You Nu forget the river

Chapter 120

The Buddha's deep voice was still ringing in the sky. Seeing the doubts in my heart, he slowly said: "Three realms, you have learned the Tao, the desire realm, the form realm, the formless realm, the desire realm [-]. The realm where appetite resides, where men and women live together, and there are many defilements; the form realm is far away from the desire realm, and the two desires for food, has pure color and other sentient realms; There is no female form, and all living beings are born by transformation. The misery of the upper and three worlds is as boundless as the sea, but many living beings are greedy for the fun of reincarnation. At that time, you have gone through eighty kalpas. of sentient beings."

I fell down on the futon and suddenly realized why the Buddha gave me the name of Wangchuan when I passed away.

"In the past 9000 years, lonely souls and wild ghosts washed away in the Wangchuan River. Look at the Wangchuan River again..." I followed the Buddha's pointer and saw the formless void. I stood on the bloody flood of the Wangchuan River and watched. A scholar and his wife cried bitterly and couldn't bear to part. "The scholar is Guiyuan who has experienced 33 eons in the world and 49 eons of Shura Dao and ascended to immortality. Everything is fate. You are obsessed with saving sentient beings, but you are only separated by his life and death." Moved by love..."

I vaguely felt the hatred that could be detected in the eyes of the scholar's wife when I stretched out my hand to separate them, and a bad premonition struck.

"All living beings have their own samsara, whether they are greedy or obsessed, if they are not enlightened, they will naturally have greed, and they cannot be forced. A few sentient beings can be enlightened by a little Sanskrit, and some are enlightened by persuasion. Those who are not enlightened, scholars are those who seldom persuade enlightenment. And the wife you separated from that day planted bad karma in the human world because of her obsession, and finally cultivated into a beast in the world of color after sixty reincarnations. After going through the kalpa of love, you can't see through it, and you can't let it go. Could it be because of the bond you have cultivated with Guiyuan that you have planted such karma since the moment you had lust..."

I continued to look at the illusion. When the scholar's wife crossed the bridge of Naihe, she swore with three fingers to the sky, "I swear by the reincarnation of life after life, and the one who separates me from my husband will be a human being and a fairy. I will experience the unbearable pain in my life..."

I fell down on the futon, and finally understood why the Buddha punished me for meditation. After reading the Karma Sutra over and over again, I suddenly felt ridiculous: "Can all these thousands of things escape a single cause and effect? ​​In the previous life of me and Luo Shura, but because he fought all over the world, he didn't know what love is at that time. If he knew how to take care of me, I would not end up like that with him; Suspicious and ignorant to look at his pink heart through the false appearance; and said Guiyuan," I paused, "I don't know how to like it, so I have to say it, self-righteous fulfillment has pushed me away from him to the point Dilemma, are these just cause and effect? ​​Just because of the boring oath made after crossing the Naihe bridge? If these are cause and effect, since I owe Bai Ze, I will pay it back; but now I owe Luo What’s more, owed to Siyu, is it possible to get rid of it at the next immortality?”

The Buddha smiled lightly and didn't answer, I stood up and looked at the Buddha's light with a sneer, "In the past, when I was a lotus, I thought I was talented and intelligent, and I devoted myself to enlightenment, but did I realize that it was ruthlessness?" I took a few steps back, " The Buddha said that I am obsessed with saving all living beings. Isn’t it the Buddha’s obsession to save me now? My life of ten thousand years is only short of the same life as the heaven and the earth, but there is no harmony in my family, and I cannot stay with Guiyuan forever. What's the meaning of this longevity?" I pressed my chest that was heaving and heaving due to excitement, and when I collected myself, I said what I had been wanting to say for a long time, "I... Wangchuan, no matter how hard I cultivate, I will never become a Buddha. Chuan He naturally doesn't remember, but if I remember, I was reincarnated as a lotus because I felt reincarnated and reincarnated as a human being, a fairy, and a Shura. The tripod in the Brahma Realm of the West Heaven receives the Buddha's incense, and the branches of golden sala flowers sway, and the lotus flower is reborn The leaves are full, and many venerables preached the scriptures and preached, and survived the suffering of all beings, but they were the only ones who could not save themselves."

Tears fell on the back of my hand, and the beads were hot. I murmured: "I will enter Lingshan again today, and I have nothing to ask for. If the Buddha said that I owe Bai Ze, I would not agree, but if so, I will return home like this." Yuan Yuanshen returns to the throne, I, I will break the bondage of these lifetimes." I knelt down and saluted, and the Buddha sighed again.

"Wangchuan, don't you regret it?"

I raised my eyes to meet the eyes of the Buddha's wisdom, and shook my head: "Outsiders say that becoming a Buddha opens wisdom, and there is great love in the hearts of all sentient beings. I forgot that I have been reincarnated several times and filled my heart with caution. Great love has its own roots of wisdom. Duhua, I just want to spend the rest of my life in peace with my little love; if I don’t have the rest of my life, it’s a blessing to be a moth to the fire for the one I love. Cherish the moment."

"If so, would you be willing to complete Bai Ze in exchange for the return of Yuan Yuanshen?" The Buddha's question was extremely abrupt in the Kongling Hall.

My heart was pricked like a needle, and I felt a faint pain, "I have a good relationship with Guiyuan III, and I will finally be consummated in this life. Xiao Chuanchuan is the proof of our deep love for each other. Seeing our eyebrows and eyes passing on him, I am desolate." Love for thousands of years, just take Xiao Chuan Chuan and continue guarding the Wang Chuan River. I just hope that Bai Ze treats Gui Yuan kindly, can, can accompany Gui Yuan for a long time..."

After a long time, I heard the Buddha say "Yes".

Exiting the hall, cold sweat drenched the back, and the breeze was very cool.

I walked quickly through the Brahma Realm, forgetting the fact that I still had spells.

By the Luoxian Pond, Dapeng and Bigu chatted and sipped tea. When I saw them playing with me in Lingshan for several years, tears fell like beads.

I can't tell.

When I came here, it wasn't that I didn't want to untie the bell and needed to tie the bell, but I found a way to untie the bell, but my heart was torn into petals again. I know my heart better than the ancients, and I don't know where I got the wine. Holding the wine bottle, he drank to the brim by Luoxianchi.

If you are drunk, it will not hurt so much.

I neither want to become a Buddha nor afraid of opening such precepts. I cried and laughed, and drank very boldly. Seeing that I was not as usual, Dapeng patted my forehead: "Tell me, the Buddha will How to do it?"

I just shook my head and couldn't speak.

I can't tell Dapengniao that if he wants to become a god of Guiyuan and become consummated, he will give up my affection for him. When he returns to the throne, he will only remember the fact that Bai Ze loves him, but he will not remember me. He didn't remember the Wang Chuan that he wanted to hold in his palm.

I won't remember how he looked at me affectionately for the silver fox, how he got into my arms and warmed the soft fur to moisten my ignorant heart at that time;

I won't remember how he looked at me through the kapok for Guiyuan, how he washed his hands and made the lotus seed soup for me to eat;

I won't remember how he waited for me for tens of thousands of years, how he was so considerate to me when the mandarin ducks were in pairs, how he played with me as a mortal couple in the kapok forest for a long time;
I won't remember how he looked at me with affectionate eyes when he was for Li Min, and how he came to cover me with a brocade quilt when it was cool in the middle of the night;
I don't remember how he carved the names of Li Minzhi and Wang Chuan in front of the Sansheng Stone in the Nether Division;

From now on, so far away, I can only depend on Xiaochuanchuan Huangquan Difu, counting bits and pieces of dark moonlight, and relying on those tens of thousands of years of memories to survive.

He and Bai Ze will have their love, their children, their family reunion, playing under the moon, and being happy and happy.

But, even so, I didn't regret it in the slightest.

Instead of letting him dim his memory and live in a daze, why not let him go and repay Bai Ze's bondage in that life. If he is immortal in this life, if his merits and virtues are fulfilled, I will stand in the shady moon shadow of the Nether Division and wait for him, day and night. , one flower for one year.

In the end, I don't believe in cause and effect, but when I have nothing to trust, I will bow my head to the nihilistic Buddhist wisdom. I drink wine, taste the sourness of perfection, and cry until the end without tears. Too many words can't express the sorrow of three lives that is lingering in my heart at this moment.

The Buddha came when I was very drunk.

He sat upright on the lotus, Faxiang looked at me with a smile, Bigu Dapeng saluted, and finally Bigu pulled me up to the auspicious cloud, who had lost his godlike demeanor, and the Buddha's light was getting closer and closer to the Nether Division with drunken eyes.

I hope that this road can be longer, longer, and longer.

In this way, as if I am still so close to my Guiyuan, my Xiaochuanchuan, I can let go and slow down.

No matter how reluctant I was, I still entered the Nether Division. The Nether Division's chill made my whole body shudder. It was getting closer, getting closer. The magnificent picture almost made me fall into the clouds, have a headache and cry.

Next to the swing that resembles Xiao Chuan Chuan's branch, Xiao Chuan Chuan is swinging happily. Guiyuan puts his big hand on Xiao Chuan Chuan's back again and again, for fear that he will fall, and the corner of his mouth is pursed, "I love him." This year he showed the most gorgeous smile.

Xiao Chuanchuan was in high spirits, and the child's voice was high-pitched: "Stepfather, stepfather, please be taller..."

Siyu stood outside the picture, looking at this happy father and son, while I was sobbing on the auspicious clouds, Bigu came to help me, the moment he bent down, the tears from the corners of his eyes dripped on the back of my hand.

The Buddha who attained Tao is as profound as him, but there is still a world of mortals enough to make him cry.

"Wang Chuan..." Bi Gu held me in his arms, no matter how much he could comfort me, he couldn't say anything.

"Mother..." Xiao Chuanchuan called me cheerfully without knowing it. Guiyuan followed the voice and watched me fall steadily from the auspicious clouds, and walked up to me with Xiao Chuanchuan in his arms.

He frowned slightly, put down Xiao Chuanchuan, Xiao Chuanchuan hugged my thigh, raised his head to call my mother, his small face was wrinkled into a ball, his mouth was flattened and he didn't know why I was crying so embarrassingly.

Guiyuan came over, pulled me from Bigu's arms, and wiped the tears on my face: "What wronged you, why are you crying like this?"

At that moment, I could only bite my lower lip and shake my head desperately. I couldn't say the words that made him leave me.

After all, Buddha was good at beating mandarin ducks with sticks. Buddha's radiance enveloped everyone and they arrived at the bank of Wangchuan River. Even Siyu stood not far away, looking at me for no reason.

The Wangchuan River roared more enthusiastically than usual, and the Buddha raised his hand a little, but Bai Ze, dotted with blood, was seen kneeling under the lotus seat of the Buddha in the mirage light.

My heart instantly split in two.

(End of this chapter)