miss you dearly

Chapter 15 The Most Important Decision (1)
When I met you, I was not at the best age, but because of you, I believed in love again and looked forward to the future.I will not miss the past anymore, just because I perceive you, I have reserved the most pious heart for me.I am willing to be brave for you after ten years of mountains and rivers.I am willing to work with you to complete the most important decision of love.

After resting for two months, when she came back this time, Xi Yan worked extraordinarily hard on her work. She put aside her previous carelessness and took the initiative to take over several important cases.Her hard work paid off quickly, and her outstanding achievements allowed her to go from an obscure copywriter to a master of the ancient city branch of "Jiuwei Advertising" in just three months.

Company, dormitory, work, sleep, life seems to be like this.The only difference is that the world is suddenly quiet.Some are relieved, referring to letting go of the past with Han Nuo.Some are evasive, pointing out that they don't take the initiative to go to the bar, because they are afraid that Zhang Ziliang will talk about Wen Xingyuan.In addition, she no longer rejects entertainment, and occasionally attends some press conferences and receptions in accordance with the leadership's arrangements.

So busy until October, Xi Yan went to Dali.

During November, she went to Dali alone.In early autumn, the morning and evening are a bit chilly. After the light rain, the clouds clear and the fog clears, just like Xi Yan's mood, relaxed and bright.

Originally, April of the lunar calendar is the best season for watching butterflies, but I heard that in the hearts of Bai people, Butterfly Spring is a spring that symbolizes love and loyalty.Therefore, even though she was alone, Xi Yan still decided to go to Butterfly Spring first, just to be moved by the ancient legend.

Thinking of a pair of lovers who both jumped into the spring and defended their love in a way that she thought was timeless, Xi Yan felt the urge to cry.For their determination, but also for their helplessness.She understood by the Butterfly Spring: love is forever, but the forms are different.

Leaving Butterfly Spring, Xi Yan went straight to the ancient city of Dali.At dusk, there are many tourists, and the sound of bargaining breaks into my ears unexpectedly, making the ancient city extremely lively.As she walked on foot, her mood became brighter.Until I came to the Erhai Lake, my thoughts seemed to have settled down.

The low-pitched siren sounded, and from a distance, two cruise ships, Cangshan and Erhai, were slowly approaching the shore. She stood silently by the seaside, letting the soothing breeze blow her long hair.

After an unknown amount of time, a voice suddenly sounded from behind: "Can you take a photo for us?"

Meditation was interrupted, Xi Yan turned around.A tall boy stood in front of him, smiling shyly, and beside him stood a beautiful girl, judging from their holding hands, they were a young couple.

"Okay." Xi Yan responded readily, and took the camera with a smile.

"Thank you." The boy thanked him, standing in front of the Erhai Lake, standing shoulder to shoulder with his girlfriend.

Through the small lens, Xi Yan saw the happy smiles on the faces of the couple, pious and sweet, her heart trembled slightly, and she quickly pressed the shutter to capture this fleeting moment that would never return .

Once upon a time, she was so intimately leaning on a generous embrace, and her condensed gaze was imprinted by the film in the long river of memory. Even if it faded a little, it was still a beautiful memory.

Yes, just a memory.

In this way, I met a young couple named Wang Hao and Wen Jing.Maybe it was too pitiful to see her alone, or maybe it was because she wanted someone to take a group photo with, so Wen Jing invited her to have a threesome.Xi Yan intentionally refuses, so as not to disturb their world of two, but she really can't refuse Wen Jing's enthusiasm, so she goes together and goes to Binzhong Jizu Mountain to watch Richu.

Standing on the top of the mountain at an altitude of more than 3000 meters, watching the slowly rising sun dispel the darkness little by little.Suddenly, Xi Yan felt that the door of her heart was slowly pushed open.Bathed in the sun, Ren Nuannuan embraced herself, lowered her eyes, and she smiled slightly.

Mom, Xiaoyan is so close to the sun, Xiaoyan will be fine, don't worry!
When she learned that Wang Hao and Wen Jing were going to Dayan Town, Xi Yan enthusiastically helped them book a hotel, ended their trip to Dali, and acted as a free tour guide for them for three days.

The night before the end of the trip between Wang Hao and Wen Jing, Xi Yan held a farewell party for them at "Soft Time".

Wen Jing became curious and asked, "Sister Yan, do you have a boyfriend?"

When Xi Yan heard this, her brows gathered together, and there were traces of resentment on her face, "Is there any good man to introduce?"

Wang Hao almost made her squirt water from her serious appearance.

Wen Jing smiled, "Yes, are you interested?"

Xi Yan casually said, "Let's talk about the stars of the handsome guy first."

Wen Jing came to her side, "No kidding, I'm serious, there is really a good candidate."

Xi Yan nodded cautiously, with a sincere attitude, "I am also very serious."

Of course she wasn't serious, but Wen Jing took it seriously and started introducing her brother Wen Tao.Wen Tao, who is also from City A, can be described as a successful person. He is already the helm of a tea industry group at the age of less than 30. He has dated two girlfriends, but they broke up because they did not want to stay in the ancient city for many years.

Xi Yan couldn't help sighing: "No matter how beautiful the ancient city is, it can only become a passing place for some people, and it is not suitable for long-term residence."

"The ones who stay are all people who know how to live." Wen Jing looked at her and smiled: "Like you."

No wonder Wen Tao is strongly recommended because she likes ancient cities.In this regard, they are kindred spirits.However, Xi Yan knew that: she didn't know how to live, but to escape.So he changed the subject: "If your brother's company needs to advertise, remember to say something nice for me."

Wen Jing had a smile on her face with a tricky trick: "If you are together, do you still need me to talk?"

"Don't mess with the mandarin ducks." Xi Yan refused with the same reason: "I am only in the ancient city temporarily."

"That's okay." Wen Jing said, "Maybe my brother will change for you."

Xi Yan was surprised by her seriousness and persistence.

Because of Wang Hao and Wen Jing, Xi Yan ignored Zhang Ziliang's strangeness.From the moment she entered the door, Zhang Ziliang's complexion was not good.However, in front of outsiders, Zhang Ziliang didn't show it, until Xi Yan sent Wang Hao and Wen Jing away, he stopped covering up, and asked with some emotion: "What's going on with you and Xingyuan?"

The name "Wen Xingyuan" was deliberately ignored for a long time, but now it was mentioned suddenly, Xi Yan didn't react for a while.She froze for a moment, then avoided Zhang Ziliang's eyes: "What's going on?"

Zhang Ziliang took it for granted that he asked knowingly, and if he didn't see that she was a woman, he would have given her a few words: "I shouldn't talk too much about the two of you, but Yanyan, you have really let down Xingyuan's sincerity."

Zhang Ziliang was always easy-going and friendly in my impression, never used such a harsh tone, Xi Yan had to take it seriously: "Brother Zhang, I don't understand what you mean."

Zhang Ziliang was really angry, and said word by word: "It doesn't matter whether you understand what I mean, the important thing is that you don't understand what Xingyuan wants to get engaged."

The word "engagement" caused a huge wave in Xi Yan's heart, and she could hardly maintain her calm face: "You mean, he—" Maybe it was because the news was too shocking, and she couldn't complete the sentence at all.

"Yes, you heard that right, Wen Xingyuan is getting engaged."

Zhang Ziliang called Wen Xingyuan last night, but Wen Xingyao answered it. Only then did Zhang Ziliang hear that Wen Xingyao came back from abroad on purpose to attend his brother's engagement banquet.Zhang Ziliang was a little dazed, he didn't understand why the relationship between the two of them became so frozen when Xi Yan went back to City A. He also asked Wen Xingyuan before, and that person only said: "In love, you always need your love."In addition, cherish words like gold.

In fact, Zhang Ziliang was used to the tepidity between the two of them. He was used to it, but he didn't expect this to happen. The man who had been working hard for ten years would actually get engaged to a woman who was almost strange.Zhang Ziliang feels that he has the right to know the reason, just because Wen Xingyuan is his brother, and because he has taken care of Xi Yan like an elder brother.

"I don't know about your past. However, not everyone is lucky: you have to wait for someone sincerely for ten years. It is still under the condition that the other person loves others. In addition to the unchanging truth, it is especially important to cherish the people in front of you. Of course, no one has the right to ask you to love Xingyuan, but I must say: You will not meet a second Wen Xingyuan."

Xi Yan is not someone who likes to explain.However, when the object becomes Zhang Ziliang, she cannot answer with silence.

However, "I have let him down. It's like I obviously like apples, but the oranges are stuffed in my hands. I have no chance to choose."

Xi Yan tried her best to swallow back the mist in her eyes, and met Zhang Ziliang with an angry gaze: "Perhaps in your opinion, I don't know the blessings in the blessing, or it's not an exaggeration to say that I don't know the good or bad. But Ziliang, there is Who ever asked me what I want? Three years ago, Han Nuo felt that letting go was the best result for me, so he directed a scene of empathy and other love, forcing me to accept the ending of the breakup. Wen Xingyuan knew it all too clearly The reason, but he didn't mention everything, let me come to the ancient city so sad, and kept it a secret for three years."

"Some people may say, what can you do if you know? Is it true that you don't even care about your mother's life and death because of a love? I have indeed thought about it. If Han Nuo doesn't let go, I may not propose to break up, even if Our final ending is the same as now. But at least, as the protagonist of my own love, from the process to the ending, I have the right to choose and make decisions in addition to the right to participate."

There are only two endings to anything: what you expected and what you didn't get.But before this ending is presented, there may be countless processes.The ending of Xi Yan and Han Nuo could not be fulfilled no matter what, but the process was presented in the most unacceptable form for Xi Yan.

At the end of the day, Xi Yan said: "Whether it's about love or not, I need to be respected."

It would be a lie to say that Wen Xingyuan's love is not touched.But for his deliberate concealment, it is also false to say that there is no blame.It's just that Xi Yan didn't understand at this moment: the reason for blaming her was actually because she cared about this person.So I can't bear the slightest untruth, even if there are too many ugly factors in this truth.

Zhang Ziliang seemed to understand the hurt and pain that Xi Yan endured, and he did not press any further, but said earnestly: "Love is a matter between two people, and it really cannot be made difficult by others. However, Yan Yan, even if you don't look at Xingyuan You can't just watch him impulsively ruin a lifetime of happiness. If you can, persuade him."

advise?Does he need it?

But, how can we not persuade?

Xi Yan couldn't refuse, and she didn't have the confidence to persuade her.

Dilemma.

For several days in a row, Xi Yan was not in the mood to work. Compared with the excitement before, she suddenly seemed less interested in the people and things around her.This state seems to have returned to three years ago.

However, at that time, Wen Xingyuan was by his side.

Now it is, because Wen Xingyuan.

During this period, Xi Yan didn't go to the bar again, and even turned down all work and entertainment, and even avoided seeing Du Ling.It's not that I'm worried about what she's asking, but that I can't bear the questioning gaze, and hesitate to speak because of concerns.

In the end, he pushed himself into a situation where there was no way out.

Fortunately, Zhang Ziliang was not aggressive, and just kept in touch with Wen Xingyuan with one message a day, no matter whether he replied or not.

On the first day, Zhang Ziliang said: "She knows, it seems that besides the accident, there are other emotions. It's just that I don't want to reveal too much to me."

The next day, he said again: "Maybe I was too harsh, and no one came to the bar. However, I think there is nothing wrong with being forced. You are just too used to her."

As the engagement date approached, Zhang Ziliang said in the last message: "It's not fun to make a fake come true. Grasp the rhythm. After ten years, I believe you know what you want."

Three days before the engagement night, Wen Xingyuan finally replied, "I always know what I want. Unfortunately, feelings are never measured by time."

Ten years, more than 600 sunrises and sunsets, it seems that this is how "feelings are not negated by time".

However, as far as Xi Yan is concerned, is he really indifferent?

The answer is obvious.

That night, Xi Yan returned to Wen Xingyuan's apartment in the ancient city, and to the familiar music, recalled the acquaintance with him:

That day when Xi He didn't pick her up from school, Xi Yan was a little emotional, which developed into anger when she got home and saw Xi Heqing's swollen eyes and swollen wrists.

She screamed and rushed over, grabbed Xi He's arm, and cursed angrily: "Xi He, you actually fight with someone? Do you still look like a brother, huh? I'm going to tell Dad to let him beat you up."

"It's not big or small." Xi He rubbed her hair, familiar with her reaction, "Come and rub it for me, it hurts a bit."

"Now that I know it hurts, why did I go early?" Xi Yan reprimanded, but her footsteps had already stepped into the room, and after a while, she came out with a small medicine box, took out a bottle of medicine and sprayed it on the wound on Xi He's arm Carefully kneading the place: "Just say it hurts, don't carry it, gentlemen also have pain-sensing nerves."

Xi He laughed: "What old man, I am so old."

Xi Yan exerted a little force on her hand, "Young man, let's do it."

Xi He hissed: "Murder my brother, be careful not to get married."

Xi Yan pushed back without showing any weakness: "With a vicious sister-in-law like me around, do you still want to marry a wife? I won't be anxious to kill you when I see it."

"Heh." Someone laughed again, but it wasn't Xi He, but Wen Xingyuan who was ignored by Xi Yan.

Only then did Xi He have the opportunity to introduce the two of them.

When Xi Yan learned that Xi He and Wen Xingyuan didn't know each other because of a group fight, she had zero impression of Wen Xingyuan.What a smart person Wen Xingyuan is, he immediately saw Ni Duan in her eyes, he looked at the girl in white sportswear, smiled without saying a word.

Since then, when Wen Xingyuan went to play with Xi He, he often ran into Xi Yan. She never had a good face, and she never took the initiative to say hello, let alone find topics for chatting.Until one time when Wen Xingyuan accompanied Xi He to pick her up from school, she was very upset along the way. Xi He asked her what was wrong, her eyes rolled for a long time, and she blushed and whispered, "A boy wrote me a love letter."

Xi He couldn't help laughing, "You should be happy, my little sister has male classmates who like her."

"Why are you so happy? If you let my mother know about my puppy love, she will break my legs." Xi Yan frowned, with an annoyed look on her face: "Why are boys nowadays so narcissistic? They look ugly. Brag about being chic and graceful. You have to be pretty to think that all the female students in the world have to like him, otherwise it seems to be a crime, who the hell."

Wen Xingyuan laughed out loud.

Xi Yan automatically understood it as a mockery, and glared at Wen Xingyuan.

Wen Xingyuan didn't bother with her either, seeing her angry look as if she had been wronged, instead he asked with concern: "Did he make things difficult for you?"

"No, it's just that I have an ugly face, as if I don't know what's good or bad." Xi Yan took Xi He's arm, and instantly regained his pompous look: "If you dare to make things difficult for me, I will ask my brother to deal with him, and I promise to beat him to nothing. and run away. Right, bro?"

Looking at Wen Xingyuan, Xi He said seriously, "I haven't fought for many years."

Xi Yan raised her hand and punched him: "You boys are not good people."

Wen Xingyuan and Xi He laughed loudly.

For a while later, Wen Xingyuan and Xi He went to pick up Xi Yan from school every day, or because Wen Xingyuan shared her little secret unintentionally, Xi Yan no longer repulsed him so much, and would take the initiative to say a few words to him on the way.

One day, Xihe couldn't leave the student union meeting, so Towen traveled far to pick her up.When Wen Xingyuan reached the school gate, he happened to see a boy pulling Xi Yan's wrist.Xi Yan said something, and then vigorously shook off the boy's hand, but the boy refused to give up and wanted to hold it again. When Xi Yan turned to hide, Wen Xingyuan strode forward and swung his fist out.

Unprepared, the boy was punched abruptly and fell to the ground: "Who are you? Why did you hit me?"

Before Wen Xingyuan could speak, the recovered Xi Yan rushed over to hold my hand: "He is my boyfriend."

(End of this chapter)