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Chapter 95 The Rare Happiness

Han Shu always knew that he was the best at pleasing people with words. He wanted to make Feiming happy, but after racking his brains, his usual eloquence was lost somewhere. Only then did he feel that he was facing the fate of life, old age, sickness and death. Inability to speak.

Ju Nian was still doing the aftermath in the kitchen, and the dishes were already on the table. Han Shu and Feiming couldn't wait to sit around the table.Although this should be the most important meal of the year, and Ju Nian has put more thought into it than usual, but in Han Shu's opinion, their "banquet" is really simple.A pot of old chicken soup, a side stove, and a steamed fish.

Feiming looked at this simple table of dishes, but her eyes were shining. She whispered to Han Shu: "My aunt's best dish is steamed fish."

Feiming's spirit looks much better than when he was in the hospital. Although he still looks sick in his demeanor, at least he is no longer bedridden sickly.

Han Shu hadn't eaten for almost a whole day, his stomach was empty, and he was already dizzy from hunger.Ju Nian did not attend the table for a long time, and the aroma of the hot vegetables was a tormenting temptation for him.When he heard the "empty city plan" faintly sounding in his stomach, he had to temporarily forget his identity as an uninvited "guest", just like stealing a dish made by his mother before dinner at home, secretly picking up a chopstick of fish and putting it on the table. As soon as it came out of his mouth, he continued Feiming's words without shame: "I'll try her best dish first."

Feiming blinked and looked at Han Shu, and asked seriously, "How is it?"

To be honest, Ju Nian's cooking skills are really so-so. If it were normal, with Han Shu's picky taste, it would be worth [-] cents at most. Take this steamed fish as an example. .However, considering Han Shu's current hunger and favor, he nodded generously.

Seeing him like this, Feiming couldn't help sticking out his chopsticks, and said while eating: "I thought I wouldn't have to eat my aunt's cooking today. Uncle Tang said he invited us to celebrate the New Year with him, but unfortunately he didn't come."

Hearing Feiming talking about Tang Ye in the same intimate tone, Han Shu couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable. His mind turned, but he cunningly tried to trick the child into saying something, and asked, "Your aunt talked to you about Tang Ye?" Uncle?"

Feiming picked the fishbone, and nodded after a while, "We've talked many times."

"What are you talking about?" Han Shu hurriedly followed up.

"Talk about the storybook Uncle Tang gave me, and the stories he told me."

"That's it." Han Shu couldn't help but feel a little disappointed, and laughed at himself, what does the child know?
At this time, Feiming leaned towards Han Shu, and said mysteriously: "One time, my aunt asked me if I would like to live with Uncle Tang if possible." She seemed to be afraid of Han Shu. He didn't understand, and added in a voice that could only be heard by the two of them, "I guess my aunt is asking me if she wants to marry Uncle Tang if possible."

Han Shu was taken aback for a moment, then moved his head closer, and asked furtively, "Then how did you answer?"

Feiming pretended to be old-fashioned and said: "I told my aunt that it would be great if she was with Uncle Tang Ye. Then when I recover from illness and grow up, I will marry Uncle Han Shu."

Han Shu straightened up slowly, looked at Feiming's expression of "Look, I'm always on your side", couldn't say anything, he mechanically picked up a piece of fish and put it in his mouth, and was almost caught Fishbone stuck.

"Uncle Han Shu, are you okay?"

Han Shu smiled bitterly, "Little aunt, you can really help me."

While whispering, the sound of Ju Nian's footsteps approached, calling out to the big and small ones: "Get ready for dinner, Feiming, where did you take that plate of fish from auntie?"

Feiming opened his mouth immediately, and after a few seconds of silence, he said to Han Shu in a panic: "It's too bad, I just forgot what I was talking about just now. Every New Year's Eve, my aunt will use chickens and fish to worship gods. food."

She and Han Shu looked at the sea bass in the middle of the table at the same time, and after the questions and answers they had just chatted while eating, the small half of the fish's belly was eaten.

Feiming quickly put down his chopsticks, stuck out his tongue subconsciously, and dared not say anything.

Han Shu was also frightened for a moment, and he muttered blankly: "Why are you so superstitious, woman?"

Before they could come up with a solution, Ju Nian had already walked to the table, staring at the mutilated fish with his mouth gaping, and then the two guys who bowed their heads in silence.

"I only ate a little bit." Fearing that his aunt would be angry, Feiming quickly admitted and expressed his attitude. The implication was that he had easily sold Han Shu, who was an ally just now.

Han Shu scratched his head in embarrassment, "I didn't know there was such a program... What should I do, why don't you tell the gods not to eat fish this year?"

Feiming couldn't hold back anymore, and secretly laughed out loud.

Ju Nian rolled his big and small eyes angrily, stretched out his hand and took the chopsticks without saying a word, turned the fish over, with the surviving side up, and brought the fish back to the table without changing his expression. It is placed in front of the table on the side of the patio, and worshiped devoutly.

When she brought the chicken and fish back to the table, Han Shu and Feiming, who were supposed to be guilty, were still laughing.

Han Shu said: "What kind of god do you worship? Isn't this a blatant deception to the god?"

Ju Nian sat next to Feiming, only then did Han Shu realize that the corners of her lips were also raised. Finally, she couldn't help but also laughed, and defended herself, "Sincerity makes a spirit."

"Let's eat." Ju Nian filled a bowl of soup for Feiming. Seeing Han Shu sitting there obediently, she hesitated for a while, then filled a bowl for him as well, and whispered, "I didn't expect you Come on, scribble a little, you can just eat it."

Han Shu hurriedly reached out to pick it up, feeling overwhelmed, took two sips happily, and took advantage of the incredible momentum to reciprocate with the best piece of fish, and graciously sent it to the Ju Nian bowl.

At first, he was still a little uneasy, fearing that his hot face would stick to his cold ass again, and Feiming's gaze also formed a parabola, following the trajectory of the chopsticks all the way, carefully observing Ju Nian's reaction.

Ju Nian ate intently, without even raising her head, she ate the fish in the bowl in silence.After a while, she raised her head and smiled sheepishly, "The fish was steamed too old."

Han Shu immediately laughed too, and Feiming followed suit. No one wanted to think deeply about what to be happy about a fish that was too old to be steamed.

The sky was getting dark gradually, the old fluorescent lamps in the room flickered from time to time, and the sound of firecrackers was still exploding near and far.The strange thing is that the sound that should be noisy, at such a moment, makes people feel inexplicably peaceful. Many things are quietly smoothed away in this tranquility, like the wind smoothing the scars on the rocks, Like waves smoothing away footprints in the sand.

The reason why New Year's Eve is precious is nothing more than a reunion.Han Shu quietly enjoyed the most "sloppy" New Year's Eve dinner in his nearly 30 years of life.Night came at last, and he had never liked the night before, and all the joy and excitement of calling friends and carousing and playing was like a gust of wind, filling up for a short time and then disappearing, leaving an empty gap and an echo that made him flustered, and Now, my heart is inexplicably filled with this quiet night.For the first time, he thought of "Consummation".

After dinner, Han Shu volunteered to go to the kitchen to wash the dishes.Ju Nian was not polite to him, it was faster for the two of them to clean up together.When everything was sorted out, Feiming refused to go to bed obediently, and leaned on a bamboo chair facing the courtyard gate. Fortunately, she was still covered with the thick blanket that Ju Nian had prepared for her.

Fearing that she would catch a cold, Ju Nian walked over to touch her forehead, only to find that the rain outside the yard had stopped at some point, only the dripping water dripped down from the old-fashioned eaves, silently sinking into the night In the dead leaves in the field.There is a moist smell mixed with water vapor, rotting leaves, soil and firecracker smoke in the air.Han Shu walked up to the two aunts and nephews who were standing and sitting together, and took a deep breath of the unique breath after the first drizzle in the cold courtyard on a winter night where thousands of families were reunited.

Feiming turned to look at Han Shu, and said suddenly, "Uncle Han Shu, I really want to play badminton with you again."

Han Shu originally wanted to say, "Okay, I have a ready-made racket in the car", but when he had reached the point of his mouth, he felt Ju Nian's silence and Feiming's childish face with a hint of disappointment.He almost forgot that with Feiming's current physical condition, it was enough for her to persevere after a single meal, let alone intense physical exercise.Maybe even Feiming knew it all too well, so for such a simple request, she only said "I want", not "I want".Because she knew she couldn't do it.

Han Shu desperately recalled what he was doing at this age when he was 11 or 12 years old.Not only him, but all innocent children should enjoy the free and easy flourishing of Feiyang, Feiming, poor child, maybe she just doesn't want to watch herself weak and helpless to spend the night, that's all, but Not available.

Han Shu always knew that he was the best at pleasing people with words. He wanted to make Feiming happy, but after racking his brains, his usual eloquence was lost somewhere. Only then did he feel that he was facing the fate of life, old age, sickness and death. Inability to speak.Just at this time, a bicycle parked under the eaves of Ju Nian jumped into his sight. Han Shu couldn't help but his eyes lit up, and he said to Feiming with great interest, "How about we ride a bicycle?"

A little bit of excitement appeared on Feiming's face, and he nodded like a chicken pecking at rice, "Okay, okay, I don't know how to ride yet. My aunt said that I won't let me ride a bicycle to school until I enter junior high school."

Han Shu walked towards the bicycle with a smile, and comforted him, "I'll teach you in the future, it's not difficult at all. But today you just sit in the back obediently, and Uncle Han Shu will drive you around."

While speaking, he had already pushed the bike into the yard, tried the pedals, but found that the bike was making strange "clang" noises everywhere, and he couldn't help but lower his head to check. It turned out that this unknown, suspected antique bicycle with chain They were all broken, and the rear wheel was deflated to expose the steel ring.Han Shu was dumbfounded, "Xie Ju Nian, what kind of broken car is this?"

Ju Nian walked over slowly, walked around the car, spread his hands helplessly and innocently and said: "I didn't say this is a good car, it has been idle here for a long time and no one has ridden it."

Han Shu didn't give up, continued to fiddle with it for a while, and finally admitted that he was weak, not to mention that he didn't have any repair tools in front of him, even if he wanted to hold it up for a while, it was impossible.As if someone had poured cold water on his head, the more he looked at the broken car, the more angry he became, and he muttered angrily, "This scrap metal should have been thrown away a long time ago, is there any value in keeping it?"

Ju Nian said shyly, "Can't you sell it to spend your old age?"

She avoided Han Shu's anger, but when she turned her head, she saw the disappointed face of Feiming who had been silent all this time.

Ju Nian thought about it, cheered up again, and said to Feiming with a smile: "You really want to ride a bicycle, don't you? It's not impossible." She tilted her head slightly, and clapped her hands at Feiming in the yard, " Come here, my aunt is here to ride you." The broken car was obviously still lying at her feet, Feiming looked inexplicable and bewildered, but he couldn't stand her aunt's repeated invitations.

"Come here, silly boy, put on your blanket, come here quickly."

Feiming dubiously walked to his aunt wearing a blanket, and Han Shu opened his eyes wide, not knowing what kind of tricks she was playing.

I saw Ju Nian holding Feiming's shoulders with both hands, hugged her and stood behind him, then turned his back to Feiming, and then stretched out his two hands, as if holding something that didn't exist, "Sit down , Feiming, the car is about to move!"

After she finished speaking, she walked forward slowly with both feet on her feet, and Feiming foolishly followed her step by step.Han Shu stayed for a while, and finally understood that this guy was using her imaginary bicycle to drive Feiming around in circles.

At this time, Feiming also came to his senses. He covered his mouth and laughed secretly, but it seemed to be a bit interesting. In Ju Nian's decent voice of "turning the corner, don't fall...", she He also "sat" behind his aunt in a dignified manner, smiling and saying, "Auntie, please ride slowly."

They were enjoying it, but they didn't know that Han Shu, who was riding a virtual bicycle, looked as stupid as he could be.Ju Nian was also extremely dedicated to pressing the "bell" with his right hand and bypassing him.

"Ding Lingling, hurry up, it's not good if the car hits you." He squinted his eyes and rubbed his head in pain, muttering: "God, let me die."

However, Feiming became addicted to this super boring game, so he bent his knees slightly, as if she was really sitting on the back of the bicycle, and greeted Han Shu enthusiastically, "Uncle Han Shu, you come too Well, come on, come on."

Han Shu was speechless, shaking his head like a rattle, he would not join this fool's game.But Feiming kept urging him.

"Come on, Uncle Han Shu, let's ride together."

"Your Uncle Han Shu can't ride."

"Uncle Han Shu, it's okay, my aunt will take you."

The "bicycle" with two people passed by Han Shu again. Feiming gave Han Shu a hand. People and cars" stopped him.

It seems that riding a bicycle is a hard job, Ju Nian's face was flushed, she looked at Han Shu slightly panting, waiting for his ridicule.Sure enough, Han Shu said with a look of contempt, "You're so stupid."

"Oh." Ju Nian responded blankly.

"I said your posture is so stupid. Is there anyone who rides a bicycle like you? No wonder the chain of the bicycle is broken." He said uncomfortably, coughed twice, and decided to show his contempt with actions.He squeezed in between Ju Nian and Feiming, thought for a while, and felt that something was wrong, so he moved Feiming in front of him, put Ju Nian behind him, and said, "You sit on the beam in front, how about you? Just sit in the back and I'll ride the bike!"

The other two were good friends, and the "bicycle" full of three people just set off like this.At first, Han Shu was a little awkward, but after turning around, he rode more and more smoothly. Feiming was circled in front of him, and Ju Nian was sitting behind his "car", her breath seemed to be on the back of his neck, and the child giggled. The sound filled the yard.

The night is as cool as water, gentle water.The dead branches and fallen leaves under their feet were still "creaking" under the feet of the three people. In the remote courtyard at the end of the world, even the light of the street lamp was so far away, no one would pass by, no one would wait and see, and of course, no one disturbed the three of them. A fool's joy.

"Hit the wall, hit the wall, Han Shu, you have to brake."

"Sit still and come over a little bit more, or you don't blame me if you fall."

"Auntie, there are mice."

"Ring the bell quickly."

"Ding Lingling, Ding Lingling..."

"How far has this bike traveled?"

"We just passed Beijing, and we are almost in the northeast."

"I'm going to America."

"Why don't you go around the galaxy?"

……

Accompanied by a sharp whistling, a moment later, a gorgeous firework exploded in the sky. I don't know which child from the neighbor's house, who was so impatient that he couldn't wait for the zero hour to arrive.This firework is like a signal to open, and after a while, fireworks of various colors rise into the sky and bloom from several directions.The dark blue-black sky, without a single star, is now illuminated by fireworks in the world.

I don't know which of the three people stopped first. They maintained a tandem posture, stood in the yard, raised their heads, and looked obsessively at the colorful flowers in the night sky.Because the fireworks are too beautiful, no one speaks, lest it wither in the moment of words.After the ear-shattering roar, the most brilliant flower almost covered half of the sky above their heads, it bloomed in full bloom, and then scattered like shooting stars.

Maybe because of keeping his head up for a long time, it seemed so close, so close that Ju Nian stretched out his hand towards the void. At that moment, even Han Shu had the illusion that it would land in her palm.

In the end, Ju Nian's retracted hand gathered her fingers together, and Han Shu didn't know if she was holding something.A display of fireworks made the sky brighter than day, then darkened again, darker than night.

(End of this chapter)