miss you dearly

Chapter 3 Give time a little time (3)
This is a three-bedroom set of only [-] square meters, with a master bedroom, a second bedroom, and a guest room.Xi Yan lived in the master bedroom with the best light.When he left two years ago, because he was worried about her living outside alone, he moved her luggage out of the company dormitory and stuffed it here without asking her permission. He also threw his things into the second bedroom and the master bedroom Give it to her.

Wen Xingyuan thought more than once, one day they opened the door at the same time and stood smiling, how warm the scene would be.Turning on the stereo, amidst the music filling the room, Wen Xingyuan leaned against the window, recalling the scene when he brought her to the ancient town three years ago:
"Thank you." Xi Yan expressed his thanks blankly, then turned and left for the dormitory.

"Xiaoyan." Wen Xingyuan held her back when she passed him, "Do you remember my phone number?"

Xi Yan raised her head, her eyes were blank and empty, obviously not knowing.

Wen Xingyuan took out the phone from her handbag on his own, entered his number in it, and handed it back to her, "Call me if you need anything."

Xi Yan gave a dumb "oh", then turned around.

Staring at her back, Wen Xingyuan's heart ached.

Xi Yan, you love him the most, and the person I love the most is you.

Unfortunately, I was a step late, he walked into your heart before me.

Wen Xingyuan had a clear understanding of Xi Yan's heart from the very first moment, but he never wavered.

Since then, Xi Yan has stayed in Guzhen, working in a fledgling design company.Wen Xingyuan also stayed here, often calling to inquire about her recent situation, and occasionally asking her out for dinner.She always flatly refuses, using work as an excuse.He was not annoyed, but just smiled and said, "Then next time."

That's it, countless times.

In the following year, Xi Yan began to spend a lot of time in silence.She learned to drink unsweetened coffee and strong alcohol, one cup after another, living half drunk and half awake in a trance.

I still remember that under the flickering lights, people couldn't see her expression clearly, but the soft voice made people feel her sadness.

"Why did everything change all of a sudden, without even giving you any time to prepare?"

"The so-called accident is that you can't prepare in advance." His eyes fell on her flushed face, and Wen Xingyuan wanted to take the wine glass from her hand.

Xi Yan held on tightly, and looked at him slightly with narrowed eyes: "What are you doing, you said you would never ignore me again."

"You idiot." Wen Xingyuan was too lazy to talk nonsense with the drunk, and grabbed the cup politely.

The drunk was unconvinced: "You are an idiot, so be foolish."

Wen Xingyuan stared at her: "Where am I stupid?"

"Stupid everywhere!" Xi Yan muttered childishly, laying on the bar with her arms pillowed on her head, and when she met him, she still didn't speak, and then called him cheekily, "Hey, are you stupid?"

There was a bit of gloom on his usually gentle face, it took Wen Xingyuan a long time to squeeze out a sentence through his teeth, "If you talk back again, I will bury you in the tree pit outside."

Chi Yan laughed with a "puchi" and repeated with her eyes closed, "Being stupid."

Wen Xingyuan rubbed her hair vigorously.

Soft and sad music was playing in the bar, as if it wanted to arouse someone's thoughts in an instant.Xi Yan lay on the bar, quietly
Like falling asleep.As for Wen Xingyuan, he just stood beside her silently, drinking one cup after another.

Time passed by, and the number of customers gradually decreased.

Xi Yan stretched out her foot and kicked his calf, "Say something human."

Wen Xingyuan turned his head and glanced at her, "Looking for a beating."

Xi Yan laughed: "The earth is really dangerous, please send me back to Mars."

Wen Xingyuan was amused by her naivety, put down his wine glass, and helped her up, "It seems that I'm really drunk, and I'm starting to talk nonsense again." He led her to the door while talking.

"I haven't finished drinking yet, miser." She was not forgiving, and she refused to cooperate with her steps, but she couldn't match his strength.

Wen Xingyuan grabbed her coat and put it on her body, hugged her and walked towards his apartment.

"Wen Xingyuan?"

"Say!"

"Do you think the world has turned gray?"

"It's getting complicated."

Xi Yan's footsteps were a little messy, and her tongue was tied up: "Hey, it has become real."

For her, the world turned gray in an instant.Even if she deliberately blurred the appearance in her memory, she still lived in a trance, because the terrible reality touched her wound at any time.No matter how close he is to her, he still can't replace the person deep in her heart.

Wen Xingyuan didn't answer, but hugged Xi Yan even tighter.

As if feeling the strength of his arm, Xi Yan raised her head, and her blurred eyes fixed on his face: "Why don't you talk? You became dumb? Don't you always talk in a way."

Wen Xingyuan gave her an annoyed look, let go of his hand on purpose, and reached out to hold her when she almost fell down.

"Murder, you?" The tip of her nose hit his chest heavily, and Xi Yan was annoyed, but her arms wrapped around his waist as if she had her own consciousness, fearing that he would let go of it mischievously.

The assailant smiled lowly, and the spider-like longing eyes were quickly covered, "I thought you were drunk?"

"I can call you stupid even when I'm drunk!" Satisfied that his face changed, Xi Yan smiled: "Where is this going? Is my dormitory in this direction?"

"Go to the ravine and sell you."

"I'm too valuable, no one can afford it." Xi Yan wanted to kick him, but almost tripped herself.

"Idiot!" Wen Xingyuan frowned and scolded her, then he tightened his hand and held her firmly in his arms.

"You're an idiot."

"If you talk back again, walk back by yourself."

"You think I can't?"

"Show off." Bearing all the weight of her body, accompanied by the faint lights of the alley, she left.

She is his secret.After many years, Wen Xingyuan still clearly remembers the subtle expressions on Xi Yan's face at that time, as well as his forbearing mood.

With the word "love", Wen Xingyuan believes that the softest part of emotion should exist in the warmest and closest place to the heart.It's not mean to say love, it's just that Wen Xingyuan understood too well at that time, it doesn't mean whoever is close to Xiyan is in her heart.

This relationship lasted for a year, and Xi Yan began to like Guzhen.After work, she was finally willing to go out for a walk, even if she still refused Wen Xingyuan's invitation, even if she still spoke coldly to him, but he could see that her mood was changing, at least she was no longer blindly immersed in the changes and unable to extricate herself.

For Wen Xingyuan, this was enough.

enough.

When Xi Yan's work gradually got on the track, she was finally willing to help out at the bar in her spare time, to meet new friends, seeing her busy figure shuttling in the bar, and seeing her faint smile change when facing customers. Temperature, Wen Xingyuan felt relieved.

During that time, looking back many years later, Wen Xingyuan always felt that it was the most cautious and unrepeatable happy time.As Xiyan's "boss", he finally had an excuse to intervene in her life, and he stubbornly sent her back to the dormitory after the bar closed despite her constant rejection.At that time, they almost never spoke in a serious way, and they always stood shoulder to shoulder at the bar, holding wine glasses, sharply speaking mean to each other.

How selfish is Wen Xingyuan's love to be willing to pay for a woman whose heart is full of others? !

In the early morning, the fine sunlight sprinkled into the room, covering the furniture with a golden layer.

Xi Yan woke up leisurely, and saw that the dozen or so missed calls on her mobile phone were all from the same number, so she hurriedly called back.The phone rang once and was picked up, Xi Yan looked at the time, and it was only before seven o'clock: "Did you sleep because of the noise?"

"Are you dead asleep? You don't answer how many calls you make." Wen Xingyuan's voice was surprisingly cold, not like just waking up.

Almost never seeing him lose his temper, Xi Yan was stunned, "You just fell asleep, why are you calling in the middle of the night?"

Wen Xingyuan took a deep breath, "It's nothing to do. I'm going to bed, I'm sleepy!" Then hung up.

For the first time since we met, he hung up first.

Listening to the busy tone from the phone, Xi Yan dropped the phone on the bed: "I don't know why!" Wen Xingyuan didn't know that Wen Xingyuan was worried all night because he couldn't get through the phone.

At exactly eight o'clock, Xi Yan, who had packed up, went out fresh.

Tang Yifan took care of all the matters of the wedding, so there was no need for her as a bridesmaid to do anything.I accompanied Ji Ruoning out today, thinking that she wanted to buy something, but I didn't expect to be taken to school.

That is where the friendship between Xi Yan and Ji Ruoning began, and it was also the starting point for the love blossoming between Xi Yan and Han Nuo.

The time in college is fleeting, when the dormitory full of laughter and laughter in the past gradually became silent, Xi Yan stood on the platform to see off roommates one after another, feeling an indescribable emptiness in her heart, but fortunately Han Nuo and Ji Ruoning were with her at that time Beside her, holding her hand.Unfortunately, not long after, Han Nuo abandoned her, and then she abandoned the city, leaving behind Ji Ruoning who knew nothing.

In the following three years, from the initial silence, Xi Yan finally took the initiative to contact Ji Ruoning. After thousands of miles away, she said in a pleading tone: "Ruoning, can you not ask anything?"

Ji Ruoning really didn't ask anything, she only cared about her: "How are you?"

Xi Yan suddenly cried.She couldn't answer yes against her will, and she didn't want to say no to make Ji Ruoning worry.

Ji Ruoning also cried: "Don't think that if you shed a few tears, I will forgive you for leaving without saying goodbye. As a best friend, you owe me an explanation. We will settle this account slowly in this life."

We agreed to be friends for a lifetime, so we have a lifetime to settle the accounts slowly.

Xi Yan couldn't speak.

True friendship, even though thousands of miles apart, is still connected heart to hand, like a trickle, flowing silently in each other's hearts.Not alienated by time and distance.

Walking on the tree-lined road in the playground again, Xi Yan's eyes turned sore.Once upon a time, she was held tightly by Han Nuo, and she walked happily here in the rainy morning, in the snowy afternoon, in the sun, and in the night sky.Xi Yan even clearly remembered how many willows there were on the whole road, and the gentle eyes watching her under the shadow of the trees.But now, even the willows have changed their appearance under the rain of wind, frost, rain and snow, how can people be the same as before?

It's just that at the time, it was too naive.

Ji Ruoning looked straight into her eyes: "I'm used to coming back once when my life changes. I can't remember how many times I came here in the three years you left. At first it was me, and then there was Liang Yifan, but I still like it with you."

Xi Yan tried her best to swallow back the tears that quickly welled up in her eyes.

Ji Ruoning likes to walk on the tree-lined road with her, she likes to walk on the tree-lined road with Han Nuo, after a long time, often at night for self-study, Han Nuo takes Xi Yan's hand to send the two girls back to the dormitory.Later, Ji Ruoning and Han Nuo got acquainted, and she asked, "Do you really hate me?"

Han Nuo was taken aback by the question, while Xi Yan laughed out loud: "He really hates his brothers, whoever he kicked is bad, but he just kicked me." The warm smile on her face was because she remembered The acquaintance with Han Nuo.

Han Nuo came to his senses, and stretched out his hand to pin a lock of her loose hair behind her ear: "It's nothing to me, it's just that they've been very annoyed."

upset?Blind him for nothing?Xi Yan is not happy anymore: "You friends, you friends."

Knowing Xi Yan with Han Nuo is the price of "blood".It was an afternoon in freshman year, she and Ji Ruoning walked across the playground to go back to the dormitory, Han Nuo on the basketball court was having a hot fight with a few male classmates.A mistaken strong pass flew towards Xi Yan impartially. Her strange cry not only nearly deafened Han Nuo, but also frightened those boys who were fearless for a few days. Guessing by the volume, they I thought that the girls who were recruited were afraid that they would become disabled.In the end, the ball actually just touched Xi Yan lightly, and the small area of ​​bleeding on her knee was caused by her own fall.

Han Nuo is the most gentle and considerate of the few boys, so sending Xi Yan to the infirmary naturally falls on his shoulders.Xi Yan was afraid of the pain, so she screamed while cleaning the wound, and Han Nuo's forearm was scratched by her nails, so she had to comfort her softly; "Be patient, it will be fine soon."

Xi Yan's voice was crying: "It's easy to say, why don't you try to endure it?"

Han Nuo apologized with a good temper: "I'm sorry."

"What's the use of being sorry? It's not too bad to promise with your body."

The school doctor shook his hand, and Xi Yan let out a cry.

Facing Han Nuo's astonished expression, Xi Yan realized her slip of the tongue, and explained angrily: "I mean, you have to take care of me before my legs recover, such as fetching hot water! I have been persecuted to death." Now, shouldn’t you be responsible? Bullying the disabled!”

Han Nuo said with a smile, "I'm responsible."

Later they fell in love, and Han Nuo once promised when the relationship between the two was the best: "I will be responsible for the rest of my life."

However, a lifetime is too long, and he only persisted for four years.

Therefore, Xi Yan finally understood: Promises are often because they cannot be fulfilled.

"Actually, I know that I can never go back." Xi Yan never understood Ji Ruoning's intention of bringing her back to school, but: "It's too difficult to completely remove a person from my memory."

"Then why do you have to completely forget the person you loved with all your heart?" Ji Ruoning actually said: "If you never doubt that when you fell in love, he treated you sincerely, so it's okay to remember. As for the damage, since it is irreparable, Just stop being attached. If you want to be happy, you should learn to let go."

Because Xi Yan didn't want to mention the past, Ji Ruoning still doesn't know why she and Han Nuo broke up, and even forced Xi Yan to go away when facing great changes in her family, and how did Xie Yuanteng, who was called Xi Yanfa's younger brother, turn around and become Han Nuo? Nuo's new girlfriend.Such a sudden identity change almost made Ji Ruoning lose her mind.

On the third day when Xi Yan left without saying goodbye, Ji Ruoning, who was in a frenzy, finally found Han Nuo, who had been avoiding him, and saw Xie Yuanteng sitting quietly beside him. I thought you had a deep affection for Yan Yan."

Han Nuo's steak movements were not affected by Ji Ruoning's tone at all, skillful and elegant: "We broke up."

"Breaking up? Why? When did it happen?" Ji Ruoning stared at Han Nuo in disbelief, trying to find even a trace of nostalgia on his face, but she failed, because Han Nuo looked so calm, so calm and ruthless.

Raising her finger to Xie Yuanteng, Ji Ruoning asked word by word: "So, is she a new love?"

A trace of shame and anger flashed in Xie Yuanteng's eyes, but she held back and waited for Han Nuo to speak.

"Endo is my friend, as for me and Yanyan," Han Nuo looked straight into Ji Ruoning's eyes: "There is no need to explain to you."

"You think I care about your explanation?! We broke up, right? Then you should remember that from the moment you said the word "breakup", you and Yanyan, between you, are nothing." Ji Ruoning After finishing speaking, she was about to leave when she saw the waiter walking towards her with a tray. She picked up the cup and turned around to pour it on his face, "Han Nuo, don't regret it!"

Xie Yuanteng stood up abruptly, "Don't go too far."

Ji Ruoning looked up at her. The woman in front of her had put on delicate makeup, which was just right under the light. The apricot-colored long dress was wrapped around her body, making her look even more slender and well-proportioned. On her exquisite collarbone, she wore a A crystal necklace, black hair simply rolled up, with a bit of mature and charming taste.

He is a completely different kind of person from Xi Yan.

Ji Ruoning put the wine glass heavily on the dining table: "Xie Yuanteng, I wish you good luck."

Ignoring her so-called blessing, Xie Yuanteng asked Han Nuo: "Are you all right? Do you want to change places?"

Han Nuo didn't feel embarrassed, he said: "No need." He pulled Ji Ruoning out of the restaurant.

(End of this chapter)