomeng said that he had never been to our house and wanted to come and see it." .”

"Great, what should I prepare for tomorrow?" Ju Nian was really happy. This child has never had many friends, and loneliness was not her intention.

"You buy us potato chips, remember not to have tomato flavor, Li Xiaomeng doesn't like tomato flavor, chocolate, and apples...don't buy them from Uncle Cai's store, there is nothing good in Uncle Cai's store. And Auntie, can you not tell them that I don't know who my parents are?"

Ju Nian bowed his head and thought for a while, then smiled and said, "I'm up to you, princess. Oh, I should write a list and buy it for you in the afternoon. I'll come back early tomorrow to cook."

"You buy me a pizza, they won't like what you make."

"Pizza, no problem, no problem. By the way, I have to clean up the house." Ju Nian put on the posture that he was going to be busy.

"Auntie, I...I have another question."

"Just ask."

"Is it possible that I'm the child you had with that uncle?" The child was still struggling with the hope of a handsome father.

(End of this chapter)