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Chapter 35 The Oath is the Most Hopeless Hope in the World

Because I am afraid, I need strong words to comfort me. Whether it can be realized is a matter of the future. At least these two words can make us believe that there is a future.

After the second year of high school, the study of the orange year became more tense. Although the Ministry of Education has explicitly prohibited primary and secondary schools from making up classes on weekends and holidays, there is no such thing as a key middle school like No. [-] Middle School.Every Saturday, Ju Nian has to go to school like other students to go to school, so the time she can spare to play with Wu Yu is extremely limited. For this reason, she had to make up a big lie with her parents, Said that he had to do homework with his classmates every week.Lies are clumsy, but the listeners probably don't pay much attention.Ju Nian's parents are used to this daughter's peace of mind. They feel that no matter where a girl like Ju Nian is placed, she is a good card, and there will be no big disturbances. They will not seriously investigate where this daughter has gone.

Even so, the weekly gathering of Ju Nian and Wu Yu gradually became a problem.In order to earn living expenses, Wu Yu was introduced by a "friend" to work in an Internet cafe on weekends.At that time, Internet cafes were in the ascendant in the city, and most of them were young people from society.Ju Nian went in several times to find Wu Yu, but was dizzy from the stale air and smoke inside.

Wu Yu's playing time must depend on the working hours arranged by the Internet cafe. If he really can't leave, he will tell Ju Nian in advance.Ju Nian didn't like that kind of place, but she couldn't persuade Wu Yu.Wu Yu is different from her, she at least has parents, but what does Wu Yu have, does she rely on her dying grandma?With only subsidies from the government, it is difficult to live, and he needs to plan for himself.

Internet cafes often work day and night, and sometimes even if Wu Yu comes as scheduled, Ju Nian can't bear to torment him on the court when he sees the green marks under his eyes.Once, just after a game, Wu Yu, who hadn't suffered from illness for many years, collapsed on the court, scaring Ju Nian out of his body.Fortunately, there was no one he knew on the court at the time. After the convulsions and convulsions, Ju Nian took a lot of effort to help Wu Yu up, and squeezed out from the crowd of onlookers in the court.Therefore, their meeting gradually shifted from the stadium to the old base camp.Wu Yu often fell asleep under the pomegranate flowers, while Ju Nian sat aside, watching the cars and people turn into smaller cars and people in the distance.

On the weekend of the final exam in the second semester of the second year of high school, Wu Yu was still working in the Internet cafe as usual.Ju Nian was studying at home until evening, and suddenly he was worried that Wu Yu's grades would not be very good in the next day's exam.At that time, Wu Yu's vocational high school was also incorporated into the city's unified final exam. Ju Nian thought, although for Wu Yu's level, cramming is not very useful, but at least I can give him some marks for comparison in the exam. Useful focused content.

Ju Nian told his mother that he didn't understand a math problem, so he wanted to go to the home of a classmate named Chen Jiejie for advice.Chen Jiejie is an excuse she has used more frequently recently, because some time ago when the class adjusted the seats, Chen Jiejie offered to sit with Ju Nian.Ju Nian doesn't have any particularly close friends in class, and although she and Chen Jiejie aren't very close, when she tells a lie, the name comes out of her mouth naturally.Even my mother remembered that she had a female classmate named Chen Jiejie. As for where this classmate lived, my mother didn't know, nor did Ju Nian.

The Internet cafe was dimly lit and smoggy as always, those focused and excited faces looked a bit weird in the light of the screen, there were not many girls inside, Ju Nian opened the heavy curtain and walked in, several eyes focused on her body, let her feel like a light on her back.

Ju Nian was embarrassed to stand there looking around for a long time, and walked to the cash register with his head down. There was a hot girl with a golden afro and two strange boys there.

"Excuse me, is Wu Yu here?" Ju Nian asked carefully while supporting the table.

"Wu Yu?" One of the wobbly boys listening to the music took a look at Ju Nian, who also found the unrecognizable tattoo on his wrist, so he quickly averted his eyes, watching his nose and nose and heart.

"Who are you, and what can you do with him?" The boy did not hide his stare scrutinizing Ju Nian.

Ju Nian didn't expect to have to answer questions when looking for someone, so he stammered, "I'm his good friend."

The tattooed boy looked at the other companion, and smiled in surprise: "What's the matter with Wu Yu, he has quite a lot of 'friends', and all of them are fucking pretty chicks."

"Envy? Why don't you look for it too, or ask Wu Yu, and I'll let you get one if you can't run out."

The boys laughed unscrupulously, Ju Nian was both ashamed and scared.But since she came, she had to find Wu Yu.So she asked again: "Is Wu Yu there?"

"He's not here. But we're here, why don't we be friends? I have everything Wu Yu has, maybe he's more exciting than him." The boy approached Ju Nian and teased.

Ju Nian hurriedly took a step back: "He's not here, then, then I'm leaving."

The girl with the blond afro glared at the two boys: "You say you are not wicked, and see how you scare the little white rabbit." She turned to look at Ju Nian, and said casually, "Go to KK, Wu Yu should be there."

After the girl finished speaking, she lowered her head and played with her own things on the computer. After a few seconds, she found that Ju Nian, who had already got the answer, was still standing there without moving.

"Where is KK?" Ju Nian asked shyly.

KK was the most attractive disco for young people in G City at that time. The fees were not high, the music was explosive, and there were everyone in it.Ju Nian found the place smoothly following the direction guided by the girl with the golden afro.

Standing in front of the colorful advertising lights at the entrance of KK, Ju Nian felt a little sad.Wu Yu lied to her.In fact, Ju Nian didn't blame Wu Yu for not being able to make it to their weekly appointment, but he refused to tell the truth about the real reason for missing the appointment, which broke Ju Nian's heart.She didn't want to believe that the so-called busyness of her "little monk" was just soaking in this kind of place.

Ju Nian's life in the past has always been as simple as clear water. When she opened the door of KK, it was like opening a weird and strange world. When she first entered, the deafening music and dazzling lights inside made her feel overwhelmed and struggled. .She took a few steps inside, and there were people everywhere, but every face was blurred in the interlacing of darkness and light and shadow.

Ju Nian stood alone on the brink of noise and madness, his heart went cold.She knew that it was impossible for her to recognize her "little monk" in this chaotic crowd. They used to be partners who depended on each other in the same small world, but now, Wu Yu stepped into a world that was completely unfamiliar to her. .

In the crowded space, many people came and went from Ju Nian, like dark shadows.Wu Yu, under the bright red pomegranate flowers, Wu Yu is lazily closing his eyes, grinning at Ju Nian in the light breeze, and the person who is surrounded by sunshine like broken gold, he is also a part of this shadow ?

Ju Nian had no hope of finding Wu Yu, but she was unwilling to leave, and stood there like a fool until someone grabbed her hand in the dark.

She was startled, turned her head and saw the familiar little bald head, and then smiled in surprise.Wu Yu didn't smile, they seemed to have opened their mouths to say something, but the music was too loud, and no one could hear what the other said.

Wu Yu couldn't help saying that he dragged Ju Nian's hand and walked out. After leaving the gate, the world was suddenly silent.

"What are you doing here? Who told you to come?" Wu Yu's voice was louder than ever, probably because he hadn't adapted to the silence outside.

"Come to see you. Someone in the Internet cafe told me."

Ju Nian seemed to hear Wu Yu turn her head and curse, but she didn't hear clearly.

"Are you unhappy?" She looked at Wu Yu fixedly and asked.

"Ju Nian, this is not where you came from. Go back, don't come here again, I will find you."

"This is where you should come again? Wu Yu, the exam is coming tomorrow!" Ju Nian felt that she should have thousands of reasons to prevent Wu Yu from appearing here, but she seemed to say the most pale one.

Wu Yu lowered her head and laughed: "Is there any difference in what you get in the exam? You listen to me in Junian, you go back and study hard, and you will definitely be able to enter a good university in the future, become a capable person, and live a good life. This is how your life should be. But I'm not like you."

"It's the first time you said that we are different. I always thought we were the same before." Ju Nian's voice was very low, "Wu Yu, can you leave here with me too? I don't like this place, and I don't like being around you. of those people."

Wu Yu's silence made her feel that her request was unreasonable.Before that, Ju Nian had never thought about what her dislike could influence Wu Yu?

Sure enough, Wu Yu's smile became very helpless.

"Fool, if I also say, I don't like your current life, I don't like those people around you, can you change it? Can you make me the only one in your life?"

Wu Yu's words were actually a question, and he had an answer in his heart.

But Ju Nian said, "I can!"

Her answer was so decisive, the door in her heart was only opened once, if Wu Yu couldn't walk in, then she would only be left with herself and the endless scenery.

"I can, Wu Yu. We will always be the same as before, never change..."

Perhaps Ju Nian has already felt uneasy deep in his heart. Only those who are uneasy will desperately say forever. Because of fear, they need powerful words to comfort them. Whether it can be realized is a matter of the future, at least these two words Can make us believe that there is a future.

Wu Yu was still smiling.

"But I can't, Ju Nian, I'm sorry, I can't."

An oath is the most hopeless hope in the world, doesn't it mean that she doesn't understand it?

Ju Nian muttered a few words: "Oh, that's it."

"Then I'll go back." She was silent for a while, then slowly turned and left.

She has already reached the intersection of traffic lights, and the same is true on the other side of the road. She can see it, but she can't pass it.

Wu Yu chased after him, panting.

"Ju Nian, I...I didn't mean that." He seemed to want to explain, but the words didn't convey the meaning, "There are other people in that place, at least they don't care that I'm the son of a murderer."

"I don't care either." Ju Nian said.

"I know. But you have the memories I have, and you're like myself."

When the green light came on, Ju Nian glanced at Wu Yu, his face was as thin as ever, he ran too fast just now, instead of flushing, he looked pale.This boy, he is so good in Ju Nian's heart.

Ju Nian suddenly stretched out his hand and touched Wu Yu's cheek lightly, but the moment his fingers touched his skin, he woke up with a start, and withdrew his hand like lightning, so ashamed that he couldn't bear it.

Wu Yu also had a slight confusion on his face.

"Uh, oh, that, I, I saw a drop of sweat on your face." Ju Nian explained hastily, regardless of whether it was far-fetched or not.

When Wu Yu heard this, she hurriedly smiled and wiped her face with the back of her hand.

"I ran too fast just now. Ju Nian, we have been good friends all our lives, the best best friends."

"Good friends? Yes, we will always be good friends." Ju Nian kept nodding, as if she agreed with her, then she turned her head and looked across the road.

"It will take a long time to wait for the next green light, Wu Yu, you don't have to accompany me back, the bus stop is opposite."

At this time, they all heard the urging horn on the roadway with a green light. It turned out that a small black car was parked at the front, but it seemed to ignore the existence of the street light.Ju Nian looked over and saw the rear window slowly roll up.

Wu Yu said: "The people on this bus are really interesting. I'll take you to the bus."

(End of this chapter)