Scholar's Love Exercises

Chapter 34 I Have Only You

It was said that it was a winter vacation showdown, but the winter vacation was almost over, and Zhu Linsen hadn't acted yet.

On the last day of winter vacation, Zhu Linsen finally made up his mind.

That night, Zhu Linsen did a hundred times of psychological training for himself, took another ten sets of deep breaths, and finally opened the door and walked into the living room.She bravely used the remote to turn off Zhu Haoran's favorite news program, then coughed twice in Zhu Haoran's serious eyes: "Dad, Mom, I have something to tell you."

Zhu Linsen rarely asked to talk to them so seriously, so both Zhu Haoran and Chen Xiaoya felt a little surprised, and Zhu Haoran spoke first: "What's the matter?"

Zhu Linsen clenched her fists. She could almost feel the cold sweat on her palms. She looked up at the elders of the Zhu family and said, "I'm going to apply for postgraduate insurance next semester."

"This is a good thing." Chen Xiaoya couldn't help laughing after hearing this.

"But I don't plan to apply to the Department of Mathematics, I want to major in Computer Science."

As soon as the words fell, Zhu Linsen clearly felt that the atmosphere in the living room suddenly froze, and the smile on the corners of the Zhu family's elders also retracted, and they looked at her seriously.

"You want to give up mathematics?" Zhu Haoran's expression was a little dignified.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I really can't love mathematics. In the past few years, I have minored in mechanical engineering and computer science, which makes me feel that my interest is not in mathematics. Please understand." Zhu Linsen spoke out in his heart When she came out, she didn't realize it herself, her voice trembled a little.

"Your interest is not in mathematics?" Zhu Haoran was furious, "I think you have forgotten what you said when you were a child. I still remember that your dream is to be a mathematician."

Zhu Linsen bit his lip and said, "I just didn't want to disappoint my parents, so I lied."

Zhu Haoran's complexion became even worse, and his volume increased a little: "Say it again!"

Zhu Linsen was so frightened that his little heart trembled, but at this point, he could only bite the bullet and say: "I lied before, I have never liked mathematics, I don't want to learn mathematics, not at all."

"Zhu Linsen!" Zhu Haoran suddenly stood up from the sofa.

Zhu Linsen was startled, and took a step back palely, looking scared.

Seeing Zhu Linsen's actions, Zhu Haoran became even more angry: "What are you hiding, can I still hit you?"

"Sensen, have you made a decision?" Chen Xiaoya was not as excited as Zhu Haoran, so she only asked calmly.

Zhu Linsen secretly glanced at Zhu Haoran, and nodded firmly.

"Although your dad and I have always hoped that you can learn mathematics, the premise is that you really like it. Now that you have grown up and have your own ideas, your dad and I will not interfere too much, but you must know that your Every choice is related to your future, and since you make the choice, you must be responsible for your choice." Chen Xiaoya continued.

"I know." Zhu Linsen was slightly moved when he heard Chen Xiaoya's words, "Thank you, Mom, for your understanding."

After a pause, she continued: "I'm going back to my room first..."

As soon as he returned to his room, Zhu Linsen rolled on the bed, feeling excited and exciting, as if he had won a battle, he almost screamed.

After a while, she ran behind the door, put her ear to the door, and listened to the movement in the living room.

"Okay, don't look ashamed." Chen Xiaoya's voice came over.

Zhu Haoran sighed heavily: "With Sensen's qualifications, if you devote yourself to mathematics, you will definitely make achievements in this field."

"I know." Chen Xiaoya also sighed, "But your daughter doesn't like it, what can you do?"

"Tomorrow, I'll have a good talk with her and persuade her, maybe she will be impulsive." Zhu Haoran said.

"You still don't understand your daughter's character? She must have thought about it countless times in her heart when she opened this mouth to us today. This must be her deliberate decision, and it's useless if you persuade her." Chen Xiaoya looked at it better than Zhu Haoran. Get it right.

Zhu Linsen kept nodding behind the door, thinking, Dad, just listen to Mom, and don't talk to me!

But the next moment, she heard Zhu Haoran say: "No, I'll talk to her again."

Not long after, Zhu Haoran knocked on Zhu Linsen's door.

"Sensen, let's talk."

Zhu Linsen really wanted to pretend that she didn't hear, but she opened the door anyway.

Zhu Haoran walked into Zhu Linsen's room. The father and daughter sat opposite each other, one on a chair and the other on the bed.Zhu Haoran was the first to speak: "Sensen, Dad told you many stories about mathematicians in the past. They are all the best talents of this era. Dad once wanted to be a mathematician. Unfortunately, Dad didn't have that talent, so he had to retreat. The second thing is to be a people's teacher. It doesn't matter if I can't become a mathematician, but if I can train a mathematician, I can be honored. Dad is most happy that my daughter is a good seed for learning mathematics. You are right Mathematics comprehension far exceeds my expectations, if you are willing to go on this path, you will most likely become a pivotal figure in the mathematics world in the future.”

Zhu Linsen was a little guilty by Zhu Haoran's praise. She lowered her head and brushed her hair uncomfortably: "Dad, you think highly of me..."

"You are my daughter, don't I know your strength yet?" Zhu Haoran put on a serious face, "Sensen, think about it carefully, do you really want to give up mathematics? You may feel that Not interested, but when you go deep into this field, you will find the charm of mathematics."

"Father." Zhu Linsen raised his head with a tangled expression, and struggled to utter a word, "I feel like throwing up when I see a math problem."

Zhu Haoran's expression was very complicated. He opened his mouth, wanted to say something, then closed his mouth again. After a while, he sighed and said, "You really don't like mathematics that much? You really don't want to go this way again gone?"

Zhu Linsen nodded sharply. After a while, she took a timid look at Zhu Haoran who was full of disappointment, and said guiltily, "Father, I'm sorry, I failed to live up to your expectations."

Zhu Haoran continued to look at Zhu Linsen with a complicated expression. He saw fear, guilt, and never-before-seen calmness and firmness in his daughter.

The original thought of persuading her suddenly dissipated, he sighed, reached out and touched Zhu Linsen's head: "Since you have made up your mind, then follow the path you chose."

Zhu Haoran seldom made such an intimate move towards Zhu Linsen. This moment of tenderness made Zhu Linsen feel a warm current, and also made her feel more guilty.

She raised her head, looked at Zhu Haoran, and was about to say something, but she heard him say, "Go to bed early."

He went out after saying that.

Zhu Linsen sat on the bed in a daze for a while, and after realizing that Zhu Haoran had agreed to her choice, he felt excited.She lay back on the bed with peace of mind, and immediately sent Ji Feiyan a WeChat message: I am having a showdown with my parents!Not killed!

Ji Feiyan's WeChat message came back only the next morning, but it was: Sister, I will return to school in two days, you go back with Senior Sister Lu and the others first, let Senior Xiao help you carry your luggage, and be careful.

In the past two days, Ji Feiyan had less contact with her than usual, and Zhu Linsen wanted him to spend more time with his grandmother, so he didn't cling to him.

When seeing this WeChat message, Zhu Linsen didn't think too much, and just replied "Yes".

This morning, Zhu Linsen, Lu Lu, and Xiao Yu got on the high-speed train back to Han City together.

Seeing that Ji Feiyan didn't come, Lu Lu teased, "Hey, your 'little wolf dog' let you go today? It doesn't suit his style!"

Ever since she found out that Zhu Linsen and Ji Feiyan were together, Lu Lu no longer called "Ji Xuedi" in front of Zhu Linsen, but "your little wolf dog". At first, Zhu Linsen was extremely embarrassed, and his face would turn red every time Lu Lu teased her , now Zhu Linsen can calmly face her teasing.

"He said he would go back to school in two days."

"I remember that your mathematics department is very full. You should have class tomorrow, right? Didn't you ask him why?" Lu Lu scratched her chin and asked casually.

"No..." Zhu Linsen suddenly felt that he was too incompetent as a girlfriend. Lu Lu's words awakened the dreamer, and Zhu Linsen quickly said, "Let me ask."

Zhu Linsen took out his mobile phone and sent a WeChat message, but after 10 minutes, Ji Feiyan still hadn't replied to her.

Zhu Linsen couldn't help feeling worried. She thought about it, and then sent Ruan Shaochun a WeChat message, because according to the plan, Ruan Shaochun went back to school with them today, but he didn't show up.

Ruan Shaochun didn't reply either.

Zhu Linsen opened the phone's address book and wanted to call Ji Feiyan, but after a second thought, he dialed Ruan Shaochun's number.

The phone rang twice before Ruan Shaochun picked it up, and the first time he spoke, he forced himself to be calm: "Senior Zhu, what do you want from me?"

Zhu Linsen noticed it, and asked with a frown, "Why don't you and Ji Feiyan go back to school with us today?"

"This... this... we have something to do temporarily..." Ruan Shaochun was a good boy who was not good at lying, so he stuttered all of a sudden.

"What's the matter?" Zhu Linsen asked directly.

"This..." Ruan Shaochun stammered, but his words were unclear.

"Shaochun, if something happened to Ji Feiyan, don't hide it from me." Zhu Linsen was really anxious now.

Ruan Shaochun hesitated on the other end of the phone for a long time before saying, "It's not that I don't want to say it, I don't want to tell you right and wrong."

"What's the matter?" Zhu Linsen's tone became tough and urgent.

Ruan Shaochun was silent for a while, sighed, and said, "Feiyan's grandmother passed away, and she was buried yesterday, and Feiyan hasn't recovered yet, so I think about going back to school in a few days."

"What?" Zhu Linsen stood up abruptly, his face turning pale.

"Senior Zhu, Feiyan doesn't want you to worry, so just pretend you don't know. I'll be with him, don't worry too much." After Ruan Shaochun finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

"What's wrong?" Lu Lu asked worriedly when she saw that Zhu Linsen's expression was not right.

At this moment, the bulletin of the high-speed rail announced that it was about to arrive at the next station. Zhu Linsen took his schoolbag and said, "Ji Feiyan's grandma passed away, and I won't be going back to school. Xiao Yu, help me pack the suitcase." Take it back to school."

"Sun Sen." Lu Lu called out.

Zhu Linsen had already walked towards the car door, she turned her head and said, "If my parents ask, don't say anything."

As soon as the car stopped, Zhu Linsen got out of the car quickly, and she quickly ran to the ticket office to buy a ticket back to Jiang City.

Unfortunately, the nearest car is two hours away.Zhu Linsen waited in the waiting room in a state of dismay. He wanted to contact Ji Feiyan countless times, but he held back in the end. She could almost imagine his current mood. Just thinking about it made her want to cry. speak out.

In his world, there is only his grandma as a relative, and he has depended on her for life since he was a child, how can he accept her leaving?

Zhu Linsen felt such a strong pain in his heart for the first time. For the boy she really liked, he would never have any relatives in his life.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, Zhu Linsen finally stood in front of Ji Feiyan's house.

"Senior Zhu, you...you're back to school?" Ruan Shaochun was sitting in the yard sighing, when he looked up, he saw Zhu Linsen's figure, and he thought he was dazzled.

"What about him?" Zhu Linsen asked.

Ruan Shaochun immediately stood up, pointed to the room on the first floor, and said helplessly, "I've been in his grandmother's room for almost two days, and I haven't even had a drink of saliva, and we won't let us go to him. Sister Zhu, since you're here, Go and persuade him, maybe he will listen to what you say."

Zhu Linsen's heart ached again, she nodded and walked inside.

Fortunately, the door was unlocked, so Zhu Linsen turned the handle and pushed the door open.

The curtains inside were all drawn, and the vision was dim, and the pungent smell of smoke came over his face. Zhu Linsen frowned, and scanned the room, only to see a person sitting in the corner smoking with his head bowed. There are already piles of cigarette butts on the side.

On such a cold day, he only wore a thin sweater, like a lonely sculpture.

Her heart twitched, she stepped forward, and slowly knelt down in front of Ji Feiyan.He seemed to have lost the ability to perceive the outside world. He clearly heard her footsteps, but he never raised his head to look at her.

"Ji Feiyan." Zhu Linsen opened his mouth and called softly, his voice dry.

Ji Feiyan's body froze slightly, and after a long while, he raised his head, staring at her blankly with red eyes, and after a while, he opened his mouth and said, "Senior Sister?"

His voice was hoarse, and he seemed a little uncertain.

His hair was a little messy, some mustaches had grown on his chin, his eyes were bloodshot, and he didn't know how many nights he hadn't slept, Zhu Linsen burst into tears.

It was only then that Ji Feiyan seemed to realize that she had really come in front of him. His hands trembled, and he subconsciously extinguished the cigarette at his fingertips on the ground.He pulled his lips, trying to pull a smile, but he couldn't do it after all. He just reached out to wipe the tears on her cheeks, and asked in a low voice, "Why are you crying?"

Zhu Linsen suddenly threw himself into his arms, hugged him tightly, and asked choked with sobs, "Why didn't you tell me such a big thing?"

Ji Feiyan didn't speak, but he couldn't help wrapping his arms around her body, hugging her even tighter.

"I'm sorry, I'm so incompetent as a girlfriend." Zhu Linsen choked up.

"Senior Sister..." Ji Feiyan's voice began to tremble, "I don't have a grandma anymore."

A short sentence, but full of grief and desolation, Zhu Linsen's tears flowed more fiercely, and she cried back: "You still have me."

"I only have you." Ji Feiyan tightened his arms, almost wanting to embed her in his own flesh and blood. When he said this, cold liquid rolled down from his red eyes.

This extremely sad "I only have you" made Zhu Linsen's heart throb.

"Ji Feiyan, don't be sad, I will always be with you."

(End of this chapter)