aren't we in love

Chapter 29 She doesn't know how to resist and won't give in

"What about you? Lu Yingqin, do you have any heart?" Cheng Duanwu's eyes were full of confusion, and his voice became smaller and smaller: "If you have a little heart, how can you treat me like this? Because I implicate everyone around me, no matter how wrong I am, my father treats you so well, how can you have the heart to change his family name? And Yu Dong, he is your brother!"

Cheng Duanwu's hands and feet were trembling, "Lu Yingqin, tell me, do you have a heart? Even a little bit?"

She knew that she shouldn't ask such a question that fully exposed her weakness, but for a moment, it seemed as if the 17-year-old Cheng Duanwu was resurrected, controlling her will crazily, making her involuntarily ask the question that had been hidden in her heart for a long time .

Does Lu Yingqin have a heart?

She spent many, many years thinking about this problem, but she couldn't figure it out. In the end, she realized through suffering and blood and sweat that Lu Yingqin had a heart, but it was not on her body.She knew the answer was like this, but why she still couldn't help but want to hear him say it herself, and she had to die before giving up?
Tired, she gradually turned her eyes away, lowered her head slightly, and looked at the bottle of delicate and fragrant white roses on the table out of the corner of her eye, a bitter smile could not help but appear on her lips.

The answer is so obvious, all her attachment to him is a mistake, but she still wants to be cheap and check this wrong answer over and over again.Is there anyone in this world who is more stubborn than her?
She took a deep breath and tried to smile with the corners of her mouth pulled. Before Lu Yingqin could answer her, she said to herself: "I lost control. Mr. Lu spent money. I shouldn't provide such a service." Self-deprecating She had already spoken numbly, but she didn't know that she hurt Lu Yingqin while hurting herself, "I'm sorry Mr. Lu, I really can't adjust my mood today. If possible, please allow me to ask for a leave today."

After finishing speaking, she nodded politely, turned around and wanted to go upstairs.At this moment, she really didn't have the ability to stand and breathe in the same place as Lu Yingqin.She has no intention of fighting, she just wants to escape.

At the moment when Cheng Duanwu was about to pass by Lu Yingqin, Lu Yingqin grasped her thin arm accurately, the gentle skin was shining white, and the hand was smooth.

Lu Yingqin looked down at Cheng Duanwu. Her slightly bowed profile looked calm and sad. The clear light from the crystal chandelier above her head outlined the delicate and soft arc from the pinna to her chin. Her long eyelashes covered her transparent eyes. With watery eyes.

She always has a stubborn look of being wronged but strong.She doesn't know how to resist, but she never gives in.Lu Yingqin has always felt that such a woman is a contradictory and magical existence.

He suddenly remembered that a long time ago, before Cheng Tianda passed away, he had a drink with Cheng Tianda at an ordinary family dinner.At that time, everyone was drinking happily, except for him who was going to be the driver. Cheng Tianda, who was half-drunk, said to him half-seriously and half-jokingly: "Ying Qin, I don't have anything to ask for at my age, I just want my children to be safe. Duan Wu that delicate girl, I don't expect you to like her much, I just hope that you can understand her carefully and give her a chance."

At that time, Lu Yingqin couldn't listen to anyone's advice, he hated Cheng Duanwu with all his heart, and he hated everything about her automatically, like a vicious circle.In his eyes, her infatuation is all domineering and surly possessiveness, and he hates girls who give him such feelings.

But what about today after many years?

He suddenly began to miss Cheng Duanwu, who was stupid and infatuated in the past.He has struggled in this society, and he has reached his current position, and there is no way to retreat, and there is no one around him who has such pure feelings for him.

"Cheng Duanwu." He called her, but she didn't seem to hear her, she just tried her best to break free from his grip.

"Let go." Cheng Duanwu's strength was naturally no match for Lu Yingqin.

Lu Yingqin felt the unknown fire surge again, "Cheng Duanwu," he held his breath, he thought he would never bring up this past with her, but he blurted out: "You hate me? You hate me for taking Everything about your Cheng family? Hate me for implicating the people around you?" His eyes were dark and sharp, and his expression was stern: "Cheng Duanwu, let me tell you, you can't have a good life without me. Cheng Tianda is such a cautious person Why did you get ambushed? You never thought about it, did you?"

Lu Yingqin smiled coldly and frowned: "Cheng Tianda's biggest failure in his life was trusting your relatives of the Cheng family, flattering you and pretending to go through life and death on the surface, but in private? I wish Cheng Tianda would die soon! Cheng Tianda even foolishly put your brother and sister The way forward for the two of you is handed over to someone like that. Cheng Duanwu, you don’t know! The day after Cheng Tianda’s death, the company was in chaos. If there is no internal strife, I will have a chance."

Lu Yingqin said, "If it wasn't for me, you and your brother would have died long ago!"

Lu Yingqin's respect for Cheng Tianda has never changed. After Cheng Tianda passed away, he avenged him. All the people related to him were dealt with secretly by him. He thought he was justified.In the past, Cheng Tianda always taught him to be "ruthless", and only the strong are entitled to everything.It's a pity that Cheng Tianda himself is a person with too much blood.His failure taught Lu Yingqin a great lesson, which directly caused Lu Yingqin to no longer fully trust anyone.In his world, only restriction is the most stable.Because of this, he got used to restricting everyone around him by various means, including Cheng Duanwu.

Naturally, he never thought about whether Cheng Duanwu would accept it, just like Cheng Duanwu did to him many years ago.

The condensed breath in the air made Cheng Duanwu's whole body a little stiff, and the already paralyzed pain nerves suddenly became extremely sharp.She felt pain, and what hurt her was that Cheng Tianda, who had died so embarrassingly, was being mentioned so weightlessly.Her father, who was as important as Mount Tai in her heart, was so embarrassing and mediocre from others.

In the early years, Cheng Luoming always liked to complain angrily, thinking that with Cheng Tianda's character, it was impossible not to leave them with a future, but they all agreed that they did not want to doubt their own family.It's not that they're stupid, it's not that they're so kind.

It's just that they don't want to imagine human nature too ugly, because their lives are already not good.

Tears pooled in Cheng Duanwu's eyes, "Lu Yingqin, I don't want to hear it."

"Why not?" Lu Yingqin firmly grasped Cheng Duanwu's shoulder, "Don't you hate me? One time is enough! Let you hate enough!"

The pain in the shoulder blade came in bursts, but it was no match for the pain from the bottom of my heart.Tears were about to come out of her eyes, she stared at Lu Yingqin in despair, "Let me go!"

She pushed Lu Yingqin away with all her strength, "This person can be anyone, why is it you? Anyone can, but you can't."

Why is that you?Why is my favorite favorite you?Why is it you who I have devoted everything to without reservation?
Cheng Duanwu asked desperately in his heart, but there was no answer.

The bursting tears were scorching hot, and she tightly covered her eyes, but the tears still trickled down from between her fingers.It stung the messy lines on her palm and burned the complicated blood vessels at her fingertips.

Lu Yingqin wouldn't understand, because he never loved her.He doesn't understand the feeling of being betrayed by someone he loves and trampled underfoot.She lost all her love, affection, and self-esteem, but she still had nothing.She would rather this person be someone else, and she would rather be driven to death and be unable to survive than being cornered by Lu Yingqin.Physical pain is never as good as heartache.If she had a choice, she would rather go back in time and leave with Cheng Tianda at that time.

She was hurt badly by Lu Yingqin, and she couldn't find a suitable expression to face him, but she couldn't escape, and he wouldn't let her go.Such a feeling of powerlessness caused her to lose control of her emotions several times.

"Cheng Duanwu..." Lu Yingqin was a little stunned, his expression was extremely complicated, his gaze followed Cheng Duanwu, and he whispered her name with unprecedented tenderness.

And she wept so bitterly that she could barely hear anything.

Lu Yingqin flicked off the unfinished cigarette in his hand, the ash and sparks drew a chaotic arc in the air, and finally scattered one after another.Turning the car key, there was a sound of mechanical action coming from the engine.It is especially abrupt in the silence of the night.

The car window was opened to the maximum, and he opened it extremely fast. The cold wind poured directly on his face and the skirt of his clothes, and he seemed to be numb and unconscious.

The memory in his mind seemed to stay in the villa all the time, as if Cheng Duanwu was still by his side, and there was a vague fragrance lingering on her body, which made him almost powerless to think.His hands gripped the steering wheel so hard that his knuckles turned white.

In the ear is her weeping, powerless, desperate, and full of flavors.Her fragile appearance made him unbearable.Seeing her in pain, he couldn't help but follow her.

He still can't explain his behavior very well, but at that moment he almost instinctively stepped forward to hug her.

She was very thin, and was trembling because she was crying so sadly. He hugged her, feeling her fear, her embarrassment and her despair.She struggled hard but couldn't struggle no matter what, so she could only cry more uncomfortablely.

She who is so persistent and ignorant of restraint suddenly reminds him of Cheng Duanwu from the past.At that time, she was also like this, a little injury and pain could make the chickens and dogs restless.

At that time, Lu Yingqin always thought that he liked simple and quiet women.For example Yu Jiajia.

But when he really lost Cheng Duanwu, he realized that the perverse and difficult woman in the past had planted such a deep trace in his life.

He didn't know whether it was from the heart or on impulse, he hugged Cheng Duanwu, and buried her tightly in his chest when she gradually gave up struggling.

Her heartbeat was close to his, and such a regular rhythm bewitched his will, and he whispered in her ear, with blunt comfort and impatient curses.

In the end, it turned into a strange confession, and he didn't know how he blurted it out.

"Cheng Duanwu, let's get married."

Cheng Duanwu was astonished, woke up after a while, and objected fiercely: "No—"

"We're getting married, I'll help Yu Dong get away." He said such a sentence calmly, even he himself felt that such a trick was extremely despicable.

"Why?" Cheng Duan punched Lu Yingqin's chest one after another, and she asked hysterically, "Why don't you let me go? Why do you use so many tricks? Can't you just let me go?"

He didn't answer her question, but said lightly: "I think my son needs a complete family."

Such an explanation, even he himself felt far-fetched.His emotions were extremely complicated, and he himself didn't know why he said such words, but the moment he finished speaking, there was only relief, no regrets.

(End of this chapter)