Scholar's Love Exercises

Chapter 35 She Just Wants To Be With Him

In the quiet room, there were only each other's voices. Zhu Linsen's words were like a painkiller, which finally eased Ji Feiyan's numb heart.

He hugged her, trying to extract a little bit of human warmth from her.

Only his hoarse voice sounded again: "I thought she could stay with me for a few more years, I thought she could see me graduate, even see me get married and have children..."

Zhu Linsen didn't speak, but listened quietly to his talk.

"She said that she had never seen the sea in her life. On New Year's Eve, I told her that I would take her to see the sea this summer. She was as happy as a child, but there was no chance again. She didn't wait for me to fulfill my promise... ..." Ji Feiyan said, tears rolled down his sad face again, "The night she left, she dragged me to talk a lot, and I laughed at her for being so talkative. I said let her go to bed early, what else can I say? I can talk about it tomorrow... If I had known that there would be no tomorrow, I would have let her finish what she wanted to say."

Ji Feiyan's voice became more and more choked, and Zhu Linsen felt that his heart was about to break.He has always been strong in front of her, as if he is not afraid of anything, and nothing can trouble him, so that she often forgets that this is a boy who is two years younger than her, and he is only 19 years old after the new year .

In the short life of 19 years, he has experienced the death of his mother and his father's departure. The only person close to him is his grandmother, and now, his most cherished grandmother has left him forever... She couldn't imagine I don't dare to imagine his pain. After so many years, how did he digest those pains when he was young, and grow into such a young man who can be relied on by grandma and whom she can trust so much?
"Senior sister, I really miss grandma... I really miss..." This is the first time in so many years that Ji Feiyan has revealed his fragility to others. He took off his armor and exposed his heart layer by layer. Open it, let her see the flesh and blood inside.

Zhu Linsen wept silently. She took a deep breath, held back her sobs, and said, "Have you seen Coco? Grandma just went to another world. As long as you keep her in your heart, she will live forever." .”

After a pause, Zhu Linsen continued: "We will all go to that world. The sea that grandma wants to see, you can watch it with her there. If she didn't finish speaking, you will have a chance to listen to her in the future...Ji Feiyan, don't Sad, grandma doesn't want to see you like this either."

Ji Feiyan didn't speak for a long time, and it wasn't until a long time later that he let her go, stared at her eyes that were red from crying, and said, "Senior Sister, thank you for coming back for me."

"You shouldn't have kept it from me." Zhu Linsen pursed his lips.

"I don't want you to see me the way I am now."

"I've never seen you smoking." Zhu Linsen said softly.The smell of cigarettes in this room is still very strong until now, one can imagine how much he smoked.

"In the past, every time I smoked, my grandma would beat me with a cane. I thought, if I smoke in her room, will she be so angry that she will come alive and beat me?"

"Why are you so stupid?" Zhu Linsen wanted to laugh, but couldn't. She stretched out her hand and gently wiped the tears on his face, "Smoking is no longer allowed, and grandma can't hit you, but I can."

Ji Feiyan grabbed Zhu Linsen's hand and kissed her hand, his expression was almost pious, he only heard him say slowly: "Well, from now on, I will listen to whatever my senior sister says."

Suddenly, Zhu Linsen remembered that there was a lollipop that Lu Lu gave her in her pocket. Thinking that Ji Feiyan just liked it, she quickly took it out, unwrapped the wrapping paper, and handed it to Ji Feiyan: "Here."

When Ji Feiyan saw it, he suddenly laughed, but mist appeared in his eyes again.He took the lollipop and said, "I used to be a jerk. I smoked, drank, fought, and did a lot of jerk things. Later, my grandma got seriously ill from my anger, so I changed my mind. But once, I still didn't I could hold back and secretly smoked a cigarette, but my grandma found out. At that time, she handed me a lollipop and told me that I must quit smoking. If I really want to smoke, I can eat a lollipop. "

Zhu Linsen originally thought that Ji Feiyan liked to eat lollipops, but he didn't expect that there was such a story behind it.

Ji Feiyan stuffed the lollipop into his mouth, and said vaguely, "Afterwards, I got used to eating it, so I couldn't think about smoking anymore."

"It's best if you can't think of it, and you don't have to think about it in the future. I can buy you many, many lollipops."

A gentle light flashed in Ji Feiyan's eyes, he embraced Zhu Linsen again, and said, "Okay."

At this moment, Zhu Linsen's stomach grumbled.

"Didn't you eat lunch?" Ji Feiyan asked, startled.

"Can you eat with me?" Zhu Linsen asked.She knew that he must not have eaten much these days.

Ji Feiyan looked at her determinedly for a while, then nodded and said, "Okay."

With that said, he pulled her to stand up.

As soon as the two opened the door, Ruan Shaochun, who had been waiting in the yard, rushed over immediately: "Fei Yan, you can figure it out, what can you do if you haven't eaten all the time? I will heat the food for you in the kitchen, so you should eat some .”

"Yeah." Ji Feiyan replied, holding Zhu Linsen's hand and walking towards the kitchen.

Ruan Shaochun, on the other hand, was stunned. He thought that Ji Feiyan would refuse as before, and he had thought about everything he wanted to say after the connection, but he didn't expect Ji Feiyan to go directly to the kitchen.

If he had known that Senior Sister Zhu was so capable, he would have called Senior Sister Zhu here long ago!

However, as long as Ji Feiyan is willing to eat, the stone in Ruan Shaochun's heart will fall to the ground.

"Shaochun." Just as Ruan Shaochun was about to follow to the kitchen, Ji Yuetong's voice came from behind, "Is Fei Yan still refusing to eat?"

As soon as Ruan Shaochun turned around, he saw Ji Yuetong holding a cup of soup in his hand, and the worry on his face was obvious.

Ruan Shaochun's mood is a bit complicated, he knows Ji Yuetong's feelings for Ji Feiyan, but it's a pity that Feiyan already has Senior Sister Zhu, alas!
"Sister Yuetong, don't worry, Feiyan has already eaten in the kitchen."

"Really, then I can give him this cup of pigeon soup." Ji Yuetong looked happy, and was about to go to the kitchen.

"Sister Yuetong, Feiyan is eating with Senior Sister Zhu, it must be that Senior Sister Zhu persuaded him." Although Ruan Shaochun couldn't bear it, he still reminded him.

Ji Yuetong's footsteps stopped, and her face became stiff for a moment.After an unknown amount of time, she turned around and handed the soup in her hand to Ruan Shaochun, with a forced smile on the corner of her mouth: "Then you can bring it to him for me, and I won't bother you."

Ruan Shaochun nodded, and went into the kitchen with the soup.

Ji Yuetong took a few steps forward, and through the kitchen window, he saw Ji Feiyan and Zhu Linsen sitting opposite each other, eating with their heads bowed. He occasionally raised his head, but the look in his eyes was no longer gray, looking at Zhu Linsen with watery eyes as gentle.

Ji Yuetong lowered her eyes and left the yard silently.

She has pestered him for so long with a stern face, and when she thought that the person he liked was Zhu Linsen, she couldn't be reconciled to it. Even on Jinglan Mountain, he rejected her again with a harsh tone never before, she never really gave up , she just decided to wait, wait for a more suitable opportunity, wait for a chance that he might like her.

But now, she gave up.

Because she failed to get him out of his sorrow, but Zhu Linsen did.

This realization made her feel hopeless.It turns out that for so long, she has been living a life of self-deception. She always feels that since she and Ji Feiyan grew up together, she will naturally have more weight in his heart. She always feels that his feelings for Zhu Linsen are just Impulsive, not long.

But the fact is that in his saddest time, the person who can comfort him and redeem him is not her, but Zhu Linsen.

He loves Zhu Linsen, he only loves Zhu Linsen.

To him, she was just a sister next door.

sister...

Ji Yuetong returned home in a daze.

The parents at home were watching TV, Ji Yuetong stood at the door for a while, and said, "I want to study abroad."

The love between Ji Feiyan and Zhu Linsen made her understand that only when she is good enough can there be good people to love her.For so many years, most of the people who pursued her were people who lived in chaos like her and did not seek to make progress.

Only Ji Feiyan is the exception. Even when he is the most jerk, skipping classes and fighting all day long, he is different. As long as he wants, he can turn things around at any time.

His life is always in his own hands.

And once he chooses to give up chaos to live, he will immediately go from being within reach to being out of reach.

"Senior Sister, I'm fine. Go back to school with Shaochun tomorrow morning." That night, Ji Feiyan and Zhu Linsen were sitting together on the terrace on the third floor, looking at the night scene in the distance, Ji Feiyan suddenly said road.

"What about you?" Zhu Linsen was taken aback.

"I want to go to the seaside." Ji Feiyan said, "Although I can't take my grandma to see the sea, I can take a look instead of her to relax."

Zhu Linsen really wanted to say "I'll go with you", but she knew that Ji Feiyan would not agree, he had already put away his sorrow and did not intend to show weakness in front of her again.

"Well, when are you going to go?"

"Tomorrow, I will go to the station with you."

Zhu Linsen looked sideways at Ji Feiyan, she knew that he might want to lick his wounds by himself, and when he came back from the beach, he would turn back to Ji Feiyan from before, who could charm a lot of girls with a smile, no one Will understand the pain in his heart.

However, she just wanted to be with him.

He wouldn't let her go, so she went secretly.

The next day, Zhu Linsen went to the train station with Ji Feiyan and Ruan Shaochun. Ji Feiyan's train was an hour earlier than Zhu Linsen's, so he got on the train first.

Zhu Linsen and Ruan Shaochun, who stayed behind, looked at each other, and Ruan Shaochun asked, "Sister Zhu, do you really want to take the next bus?"

"Of course, can you help me find out which hotel he's staying at?"

"I'll take care of things, don't worry." Ruan Shaochun said, and sent Zhu Linsen the name of the hotel.

"Don't let me tell you anything!" Zhu Linsen was very satisfied and urged again.

Ruan Shaochun patted his chest and promised: "Don't worry!"

An hour later, Zhu Linsen and Ruan Shaochun got on the trains to different cities.

The seaside city that Ji Feiyan is going to is not too far from Jiangshi. It takes about seven hours to take the high-speed train. When Zhu Linsen arrived at the station, it was already seven o'clock in the evening. By the time she arrived at the hotel, it was already nine o'clock in the evening. up.

Zhu Linsen walked to the front desk, and without waiting for the front desk clerk to speak, he handed the ID card to the other party with a smile, and said, "Hello, my boyfriend just checked in, we share a room, I forgot the room number, you can check it directly His name, his name is Ji Feiyan."

When Zhu Linsen said this, he looked calm on the surface, but he was extremely nervous inside, for fear of being rejected, and if Ji Feiyan didn't stay in this hotel, then she would really lose face to the Pacific Ocean.

Maybe Zhu Linsen looks innocent and harmless, and she gave her ID card on her own initiative, so the front desk didn't question her, but actually checked her for her, and then said: "Hello, you are in room 8022, this is room card."

Zhu Linsen breathed a sigh of relief. She took the room card, thanked her, and went straight to room 8022.

A few minutes later, Zhu Linsen stood outside Room 8022. She squeezed the room card in her hand, feeling a little nervous, but she still didn't swipe the card to get in, but rang the doorbell.

After a while, the door was opened, and Ji Feiyan was wiping his hair while asking, "What..."

Before the word "thing" came out of his mouth, Ji Feiyan froze in place, a little in disbelief: "Senior sister?"

Zhu Linsen didn't expect that Ji Feiyan had just finished taking a shower. The way he was wearing a bathrobe and opening the door while wiping his hair made her face slightly flushed.She looked at his shocked appearance, showed a slightly embarrassed smile, and asked in a low voice, "Are you surprised? Are you surprised?"

Ji Feiyan was stunned for a long time before he realized that he put the towel for wiping his hair on the nearby cabinet, and then stretched out his hand to pull Zhu Linsen in.

Without saying a word, he held her face directly and kissed her.

There was still steam on his face after the shower, and the water droplets from his hair dripped onto Zhu Linsen's body, but she didn't realize it. She just hugged him back and responded positively to his enthusiasm.

(End of this chapter)