aren't we in love

Chapter 30 Lu Yingqin, It's Dead

Cheng Duanwu slumped on the edge of the bed limply, the room was not turned on, and it was pitch black, with only a faint moonlight pouring in through the window screen.

Winter is already sleeping soundly, and the quilt is half covered indiscriminately. One can imagine what he looked like before he fell asleep.After waiting for a long time, he finally couldn't resist the sleepiness and fell asleep. The slippers were still hanging on his feet, hanging outside the edge of the bed, precariously.

Cheng Duanwu took off the child's shoes, carried the child to the bed, and covered the quilt.Staring silently at the child's immature sleeping face.

Blood relationship is really a wonderful thing. Although Dong Dong is lukewarm towards Lu Yingqin on the surface, his hostility towards Lu Yingqin also has some dependence.Cheng Duanwu had never given hope to his children in the past, and now he would not deliberately induce his children to hate Lu Yingqin.She doesn't want to instill the grievances between adults in children.

She reached out and caressed Dong Dong's forehead hair, her movements were gentle, full of tenderness and love.She has nothing else she wants, except for this child, she can't give up anyway, and she doesn't want to force herself to give up.

Lu Yingqin said to her: "We're getting married, I let Yu Dong go."

She was angry, angry, sad, but finally agreed.

She couldn't do without the child, which meant she couldn't get rid of Lu Yingqin, so why not compromise a bit, let Yu Dong be free, and alleviate her sins.

She finally calmed down, lowered her head and lowered her eyelids, her eyes were infinitely empty, "Lu Yingqin, I don't think I've ever understood you. In the past, I tried my best to understand you, but I couldn't understand you. Now I still can't understand you. But I don’t want to know anymore.”

Lu Yingqin almost turned a blind eye to her helpless expression, and just smiled indifferently: "Which day do you think is suitable? I respect you."

Cheng Duan was expressionless. They were talking about marriage, but it seemed that it was just a transaction entangled in interests, without any emotion.

"You let Yu Dong come out first, and I will naturally keep my promise."

Lu Yingqin's heart was slightly shocked. He swallowed everything he wanted to say, and just smiled coldly: "Tomorrow, how about you pick it up in person tomorrow?" This is the greatest indulgence I can give you, if you miss it, there will be nothing.”

"Yes." Cheng Duanwu calmly agreed. At this moment, she felt a coldness in her heart. She turned around and stopped looking at him, "Lu Yingqin, let's go."

"..." Lu Yingqin was silent for a while, then turned and left, taking away a gust of wind and blowing over Cheng Duanwu's heart.

Is such an ending really what they want?

The next day, she woke up early to pick up Yu Dong, and the driver took her to the place where Yu Dong was being held.

All the formalities of Yu Dong were handled by Guan Yi himself, and Cheng Duanwu followed Guan Yi through the procedures before finally meeting Yu Dong himself.

She didn't calculate exactly how long it was since they hadn't seen each other, it was probably a long, long time, so long that she felt that everything was so unreal.

God seems to know something, the sky refuses to clear up, and the gray scene makes people feel depressed.Guan Yi avoided walking a few meters away from the two of them.Cheng Duanwu and Yu Dong were left facing each other quietly.Both of them were silent and did not speak, as if the air was no longer flowing.Cheng Duanwu pinched his palms to try to wake himself up.

How can she accept all this calmly?The two people who had clearly agreed to go together went in completely different directions.It's like the vicissitudes of life, as if the world has changed, but after a short period of time, everything changed so unexpectedly.

Cheng Duanwuhui came here, Yu Donghui was released without incident, and Lu Yingqin's most powerful assistant, Guan Yi, came in person.

Needless to say, all the answers are obvious.

Money is a bad thing, so Lu Yingqin can put him in jail after finding a loophole in his business; money is a good thing, so Lu Yingqin can use money to fill the loophole for him when he is at a loss, and let him regain his freedom.

Yu Dong kept looking at Cheng Duanwu, his eyes were full of heartache, he didn't ask anything, he was the same as Cheng Duanwu, he just resented good fortune for tricking people.

In the end, it was Cheng Duanwu who broke the silence first. She pulled the corners of her mouth, trying to put on a smiling expression. She greeted him softly, "Are you okay?"

There is no beginning and no end, no one says no pronouns, nothing, but both of them understand it clearly.

Yu Dong's expression was full of helplessness. For a moment, he really wanted to step forward and hug Cheng Duanwu.But he can't, he's not strong enough to protect her safely, even... His safety depends on her being committed to others.

He always watched her turn into a look that would make him feel infinitely distressed, but he could do nothing to change it.

"I'm fine." Yu Dong's voice was hoarse, and there seemed to be a thousand words in his throat, but he couldn't say a word, "Then... how about you?" He asked very anxiously, his hands trembling slightly.

Cheng Duanwu smiled softly, the smile was far-fetched and bitter, "I'm fine too, now he gave me back the winter."

"Dragon Friday..."

"I will marry him." Cheng Duanwu preemptively announced this heart-wrenching ending, not giving Yu Dong any chance to speak.He knew that she was afraid that she would soften her heart, that she would not be able to hold on.

Yu Dong licked his dry lips in pain, and said with a wry smile: "I guessed, he won't let me go so easily."

He looked at Cheng Duanwu's eyes full of nostalgia, and he was so uncomfortable that he looked away.Originally, he wanted to ask her why she still compromised?Why not trust the promise between them?But when he faced her, he realized that he couldn't ask a word.Seeing her getting thinner and thinner, he couldn't bear it, couldn't bear to see a woman who lived such a miserable life bear more burdens.The only thing he can do is to respect her choice.

All possibilities have been cut off between him and her.He picked up a place in his heart, a clean and soft place, where only she lived, and only recorded all the past with her.He and she became strangers in the end, the ending that belonged to them, the only thing left was to let go.

Yu Dong stared at Cheng Duanwu affectionately, and said: "Take care of yourself."

Cheng Duanwu pretended to be nonchalant and replied: "I will."

"To live well, at least better than me."

"I will."

"..." Yu Dong didn't know what else to say, his eyes were covered with a layer of gray sadness.He was carrying his own things, his palms clenched unconsciously.After a long time, he reached out and held Cheng Duanwu's hand.There were thick calluses on the rough joints of his fingers, but they were so warm that Cheng Duanwu felt suffocated.

Yu Dong's fingers gently and slowly drew a circle on Cheng Duanwu's palm.The itchy touch made Cheng Duanwu's whole body's senses focus on the palm of his hand.

"Dragon Boat Festival," Yu Dong called her name softly, and she slowly raised her head to meet his gaze.

"I heard that if you draw a circle on your palm, you will meet again in your next life. Dragon Boat Festival, you must meet me first in your next life."

Cheng Duanwu's heart choked.There was a bitterness in her throat, Yu Dong was just an ordinary man, but his careful care of Cheng Duanwu made her unforgettable.In the end, his affection was mercilessly let down by her.

She bit her lips tightly, and it took a long time before she replied: "Okay, if there is a next life, I will definitely meet you first."

Sitting in the car, watching Yu Dong hailed a taxi and left.Looking at his lonely back, Cheng Duanwu finally couldn't hide his fragility, and began to cry silently.

The freedom and indulgence that Lu Yingqin can give her only ends here, and she can't go beyond that.

Seeing her painful expression, Guan Yi couldn't bear it, and wanted to comfort her, but after thinking about it, she probably understood what he needed to say.People's pain always comes from themselves. He has always understood this point. If Cheng Duanwu can be unfettered, even Lu Yingqin can't do anything to her.

"Mr. Lu asked me to take you to the Civil Affairs Bureau. He is already waiting there." Guan Yi checked the time and reminded Cheng Duanwu in due course.

"Understood." Cheng Duanwu's voice was a little hoarse. She pressed the car window and let the cold wind dry the tears on her face and clear her chaotic mind.

"Let's go." Cheng Duanwu spoke for the last time, pouring out only two words sadly, accompanied by a long sigh.

The procedure of obtaining the certificate was simpler than she imagined.There was no queuing or messy inquiries, and once the steel seal was pressed, the two red notebooks legally bound the two together.Cheng Duanwu was in a daze all the time. She stroked the uneven steel seal on the marriage certificate, and felt that the seal seemed to be on her heart.

How much did you look forward to this moment?How much do you hate this moment now?It's really this moment and that moment.

She met Lu Yingqin briefly for a while, and he was still meticulous. He didn't say a word to her, and he didn't stop his eyes on her from the beginning to the end.

Signing the marriage letter was like signing a contract, and the chilling scene scared the staff in the office.

Their marriage certificate was taken away by him.Before leaving, he only condescended to "go back early", and nothing else.

Cheng Duanwu didn't go home immediately, he got rid of the driver on the pretext of buying something, and wandered the street alone.

There are all kinds of exquisite clothes and shoes in the season, but Cheng Duanwu is not interested at all. She is like a lonely ghost wandering between heaven and earth, homeless and homeless. Branches to rely on.

Standing in front of the transparent mirror-like window, Cheng Duanwu was almost helpless as he looked at himself, who was gradually graying out.

Love is something that can kill the soul, and she no longer wants to taste and comprehend it.

She is really tired.

She returned to the villa in the suburbs very late, dragging her body tired.As soon as she entered the door, she felt that the atmosphere was uncomfortably oppressive, so she changed her shoes.She ignored Lu Yingqin who was sitting expressionlessly on the sofa, and went straight to the bathroom.

"Stop." Lu Yingqin stopped her calmly, with neither a high nor a low tone.Cheng Duanwu stopped, turned slightly to look at Lu Yingqin, and waited for his next words.

"Why is your phone turned off?" Lu Yingqin's face was livid, but his tone was controlled.

Cheng Duanwu subconsciously groped in the bag, only to find that the mobile phone was no longer in the bag.Only then did I remember that I seemed to drop something on the table when I was drinking in the afternoon and forgot to take it.

"It seems to have fallen."

"Dropped?" Lu Yingqin's eyes widened with anger.He stood up abruptly.Cheng Duanwu's perspective suddenly changed from looking down to looking up.His broad shoulders covered all her light like a wall.Only the shadow fell on her, and the contours of the shadow changed along the curves of her body.

Lu Yingqin stood with his hands behind his back.He still carried the marriage certificate he received today like an idiot, and the gold-plated red book was burning his heart on his chest at this moment, while the woman who tied the knot with him on the red book faced his irritability calmly and indifferently and anger.A look of indifference and alienation.

He didn't know exactly when it started, they formed such a weird way of getting along with each other, as if their roles had been reversed.Facing her, he was always furious.But she was different. Facing him, she would always look careless and calm.

He waited for hours at the Civil Affairs Bureau.He conceitedly let her go to see Yu Dong, but he didn't have any confidence in his heart. He didn't know if she would really come, or if she would change her mind temporarily and run away with Yu Dong.

A few hours later, she arrived as promised, and she didn't look at him from the beginning to the end, as if she was really just fulfilling a promise.Her expression is so alienated, like an orchid in an empty valley, beautiful is beautiful, but it is unbearable to break.

When the two glowing red marriage certificates were in his hands, he felt a sense of dislocation in time and space.At that moment, he didn't know why, but he was so happy and excited in his heart.

In the evening, he deliberately pushed back all the activities and entertainments and went back early, and he also reminded her to come back earlier, not wanting him to come back happily, and the only response to him was the room full of coldness.

He didn't know how long he sat there. It was so long that the nanny brought the child back from school, and it was so long that the mother's child fell asleep from exhaustion before she came back.

The legendary look forward to piercing the autumn water, so this is what it feels like?At that moment, he didn't know why, but a strong sense of frustration welled up spontaneously.

He slammed the marriage certificate in his chest on the table, his expression cooled down instantly, and his tone was blunt, "Don't think that you can go to heaven after getting the certificate with you, I just want to give that brat an identity."

Cheng Duanwu nodded silently, "Yes."

Lu Yingqin was choked up by her calm response, he clenched his fists, and after thinking about it, he asked unwillingly: "Cheng Duanwu, do you have any heart? You really can't see how I treat you?"

After a long time, Cheng Duanwu turned around, calm as never before, and she said quietly: "I don't have a heart, my heart was given to you seven years ago, but you lost it." She smiled bitterly: "I don't I know where you threw it, and you only ask me now, it's too late."

Lu Yingqin frowned tightly and held her arms roughly, "Get it back for me! Get your heart back for me!"

She slowly broke away from his hand, "I can't find him, Lu Yingqin, it's too late, too late." Her thin lips moved slightly.Pointing to her chest, she said in a calm and desolate tone, "Lu Yingqin, it's dead."

(End of this chapter)