Our youth is over

Chapter 26 Reunion (2)
I thought about it, I'm just a coward, timid and cowardly, I feel that since He Yebei didn't recognize me, then let's forget it, anyway, after getting off the car, we won't see each other again, why bother to bring up the past again, to provoke me out of unnecessary trouble.After all, he has a new girlfriend now.

"Your name is Bei?"

He Yebei, who hadn't said a word after getting in the car, suddenly raised his head and glanced at me through the mirror, and asked in a flat tone.

I clenched my fists hard, suppressing the tension in my heart, and said with a dry smile, "Yes! My surname is Bei."

Does this last name remind you of anything?

I couldn't help staring at He Yebei's handsome profile in front of me, trying to find some waves on his face, but the man still had that calm expression, and he fell silent after asking such a sentence.

The atmosphere in the car became dull due to his abrupt question and the long silence, Xu Xu changed the subject awkwardly and made some jokes to ease the atmosphere.It's just that she can only tell bad jokes, so it doesn't have much effect.

Yao Qianyu seemed to understand He Yebei's temper very well, and said with a smile, "Don't mind, he just has this temper and doesn't like to talk much."

Xu Xu laughed and said, "No, no, why would we mind?"

That being said, in the next second, he leaned close to my ear and bit my ear again.

"People say that handsome guys have a lot of eccentricities, and it seems that they are right."

I ignored Xu Xu's words, I just wanted to get to school quickly and get out of the car to get rid of that person.Fortunately, the hospital is not far from the school, just over ten minutes' drive away.Almost as soon as the car stopped, I couldn't wait to pull the handlebars and get out of the car to get luggage in the trunk, but my hands were shaking so much that I couldn't open the trunk door. In the end, He Yebei came forward and said He said "I'm coming", opened the door easily, and took out the luggage and handed it to me.

I stood there with my head down, looked at the pair of green hands that were handed over, closed my eyes forcefully, and reached out to pick up my luggage.

After helping me with my things, the man turned around and entered the cab again. Yao Qianyu sat in his original position and did not get out of the car.

Xu Xu happily ran to my side, supported me considerately with one hand, and waved goodbye to Yao Qianyu and the others with the other.

Yao Qianyu smiled and told us to be careful, then turned around and said something to the man in the driver's seat.My mind was confused and I couldn't hear clearly, Xu Xu stopped suddenly, and looked back at "LaCrosse" who was about to leave in amazement.

"Old Bei, did you hear that? Sister Qianyu said just now, 'Yebei, let's go'. She called that man Yebei, did I mishear or something, why is the name Yebei so familiar, your first love Isn't it called He Yebei? Didn't your first love go abroad too... Your first love..."

Xu Xu said while pulling me to rush back to the car, I quickly reached out to stop her without thinking, and said: "No, no, Xu Xu, you made a mistake, he is not my first love, my first love does not look like this .Maybe your sister Qianyu called Ye Pei instead of Ye Bei, you misheard me!"

The car had already driven a long way, and Xu Xu was held in my arms and froze in place.I was slightly relieved when I realized that she had stopped wandering in blindly, and was about to let her go, but she suddenly grabbed my hand, stared at me seriously, and said aggressively: "Lao Bei, you are lying, he is He Yebei Right, if I got it wrong, why are your hands so cold? Before you came out of the hospital, your hands were warm, but on the way in the car, your hands were cold. You used to talk a lot, but today I didn't have much to say in the car, and stopped me from speaking. Bei Yinan, just tell me, is that person He Yebei!"

"No." I gritted my teeth and insisted, not daring to look into Xu Xu's eyes.

"Why do you do this? Your abnormality tells me that he is He Yebei! Since he is, why don't you recognize him? Because is he with Yao Qianyu?"

"Because he is not He Yebei at all!" I suddenly raised my voice and said loudly, looking at Xu Xu in front of me resolutely.

Xu Xu froze for a moment, looking at me speechless.

"How can I not recognize He Yebei? That guy is engraved in my bones and blood. I am not that great. If he is He Yebei, even if he has a girlfriend, I will fight with him according to my temper." , and asked him why he left me like that at the beginning, and brought me a new woman when he came back. But I didn’t, not because of other things, but because that person was not He Yebei.”

I lied to Xu Xu like I deceived others, Xu Xu seemed to believe my lie, but he didn't seem to believe it. He just looked at me with a sad and pitiful look, and said helplessly: "Old Bei, do you think this is really okay?" ?”

"Of course! Go back to the dormitory. My stomach hurts when I stand up. If I don't go back and lie down, I won't be well."

I deliberately misinterpreted her meaning and said, Xu Xu never forced me, stepped forward to help me again, and the two walked towards the dormitory building.

4
When Jiang Chengrui came to see me, I was nestling in the dormitory to make a publicity card for Xu Xu's graduation party. I habitually stretched my hand to the bedside to get potato chips, but I had no choice but to give up and couldn't help asking Xu Xu: " When did your external relations department even do the work of the propaganda department!"

Xu Xu was busy and didn't hear me, so I sat down on the bed and rested for a while, when Xiao Jiang called and asked to go downstairs to get food.

When I passed by Xuxu, I patted her on the shoulder and said I was going down.Xu Xu didn't raise his head, he just told me to go and come back quickly.

I went downstairs unhurriedly, passed through the gate of the second station, and saw Xiao Jiang standing under the birch tree not far away, waiting for me with a large bag of snacks in his hand.Probably tired of waiting, the man took out his mobile phone from his pocket, quickly dialed a few numbers, and put it to his ear.

I didn't bring my mobile phone with me, but I knew that Xiao Jiang was calling me, so I quickened my pace, walked over and let out a big yell, which startled someone.

"Bei Yinan, you're going to die! Your dormitory is on the second floor, and it took you a long time to get there! It's so hot outside today, you're drying my brother." Xiao Jiang angrily knocked on my head and said.

I laughed foolishly and said, "I'm fat and slow to walk! What did you buy me?"

"It's not that you shouted that you didn't eat, and the living expenses were almost gone, so you asked me to buy you snacks. Anyway, you are not picky eaters, so I went to Wal-Mart and picked some. Soon after, Shu Lei was still waiting for me in the cafeteria. "

I reached out and took the supermarket shopping bag that Jiang Chengrui handed over, opened it and looked inside, and couldn't help but click my tongue.Xiao Jiang is indeed a local tyrant, and he is generous in his purchases. He only buys expensive ones, but there are really few snacks, most of them are fruits and milk.

Seeing this, Jiang Chengrui touched my messy hair, and said: "I bought you snacks, but you can't eat too much at once. I will let Mo Xulu supervise you."

"Understood." I replied impatiently, took the bag and ran.

When I went back, I hid at the door of the dormitory and peeked in secretly, and found that Xu Xu was not there, so I hurried in with my things, pulled out the box under the bed, and poured the snacks into it. Xu Xu coughed.

"Old Bei, didn't you stop eating snacks? When did you buy them again?" Xu Xu said as he knelt down and wanted to grab my food.

I protected myself like a calf, pressed my whole body on the box tightly, not letting Xu Xu be dragged away, and said in a crying voice: "Xu Xu, don't grab it, I promise not to eat too much, just eat a little once in a while, just like that a little."

While I was talking, Xu Xu stood aside and looked at me coldly, as if I would cut off my fat hand if I dared to take food, and said fiercely: "Bei Yinan , Do you want to eat too much and vomit like you just started school again! Your binge eating disorder finally got better, and you are about to commit a crime again! Do you know why we confiscated your snacks? Little Shadow said that you were in the middle of the night a few days ago You vomit in the toilet every day, did you secretly eat again at night?"

"Xu Xu...don't talk..."

"Why are you so embarrassed! Then can you tell me why you fell ill again? You are under a lot of pressure? Or is it because you met your first love? Let me say it was He Yebei! You just met him that day It’s not normal to eat again!”

"Yes yes, he is He Yebei, you are right! You have always been right!" I covered my ears and growled, surrendering to Mo Xulu, burying my face on the box, unwilling to let her raise my head. See the mist in my eyes.

Xu Xu's tone suddenly softened, and he called out "Old Bei" helplessly.I didn't reply.

Xu Xu sighed: "He is He Yebei, why don't you recognize him? Why don't you just ask him why he left without saying goodbye? Because he didn't recognize you?"

"Because I have low self-esteem, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm no longer the former Bei Yinan, but he is still so glamorous, he is a beautiful scenery everywhere, I am afraid that I will ruin his heart for Bei Yinan Impression... And the first love is the first love, it has been five years, everything changes, people change, the person you like will naturally change, how can we meet again and be together, that is fiction, reality will not be like that .”

"But you can't let go!"

"What I can't let go of is the memories of that time, not He Yebei."

I have bulimia, and I have been sick for a long time. One year after He Yebei left, I have a history of almost four years.After Qiqi passed away, I was already suffering from depression. When He Yebei left, I was not as indifferent as the story said. I was more crazy and hysterical than I imagined. I even chased him to the United States to find him. Just not found.

My obesity didn't happen suddenly. It was because I was irritable and depressed for a long time, and I overeat, so that I couldn't control my food intake. I often overeat when I was alone, and I developed binge eating disorder.It took a long time after the disease was brought to university, and it was slowly brought under control and improved.It's just that occasionally I'm stressed or depressed, and I still relapse, but Xuxu and the others will always stop me from binge eating in time, so the relapse is not very serious.

My emotions were stimulated not because He Yebei had a new girlfriend, nor because he didn't recognize me when I stood in front of him, but because his return brought back my painful and uncomfortable memories.

5
After my begging, Xu Xu finally gave in and took away some of the snacks that Xiao Jiang bought for me, leaving only fruit and milk for me, and called it "It's not long since you had your appendix, eat some fruit, Milk is also good for the body."I have never tasted the cakes, chocolates, jelly, potato chips and other delicacies that Xiao Jiang bought for me.

When eating at night, I deliberately avoided Xu Xu and went to the cafeteria early. Under the astonished eyes of everyone, I ordered a big bowl of rice, three meat dishes, two big ribs and a bowl of earthen pot pork rib soup. I rushed to find a seat, sat down and prepared to have a big meal to make up for the recent regrets, but Xu Xu came out of nowhere and took away my two big platoons and most of the rice like a robber. up.

I couldn't eat what I wanted, and I was in a bad mood. When I went back to Xuxu at night and asked me to do something, I ignored it and just lay on the bed and went to sleep.I didn't know what time I fell asleep. When I was woken up by Xu Xu, I was dreaming about eating a full banquet, and there was a lot of saliva on the pillow.

Xu Xu patted my slobbering fat face in disgust. After I regained consciousness, I said with a stiff expression, "Call Huang Ying and ask her where she is. I won't be back tonight! The lights are about to turn off." If she doesn't come back, I'll lock the door. Don't look at the fact that she's tired of being with her boyfriend all day long after graduating from senior year. It's so boring that she won't be tired for a while. Men are completely different after college and society. Why? You might be able to tell what you will be like after graduating from the department!"

"Where's Little Shadow?" I looked at the empty bed opposite and yawned in a daze.

"She's going to stay in the postgraduate entrance examination classroom and won't come back all night. You should call Huang Ying quickly."

I said "Oh" and dialed Ding Dong's number with my mobile phone.

Huangying is Dingdang's real name. When we first met, she was nicknamed Dingdang because her voice was very clear and sweet, like a bell.

It took a long time for someone to answer the phone, the sound of jingle was different from usual, now it had a serious nasal sound, it was obvious that I had just cried, I couldn't help but frowned, looked at Xu Xu, followed cautiously Jingle talk.

"Ding Dong, where are you? It's almost time to turn off the lights, when are you coming back?"

Ding Dong didn't come back, but instead of being cold and arrogant in the past, he kept crying on the phone like a child without saying a word.

"How to say?" Xu Xu urged from the side.

"She's crying." I whispered to her.

Xu Xu's expression loosened, bit his lower lip, and asked me to give her the phone.

"Hey! Why are you crying? Where did you wind up at night, and you can't come back? Where? He's not with you?"

The tone of Xu Xu and Ding Dong's conversation has never been better since they had a quarrel. Ding Dong is also short-tempered. Hearing Xu Xu's mocking tone, he couldn't help but explode immediately, and yelled into the phone so loudly that I Can hear.

"It's none of your business whether I go back or not! You're happy now, I broke up with you! You're satisfied! Mo Xulu, you just can't see me!"

"You're joking, why are you angry with me when you broke up with a man?" Xu Xu said angrily.

The jingle over there suddenly stopped roaring, and there was only crying inside.

I was just about to hold Xu Xu back and tell her not to talk to Ding Dong in such a tone. She must be very uncomfortable when she loses love, but Xu Xu softened her tone and said arrogantly: "If you want to cry, come back and cry, okay?" Miss Huang, there is a large temperature difference between day and night in this city, and you won’t be afraid of catching a cold if you wind outside in the middle of the night, come back quickly, Lao Bei and I will wait until you come back to sleep.”

"I don't know when I can go back! I'm going to the school from the house I'm renting outside. I'm the only one at night, and I don't dare... and I don't have a car..."

"Wait there!"

Xu Xu is a typical master with a sharp mouth and a bean curd heart, but a hard mouth and a soft heart. Although she always quarrels with Dingdang, but if something happens to him, she will always be the first to stand out.

As soon as she hung up the phone, she quickly put a small coat on her body, looked at me sternly, and said: "Go and answer Jingle."

I ran down with her in disorderly steps, and was blown by the cold wind at the door, only to realize that the enthusiastic girl was only concerned with putting on her coat, and dragged me out without giving me time to wear one too.

"I'm going to catch a cold, you and Ding Dong have to pay me for medical bills!" I muttered.

Xu Xu almost choked me to death with one sentence: "You have so much fat and enough calories, you won't catch a cold without wearing a coat."

Ding Dong told us where the house was rented when we were chatting before. Xu Xu and I climbed the walls and stairs to get out of the school gate in the middle of the night, walked north along the bus line, and walked two stops I saw Ding Dong crying on the stone bench by the roadside.

As soon as Ding Dong saw us, he rushed over excitedly, and hugged Xu Xu who was walking in front, so he didn't look so jealous when he met his enemies before.

On the way back, we were lucky. A taxi was passing by us with late returning students. We had a premonition that the driver would turn back, so we waited across the road. Sure enough, a few minutes later, we saw the driver driving an empty car. When the car came, Xu Xu beckoned to stop the car.

Vehicles are strictly prohibited from entering and leaving the school. We got out of the car at the gate, and then it was a difficult journey. After walking, I almost died and returned to the dormitory. I fell on the bed and couldn't get up.

No one asked what was going on with Ding Dong and He Xiang. Graduation was approaching, and it was the peak time for college couples to break up.How many idiotic men and women used to complain, but in the end they all lost at the threshold of graduation.

After graduating from university, everyone went their separate ways. Those who went back to their hometowns went back to their hometowns, those who went to develop in other places went to other places, and those who stayed in the local area stayed in the local area.He Zi started to apply for studying abroad when he was in his junior year. He likes freedom, is full of enthusiasm, and doesn't like to be restrained and controlled by others. I plan to go back to my hometown after graduation.The two people's future life plans are not on the same line, and their life goals and values ​​are also different. It will be a matter of time before they break up.

Ding Dang himself knows these problems, and has said several times that he wants to break up with He Xie. It is very easy to persuade others to "short-term pain is worse than long-term pain", but he himself can't do it.

It was a very quiet night, and it was rare that Xu Xu and Ding Dong did not quarrel.Ding Dong stopped crying, and the three of us lay on our own beds, thinking about our own thoughts.

In college, we often see couples breaking up and reconciling, reconciling and then breaking up, or breaking up and never seeing each other again.After watching too much Separation and Separation, I have long seen the first love with He Yebei.

Which girl has never loved a boy in her youth, some love vigorously, some love painfully and happily, some love sweetly and happily... We have all loved, but not every girl can cultivate a relationship Positive fruit.Once that relationship fails, we will all suffer, but it is because of the pain that we feel real, because of the pain that is unforgettable enough, the pain makes us grow, let us remember that we once liked someone so much.

(End of this chapter)