let me look at you

Chapter 14 Allow me to look at you - 1997 (2)
Ju Nian's smile froze instantly on his face.She grabbed the rag again and wiped the stove quickly, probably realizing that the child was still standing there waiting for her reply, she turned around and pointed at the timid child, and said firmly: "Xie Feiming, let me tell you again. , he has nothing to do with you. Sorry."

At dusk on Sunday, the girl was holding her badminton racket and was walking home without tears.The weather on this day was very good, even the sunset was red, but it was obviously not a beautiful day for her.

In the morning, Feiming should have had a premonition. She couldn't comb her hair well. A hair clip bought by Aunt Ju Nian caught a few strands of hair, which made her very painful. She rummaged through the skirts in the old closet. , nothing can make her look better, although she doesn't have as many beautiful clothes as Li Xiaomeng, but when her classmates come to her house as a guest, she doesn't want to look like a gray mouse.

Li Xiaomeng and the others arrived a little later than the scheduled time, and Feiming stretched his neck and waited for a long time at the door of Uncle Cai's small shop, hoping for her "honored guest".Just planning to lead the little classmate home like a master, an unfortunate thing happened, and before she had time to remind her, Li Xiaomeng stepped on a pile of stray dog ​​excrement at Uncle Cai's door , pretty pink doll shoes covered with brown filth.No wonder Uncle Cai looked apologetic and expressed deep sympathy, but this did not make Li Xiaomeng feel better.Li Xiaomeng took the paper towel that Feiming hastily handed over, resisted the desire to vomit and wiped the shoes hastily, and said to her classmate in an astonishing tone: "Xie Feiming, what the hell do you live in?" A little friend wanted to laugh but didn't dare to laugh, Feiming couldn't get rid of the embarrassment on his face.

Next, unpleasant things happened again and again. First, the students quickly lost interest in Feiming's small, empty courtyard. No matter how Feiming emphasized, they didn't think the unattractive loquat tree was interesting.Then, the few of them huddled together in Feiming's small room, without computers or novelty toys, everything was so dull and boring.Feiming tried hard to tell some jokes to amuse her friends, but she found that the way she was helpless was already funny.

After agreeing to have lunch at her house, the little girls counted the time and waited boringly for the arrival of noon.Because Feiming said, soon, her aunt will bring back many, many delicious things for them.Even so, Li Xiaomeng, the most influential girl in the class, still inadvertently showed restrained impatience. Although she didn't say anything, her bored expression made Feiming deeply feel that she had done something stupid. It is true that there is nothing interesting in my home, but it wasted a precious weekend morning of my classmates.In order to make everyone look less bored, she rummaged through the photo albums at home, and several girls circulated them, and Feiming cheered up and explained the origin of each photo to them.

Most of the photos in the album are Feiming herself. She has loved taking pictures since she was a child, and she can pose in many beautiful poses in front of the camera.Aunt Ju Nian carefully collected every photo in chronological order. However, while the thick volume of single-person photos made the other students feel tired, they also raised questions.

"Xie Feiming, why don't you have photos of other people in your family, they are all photos of you alone, so boring, don't you ever take photos with your parents?"

"Yeah, I've always heard you talk about your aunt, why haven't you mentioned your parents?"

"Is there no one else in your family except an aunt?"

"Of course I have mom and dad. My dad is a painter, a famous painter. But he is very busy all year round. He often travels all over the country, no, the whole world, so he is rarely at home." It has been said countless times, and it is so proficient that it cannot be added.

"Really? Then why don't you have any paintings by your father at home." A classmate didn't seem to believe it.

"because……"

Before Feiming could find a good reason, Li Xiaomeng snatched a sentence with a smile: "Feiming, your father is so famous, why did you let your aunt live in such a place? Does your father really love you?"

"Of course!" Feiming closed the album and said loudly.The doubts from her classmates hurt her self-esteem, "Of course my father loves me, a hundred times more than anyone else! This is my aunt's house, not my father's house. I just live here temporarily, no need to After a while, my dad will come back and pick me up."

"Is it true, Xie Feiming, could it be that the adults in the family lied to you? The adults like to tell those orphans that their parents have gone to far away places, and this is always shown on TV."

"You are the orphan, I am not. I said that I have a father, who is younger than your father, and very handsome." Feiming retorted angrily, she could no longer care about building a good relationship with her classmates.

"Since your father is so handsome, why don't you find a photo for us to see?"

"Look for it!"

Holding back tears, Feiming rushed into Aunt Ju Nian's room, opened the drawers, opened the box, and searched angrily.She prayed, let her find something, she must find something, she can't let her classmates see the joke.

I don’t know if the god in the sky heard her call, but at the bottom of Aunt Ju Nian’s drawer, Feiming found an old photo that had changed color a bit. It showed four young boys and girls dressed in sports, wearing Standing on the simple podium on the campus with their respective rackets, each holding a red certificate of honor in their hands, which seems to be a picture of the winners after a certain campus badminton competition.

The one standing on the far left looking at the camera and grinning is Aunt Ju Nian. Although she looked very young at that time, except for her hair, she hasn't changed much.On the right of my aunt is a boy with surprisingly short hair. He also has a bright smile on his face, but his eyes are fixed on the beat in his hand, as if that is his pride.The girl in the middle is also the same as my aunt when she was young, with long hair and a delicate face like a doll. At first glance, she is more beautiful and eye-catching than her aunt.The corners of her mouth were raised slightly, and her eyes were looking straight ahead. The ten-year-old Feiming couldn't find an appropriate adjective for that look.The most important thing is the boy on the far right, leaning slightly to the left, his eyes do not know who or what is looking at the left, his nose is straight, his eyes are beautiful, it is him!Feiming thought it was him.

She grabbed the photo, rushed back to her room like a whirlwind, showed it in front of the other three girls like a treasure, pointed to the boy on the far right and said, "Did you see it? This is my father's photo when he was young." Photo." She was a little afraid that her nose would grow longer like a lying Pinocchio.

"Really? Xie Feiming, is this your dad? Wow, he looked so cool when he was young."

"Originally, Feiming is also very good-looking."

Feiming blushed, and the feeling of pride diluted her guilt of lying.

Li Xiaomeng couldn't help but picked up the photo and looked at it carefully: "Xie Feiming, your father won badminton prizes when he was a student, no wonder you play well."

"not bad."

"Eh, that's not right." Li Xiaomeng turned around the back of the photo, looked at the line of small words on it, and read slowly, "Xu-I-look at-you. In 1997...Xie Feiming , In 1997, your father was still a middle school student, this is too ridiculous. Haha, you don’t make drafts when you lie!”

"Let me take a look." The other two female classmates came up together, "Yeah, Xie Feiming, you are too funny, you can find anyone to be your father? I think you don't have a father. Big talker."

Feiming pushed them away vigorously and snatched back the photos without saying a word, but he couldn't find the words to explain it to him.

At this moment, the sound of Aunt Ju Nian opening the iron gate came from the yard.

"I'm back, and the pizza is back." Ju Nian walked in with a shopping bag in one hand and a pizza in the other, and saw the chaotic scene. Feiming, who was smaller than the other three girls, seemed to be on the verge of death in the next second. I was about to shed tears, holding an old photo tightly in my hand.

Ju Nian was stunned for a moment, and quickly smiled and said to the children: "I'm really sorry, the bus is a little later than usual, everyone, come and eat."

"Auntie, Xie Feiming lied. She said that the person in the photo is her father." Li Xiaomeng, who pursued the truth, said relentlessly.

"Is there? Let me see." Ju Nian reached out to take the photo in Feiming's hand. The crumpled photo was brought over.She looked at it seriously for a while, "Oh, it looks a bit like it, but Feiming, your father is a little more handsome than the one in the photo... The pizza smells good, it will cool down after a while. "

This turmoil was so vaguely covered up, but the pizza meal was not as good as expected.In the rush of Ju Nian, he only remembered not to buy tomato-flavored French fries, but he forgot that there are many tomatoes hidden in the pizza filling.Everyone seemed to have no appetite. After eating a few mouthfuls, the classmates offered to leave. Ju Nian held back a few words, but Feiming tightly pursed his lips and remained silent.

Ju Nian sent the children away, and when she got home, she heard Feiming's cry before she entered the house. She was lying on the table, so sad that it seemed that the whole world disappeared.

"You scold me, why don't you scold me?" Feiming shouted at Ju Nian who was clearing the table.

"You help me tidy up, and I won't scold you." Ju Nian said with a smile.

"I'm a big talker, a big talker without parents, why don't you speak out?"

Facing the crying of the little girl, Ju Nian tried to touch her hair, but she cried and avoided it.

"Everyone has parents, whether they are around or not. Feiming, just like you hope, maybe they miss you somewhere, but they have a last resort."

"They don't want me anymore. I hate you guys!"

Ju Nian took a bite of the pizza in the box and smiled bitterly: "I hate this pizza."

When Feiming returned to his room to change clothes in Ju Nian, he grabbed her racket and went out the door.Knowing that her temper was unreasonable, she walked to the door of her aunt's room and raised her hand to knock on the door, but she was too embarrassed to say that apology.She didn't know that through a thin door panel, her aunt of the orange age silently smoothed the wrinkles on the photo, muttering in a low voice.

"Tell me, what should I do? Just say something to me, just one sentence."

Coming out of the house, Feiming was always depressed. She played badminton with Uncle Cai's son and daughter all afternoon, and it didn't make her feel better to beat others to the feathers.The most irritating thing was that when she was catching a ball, her racket brushed the iron rod of a nearby resident who was drying clothes, and the badminton racket shaft of the 35-yuan badminton racket that Aunt Ju Nian bought for her was actually bent.

Just like that, she sat blankly holding the deformed racket in front of Uncle Cai's store for a long time, until Uncle Cai reminded her that it was getting dark, and then walked slowly towards home.For a short distance, she felt that she was walking extremely lonely, as if the whole world had abandoned her, and she was more pitiful than the little match girl.

Then, she heard someone say to her: "You have a good backhand smash."

(End of this chapter)