let me look at you

Chapter 34

Intimate and tacit silence is actually the most pleasing thing in the world, but this time, Ju Nian's silence is uneasy.

On the day when the final exam results came out, Ju Nian went to the playground to watch the honor roll, and only the top ten were announced for each grade.There were a lot of students crowded in front of the bulletin board, and Ju Nian waited for a long time to fill a vacant seat. There are eight classes in No. 400 Middle School and more than 10 students.

Ju Nian is unfamiliar with such things as the Honor Roll. She is used to being silent and unknown, like a drop of water safely hidden in the ocean, so seeing the big three words "Thank you Ju Nian" on the big red paper, Can't help but feel a kind of weirdness.Of course, as a student after all, it is always a blessing to do well in the exam, so when the classmates she knew said to her in envy or surprise, "OK, thank you, you are in the top ten of the grade", she reported With a shy and humble smile.

When Han Shu and a few of his classmates also walked over, Ju Nian felt that it was time for him to retreat, couldn't afford to provoke him, could he still hide?

Han Shu's grades are said to be good, but this time he is not in the top ten. Perhaps too many hobbies have distracted his attention to some extent.

"Ah, Han Shu, you are only one point away from No.10." Ju Nian heard a girl who looked like Han Shu's classmate say regretfully.

Han Shu smiled at the girl and didn't say anything, he concentrated on looking at the names on the list, probably because his peripheral vision accidentally caught Ju Nian who was about to leave, he glanced at her and pretended he didn't know anything did not see it.

Zhou Liang stood on tiptoe and held Han Shu's shoulder: "If you go down the list, you will be No. 11, and in our class, you are also in the top three, which is good enough."

Han Shu moved his shoulders and took off Zhou Liang's arm, and said flatly, "What's so great, our old man said that he has never been in the top three in the exam since he was a child, and my sister probably is not much worse. I am a member of the Han family. The first unworthy descendant who falls out of the top ten will be punished when he returns."

As he spoke, he glanced at Ju Nian again intentionally or unintentionally, that look made Ju Nian feel as if he had become a sinner who promoted domestic violence.She seems to have heard from the chats of her parents that the seemingly gentle and elegant Dean Han is extremely strict in teaching his son. Compared with the doting of the dean's wife on his precious son, he believes in the idea of ​​a filial son under the stick, and moved Hands are pretty ruthless.Usually it was he who "educated" his son with grief, while his wife tried her best to obstruct him, and the whole building could hear the movement, but Mingli couldn't tell anyone.

Han Shu wore a red sports jacket today, which was an extremely flamboyant color, but he still looked quite refreshing and pleasing to the eye.He is this kind of person. When he has to wear a school uniform, he is the one who is the most neatly dressed. If he can not wear a school uniform, he will seize every possible opportunity and beat him to death.Ju Nian imagined that Han Shu would be beaten up by Dean Han with a whip, and he felt a little unkind.

"If you want me to tell you, it's also unlucky. Well, if No.10 fills in a multiple-choice question incorrectly, this name should be yours." Li Zhihe also saw Ju Nian and fanned the flames.

Han Shu didn't take it seriously: "What are you talking about?"

Ju Nian has successfully escaped here, she thought, this time Han Shu is actually reasonable, the political textbook is right, you have to look at the problem objectively and comprehensively, maybe it is the same when you look at people.

Unexpectedly, Han Shu quickly subverted her point of view with actions.

Ju Nian rides a bicycle home. Her car is a "Phoenix" brand that her parents bought when they got married. It must have been a good thing back then, but now it's safe even if you forget to lock it.Ju Nian is not tall, but the seat of the car is very high, and it is a bit difficult to pedal. The most terrible thing is that the wheel does not know which part is wrong, and it makes a rattling sound when it turns, but she is so ostentatious every day. Pretty numb to this phenomenon.

It had been a long way from school when Ju Nian heard a voice coming out of the clanging and rhythmic sounds.

"How much is a catty of waste paper?"

Those who catch up on bicycles are dazzling in red.

Ju Nian understood that Han Shu was mocking her for being like a trash collector.

She didn't say a word, she put her head down and pedaled her classic car harder, but Han Shu's car was much faster than her.Ju Nian felt that his speed was about to break free from gravity, but Han Shu still followed him everywhere.

"Let me ask you, what else do you do besides reading, it's because of nerds like you who don't understand anything other than reading, that's why rankings are so boring. You can be the only one who has high scores and low scores."

Some people dare to take her as a target and a scapegoat for venting their dissatisfaction with the education system.Ju Nian decided to overthrow the viewpoint of "looking at problems from a comprehensive, objective, and developmental perspective". The book also said that phenomena are ever-changing, but the essence of things will not change.He was magnanimous in front of people before, that was just pretending!I hated her in my stomach.

"Xie Ju Nian, tell me, what else do you do besides reading?"

Ju Nian was pedaling so hard that she was sweating hot in the winter, and she couldn't figure out how Han Shu still had the energy to talk endlessly.

Finally, she also felt that she couldn't take it anymore, and if she kept pushing like this, she would die sooner or later.

"The intersection of your house has...passed." Ju Nian gasped, "Why are you following me?"

"Your family built the road?"

"Okay, don't follow me anymore, I'll tell you everything..."

"Tell me what?" Han Shu simply drove forward with Ju Nian's car, he was a little curious, not knowing what she was going to tell him.

"Waste paper... thirty cents a catty." After Ju Nian finished speaking, she found that Han Shu had finally disappeared beside her.

Han Shu parked his bicycle beside the sidewalk with his feet.

"Boring! Xie Ju Nian, I've never seen such a boring person like you!"

Just one week after the winter vacation, the Spring Festival is ushered in.Of course, relatives are leaving during the Spring Festival, so after moving back to live with my parents, Ju Nian went to my aunt's house with the adults for the first time to pay New Year's greetings.

As usual, my parents wanted Ju Nian to express their "never forget" gratitude to my aunt and uncle for taking care of me in those years, but they didn't expect Ju Nian to say anything nice. Most of the time, Ju Nian just wanted to agree.Finally, when my aunt said, it’s a rare holiday, and the hands are full, it’s better for a few adults to "touch twice" together. Ju Nian sat next to him and watched TV for a while, and his brother fell asleep and was put on the bed in the small room. Did she see him? When Ren noticed himself, he sneaked out and went to Wu Yu's house in a familiar way.

Wu Yu's family didn't have any close relatives. According to Wu Yu's words, even if they were relatives, they would stay away from this kind of situation in their family. Therefore, even though it was the second day of the Lunar New Year, there was no need to worry about him going to visit relatives who were not at home.

After knocking on the door for a long time, Wu Yu's grandma came to open the door tremblingly. She was old, her body and mind were in a mess.Ju Nian helped her into the house, and it took him a long time to find out that Wu Yu was not at home.

Ju Nian took out a piece of candy that was hidden in the pocket of his clothes in the morning and handed it to his grandmother. The old man in his 70s, with almost all his teeth falling out, was happily like a child with the candy in his mouth.Ju Nian talked to the old man for a while, but they each talked in their own way anyway, neither of them could understand the other, so they just talked nonsense. Later, the old man's attention shifted to the [-]-inch black and white TV at home.

Ju Nian went out and stood in the small courtyard of Wu Yu's house. If anyone doesn't believe that there are still corners in this city that have been forgotten by the festive atmosphere, then just come here and have a look.But when she looked at the crooked potted plants and the loquat tree that only lived in the yard, she suddenly hoped that no one would disturb this corner forever.

In the middle of winter, there is no snow in the south, only haunting rain.With blunt hands and feet, he took a deep breath, and there was a cold and pungent feeling in his throat, heart and lungs, and he was extremely clear immediately. Ju Nian likes this kind of winter.She waited for more than an hour, but Wu Yu still didn't come back, but she wasn't in a hurry, instead of going back to watch the adults play mahjong, she preferred to move a low stool and sit at the door looking at Wu Yu's yard, and Ju Nian's loquat tree.There are many kinds of waiting, and this one makes people happy.

It should be very lively outside, with laughter and firecrackers coming from time to time. In the distance, and the rustling sound of the old man watching TV in the house, there is a vague and meaningful meaning, just like the music on an old record player.A leaf of the loquat tree fell off and landed on the muddy ground with a slight snap.At this moment, Ju Nian heard Wu Yu's footsteps.

She smiled and opened the courtyard door for him.

Standing outside was not only Wu Yu, but also a few boys dressed in strange clothes. Some looked the same age as Wu Yu, one or two older, and they were either holding that kind of loud detonator, or clamped smoking a cigarette.

Ju Nian didn't expect anyone else, and stood there at a loss, with his hands still on the wall by the door.

"Hey, Wu Yu, there are still girls hiding in your house." Someone responded and pushed Wu Yu to laugh, while several other pairs of eyes greeted Ju Nian unabashedly.Wu Yu took a step forward, turned around, and turned her back to Ju Nian, just blocking her.

"What are you talking about, this is our relative." He said with a smile.

"Then we also go to your house to visit relatives and visit?"

"Another day. There are people from my house, I will look for you next time." Wu Yu closed the small courtyard door in front of several people, and waited for the voices of those talking to fade away before walking back into the house with Ju Nian.

Before entering the door, Ju Nian noticed that there was actually a cigarette on Wu Yu's right hand. When it was lit, faint smoke rose up.

Ju Nian looked at Wu Yu for a while, and then at the cigarette in his hand.Wu Yu didn't move, and she didn't say anything, she just leaned over and took the whole cigarette out of his hand, sat on the small stool before, and silently put out the little flame in the mud.

Wu Yu seemed to laugh, and sat on the wooden threshold.

"How long have you been here?"

"Not long."

When they used to get along day and night, they didn't talk endlessly. They often sat quietly, doing or thinking about their own things.Intimate and tacit silence is actually the most pleasing thing in the world, but this time, Ju Nian's silence is uneasy.

After a while, she said to Wu Yu: "From now on, let's go to play every weekend. I know there is a arena, and the rent for a single game is very cheap. As long as there is no special event, as long as there is no reason to come, we will see each other okay?"

Wu Yu agreed to her.

Ju Nian's original intention was very simple, she hoped to see Wu Yu more, and she didn't want him to mix with those weird people. Wu Yu is a good person standing on the edge, and she didn't want anyone to push him.Ju Nian thought that as long as he occupied more of his time, he would have less chance to smoke with those people.

Wu Yu is a person who keeps his word and comes every week, sometimes on Saturday and sometimes on Sunday.Every time he would inform Ju Nian of the next time in advance this week, and when there was no money to rent the venue, they would go to the open space of the Martyrs Cemetery.

A few times, they actually met Chen Jiejie in the oldest badminton hall in the city. Ju Nian didn't know why Chen Jiejie chose such a place with not very good equipment and venues given Chen Jiejie's economic conditions.Chen Jiejie said that she is not good at the game, it is the same everywhere.

Chen Jiejie brought different partners each time, and sometimes she would politely ask Ju Nian and Wu Yu if they could play a game or two with her when she was alone.Since they are classmates and the same age, the other party is generous, and Ju Nian is too embarrassed to be too stingy, so Wu Yu and Chen Jiejie became acquainted after going back and forth.

Ju Nian couldn't help but ask Wu Yu awkwardly once it was a girl's heart.

"Little monk, do you think Chen Jiejie is pretty?"

"It's pretty." Wu Yu replied honestly.

"and then?"

"Then what?"

"Oh, nothing."

When Wu Yu mentioned that other people are good-looking, Ju Nian felt a little depressed, but she thought about it, Chen Jiejie is good-looking, just like Han Shu's good-looking, it's all true, Wu Yu just Tell the truth.Good-looking is good-looking, but it is only good-looking, as for the future-there will be no future!
In fact, Chen Jiejie didn't act enthusiastically and nympho. She was as decent and generous as she used to be. In order to meet this kind of relationship in the arena, Chen Jiejie was also very friendly to Ju Nian at school. .In fact, children from rich families are probably more likely to be simple-minded. Compared with this, Ju Nian can't help but feel ashamed of his narrow-mindedness.Besides, Chen Jiejie is like a princess in a fairy tale, with many princes lining up outside the castle, how could she fall in love with the "little monk" of Ju Nian?
(End of this chapter)