Unforgettable first love: warmth stays in the left atrium

Chapter 10 Don't Say I'm Sorry

Don't say I'm sorry, don't hurt me to say it wasn't intentional, but I can't blame you
Because the police came to take notes earlier, Gu Yingning asked the nurse to shake the upper part of the hospital bed to an upright position.So Gu Yingning, who was leaning on the hospital bed, looked at Sheng Xia who was in the wheelchair, and she was still slightly taller.

Sheng Xia looked at Gu Yingning's resolute and tight jaw, pursed his lips slightly and smiled, and still pushed the wheelchair in front of him with some unfamiliarity, tilted his head to stare at him, and asked, "Are you hungry?"

Gu Yingning shook her head, hesitated to speak a few times, and finally asked: "Xu Yihui, he...he, how is he?"

He clearly wanted to ask Xu Yihui what he had said and done to her, and he had already reached the point of his mouth, but he turned a corner and said "how is he".How could Sheng Xia not know his original intention, and couldn't help but chuckled softly.

Unexpectedly, Gu Yingning was not annoyed, but closed her eyes as if she was tired.

Sheng Xia finally made a sound, soft and clear: "Yingning, let's not talk about Yihui for now, you should take good care of your injuries and leave the hospital as soon as possible, okay?"

Xu Yihui has always been a wall between him and her. Their dispute before the wedding was because of Xu Yihui, and the cancellation of the wedding was also because of Xu Yihui.She knew they would have to face it sooner or later, but at least not now.Now, he is no longer the aloof Gu Yingning who speaks unquestionably. He is a patient, and she is also a patient. They are equal and can communicate peacefully. And she wants to cherish this hard-won time of adversity.

Gu Yingning opened his eyes, his pale face did not weaken his sharp and stern gaze.After a long while, he didn't say much, but asked her to order lunch for him, but Sheng Xia understood that this was his acquiescence.

"How can you get used to the food in the hospital?" Sheng Xia laughed, "I have already informed Jiang Tan to bring you a lunch from Binjiang Hotel."

Gu Yingning gave a faint "hmm", with no expression of joy or anger.

If it had been in the past, Sheng Xia might have been saddened by his reaction, but now she was very calm, and said in a very light tone, "Then I'm going back to my ward, you should rest well."

As she spoke, she was about to turn the wheelchair, but before she touched the handle, her arm was grabbed by a slightly cold palm.When Sheng Xia turned her head, she saw that Gu Yingning's hand was clearly still on the drip, and the blood flowed back with just such a large movement.

She hastily said: "Yingning, quickly put your hand back!"

However, no matter what she said, Gu Yingning's hands were astonishingly strong, and she refused to relax at all.Seeing more and more blood flowing back, Sheng Xia had no choice but to give up and asked him: "Gu Yingning, what exactly do you want to do?"

Seeing that she no longer pulled his hand away, Gu Yingning finally relaxed a little, and after a moment's pause, she slowly opened her lips: "You heard the conversation between me and Tan Jing earlier, no matter where you and Xu Yihui are... "

"Yingning! Did I just say that for nothing?" Sheng Xia Yang interrupted him with a high voice, and was about to continue, but heard his deep and clear voice from over there.

"sorry."

He slowly let go of her arm and lowered his hand, Sheng Xia froze, she couldn't believe the three words she heard.Knowing Gu Yingning for so long, no matter how fierce the quarrel was in the past, he has never said the three words "I'm sorry" to himself so bluntly.

As if it was an auditory hallucination, Sheng Xia raised her eyes and saw him staring at her fixedly, so it took a long time to find her voice: "I'm sorry for what?"

"Arguing with you, breaking off the engagement, everything." His voice was still deep.

Perhaps it was because she never thought that such a moment would come, so Sheng Xia didn't know how to react other than being dazed.It's not that she didn't feel turbulent in her heart. The day before the wedding date, they had such a quarrel, and Gu Yingning's words were so mean, she even thought that she would not be able to bear it.But can all her incomprehensions and grievances be completely healed by saying "I'm sorry"?
silent.

In the huge ward there was only the sound of their breathing, Sheng Xia didn't know how to respond, and Gu Yingning, who rarely apologized to others but did not get a response, naturally his face gradually darkened.A wind blew over, fluttering the soft curtains in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and there was a hint of melancholy in the freshness.

At this moment, there was a knock on the door, and Jiang Tan stood at the door with a food box on his shoulders.

Jiang Tan, who always had a face of ice cubes, was carrying a food box with a pink piglet on his shoulders. No matter how he looked at this scene in midsummer, he felt happy, and couldn't help pursing his lips and chuckling.

Because of Jiang Tan, the air that had been frozen was flowing again, Sheng Xia turned to Gu Yingning and said, "You can have lunch first, I'll come back to see you."

Jiang Tan said, "Miss Sheng, I also prepared lunch for you."

Sheng Xia paused for a moment, then smiled: "No, Xiao Jingzi yelled yesterday to cook this and that for me today. You probably haven't eaten yet, so come with Yingning." Gu Yingning's lips were tightly pursed. With a word, she turned her head and smiled at him, gently tucked his blood-flowing hand into the quilt, and said, "I will have dinner with you tonight."

After Shengxia had left for a long time, Gu Yingning watched Jiang Tan laying out vegetables in front of her, and remained silent in a daze.Lifting the other hand to hold the chopsticks, he suddenly discovered that his palm was already drenched with sweat.

After more than a month like this, except for Shengxia's right ankle, which has not fully recovered, all other traumas have healed.As Gu Yingning's injury continued to improve, he had already moved from the VIP intensive care unit to the general ward, and now he was sharing the same room with Sheng Xia.

Tan Jinglei came here every day without moving, Sheng Xia knew that she was much better, and advised her to visit more shops, but Tan Jing stared at her eyes, saying that she was worried that Gu Yingning would bully her, making Sheng Xia dumbfounded.Xu Yihui also often comes to visit Shengxia, and every time he brings a bouquet of lilies, saying it suits her best.After meeting so many times, Xu Yihui and Gu Yingning never seemed to have a real conversation other than nodding their heads in greeting.Sheng Xia could feel Gu Yingning's displeasure, but she didn't express anything, pretending not to know.In any case, Xu Yihui is a very important friend of hers.

On this day, Xu Yihui came over after work in the evening, and besides the fragrant lilies, he also brought a bag of peaches for Sheng Xia.Each one is plump and juicy, flushed, like a child's face.

Sheng Xia was naturally very happy to see it. After picking up one and smelling the tangy aroma, he opened his eyes wide in surprise and said, "Is this Fenghua's honey peach?"

Xu Yihui took it and weighed it in his hand, laughed loudly and said, "Ah Xia, you really are a greedy cat! You can even smell it just because of the scent!"

Sheng Xia raised her eyebrows: "That's not true."

Xu Yihui put the big bag on the bedside table, turned to her and asked, "Do you want to eat one now? I'll wash it for you."

Sheng Xia shook her head, with a slightly bitter face: "Little Jingzi forced me a piece of cake just now, and my stomach is still bulging."

Xu Yihui laughed and said, "Sure enough, it's the girl Tan Jing's style."

He and she talked to each other, and the tacit understanding between each other has long been natural, and even such an ordinary conversation can be heard to be warm.Gu Yingning was on another hospital bed, so all this naturally fell into his ears.Originally, he was randomly flipping through a financial newspaper, but when he heard the end, he put the newspaper aside and closed his eyes to rest.

Although Sheng Xia has been chatting with Xu Yihui, Yu Guang has never left Gu Yingning on the left.The moment Gu Yingning closed the newspaper, Sheng Xia knew that he must have cared a little bit, but thought it was a little funny.Just about to open my mouth to say something, but I heard the door of the ward creak

There was a soft sound.She looked up, it was Gu Zitang.

Seeing her immediate boss, Sheng Xia was a little embarrassed, struggling to get out of bed.

However, how could Gu Zitang let Shengxia get out of bed, after all, the person lying on the hospital bed inside was a very popular figure in the business circle.

"It's good to lie down, otherwise your flower protector will settle accounts with me, haha!" Gu Zitang said heartily.Sheng Xia has already stood up, her feet are already on the ground, she put on her shoes and said with a smile:

"Mr. Gu, I don't want to pack up and leave the company yet."

Gu Yingning had already opened her eyes, and nodded to Gu Zitang as a greeting.Gu Zitang exchanged a few words with Sheng Xia, telling her to take good care of her injuries, and the company doesn't have to worry about it.Sheng Xia said: "Actually, I'm almost better, and I can go back to work in a few days."

Gu Zitang waved his hand, and said with an "ah", "What's the hurry! If you want to work, you will have a lot of time in the future, so let's take a good rest now." After speaking, he paused and continued, "There is no problem with the police, right? "

Sheng Xia smiled lightly and said: "What else could be wrong, everything is obvious. Pei Jin's death in the sea of ​​fire is also his own fault." Gu Zitang sighed and said:

"The word 'greedy' is the only taboo in human beings! He was also my former partner, but in the end..."

Midsummer saw that Gu Zitang was full of regret in his words, so he tried to comfort him with a few words, saying: "Mr. It's over, even if Pei Jin said any crazy words or did any outrageous things during his lifetime, it should all end here."

Sheng Xia paused for a second, and said, "Mr. Gu wants to have a bowel movement."

Gu Zitang got up and straightened the corners of his clothes, flicked the folds of his cuffs, and said, "I don't want to disturb your rest. The company still has a lot of things to do. I'll come to visit you sometime." He nodded to Gu Yingning, "Mr. Gu, goodbye."

After Gu Zitang left, Xu Yihui, who had been standing by the wall just now, also said, "Axia, it's getting late, I'm leaving first, and I'll see you tomorrow."

Sheng Xia put on a coat, turned to look at him with a gentle smile: "I'll give it to you, just to catch my breath."

Xu Yihui glanced at Gu Yingning inside from the corner of his eye, who was pursing his lips and eyes tightly closed.He just thought it was funny, so naturally he wouldn't refuse, and responded cheerfully: "Okay, go slowly, I'll support you."

When the door of the ward was closed and only Gu Yingning was left alone, he suddenly opened his eyes, and there seemed to be something flashing in his eyes, and his expression was a little unpredictable.

Summer evenings are long. The sky in F City is often gray, but today's sunset is exceptionally beautiful.Big clouds floated leisurely in the sky, and the rosy sunset glow penetrated through the thick clouds, making the whole sky pink and tender.

Sheng Xia looked up at the sky covered with sunset glow, and couldn't help but be attracted by this extremely rare scenery, and exclaimed: "Such a beautiful evening is rare in City F."

Xu Yihui sat down with her on a bench in the flower garden, looked at the bright sunset and suddenly smiled, then turned to ask Shengxia: "Axia, do you still remember the time we went to outlying islands together?"

Sheng Xia opened her mouth and let out an "ah", and the memory that was already somewhat blurred slowly came back and gradually became clearer.

At that time, they had only been together for three months, which was a sweet and slightly running-in period.In the middle and late December, the weather has gradually cooled down, and there are fewer and fewer pedestrians on the road.

Christmas is approaching, and the atmosphere of Christmas in F City has gradually increased over the years. The small lanterns all over the street are flickering cheerfully on the trees, and those colorful colors are one tree after another, as if rippling into colorful streams In general, it never stops flowing.At the end of the junior year, all the students are very busy, busy reviewing exams and planning for the future.

Xu Yihui's homework has always been very good, probably because he has learned solidly in normal times.Sheng Xia often flipped through his economics books, but he always gave up his armor and surrendered within a few seconds, saying that he couldn't understand the heavenly books.Tan Jing always laughed at her at that time, saying that it was just a daydream that she, a Chinese learner, still wanted to understand economics without a teacher.

Finally, Christmas has arrived in my heart and mind.Early that morning, Xu Yihui was already waiting downstairs in Shengxia's dormitory, and made five consecutive phone calls to urge her to pack up and come down.Even though Sheng Xia complained that it was too early, she still looked forward to it very much.This is their first grand festival after being together, how could they not look forward to it.

Wrapping the scarf and shrinking his hands down, seeing the radiant Xu Yihui, Sheng Xia threw himself into his arms all of a sudden, Xu Yihui shook his head, and said with a little distress: "Aren't you wearing gloves?"

Sheng Xia burrowed into his arms, while raising his face and grinning: "With Yihui here, A-Xia never needs to wear gloves by herself."

Xu Yihui was funny and angry, knocked on Shengxia's forehead with his fingers, nodded her nose, and sighed: "You..." The words were full of helpless pity, and the next moment he really took out a pair of clothes from his bag. Gloves come.Sheng Xia took it over, kissed Xu Yihui quickly on the cheek, and raised her face again with pride.

Later, Sheng Xia was surprised, it turned out that he planned to take her to an outlying island to play.The outlying islands are only a [-]-hour boat ride away from downtown F, but most people go there in summer, and it’s the first time for Xu Yihui to go to the outlying islands in the harsh winter.

Naturally, the outlying islands in winter are not as lush as in summer, but they also have a sense of solemnity and tranquility.The houses on the island are even different from those on the land, and they are quite exotic.The yellow painted earth walls and low eaves make it a joy to watch in midsummer.

The most beautiful is the sunset in the evening.

The winter sun naturally sets early, and at around five o'clock, Shengxia and Xu Yihui sat side by side on a bench by the sea, looking at the red sky above the sea level not far away.

"Yihui, do you think the love circle formed by the stones by the beach is artificial or natural?" Sheng Xia was close to Xu Yihui, with both hands already in his arms, rubbing against him like a cat. shoulder.

Xu Yihui pondered for a moment, and then said: "Whichever you believe in, it is that."

Sheng Xia raised his face and gave him a pale look, then snorted and said: "Playing tricks, hum!"

He smiled warmly, and was about to say something, when she suddenly raised her neck and said excitedly: "Look, look!
Today's sunset is so beautiful! "

It is indeed a very beautiful and gorgeous sunset.The clouds at the highest place have already been rendered an extremely noble rose purple, which varies in depth due to the thickness of the clouds.The sky beyond the clouds was already dark blue, occasionally mixed with a hint of confusion.The clouds in the vicinity are inlaid with gold borders in large groups, and they are yellow and clear.Against the backdrop of these, a moderately large "duck egg yolk" is softly held above the horizon by the sea water.The warm light sprinkled on the sea is so dazzling.

Sheng Xia has been completely attracted by the sunset, staring at the distance intently, and truly realized that "the sunset and the lone duck fly together, and the autumn water is the same color as the sky" turned out to be so soul-stirring.

After Xu Yihui mentioned this, Sheng Xia naturally remembered the feast-like sunset that he had marveled together once.She tilted her head and smiled, "Yihui, speaking of which, you still owe me a sunrise!"

That time when I watched the sunset and midsummer, I couldn't help sighing. On the way back, I kept shaking Xu Yihui's arm, just like now, with his head tilted, and said in a coquettish tone: "Yihui, let's go to see the sunrise next time." Okay? Okay, okay, okay?" Xu Yihui deliberately ignored her at first, letting Sheng Xia rub his shoulders with a flattering smile.It wasn't until she finally feigned anger that she widened her eyes and raised her voice: "Xu Yihui, will you follow or not?" He couldn't help laughing, and finally spoke, with a particularly obvious teasing in his gentle voice: "Well, just follow."

Only later, but no chance.

For Xu Yihui, this warm and sweet memory is clearly vivid in his mind, and he even remembers such details as wrinkling his nose in Midsummer.

At this moment, he was sitting side by side with her on the bench, bathed in the evening summer breeze, it felt like a world away.Xu Yihui took Sheng Xia's words, with a smile in his eyes, and asked: "Then Axia, this time, you never follow me?"

Sheng Xia's smile was slowly suppressed, and in the end it formed a slightly bitter arc on her lips.

She stared at him, but he didn't avoid it, as if he didn't see her bitterness, he still smiled gently.After a long time, Shengxia lowered her head and stared at the ground, she said: "Yihui, I am really grateful to God, because you are still alive, because you have taken care of me these days, and because we met and knew each other... But, She still raised her head and looked at Xu Yihui, "I'm sorry Yihui, I really can't get back my feelings for you before."

It took her a lot of effort to finally say this sentence in one breath.Fingers gripping the cracks of the bench tightly, Sheng Xia felt numb all over, as if she was the one who was left behind.

Xu Yihui was neither sullen nor annoyed, as if these words were in his expectation.He just curled the corners of his mouth, and then said softly: "Ah Xia, I will treat what you said just now as if you never said it."

"Yihui!" Sheng Xia was a little annoyed.She knew that it might not be fair to him at all, but she didn't want to let him have any more illusions, and she didn't want to watch him go on in vain, "Why don't you understand? I love Gu Yingning, Whether he loves me or not, I'm sure I love him. Yihui, just treat me as a betrayer...don't be attached to me anymore, okay?"

Looking at her face biting her lip, Xu Yihui knew that she was actually extremely nervous, but he didn't want to go against his will, so he said firmly, "It's not good."

He asked her: "Ah Xia, tell me, how many points have I missed him? I will make up for it slowly, point by point...Give me more time, and I will definitely surpass him!"

Guilt, powerlessness, bitterness, all kinds of feelings came to my heart, and Sheng Xia felt that everything she said was in vain.Burying her face deeply into her hands, she was silent for a long time, even sighing with heavy fatigue.

"Yihui, how do you measure feelings in terms of points?" She slowly stood up, only to feel that her unhealed legs were extra heavy, "It's getting late, let's go back."

Xu Yihui didn't speak, but slowly took out a cigarette from his pocket.He raised his eyes: "Go up first, Axia, I want to sit here for a while."

Since when, even Xu Yihui started smoking. He used to be such a person who hated the smell of cigarettes.Time really drew a gully between them.

Sheng Xia nodded, pursed her lips and tried to smile, turned around and left step by step.

The twilight became deeper and deeper, until the sunset glow finally faded away, and the whole sky was only left with an indelible blackness.Such blackness was like the deep sadness in his eyes.He had a cigarette in his mouth, but he never lit it.

After all, is he still late?
(End of this chapter)