miss you dearly

Chapter 16 The Most Important Decision (2)
Wen Xingyuan didn't react for a while, and heard Xi Yan continue: "Please stop pestering me, or my boyfriend gets angry, and I can't control it. We won't apologize for this punch, that's all, goodbye .” Then it seemed to outsiders that they held me affectionately, but in fact they dragged me away like kidnapping.

Out of the boy's sight, Xi Yan immediately let go of her hand and withdrew from my embrace: "Well, thank you! He keeps pestering me, that's why I said that, don't take it seriously."

really?After many years, when Wen Xingyuan recalled that scene, he was also thinking about whether he had thought too much at that time.

But then he asked back: "Really what?"

It seemed to be done on purpose, and it seemed to be asked unintentionally.In short, Xi Yan was stopped by the question.

Wen Xingyuan laughed, in a meaningful way, "It's just helping you block a little hooligan, what's the point?"

Xi Yan was too innocent, she didn't understand what was going on, she was busy explaining to the boy: "He is my classmate, not a hooligan."

Wen Xingyuan stared at her for a few seconds, and said seriously, "Stay away from him in the future."

As for why she stayed away from the boy who liked her, Xi Yan didn't ask, and Wen Xingyuan didn't say much.

The reason, after realizing it, Xi Yan didn't think too much, the answer was in Wen Xingyuan's heart.

Wen Xingyuan's heartbeat was only at the moment when Xi Yan took his hand.

In the following time, Xi Yan was busy with the exams and didn't meet many times. Occasionally meeting her would be a bit awkward. Later, seeing that Wen Xingyuan didn't mention the incident that day, she gradually felt relieved.

On the day of Xi Yanman, Wen Xingyuan was ready to go abroad, and when he put on a bracelet for her, he asked, "What birthday wishes do you have?"

Of course Xi Yan didn't know that Wen Xingyuan hoped that some of her wishes were related to him.But after secretly drinking red wine, she just said, "Mom and dad are in good health, and my brother married a good sister-in-law. They will always love me the most."

Therefore, Wen Xingyuan suppressed some words in his heart, and only said: "I wish your dreams come true, little girl."

On the day Wen Xingyuan left, Xi Yan and Xi He went to see him off together.On the way to the airport, because of a private car that violated traffic rules, Wen Xingyuan immediately protected Xi Yan when the driver braked suddenly. The moment she looked up, Wen Xingyuan's lips were printed on her lips.

Xi Yan panicked and made no choice but Wen Xingyuan got his wish.

It was actually an accident.

But it cannot be denied that it was their first kiss.

What happened so long ago clearly seemed to happen yesterday.Looking back on Wen Xingyuan's focused gaze, Xi Yan suddenly woke up: So, there is a man who has been loving her.

It has been ten years.

In this world, there are only people who treat you sincerely, and you can't let them down.

On the balcony, under the starry sky, Xi Yan finally had the courage to dial the number she knew by heart.While waiting, her nervous palms were sweating.The phone rang for a long time before it was connected, and then a deep and magnetic male voice came: "Xiaoyan."

"You—" It seemed that she lost her language function in an instant, and Xi Yan couldn't say a complete sentence for a while.

At this time, a strange girl came from the other end of the phone: "I'll drive, go far, you answer the phone."

Wen Xingyuan did not refuse, he replied "Yes" before continuing to talk to Xi Yan: "Is there something wrong, Xiao Yan?"

This kind of inquiry made Xi Yan smell the "identity", and the gentle "Xingyuan" made her lose the courage suddenly.Xi Yan's heart sank again and again, the corners of her mouth moved, and she said: "It's okay, I made a wrong call. Goodbye." Then she hung up.

For Wen Xingyuan, his waiting has always made people feel natural, and his love has never been expressed with his mouth, but only expressed with his actions.Xi Yan is like a spoiled child, for so many years, she only accepts it without giving anything in return.She knows how outstanding he is and how many women fall in love with him.

As long as he nods, he is not short of love.

Before his engagement, Xi Yan finally realized this kind of cognition.

Facing her ignorance of cherishing her, he let go.So, he decided to get engaged, so besides her, he finally had another woman by his side.There were bursts of soreness in her heart, which gradually spread into a dull pain, Xi Yan smiled bitterly, and after a long time, her almost broken voice spread out in the air, and she said, "That's fine."

Life doesn't stop because of someone's frustration. After the phone call with no content, Xi Yan went to work as usual, and went back to the dormitory directly after work. At night, she sat in front of the computer, tapped her mood with her fingertips, and closed herself in the world. In the corner of the room, I filtered my uncalmable mood over and over again.

In the early morning, Xi Yan went online, and Ji Ruoning's MSN was on.

Xi Yan clicked on the dialog box, and before she could speak, Ji Ruoning's message had already been sent, and she asked, "Honey, are you still alive?"

Xi Yan stared at the smiling face on the screen for a long time, before typing out a sentence with difficulty: "Am I really wrong?"

This question seems to have stopped Ji Ruoning, and her reply came after a while: "Yan Yan, I am not you, no matter how close we are, I can't say that I understand you completely, and understand everything about you. I just want to ask you, How do you feel when you hear that he is engaged?"

Feeling?My heart is numb, why talk about love?

After a long silence, Xi Yan replied before going offline: "If they are in love, I will bless them. If he is angry with me, what does he want me to do?"

Under the same night sky, Ji Ruoning clicked on a website in favorites.As she expected, the blog that had been deserted for three years finally had new life.She looked carefully at the mood diaries one after another, and understood the helplessness and——feelings behind the phrase "what does he want me to do".

The next day, Xie Yuanteng went to Huacheng to deliver the plan, Wen Xingyuan was in a meeting, and Ji Ruoning took her to the reception room: "Wait a minute, the meeting should be over in 10 minutes."

Seeing her turn around to leave, Xie Yuanteng asked: "You still don't like me like before."

She spoke directly, and Ji Ruoning didn't play Tai Chi with her: "Yeah, I really don't like you, otherwise I wouldn't pour you wine." After a pause, she continued before Xie Yuanteng spoke: "However, now I've changed my mind about you."

Xie Yuanteng was a little surprised.

Ji Ruoning smiled apologetically: "As Yanyan's best friend, no matter what the reason you and Han Nuo get together, I can't treat you with a normal heart. This is my narrow-mindedness and selfishness. But now, Yanyan and Han Nuo Han Nuo's page has already been turned, and it has nothing to do with whether you and Han Nuo are together. So my grudge against you will disappear."

Xie Yuanteng was not happy because she didn't hold grudges, but instead: "Have you turned the page with Han Nuo?" She smiled self-deprecatingly: "You all don't understand Han Nuo too much."

Of course, Ji Ruoning heard the implication of her words: "What can I do if I don't turn it over? Why bother each other? Love is fragile and cannot bear too much pressure, let alone the lives of relatives? It can be seen that you love Han Nuo very much. , The end of him and Yanyan may be your new beginning. I believe you don't mind their past."

Xie Yuanteng knew that she was sincere and not fake, but, "Our new start starts with friends."

How can someone who has loved so hard be considered a friend?

Ji Ruoning suddenly sympathized with her.

The knock on the door interrupted the brief silence between the two, and Huacheng's staff told Ji Ruoning: "Boss Wen's meeting is over."

Ji Ruoning led Xie Yuanteng to Wen Xingyuan's office, and happened to meet Tang Yifan who came out of the conference room in the corridor, followed by Wen Xingyuan's special assistant Zhang Yan.

Tang Yifan glanced at Ji Ruoning before turning to Xie Yuanteng: "Come to deliver the plan? Zhang Yan, please take Manager Xie to Xingyuan's office."

Zhang Yan's gaze lingered for a second on the hand that took the folder Ji Ruoning was holding in his arms: "Manager Xie, come with me."

After nearly ten revisions, Jiuwei's design proposal finally satisfied Wen Xingyuan.He signed his name vigorously on the plan, and he said: "Thank you for your hard work, thank you manager."

Xie Yuanteng smiled decently, "Mr. Wen is polite, customer satisfaction is our aim."

Such pleasantries are too formulaic.Wen Xingyuan gently clasped the table with the knuckles of his right index finger, silent.

In front of outsiders, he has never been a gentle person.

Xie Yuanteng couldn't figure out his real thoughts, and promised from the perspective of work: "Then we will start preparing according to this plan, and will do our best to improve the effect of this promotion." Get up and prepare to leave.

Wen Xingyuan did not express his position on her promise, but changed the topic: "I heard that Han Nuo returned to Tianyu?"

This is the second person to mention Han Nuo today.Xie Yuanteng considered it for a while, and gave an ambiguous answer: "Maybe."

Wen Xingyuan looked up at her, and hit the nail on the head: "You don't know? It's strange."

Xie Yuanteng sensed the sarcasm in his words, and fought back: "My friendship with him is far inferior to that of Xi Yan."

Surprisingly, Wen Xingyuan was not angry. He lowered his head and smiled, and responded with two words in an incomprehensible way: "That is."

In the evening, Tang Yifan persuaded Wen Xingyuan to take Ji Ruoning to his friend's newly opened bar to join him. Along with him was Wen Xingyuan's female companion, Li Xiaoyun.

After Xi He came, because the surname Li was not good, the face of the guest was not very good.He was sitting opposite Wen Xingyuan, smoking one cigarette after another, the expression on his face was hard to see clearly in the smog.Wen Xingyuan drank one cup after another, as if he wanted to get drunk to relieve his worries, but the more he drank, the more sober he became.

The atmosphere was somewhat oppressive, and it was not relieved until Shi Lei, Gao Ge and others came one after another.

Ji Ruoning wanted to get up and sit next to Wen Xingyuan several times, but was pulled back by Tang Yifan. She was a little annoyed: "Even if Yan Yan refuses, is it worth losing my life's happiness? Is it to make her feel guilty?"

Tang Yifan turned his head to look at the silent Wen Xingyuan, exerted a little force on his hand, and pressed Ji Ruoning to his side: "Don't say a few words. I finally pulled the man out, just because I was afraid of something wrong, so don't bet on him anymore. "

Ji Ruoning snorted: "I'm not afraid of internal injuries."

"It's all crazy, what else can I do? Anyway, whether it's good or bad, there must be a result this time."

"I'm afraid that the result is that someone is really engaged, while someone is decadent thousands of miles away, and it ends up falling apart."

With a "snap", Wen Xingyuan put the wine glass in his hand back on the table heavily. After everyone watched him, Wen Xingyuan got up and left.

Five minutes later, under the spotlight and in the center of the stage, a lonely but still chic man sat in front of the piano.The slender fingers lifted and lowered gracefully, and the keys jumped between the fingers, playing a sad and lingering song - go away and fly high.

"Can this world stop being noisy? In my heart, it's unbelievably quiet. I don't have the extra strength to tell the truth of the story. I just want to love once..."

That self-playing and self-singing state of ecstasy made Wen Xingyuan look melancholy and affectionate.At the end of the song, there was a wave of applause, but he ignored it completely, and walked away slowly without looking at anyone.

Ji Ruoning couldn't hold back any longer, chased him out, and stopped him in the parking lot: "Bring your fiancée to the party, Wen Xingyuan, what do you want to prove?"

Facing her questioning, Wen Xingyuan looked cold: "I don't understand what you mean. I have no obligation to explain to you."

"You don't need to understand, and you don't have to explain it to me, as long as you don't use such a vulgar way to force your face." Seeing Wen Xingyuan's face suddenly darkened, Ji Ruoning said like a cannonball, "Do you know, all of you are not persuading?" She, just blame her, even her brother is on your side, as if if she doesn't follow you, she is the biggest fool in the world, fool. If you treat her well and love her, she must marry you Is it a crime as long as she rejects your affection? "

Wen Xingyuan's face was calm, but his eyes were turbulent: "Did she tell you?"

"She is a fool, and she never argues for herself. She just doesn't want to hurt you because of the little thoughts about the past left in her heart, for fear of disappointing your sincerity. Is this wrong? Ten years, She has been silenced for ten years. She doesn't want you anymore. One of you put aside your flourishing career and returned to Tianyu, and the other put your life's happiness at risk and wanted to get engaged. Wen Xingyuan, we are all adults, can you Is this like this? Can another way work? Do you know, from her, you know what kind of life you have been engaged to? Why do you have to force her so much? Waiting for her to call you to say sorry? Let me tell you, Yi Yan Yan's temper, let alone engagement, even if you get married, she will not come to snatch the marriage, and when you receive the money from her, you really have no way out."

At this point, Wen Xingyuan's face was already ugly, but Ji Ruoning didn't intend to stop, facing Xi He who followed, she said: "Brother, don't blame me for speaking badly, you think your friend can make Yanyan happy, of course, I I also think he is the best candidate. But when you called and questioned her, did you ever think about how much pressure you have put on Yanyan invisibly by helping Wen Xingyuan like this. Don't say that she is aware of your dedication, even if She is indifferent, and she is not wrong. In this world, love has never been, if you love me, I must love you. "

When getting off work, Zhang Ziliang's car was parked downstairs in the company, Xi Yan hesitated for a moment, but walked over and sat in the passenger seat.When they came to the bar, the two sat by the window before Zhang Ziliang said, "Tomorrow night, at the most popular engagement banquet in G City, your Wen Xingyuan will become Li Xiaoyun's fiancé. I want to interview the person involved, and how do you feel about it?" Are you going to be so bored?" Her Wen Xingyuan?Perhaps in the eyes of others, Wen Xingyuan seems to belong to her, even if there is no label, it is logical.However, after tomorrow night, he will be the one with a fiancee.As Xi He said, "From outsiders' perspective, they are a good match."

The name of "Li Xiaoyun" Xi Yan heard Xi He mention it, that is, during the few days when she was unusually silent after she was discharged from the hospital, Xi He always mentioned Wen Xingyuan seemingly inadvertently.He said, "The Li family has greatly contributed to the development of the Wen family. Li Xiaoyun is a very bold woman. Seeing that Xingyuan doesn't take the initiative, she often goes to the company to find him. And Dad Wen also likes the daughter of the Li family very much."

At that time, Xi Yan didn't say anything.And Xi He indulged her waywardness.

It wasn't until the day she left City A that Xi He finally mentioned Wen Xingyuan directly: "Xingyuan strategizes in the shopping malls and has seen countless people. People who don't know him say that the city is deep, but you should understand that Xingyuan's thoughts are the simplest. He just loves you."

That was the first time that Xi He spoke for Wen Xingyuan, and it was also the first time that he interfered in Xi Yan's private affairs.Today, three months later, thousands of miles away, Xi He said on the phone: "Last week, Han Nuo came to the bureau to get information, and we met. Xiao Yan, Han Nuo is no longer the same as three years ago." Han Nuo, he should be more able to bear it. Don't think of him so fragile. I believe that he really wants you to be happy. He knows that he can't give you that. As for who can make you happy, you have feelings. Right? Promise brother, be brave."

Being brave is easier said than done.However, there is one person in this world who can give you a lonely courage and make you brave for it.

After meditating, Xi Yan replied to Zhang Ziliang like this: "I don't care how much people watch the engagement banquet, I only care about whether he is happy or not."

"Don't you know that his happiness is being with you. If you don't have a choice, it's you; if you have a choice, it's you; if you choose, it's a lifetime."

Xi Yan was silent, then she slowly raised the corners of her lips and smiled slightly: "Since it's a lifetime, how could he be engaged to someone else?"

The words she said were like the smile on her face, so confident that it made people want to beat her up.

Zhang Ziliang couldn't help but swear: "The fuck shouldn't worry about you. You two lunatics."

On the way back to the dormitory, Ji Ruoning called.

Xi Yan looked at the time and answered: "It's so late and you haven't slept yet?"

"If I can still fall asleep, how heartbroken I am."

"What's the matter, did Tang Yifan bully you?".

"It's not him." Ji Ruoning on the other end pursed her mouth, secretly glanced at the door of Wen Xingyuan's office, and lowered her voice, "I pissed off Wen Xingyuan."

"Him?" Xi Yan was puzzled, "What happened?"

(End of this chapter)