aren't we in love

Chapter 31 What should I do with you?
Cheng Duanwu was depressed all day, replaying Yu Dong's bitter smile repeatedly in his mind.A heavy sense of guilt made her weak.She really wanted to cry and vent, but facing Lu Yingqin, her lacrimal gland seemed to be dead suddenly, and there were no tears.The windows of the living room were wide open, and the night wind lifted the screens and swayed them lightly.Cheng Duanwu was facing the wind, and the dry wind made her eyes red, but she still couldn't shed tears.

"Lu Yingqin, it's dead." When Cheng Duanwu said this, his face was full of sadness and despair.His eyes were so tired, as if he didn't even have the energy to chase.The attachment and obsession of youth really disappeared in her world.

Lu Yingqin was stung by her almost spontaneous expression.A mouthful of depression was congested in his chest, and he was almost out of breath.

He ordered almost unwillingly: "I don't allow it!"

He frowned aggressively, "Even if you die, you have to come back to life, do you hear me?"

"Why now?" Cheng Duanwu's eyes burst into strong resentment, and she blamed him fearlessly: "When my father left, when I needed you most, you disappeared from my world; Please, I gave you everything, and you let me go; I only have 900 yuan on me, and when I tried my best to give birth to Winter, you treated me as nothing; even... when you hit me, no matter what Have you ever wondered where my heart went?"

Cheng Duanwu felt that the painful past was pressing heavily on her tear glands, and finally there was a warm and moist feeling in her eye sockets, "Lu Yingqin, it's not that I don't remember my heart for you, but I don't want to remember."

She didn't want to remember, because putting together every piece of her heart was full of shame and embarrassment.She is a person, she also has self-esteem, she can't just erase all the hurt as if it didn't happen.He has brought her so much harm, so much that she can no longer believe in love, how can she love him again?

But the saddest thing is that in this life, she has only loved him, so much that she has emptied her heart.

What about the ending?She doesn't want to think about the ending.

She closed her eyes tiredly, forcing back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes.

For the first time, Lu Yingqin honestly faced the most primitive reaction in his heart.He knew that Cheng Duanwu had already settled in his heart unknowingly.No matter how much he resists and how much he refuses to admit it, the fact is there. His initial disgust towards her, then unwillingness, then concern, finally turned into a complex feeling of admiration and imprisonment.He always wants to see her, thinks of sleepless nights, he wants to have her, but he dare not be more rude, he is afraid of hurting her, so that she will never open the door of her heart to accept him.He had never felt so uneasy about any woman.It seemed that he was no longer the strategizing Lu Yingqin.

He knew that his threats and confinement to her would only make her farther and farther away.But even if it was such a contact, he couldn't bear it.Even if she is indifferent to each other day and night, it is better than not being seen, and it is better than her going with others.

Lu Yingqin felt that there had never been a moment when he was more powerless than now.

"Dragon Boat Festival," he called her for the first time, calling her in an intimate gesture: "Come here."

Cheng Duanwu's expression did not change, she looked at him with a complicated expression, motionless.Finally, Lu Yingqin gave in and walked towards her in frustration.

He stared at Cheng Duanwu for a long time, with such warm and delicate eyebrows and eyes, his skin was white and glowing, but his eyes were empty and pitiful.She looked defensive and confused, like a lost fawn.Lu Yingqin felt a little pain in his heart.

Staring at her bright red lips, he was in a daze, and suddenly remembered that he never seemed to have kissed her.

In the past, he didn't want to; now, he doesn't dare.

He didn't know which nerve was wrong, and suddenly he didn't want to sort out all the past with her at all.All he wanted was her.

He leaned down suddenly and desperately kissed her lips as soft as petals.

Cheng Duanwu was frightened for a moment.

But today, both Lu Yingqin and she lost control.His movements were so gentle that she almost suffocated her. She was almost bewitched, so suddenly that she forgot to push him away.The brain was blank and dazed.

She woke up suddenly, scenes of the past were playing out in her mind, she bit hard on Lu Yingqin's aggressive tongue, and because of the pain, Lu Yingqin let her go.She was staggered by his strength, and a strong bloody smell rushed up her throat, stimulating her internal organs to almost vomit.She leaned on the wall in a panic and could hardly stand up.

I thought it would be a raging storm, but unexpectedly, Lu Yingqin, who was injured by her, was not angry at all.He gently wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, as if he was still immersed in the passion just now.He smiled faintly, the corners of his mouth were curved, making his brows clear, and that expression was so tranced that she felt that it seemed to be the expression he showed to her only a thousand years ago.

What he said was even more unreal than a dream. He said: "Dragon Boat Festival, don't be afraid of me. From today on, let's pretend that there are only three of us in this world, okay?"

That was the first time that Lu Yingqin did not leave at night.He stayed overnight with Cheng Duanwu and Dongdong.

Cheng Duanwu didn't know why he acquiesced in his wanton behavior.

At this moment, Cheng Duanwu hugged Dong who was sleeping soundly, while Lu Yingqin was sleeping behind her. His movements were cautious, and he didn't overstep the rules. He just had a long arm gently around her waist.

She didn't dare to move, but felt that Lu Yingqin's arm was like a piece of red-hot iron, which almost burned her waist.

She didn't know why she compromised again.When she heard Lu Yingqin say: "Dragon Boat Festival, don't be afraid of me. From today on, let's pretend that there are only three of us in this world, okay?"

She suddenly felt longing.

There are only three of them left in the world. Is there such a world?Can she really pretend that nothing happened, forget everything, and live in a world with only three people?Cheng Duanwu opened his eyes and dared not close them.She was afraid that when she woke up, everything would go back to the way it was before.

God, please forgive her cowardice and greed.She really lived too hard, she didn't want to struggle anymore, when Dong Dong grew up and no longer needed her, she would definitely atone for her sins, even if it took her life.

But at this moment, please forgive her unprincipled compromise, forgive her.

Time ticked by, about three or four hours passed.Lu Yingqin listened nervously to Dongdong and Cheng Duanwu's steady breathing.His arm rested lightly on Cheng Duanwu's waist, and he didn't dare to move, half of his body and arms were numb.

He had never been so careful, and he didn't know why.

Dong Dong and Cheng Duanwu's sleeping positions are almost exactly the same, curled up in a ball, pitiful, making Lu Yingqin's heart almost feel like being pulled.

He couldn't imagine what he had gone through to make this mother and son become like this, as if they instinctively rejected anyone every second, instinctively protected themselves, and instinctively trapped in a world with only them.

He remembered that when he went to school to pick up the winter, the teacher and those parents repeatedly recounted the whole story of his fight with carefully worded words.

In winter, I study in an aristocratic school. The children of each family are either rich or expensive. When eating lunch, the picky eaters pick out the fat and throw it on the table. Seeing it in winter, they feel that it is a waste and eat all the fat thrown by the children. The children of the rich family had never seen such a race, and they were boiling for a while. All kinds of taunts made Dong Dong, who was still a child, emotional, and finally fought.

Lu Yingqin didn't have a deep understanding of this matter at the time, but now that he thinks about it, what kind of life is it that can train a six-year-old child to be like this?

Later, he also asked Guan Yi to investigate the process of Duanwu, and he had some understanding of her life in the past few years, but at that time, he was so angry with this sudden child, thinking how could this woman be like this?Surreptitiously gave birth to his child, but wanted to marry someone else.

Thinking about it now, she was also driven to nowhere by life, right?

The way he pressed on her every step of the way, compared to what she had imposed on him in the past, it was nothing less than that.

Do unto others, do not impose on others.He has begun to introspect.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help hugging Cheng Duanwu, who was already sound asleep.Only when she was fast asleep did he dare to hug her presumptuously.Thinking of this, he couldn't help but smile bitterly.

Cheng Duanwu is very thin, but his hands and feet are long, which is a good-looking skeleton. If he is fatter, he may look better.In the past few years, he has seen all kinds of women, but he always feels that she seems to be irreplaceable.

Lu Yingqin felt Cheng Duanwu's warm body temperature in his chest, and his heart suddenly felt warm.He suddenly moved closer, Cheng Duanwu, who didn't want to fall asleep, probably felt uncomfortable, so he moved slightly, Lu Yingqin thought she had woken up, so he quickly let go, closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.

Cheng Duanwu just made a move and didn't move again.

Lu Yingqin's heart that was beating wildly from nervousness gradually regained his composure. After a while, he stretched out his arms to hug him again. This time, Cheng Duanwu didn't break free from him.

He sighed wearily: "Tell me, what should I do with you?"

Cheng Duanwu didn't fall asleep all night.In the middle of the night, Lu Yingqin thought she was fast asleep, so he embraced her with arms and legs wantonly, his clear breath filled all her senses, she was almost so nervous that she didn't move.His warm breath was just behind her ear, and she felt his breath getting closer, her whole body began to feel uncomfortable, goosebumps all over her body, and at the moment he was about to get closer to her, she struggled instinctively.

Lu Yingqin bounced away like an electric shock, his distance made her feel suddenly empty in her body and empty in her heart, and she didn't know why.She didn't move again, and she didn't wake up to expose him.

After a while, Lu Yingqin posted it again.

He said, "Tell me, what should I do with you?"

A slight exclamation seemed to reach the bottom of her heart.

Her heart, which she felt was as hard as iron, suddenly softened, but the next moment, a feeling of pity and pity came over her involuntarily.

(End of this chapter)