Just because I loved you so much at the time - published

251 Pregnancy 1
"I'm not afraid!" she said firmly.For him, she can endure any hardship!
Lou Xi's heart suddenly twisted into a ball. When he found out that his body had a problem, he was not so sad, but seeing Xing Chen like this, he couldn't stand it anymore. She was very scared, but she It's not that I'm afraid that I won't be able to be a mother for the rest of my life, but that he will be sad, feel inferior, and lose his head in front of others.

But in fact, he really doesn't think that much, it's not that he doesn't care, it's just that people who really care about him won't look down on him because of this, and why should he care about other irrelevant people?He didn't live for them!He wanted a child because she was the child's mother, and he felt uncomfortable because he couldn't give her a lovely child.

She was so kind to Sisi, she was so sad because of losing her child, how could he have the heart to let her lose the chance to be a mother because of him?But he was really reluctant to let her suffer that kind of hardship, which was different from his blood and sweat on the training ground. It was a living experience of both physical and psychological suffering. The success rate of one time was only 20%. He didn't dare to think, if it really failed, what would happen to the embryo that was supposed to be a small life, he felt distressed, even a little sick, he was like this, and how painful she would be when the time came.

No, no, he couldn't accept it, he couldn't bear it anymore, another or even more little lives disappeared from her body.

She's healthy, she's young, and if it wasn't for him, she would have had no trouble having children.

He looked at her deeply, and said quietly, every time he said a word, his heart ached, "Let's... divorce..."

What?divorce?

Ye Xingchen's body hurt reflexively. She thought she had heard it wrong, but his lingering sound clearly remained in her ears. It was still such a familiar tone, low and pleasant, but at this moment it was like a sharp needle. , pierced her eardrum, and the pain went into her heart, the pain was so devastating that she couldn't breathe.

The hands were clenched together, and even though they were weak at the moment, they still hurt the palms.

She slowly, slowly raised her eyes and looked at him.

The man in front of him is Lou Xi, but it doesn't seem to be him.It was still the same tall, tall, handsome man, but he was different, he was shrinking back!
His expression and tone were as calm and calm as before, but his eyes betrayed him.

The moment their eyes met, Ye Xingchen suddenly smiled, sneered, and was not surprised to see his stunned expression.

"Lou Xi, don't forget, we are married in the military, and I am also a soldier. Although you are from the special forces, I am just a doctor in a military hospital. Our natures are completely different. Your rank is also several ranks higher than mine. You occupy the absolute Advantage, but according to the regulations, if you want to divorce, you must also get my consent. And I tell you now, I don't agree! Never, never agree! If you must divorce, then you must try to find my fault Well, unless I have a serious fault, you will never leave this marriage! Even if I go to a military court, I will never let go!"

She stared at him hard, with anger and accusation in her eyes, as if he didn't want her, and she was desperate like him!
Lou Xi was a little astonished. He saw that she was like a cat whose tail was stepped on suddenly, and the fur all over her body exploded in an instant. The fierce gaze even made him a little afraid, so that he stammered, "Xing, Xingchen ...I...I don't want you...I don't want to leave..."

"If you don't want to leave, just take back what you just said!" She stepped forward, stood on tiptoe, grabbed his collar with both hands, and used the most ferocious strength in her life, shouting, "If you don't take it back, I will follow you!" Endless! I took Sisi to the Special Forces Brigade. I gave it up. I didn’t go to work. I lived there every day. Wherever you go, I will go with you! You run and I run, you shoot and I shoot, and you go on missions and I also Follow! I'll annoy you, haunt you to death! If unfortunately you are in danger, I will make you feel sorry for you and regret it to death! I will do what I say, just wait and see!"

Ye Xingchen gritted his teeth, but tears fell uncontrollably.

Lou Xi looked at her crying in anger, and suddenly felt a little overwhelmed. It was the first time he saw her fierce side, but at the same time he saw her strength behind her weakness. The unimaginable determination even made him feel horrified, he would feel something heavy, some panic, some desolation, some uneasiness, complicated and complex.

The face of her tears was covered with dampness and traces of sadness, but the gentle rain nourished him who was in a state of confusion, squeezed and restrained him. She could be as gentle as water or as strong as Iron, like a raging fire, can burn him to pieces but he is willing to do so.

Unknowingly, it is a little thick, and it can no longer be separated from life. Her smile, her tears, her voice, a little tenderness, a little lingering, a little gratitude, are so warm, so people can't let go, just want to Well placed, safe and melancholy.

He hugged her and caressed her back with his big hands. She was crying and angry, her back was heaving up and down, and the out of tune frequency made his heart tremble.

Then, he heard his own voice, the most cowardly in his life, "I take it back, do you still want me?"

"Yes!" Ye Xingchen nodded vigorously, as if she was afraid that he would go back on his word, he immediately put his arms around his neck, the fresh and pleasant smell of masculinity faintly lingered at the end of her nose, puffing to the bottom of her heart.

She choked up and couldn't say more words, tears flowed down the corners of her eyes, one after another, fell quickly, and disappeared quickly, shining like a meteor, without a trace, but more precious than anything in this time, Every drop is so crystal clear, wet between the eyebrows and hurt on the heart.

They are very happy, aren't they?Even without children, they can still live happily, not to mention they still have Sisi.Whether or not they have biological children is not that important. The important thing is that they can continue to live a good life.

Children are the inheritance of blood, but they are also the crystallization of love. They have love, which is more important than anything else.

And they still have hope now, although it is very small, but there is always some, the 20% chance is actually quite high, one in five, just like a person stretching out a hand, the five fingers one.No matter how difficult life is, in the end, you will find that person who makes you willing to be silly.

Lou Xi held her hand tightly. Every finger of her was soft and soft. In this life, what he wanted to love the most was the person in front of him, but he couldn't give her complete happiness, but he would effort!
Rational is cold, but after all, he is reluctant to let go. He stroked her hair and said seriously, "I will listen to you, and you can do whatever you say."

"That's about the same!" Ye Xingchen raised his head, his eyes warm.

Lou Xi lowered her head and looked at her red eyes, which were as cute as a little rabbit.

In fact, he wasn't afraid, he just didn't want her to work too hard, but she wasn't afraid, so what right did he have to be afraid?
They went back to the consulting room, sat in front of the doctor again, filled out forms, and made appointments.

After leaving the hospital, the two walked on the way to kindergarten.

Walking along the green path, a gust of cool wind passed by, and the hazy sky revealed a blue gap, and the two people held hands tightly.

Life is like such a road. In fact, what they are afraid of is not the long road, but that you will not be there when I reach the end.

(End of this chapter)