let me look at you

Chapter 73 Even if they meet, they should not know
She has always been very lucky. She got throbbing love when she was a teenager, and a stable life as an adult. The same experience, she savored the process of no regrets, and others reaped unspeakable results. Her imprint will never be erased.

"Auntie, don't you like Uncle Han Shu?"

"Um... ah?"

Ju Nian pushed the shopping cart and walked among the dazzling array of shelves, racking his brains to think, what is the thing that he clearly remembered to buy before going out, kitchen cleaner or dishcloth?Feiming, who was trailing behind, asked a question out of nowhere, which made her, who was absent-minded, unable to react for a moment.

"I'm asking, do you dislike Uncle Han Shu, aunt?" Feiming picked up the strap of his schoolbag, quickened his pace and supported the shopping cart with Ju Nian, and asked again relentlessly.Feiming's stature grew very fast, almost reaching Ju Nian's shoulder height. Ju Nian looked around for a while, and found that it was becoming more and more difficult to deal with some difficult problems.

"Uncle Han Shu... No, how could it be?" Ju Nian denied it, and only realized when he looked down at the shopping cart that Feiming took advantage of her distraction and put some in the cart without anyone noticing. Expensive and unnutritious junk food.She shook her head, put them back in place one by one, and put them back.

Feiming hugged the last box of chocolates tightly, without resting his mouth, "You are lying, I think you don't like Uncle Han Shu."

Ju Nian glanced at Feiming, "Did he tell you?"

Feiming nodded at first, and then shook his head vigorously, "Uncle Han Shu keeps asking me about you, but you never mentioned him to me."

Ju Nian understood that it was impossible for her to explain her relationship with Han Shu to a teenager. She just said: "My aunt and Uncle Han Shu met in the past, and we haven't seen each other for a long time. Besides, my aunt likes Feiming." , Uncle Han Shu also likes Feiming, so that’s fine.”

"Then since you don't hate Uncle Han Shu, do you like Uncle Han Shu?" Feiming asked innocently.

Ju Nian made up his mind that he could no longer let his children watch so many TV series.

"No. Not hating doesn't mean liking it." She explained patiently, and then found that what she said made her dizzy.

"That's because Uncle Han Shu is right, you don't like him." Feiming pouted, "No wonder he hasn't come to pick me up recently, and he doesn't take me to play very often."

Hearing this, Ju Nian couldn't help but slow down.She didn't know why Han Shu said these words to a child, but it was rare to see his car coming to pick up Feiming recently.In fact, this is not a bad thing, and it is not in vain for the words she said and the tears she shed that day.Ju Nian has already passed the stage of crying over the past, and she doesn't know what happened that night, Han Shu is like a time bomb, and the past that has been buried in the ground has to be prevented from being blown up suddenly by him.Fortunately, he just couldn't figure it out for a while in the past, and when he figured it out, this matter is over.Everyone is in place, and there is nothing wrong with her, and her life will return to peace.

"It's the end of the year, and everyone is busy. You are still busy rehearsing for the school's Spring Festival Gala, and Uncle Han Shu is also busy with work." She comforted Feiming.

Feiming scratched his head and asked pitifully, "Auntie, isn't Uncle Han Shu really my father?"

This child is actually smart, so there is no need to wait until Ju Nian shakes her head. After a period of contact, she also vaguely felt that although Uncle Han is kind to her, the possibility of him being her biological father is very slim, so she had to retreat. Secondly, I hope that the adult I like will have another level of intimacy with me.

"If he's not my father, can't he be my uncle?"

Ju Nian said solemnly: "When a child meddles in adults' affairs and acts as a matchmaker indiscriminately, he will look like a matchmaker on TV, with a big mole growing on the corner of his mouth."

Feiming, who loves beauty, quickly covered his mouth, and said vaguely through his fingers, "I will marry Uncle Han Shu myself when I grow up."

"Then you have to eat less chocolate from now on." Ju Nian felt a little amused, and put the things in Feiming's hands back on the shelf.

"Anyway, when I grow up, I will marry many, many people, so I won't be like you, aunt."

Ju Nian smiled and stopped arguing with the child. An 11-year-old girl already knows that living alone is a sin.But she's used to it.

That day, Ju Nian understood Tang Ye's sudden hint, but she didn't respond.Through the windshield of Tang Ye's car, she watched the sky turn from Ulan to light blue, and then asked him to park the car at the intersection one stop away from home, and waved goodbye.Regardless of Tang Ye's "specialness" in a certain aspect, he is indeed a wonderful person.But so what, even if he only likes women, there are so many good people in the world, is she a museum of treasures?
Feiming will lead a dance at the school's Spring Festival Gala a few days later, and that dance is "Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs" that Ju Nian is very familiar with.She still remembered that time, she held the wrong hand of a dwarf.That was a long time ago, when generations of children have become vicissitudes, only fairy tales are never old.

Feiming is of course the actor of Snow White, and the stage costumes were arranged by the school teacher, but she insisted on asking Ju Nian to buy her some beautiful little hairpins, which she wore on her head on the day of the performance. They were shiny and beautiful.

A small shelf selling girls' accessories is near the cash register.Feiming immersed herself in choosing the colorful hairpins. She thought all of them were beautiful, and she didn't know how to choose.I was about to beg my aunt to buy more, when I raised my head, I realized that my aunt didn't know what she saw, and was distracted again.

Feiming followed her aunt's line of sight, and saw that it was just an ordinary cash register, nothing to see - no, no, the aunt waiting for the checkout was really pretty, and the clothes on her body were also pretty, which attracted Fei Ming the most. It was obvious that the shopping cart behind the aunt was piled up like a hill, and there were many things in it that she wanted but never dared to buy.

The same scene, in the eyes of Ju Nian, has completely different feelings.She hasn't seen Chen Jiejie for nearly ten years. Chen Jiejie, who is already a wife and mother, is plump compared to before, her skin is fairer, her clothes are well-dressed, and her demeanor remains the same as before, even in a place where people come and go In the supermarket, she is also a bright color who can jump out of the crowd at the first sight.

The person in front was paying the bill, and Chen Jiejie was not in a hurry, she turned around with a smile to tease the baby in the arms of the woman who looked like a nanny.Her appearance hasn't changed much, what has changed is her eyes.The restlessness under the face of a lady has changed into the peace of a young woman.She has always been very lucky. She got throbbing love when she was a teenager, and got a stable life as an adult. The same experience, she tasted the process of no regrets, and others reaped unspeakable results. Her imprint cannot be erased.

Ju Nian had to admit that he had never envied her.

At this time, a man of Chen Jiejie's age came to them from the other end holding a lot of snacks, and piled the snacks on the shopping cart that was almost out of space like building blocks.

"Are you here to rob the supermarket?" Ju Nian heard Chen Jiejie laughing and teasing the man.

That man is also as outstanding in appearance as her, and he seems to be a pair of matching couples.He seemed to have said something, but Ju Nian didn't hear it clearly, only to see Chen Jiejie giggling, and the child in the nanny's arms danced along.

"Auntie, how many hairpins can I buy?" Feiming at the side lost his patience and asked his auntie by his sleeve.

"Huh?" The moment Ju Nian came back to his senses, he found that Chen Jiejie, who had been turning his head to face her husband and son, glanced over unexpectedly. Instead, she looked down at the snacks her husband had just brought over.

She watched quietly for a few seconds, then slowly put down the things in her hands, and turned around with extreme hesitation. This time, she stared at Ju Nian, then turned to Feiming, the disbelief and shock gradually filled in her eyes made Ju Nian was worried that she would do something amazing in the next minute because she couldn't bear such complicated emotions.After all, the facial features are so similar, and the slight difference is another unforgettable shadow.Feiming was still concentrating on drawing in the small mirror in the supermarket, which pair of hairpins would make her wear more like the real Snow White, and had no time to pay attention to the adults' eyes that were gradually clouding.

Ju Nian lowered her head thoughtfully, but she didn't deliberately avoid Chen Jiejie's eyes. She didn't feel sorry for anyone, and she didn't think about disturbing or embarrassing anyone, so it wasn't her turn to retreat at this time.

"What's wrong with you?" The cashier had already finished bagging the items purchased by Chen Jiejie's family. The man next to her took the baby from the nanny and noticed his wife's strangeness.

"It's nothing." Chen Jiejie held her husband's arm as if waking up from a dream, and smiled with red eyes, "I just saw those little hairpins, and suddenly remembered that I liked them very much when I was a child. Now that I wear them on my head, I'm afraid people will say I'm crazy. .”

The man suddenly felt amused and looked back, "When did you become so nostalgic? Fortunately, you gave birth to a son. If it were a daughter, you would have to dress her head full of colorful things..."

The family walked further and further away, and Feiming finally picked out the two pairs of hairpins he was most satisfied with. Ju Nian let out a sigh of relief and hugged the child's shoulders.

"Okay, okay, let's go home."

Even Feiming noticed that Han Shu was gradually moving away from their aunt and nephew's life.In fact, Han Shu was really scared.The reunion on Christmas Eve gave him a strong sense of frustration, but this sense of frustration was not so much given to him by the stubborn Xie Ju Nian, as it was given to him by himself.

He had never felt so powerless before.He obviously wanted to keep her so desperately, but he didn't know what to do after he stayed; he obviously felt that many things were wrong, but he couldn't find a reason to refute her; he obviously had something to say, but that sentence seemed to have come to an end The mouth of the throat was about to exit, but it disappeared again.He thought that his compensation was the redemption of Xie Junian, but when she walked away step by step, he realized that he was more like a poor wretch who couldn't ask for more.

After Ju Nian left, Han Shu sent Prosecutor Cai back home.The godmother is old and in poor health, Han Shu is worried about her.The mother and son, who have always been close, sat together in the car, but for the first time fell into an unspeakable awkward silence.Now that I think about it carefully, Han Shu and Cai Jian have never mentioned a single word about her to each other since they were imprisoned in Ju Nian. Buried deeply, many things should not be said, and I don't want to say, because the wound will bleed as soon as it is opened.

The car was parked downstairs in Cai Jian's residence, and she was the first to speak.

"Han Shu, are you complaining about your godmother in your heart?"

Han Shu turned off the ignition and pulled out the car key.

"You go up early to rest, and I will take a taxi home by myself."

"Sometimes I also wonder, if I hadn't stopped you, what would have happened, whether it would have been better or worse."

"You have kept the key."

"Godmother is not a cold-blooded animal, a little girl like a flower. Back then, I never thought of sending her to prison... Oh, what a mistake! After that, every time I took over a case, I kept reminding myself , don't be too confident anymore, if you're not careful, you may ruin a bright future in my hands."

"Stop talking, okay? You almost fell ill today, and your complexion is very bad. It's getting late now, and I'm a little tired too."

"I didn't want to mention it at first, but she's here now. Han Shu, I don't want either of you or Tang Ye to be hurt. You can blame me..."

"I don't blame anyone but myself. It has nothing to do with you. It's okay, it's okay!" Han Shu roared out, startling himself.He froze for a while, then put his hands on his face dejectedly, not caring about losing his sense of proportion in front of his elders.

"Actually, this matter has nothing to do with you in the early morning. You have no grievances or enmity with her. If it wasn't for me at that time, you wouldn't have been in that muddy water. I'm not a heartless person. I know all of this. If I blame you, Then what have I become!" Han Shu tried to make up for the sudden gaffe before with his gradually restored calm tone, but the way he spoke was also sad. "I thought, if you had left me alone, put me in jail, or let the old man beat me to death, everyone would be better off now...at least when she looked at me...when she looked at me..."

Han Shu didn't continue, he stretched out his hand to look through the cigarettes and lighters hidden in the storage compartment by Cai Jian, finally lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, choked, and the bitter taste spread to in the lungs.

"I don't know how she got together with your cheap son, but don't think it's bad, it's evil, but she may not know your relationship with Tang Ye, and it's definitely not because of the past. Came here."

"Why are you so sure?" No wonder Cai Jian, she has seen too much evil, and she couldn't believe that Ju Nian had nothing to ask for.

Because I really hope that she will come to my door and ask me to recover the original debt, or anything.

It's a pity that she refused to ask for anything.How could she want nothing?

Han Shu didn't say these words.

Cai Jian has lived for most of his life, and he is already a human spirit. She was surprised by Han Shu's thoughts before, but seeing his distraught appearance, and thinking about it deeply, she understood eighty-nine parts, and hurriedly put it to him. He took the cigarette in his hand and threw it out the window.

"I'm talking about Han Shu, you can't get over your infatuation with her for 11 years? You're such a good child, you'll be messed up when you meet her. If you want to talk about the past, that's all. Now... don't say that she and Aye are not clear. I don't know, even if there is no such thing, you are with her, plus what happened in the past, let your father know, this is not, this is not... Absolutely not, Aye can't be with her..."

Thinking about it, Cai Jianguang already felt like he was on his back, but Han Shu was touched by a certain word in her words, and was startled.

It was compensation, he told himself.But the godmother said that he was "obsessed"!
The plot that he didn't even dare to think about was described in the godmother's lingering fear, and he led her to stand in front of Dean Han... Thinking of this, even the scene of the old man beating him became less scary, even Some expectations.

crazy!

"I, I'll go back first. There are many people tonight, so it's hard to take a taxi if it's late." Han Shu pushed the door of the car and walked out in a daze. The cold wind blew, and he felt his face was hotter.

(End of this chapter)