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Chapter 91 Please Don't Comfort Me

"Han Shu, can I ask you something?" Ju Nian still looked at the endless rain, and asked a little bit dumbly.

"Say it!" Han Shu straightened up immediately, he didn't know what else he could do for her, he only knew that as long as she was willing to say, there was nothing he would not do.

Ju Nian said, "Please don't comfort me."

When Ju Nian returned to the ward, Feiming was already lying on the bed.I have already forgotten how long it has been since Feiming left that hospital bed without help, and she was holding up the drop bottle that was being injected into her own IV with one hand at that time. How big is it? Only the strength can support her increasingly weak body to complete those few seconds of looking around.

Now, Ju Nian is sitting next to her, she pulls up the quilt so high that it almost covers her entire body below the nose, and the brim of Little Red Riding Hood's hat is also pulled down to cover her eyes, as if she doesn't see, listen, or speak , In the rubber tube near the wrist needle, there are traces of light red blood back.Ju Nian's heart is full of pity, and he doesn't know why, Feiming has to endure such suffering.

Ju Nian knew that Feiming must have noticed something in his heart. Perhaps Chen Jiejie had already seen the child. Sooner or later, it would be impossible to hide the situation.

So Ju Nian said to Feiming: "You should know that the aunt outside is the one you have been waiting for. You are not an orphan, your biological mother has come back to find you."

Feiming remained motionless like a fossil fused with the bed sheet.

Ju Nian was also in a mess, with his head down, he was tugging at a thread on the bed sheet.After a long time, she said again: "Should I let you and your mother be alone for a while?"

This time, she also didn't wait for any response from Feiming, but there was a slight ups and downs under the white sheet.Ju Nian stretched out his hand to remove the brim of Feiming's hat covering his eyes, and sure enough, the child's tightly closed eyes were already filled with tears.Ju Nian didn't say anything else, she got up and walked out quietly, giving her place to Chen Jiejie who had been standing outside the door weeping.

A pair of mother and daughter, tears at both ends, she is caught in the middle, so what can it do.

Ju Nian deliberately wanted to go further away, to give them more space, so that they could cry more freely when they couldn't see her.Reluctantly, it was raining patter outside, so she sat on a chair in the lobby on the first floor, staring blankly at the small world that was covered by the rain curtain and was dim and dim.

After a while, the elevator door facing the lobby opened, and Han Shu walked out quickly.His eyes were red, and his face looked sad.Ju Nian hadn't seen him just now, so he must have learned about Feiming's situation from Sun Jinling.

Han Shu probably didn't expect to meet Ju Nian in the hall.On the first floor of the inpatient department where people come and go on weekdays, now she is the only one sitting. The scene is like a station where the last train has already left, leaving only one passenger behind. The lonely journey, the wind and rain, no direction, no place , no partner, and no way back...

Han Shu came over and sat on the seat separated from her.He bent down, resting his elbows on his thighs, his fingers running through his hair.He confidently won the transfer for Feiming, but he did not expect such a result.

"I……"

"Han Shu, can I ask you something?" Ju Nian still looked at the endless rain, and asked a little bit dumbly.

"Say it!" Han Shu straightened up immediately, he didn't know what else he could do for her, he only knew that as long as she was willing to say, there was nothing he would not do.

Ju Nian said, "Please don't comfort me."

She is not ignorant, nor is she unkind.Verbal consolation, even if it comes from good intentions, is in fact of no use other than to remind the person concerned how sad it is again.What should happen will still happen, and what should be sad will also be sad.Sometimes Ju Nian even feels that sadness is something that cannot be shared and can only be contagious. There is no strong medicine that can stop it. The only antidote is to accept it.At least she is such a kind of person. If she is sad, she will never let it go, she will only figure it out, only get used to it, and then treat it as a normal state, and there is nothing difficult to get through.

Ju Nian knew that Han Shu wanted her not to be so sad, but she also knew that if he continued, she would cry, and then found that there were people who were as sad as herself, and the feeling of sadness became more real, and she would only be sadder.She was afraid that on such an afternoon filled with cold winter rain, she would cry and leave, and everyone would find herself so powerless, which would make her feel even more lonely.

Han Shu didn't say anything for a long time, Ju Nian could imagine him gritting his teeth, trying to endure.Finally he said: "Yes, anyway, it's impossible, so why should I waste my words and show unnecessary courtesy."

While talking, he had already stood up, and said casually: "As usual, I brought an extra lunch box for Feiming, and the head nurse will bring it to you later. Don't think I have no place to spend my money. Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. There are few people eating in the hospital, and the cafeteria has stopped eating today, so don’t even think about buying food outside easily.”

His car was parked in the open air at the door, and Ju Nian watched him run all the way into the rain, his stiff black coat was instantly wet, and when he came out of the elevator, the umbrella he was holding was still on it. At her feet, the umbrella was not completely dry, and every fold was neatly arranged.

Ju Nian sat until Chen Jiejie left the hospital. When she returned to the ward, she was weak and bright, with a white background and endless drips. It was the same as before, no different.Feiming was awake, staring blankly at the ceiling, not knowing what was going on in her heart, nor what she and her biological mother had experienced not long ago.

It was not the head nurse who brought them meals, but Sun Jinling, who was on duty.She put several lunch boxes on Feiming's bedside table, put one hand in the pocket of her white coat, opened one of the lunch boxes and looked at it, and said lightly: "I said what's going on, recently he comes back every day. When I’m not at home, I’ll be in the kitchen watching over my aunt at home to cook for him in different ways, ha.”

Ju Nian still couldn't figure out what Dr. Sun's last laugh meant, and didn't intend to think about it, so he just said "thank you".After Sun Jinling went out, she opened the still warm "fast food", shredded pork with asparagus and cod rolls with bacon, plus a cup of yam stewed short ribs, and there were actually two cups of fresh lemon tea.Feiming couldn't eat anything, so he managed to drink a little soup from Ju Nian.Ju Nian didn't have much appetite either, but seeing what she was seeing, she still ate a little of everything, and the feeling of fullness in her stomach made her truly feel that she was still in the world and still needed that bit of fireworks.

When packing up the lunch box, Feiming, who seemed to have forgotten the function of language, suddenly said to Ju Nian: "Auntie, I want to go home."

(End of this chapter)