aren't we in love

Chapter 44 I have been to this world.

"Impossible!" Cheng Duanwu's complexion instantly turned pale.The pain felt like thousands of arrows piercing the heart, and there was a fishy sweetness in the throat: "Impossible, you just told me that the situation is very good a few days ago, and you just told me that if you wait, maybe there will be a turnaround!"

"Ashely, calm down, please calm down? The child's condition has changed, which none of us want to see. Listen to me and come back soon."

Change... These two words hit Cheng Duanwu like two big rocks, and Cheng Duanwu felt his mind go blank.The overwhelming pain came from all directions, and she only felt a cold chill rushing through her whole body.Limbs and bones couldn't help shaking.She felt like she was almost suffocating.

"Ashely...Ashely..." Dr. Smith on the other end of the phone anxiously called Cheng Duanwu's name.

Cheng Duanwu tried to calm himself down: "I'll be right back."

Cheng Duanwu threw his mobile phone to one side, didn't change his clothes, and forgot to put on his shoes, picked up his bag and rushed out the door.The moment she rushed out the door.Lu Yingqin quickly grabbed her.

"Where are you going!" He was furious, his eyes widened, and he almost wanted to tear Cheng Duanwu to pieces.

"Let go!" Cheng Duanwu tried hard to shake him off, but his strength was astonishingly strong, and his hand gripped her wrist until it hurt painfully.She suppressed the tears that were about to burst into her eyes: "Listen to Lu Yingqin! Let me go immediately, immediately, and I must go back to my child now! That is my child, my life, do you understand?"

Bloodthirsty anger burst out of Lu Yingqin's pupils. He held Cheng Duanwu's hand tightly, almost gnashing his teeth and said, "At this point, you still need someone? Cheng Duanwu, tell me, you Where can you go? You are like a headless chicken, where are you going?"

"Let go! Lu Yingqin! Let go! My child is dying!"

"Snapped,"

Lu Yingqin slapped Cheng Duanwu swiftly and fiercely on the face. Cheng Duanwu, who was almost hysterical, almost staggered and fell due to this slap.Her loose long hair almost covered her entire expression.She covered the half of her face that was beaten, silent like a ghost.

"Be sober!" He frowned tightly and said in a low voice, "Now, go change your clothes and put on your shoes immediately! Guan Yi told me just now! He has already booked the plane ticket, now you go with me. Calm down !"

Cheng Duanwu remained motionless.Just when Lu Yingqin was about to get angry again, she suddenly raised her head.There was a clear red mark on her fair face, which was shocking to see, but for some reason, her usually stubborn eyes were full of despair, and her red eyes were filled with tears. When she opened her mouth, she was obviously asking He, however, seemed to ask himself again: "Is it still possible to save it? It will definitely be saved, right?" Such a painful and desperate expression, like a wounded female animal.That look made Lu Yingqin's heart ache.

Lu Yingqin was startled, and swallowed the "don't know" abruptly.He didn't like to say things that he wasn't sure about, but for some reason, he almost blurted out: "Yes, I will be saved."

"..."

More than ten hours of flight plus connecting flight.Even though both of them were extremely exhausted, they rushed to the hospital without stopping.

It's just that I haven't seen him for more than ten days, but Dong Dong seems to have become another child.The blood has just been drawn, and the intensity of the treatment in the past few days has been too high, and the child has already fainted weakly.The moment Cheng Duanwu saw the child, the tears that had been suppressed in his eyes immediately fell down.

The child curled up on the bed, because he had a fever again, wet sweat stuck to his hospital gown, and the bedding and sheets were messy because of his tossing and turning. His breathing was faster than normal, and he was shaking slightly. Every time he had a fever, he Trembling, like someone in a drug addiction.Because he was afraid of sepsis, the doctor always had to draw his blood every time his symptoms became severe.

The child has been tortured by various treatments and is almost dying.

Cheng Duanwu looked at the child who was too thin to be human, and his tears never stopped.My heart felt cramped.She quickly picked up the towel from the nurse at the side, sat next to the child, and wiped the child carefully.

The little child's frown was exactly the same as that of Lu Yingqin, blood spots had already begun to grow on his body.

It's only been ten days, and she's only been away for more than ten days.

Why has everything changed?

When she left, it was obvious that the winter had stabilized a lot, hadn't it?

The child probably felt the warm towel on his body, and suddenly felt a little more comfortable, and his frowning brows eased a little, and his eyes were squinting, like a lazy kitten.

A few minutes later, Dong Dong woke up because of the too much movement around him.

He was sobbing hoarsely, but there was this happy smile on his face: "Mom, you're back!" He moved his eyes weakly, and when he saw Lu Yingqin, his eyes lit up slightly: "Dad...uncle..."

Looking at the child, Cheng Duanwu felt severe pain in her heart. She hurriedly wiped away her tears, forced a smile and said, "Mom is here, let Mom see, where does it hurt in winter?"

The child shook his head sensiblely: "It doesn't hurt."

His breath was like gossamer, he was obviously smiling, but tears had already flowed out: "When mom is back, there will be no pain anywhere. I thought it was because I was sick that mom didn't want me anymore." Dong Dong looked at Cheng Duan Five, said carefully: "Mom, I will get better soon, don't want me?"

Cheng Duanwu's heart hurts so much that he doesn't know how to describe it.She hugged the child tightly, tears burst into tears several times, such a small child, what crime did he have, why did God treat him like this?
Her voice was so trembling that she could barely speak: "Silly boy...how could Mom not want you? Mom won't want you...Mom went to find medicine to cure the winter...Believe Mom, Mom will never Will leave you. Good boy, mother's good boy..."

Lu Yingqin, who had been standing at the door the entire time, was shocked to see this scene of affection.

He never imagined that seeing his child again would be like this.In fact, he didn't have a deep sense of being a father.In his concept, it was just an extra villain with half of his blood left in his body, that's all.

But at this moment, for the first time, he felt that the title "Dad" was not just a word.It contains many heavy responsibilities and obligations.Lu Yingqin claimed that he was not a coward, but at this moment, he did not dare to move forward.They dare not approach their mother and son.

I don't know how long it has been.Sleep contentedly in winter.Cheng Duanwu wiped away his tears and stood up.

"Can you take care of the child for me?" Her voice was so hoarse that she could hardly hear the sentence, but her expression was so firm.

Lu Yingqin nodded, and then grabbed Cheng Duanwu who was about to go out: "Where are you going?"

"Talk to the doctor."

Lu Yingqin glanced at the child, then at Cheng Duanwu: "I'll go too."

Cheng Duanwu hesitated for a while, then nodded.Call the nurse to look after the baby.The two went to talk to the doctor together.

Lu Yingqin did not know the doctor in charge of the child.It was a white man with blue eyes.He speaks very gentlemanly and calmly.After they greeted briefly, he heard Cheng Duanwu talking to the doctor in fluent English.

They mentioned a lot of professional words about leukemia, but he just got the general idea.However, it can be generally known from the doctor's explanation that the child's condition is not very good.

He clenched his fists tightly, but he couldn't get in a word.

This child was raised by Cheng Duanwu's blood and sweat before he was six years old, and their intersection was only a few months.Later, when they went abroad, Cheng Duanwu took good care of them.The significance of this child to Cheng Duanwu.It was the first time he was so clear.He suddenly felt that the Cheng Duanwu in front of him was no longer the Cheng Duanwu he knew. For a moment, he even felt that such a Cheng Duanwu, her strength was invincible.He remembered that Cheng Duanwu said to him more than once when he lost his temper: "The child is her life."

But at this moment, "her life" may be gone.

Lu Yingqin actually felt more scared than ever before.

Dr. Smith told Cheng Duanwu that a suitable bone marrow match has been found.But the hospital is still trying to make contact.The right person does not agree to donate bone marrow.

When Cheng Duanwu heard it, he was happy but also sad: "Can you tell me who it is? Let me beg him, please! Please!"

"Sorry." Dr. Smith also had a sad expression: "Please don't insult my integrity. This is basic respect. We can only contact you from it, and we cannot tell you the donor's information."

"How much does he want? He can give as much as he wants!"

"It's not about money." Dr. Smith also felt very helpless.As an expert in this field, he has encountered such things countless times.But not everything in the world can be solved by money, "Ashely calm down, we will try our best to find a solution."

"..." Hearing such an ending, Cheng Duanwu lost the strength to cry.

Her baby is so cute and obedient, why doesn't God want to save him?

In the following week, there was no news of the bone marrow source for the successful match.Cheng Duanwu was also getting more impatient every day.

From pretending to be calm at the beginning, it almost collapsed in the end.She always hid herself and cried when she fell asleep in winter.Seeing her getting thinner and the child getting weaker and weaker, it was the first time that Lu Yingqin felt that he was so useless, there was nothing he could do except helplessness.

The people under his command were also quietly checking the person who had a successful match but was unwilling to donate bone marrow.The level of confidentiality of such information in foreign countries is unimaginable to ordinary people.General doctors and nurses are not qualified to contact direct sources of information.It seems difficult to say that money can make ghosts work.Their adherence to professional ethics and loyalty to integrity are admirable but helpless.

Early in the morning, Cheng Duanwu had another sleepless night.She hadn't talked to Lu Yingqin for a long time, and every day she either talked and chatted with the child, or cried in a daze.Like an autistic lunatic.

The child's illness and pain involved every nerve of her.

Lu Yingqin felt distressed, but there was nothing he could do.She closed herself and her heart, and no one could get in.

Guan Yi called early in the morning, Lu Yingqin looked at the focused expression of Cheng Duanwu who was talking to Dongdong in the ward, sighed, and went out to answer.

"Boss, there is news from the bottom. The person has been found. A Chinese who started a company in Chinatown has a little money. He lives a comfortable life and is unwilling to donate. His subordinates have already found someone to go to his home."

"Are you sure?" Lu Yingqin understood that Guan Yi's understatement was actually "extraordinary measures".

"Old man Ou also came to pick up people, so there shouldn't be any problem."

"Okay. Arrange as soon as possible."

"Yes."

"..."

Within a few hours, the hospital did receive a call, and the donor agreed!
This is the best news in over a week.

Cheng Duanwu was so happy that he almost fainted.

She knew that Lu Yingqin and Ou Hanwen used "extraordinary measures", but she was a selfish mother.She just wanted to save her child, and she didn't care about anything else.

It's just that the most cruel thing is this God who arranges all suffering.

Her poor child, before the moment of surgery, a big change happened.

A high fever that does not go away makes the winter situation more dangerous than ever.

The child keeps complaining about stomach ache.But he was very strong and didn't cry at all.Duan Wu knew that his pain was due to internal bleeding.He has diarrhea and blood in his stool every day.But he resisted crying to her.He was dripping with sweat, and his clothes were all wrinkled with sweat.Haven't had a bath in winter since getting sick last fall.This child used to not like to take a bath when the weather was cold, he was very sloppy, and Cheng Duanwu didn't dare to let him take a bath after he got sick, for fear that he would catch a cold.At first, the child was very happy, but later on, his body became uncomfortably dirty, and the child clamored to take a bath.Cheng Duanwu only dared to wipe him with a towel.After chemotherapy, the child's resistance is very weak, and he gets sick easily. The doctor also told Cheng Duanwu that many leukemia patients leave in the end not because of leukemia itself, but because of infection.

Cheng Duanwu didn't dare to take any risks anymore, so she has been careful to protect the child very well.

But a child is a child after all, and his ability to bear is no better than that of an adult.The treatment for so long has made his heart and body on the verge of collapse, but he is afraid that Cheng Duanwu will be sad, so he still bears it.

Cheng Duanwu saw all this.

The bone marrow source was found.But the doctor also made it very clear that if it is transplanted, several rounds of chemotherapy will be required from now on, bone puncture will be done to check the type again, lumbar puncture will be done, and blood will be drawn, not to mention, basically if there are any symptoms, it will be done.Given the current situation of the child, he may have left before the transplant operation.

Cheng Duanwu could see how difficult the treatment process was.

Chemotherapy caused the child to start losing his hair, and the nurse shaved it for him.Winter touched his bald head and asked Cheng Duanwu: "Mom, is summer here? Why do you want to cut your hair?"

Cheng Duanwu couldn't stop crying.The kid hasn't looked in the mirror for a long time and doesn't know what he looks like now.Cheng Duanwu used to take the child to have his hair cut very short every summer in order to keep him cool.But now...

Her heart ached just thinking about it.

Lu Yingqin was also aware of the current situation.The doctor also talked to him a few times.Based on the current situation of the child.It is impossible to support surgery.But they also know it in their hearts.Now this situation.If someone told Cheng Duanwu not to have surgery, Cheng Duanwu might have the heart to fight with others.

Even if a transplant is successful, it is not 100% safe.There is also a high chance of recurrence.Post-surgery rejection issues also count.

Lu Yingqin frowned as all this was dangerous.

He was also sad to see such a small child being tortured.

But he couldn't tell Cheng Duanwu to give up.

On this day, the winter fever reached 39 degrees.The whole person has burned unconsciously.He has been making trouble, and has been whispering and calling for his mother.Cheng Duanwu kept holding the child tightly in his arms.

Because of the fever, he can't take the medicine for treatment for the time being, so he can only treat the fever first.This is very unfavorable to the child's body.Now the child's resistance is very poor, and he is so thin that only a handful of bones remain.

He has fair skin, and he followed Cheng Duanwu. After he got sick, he didn't see much sunlight for a few months, and when he went out occasionally, he just wandered around the hospital.Now he is so white that it is shocking to look at.He had a severe fever, his eyeballs were out of focus, and he kept twitching. Everyone thought that the child was going to go. Whether it was the doctors, nurses or Lu Yingqin, their expressions were sad, and Cheng Duanwu was so frightened that he passed out. .

When he woke up again, the child had been rescued.Just fell asleep and didn't wake up.

Cheng Duanwu got up weakly from the hospital bed. The sky outside the window was gloomy. This was the only time the sky had changed in the past few days. The clouds were low and it looked like it was going to rain.

She stared blankly at the dim sky outside the window.In the reflection of the glass, she saw Lu Yingqin's figure walking in. His footsteps were so light that she hardly heard the sound.

He stood beside her, but did not speak for a while.Finally, Cheng Duanwu spoke first.

"You want me to persuade me to give up the operation, don't you?"

Lu Yingqin was silent for a while, then nodded, "The child may not be able to hold on anymore. The doctor said that his condition is impossible to survive the intensive examination and treatment. Especially the next few rounds of chemotherapy. He suggested that we take the child out for a walk." Let's go, fulfill the child's wish..."

Cheng Duanwu had a sore nose and a choked throat. She knew that the doctor had sentenced the child to death.

She didn't want to accept her fate: "Didn't Mr. Ou say last time that there are several leukemia experts in China? Maybe... maybe, I shouldn't be so pessimistic. I can't just give up my child, no!"

Lu Yingqin paused: "What I told you just now is the result of consultation with all experts. The child's health is too poor to hold on."

Cheng Duanwu cried again.

Lu Yingqin had never cried so many times while watching Duan Wu in his entire life.She seems to be a sluice that will never dry up, as if water can be released at any time.

She buried her head in her arms, and could only see her trembling back.She was crying with a long and distant voice: "I thought... I thought there would be a miracle...Why is God so cruel? Why can't you give me more time? Why? Give my child more time... "

Lu Yingqin was silent for a long time.Cheng Duanwu sat by the window and cried. The hazy sky outside the window seemed to sense Cheng Duan's overwhelming sadness, and it rained accordingly.Transparent raindrops draw criss-cross traces on the windows, like intricate lines of fate.Lu Yingqin could feel Cheng Duanwu's great grief at this moment.But he really didn't know what he could do.I just felt a throbbing pain in my heart.

He stepped forward and hugged Cheng Duanwu, who was as thin as firewood, into his arms, and sighed: "Let the child relax..."

It took a long time for Cheng Duanwu to return to the ward.Her eyes cried into two glowing red peaches.But he still has to force himself to smile at the child easily.The high fever subsided, and the child who just woke up looked a little weak, but he was more energetic than before.The hospital gown that the child was wearing was only newly made last week, and it already looked empty, and the child's sense of existence was getting weaker and weaker.

The child seemed to feel what Cheng Duanwu was thinking in his heart.He looked at Cheng Duanwu with a smile, and asked in a low voice, "Mom, do you no longer need injections to draw blood?"

Cheng Duanwu felt a fishy sweetness in his throat, and the smell of blood filled his entire mouth.She forcefully swallowed the fishy sweetness, and still said with a smile on her face: "Yes, we finally don't need injections or blood draws in winter! We can be discharged from the hospital!"

Dong Dong's big eyes looked particularly abrupt in the sunken eye sockets. He blinked and smiled happily after a long time, his eyes narrowed into a slit, and the corners of his mouth raised happily: "Then can I play football in the future? Mom? "

An eight-year-old child is still at the age of playing around, but her child has to endure inhuman pain in this hospital.

Cheng Duanwu bit his lips tightly, pulled the corners of his mouth, and smiled while stroking the child's bare head: "Yes, you can do whatever you want after winter, Mom will definitely not scold you!"

"Then..." He glanced at Cheng Duanwu cautiously, and asked, "Can I stay with my parents in winter from now on?"

Cheng Duanwu choked again, and his eyes began to well up with moisture: "Yes, silly boy. Mom and Dad will never leave you in the future."

Winter smiled contentedly again.After a long time, he suddenly stretched out his slender arms and hugged Cheng Duanwu's neck tightly. With his tender face pressed against Cheng Duanwu, he softly whispered in Cheng Duanwu's ear: "Mom, I know I can Getting out of the hospital isn't about me getting better. I'm going to see God so I can go home, right?"

The child's voice was childish but calm.There was nothing like an eight-year-old in that gesture.Cheng Duanwu bit his lip tightly.I don't know how to answer.

The child tightened his arms again, "Mom, I'm not afraid. So don't cry. The teacher said it before. Heaven is the most beautiful place. Go there, I'm not afraid."

"Mom, I've been to this world. It's good."

(End of this chapter)