Unforgettable first love: warmth stays in the left atrium

Chapter 17 Lonely Sandbar Cold

Still picking all the cold branches and refusing to rest with slight regret, who should I miss on the lonely sandbank

When Tan Jing opened the door and saw Sheng Xia whose face was full of tears, she was really shocked.Sheng Xia has always been strong, and she seldom shed tears in front of others. After knowing each other for so many years, Tan Jing only saw her cry no more than five times.

Hugging Sheng Xia quickly, Tan Jing patted her on the back and asked worriedly: "What's wrong? Did you quarrel with Gu Yingning?"

Sheng Xia just lay on Tan Jing's shoulder and cried loudly, her arms tightened tighter and tighter.The more she was caught off guard, the more distressing she was, and she didn't even have a person to discuss with.

When Midsummer was tired from crying, Tan Jing was finally able to know what happened.Tan Jing was also extremely shocked after listening to Sheng Xia intermittently explaining the cause and effect - because among Xu Yihui and Gu Yingning, one must be white and the other red.Based on Tan Jing's knowledge and understanding of Xu Yihui, she is extremely unwilling to believe that Xu Yihui is such a person now, but she also understands that Gu Yingning is indeed not the kind of person who uses the same tricks.

In such a dilemma, Tan Jing was also speechless, not knowing where to start.

It was already in the middle of the night, and the stars were flickering in the dark sky, and the moonlight was blurred, as if it was frayed.In such a quiet night, Tan Jing looked at her best friend beside her who was still crying, and felt very distressed.

Wiping away the tears from Sheng Xia's face, Tan Jing asked her softly: "Xiao Xia, tell me, who do you really trust?"

Sheng Xia raised her eyes, pursed her lips and looked at Tan Jing, but didn't say a word for a long time.However, Tan Jing didn't let her go, and forced her to ask: "Do you believe in Gu Yingning or Xu Yihui? Xiao Xia, you know you have to make a choice, don't you?"

With a hoarse voice, Sheng Xia bit her lips tightly, and finally said after a long time: "Xiao Jingzi, I really don't want to think about Yihui, who now..."

Her voice was hoarse and vague, but Tan Jing was relieved after all, but she didn't show the slightest bit on her face, she just continued to say: "Obviously you believe in Gu Yingning in your heart, so why did you say that when his words conflicted with Xu Yihui's?" He is the one who chooses to question?"

Tan Jing is seldom aggressive, because she knows that if she is not like this, Sheng Xia's temperament may keep going down.

Sheng Xia was stunned, and opened his mouth to say the word "I" several times, but there was no more words.

With a faint sigh, Tan Jing said helplessly: "I was really annoyed by Gu Yingning for regretting his marriage before, but in all fairness, you have been together these three years, and you love this man so much, what kind of person is he? Do you need me to talk about it?" After a pause, she continued, "I understand that Xu Yihui is the most dazzling and colorful milestone in your youthful years, and it is also a special mark in your heart, but Xiaoxia, don't forget, the separated Do you really know what he has been through for more than four years and what he is doing now?"

In fact, Tan Jing understands all the midsummers that Tan Jing said, but the so-called "the authorities are obsessed with the onlookers, and the onlookers are clear". The genial Xu Yihui is gone.

Trying to calm down, Sheng Xia tried her best to say in a slightly calmer voice: "I understand the truth, it's just..."

"It's just Xiao Xia, if you love Gu Yingning deeply, how can you be willing to let him be wronged?" In the gap of her hesitation, Tan Jing had already interrupted her quietly and continued.

Thinking of Gu Yingning's furious and sad expression before he slammed the door and left, Sheng Xia felt a pain in his heart, and the tears that had just been forced back flooded up again in an instant.

She never wanted to hurt him, but unknowingly, she became the one who hurt him the most and the easiest.Sometimes, just because you care too much and love each other too much, you fall into a dead end and cannot get out.Because the expectations are too high, it will be like a frightened bird when there is a turmoil.Even though his heart was towards him, he would always be relentless in front of him, turning the dot, which might have been clearly only one millimeter in diameter, into an infinitely large black circle, drowning himself and hurting the other party, yet Stubbornly unwilling to bow first.

Midsummer is clearly such a portrayal.

Seeing that her expression was loose and distracted, Tan Jing patted Sheng Xia and said softly: "It's getting late, I'll make you a cup of milk, go to bed early."

She got up and took a few steps, she thought for a while and said: "Xiao Xia, when you calm down tomorrow, you should take the initiative to find Gu Yingning, whether it's to explain the matter, or... to apologize first."

No matter what happens with Gu Yingning, the work must still be done as usual.

After reporting the supplementary materials faxed by SR to Gu Zitang, Sheng Xia was about to turn around and leave, but Gu Zitang stopped her.Looking back, meeting Gu Zitang's concerned eyes, Sheng Xia only heard him ask: "Are you tired lately, Xiao Xia? You look so bad."

Sheng Xia smiled lightly, and said in a low voice: "Thank you Mr. Gu for your concern, but I'm fine, I'm fine."

Gu Zitang pondered for a moment, and then waved his right hand and said decisively: "I approve you for half a day off, go back and have a good rest, and come back tomorrow." Sheng Xia wanted to argue again, but Gu Zitang couldn't help but said, "The boss ordered."

Sheng Xia had nothing to do, so he had no choice but to respond, thanked him again, and then closed the door and left.

However, when Sheng Xia really packed her things and went downstairs and stood by the roadside in front of the company, she was at a loss.There was chaos in her mind, she didn't know where she should go, whether to go back to Qingcha Garden, or to Gu Yingning's villa.Although she really wanted to go back to the villa in her heart, and wanted to see Gu Yingning's figure when she opened the door at night, but Sheng Xia knew that she had a big fight with him last night and fled the door, how could she have the face to go back.

Thinking of this, Sheng Xia suddenly felt extremely tired, all the cells in his body seemed to be water-filled sponges, heavy and suffocated, making it difficult to breathe.She walked casually to the left. This area is a high-end business district, and there are luxury stores one after another: Hermes, VERSACE, LV, and almost every store is full of men and women.Through the glass window, Sheng Xia saw the joyful smiles of the women in the store and the doting eyes of the men.

She suddenly recalled a time when Gu Yingning went on a business trip to Italy, and when she came back, she brought Sheng Xia a Prada handbag, the color of cherry blossom pink was very beautiful.At that time, he gave it indifferently, but she received it even more indifferently.At that time, she took the wrapping paper bag from him, opened the bag, took a quick look at it, put it beside the car seat, and said flatly: "Thank you." In short, it has already set off a stormy sea.Although it was still very early at that time, she had already begun to understand her own heart.It's just that she thought she was one of Gu Yingning's "Zangjiao", and her unclear identity and relationship made her feel nothing but sweet and bitter.But since then, apart from the occasional jewelry, he has never given her a luxury gift.

Thinking about it now, maybe Gu Yingning, who seemed to be indifferent at that time, actually cared deeply in her heart.

Gu Yingning... Thinking of these three words, Sheng Xia felt both joy and pain in his heart.To her, these three characters represent not just a name, but the most tender and vivid existence that touches her emotions the most.Even the similar words and similar pronunciations will remind her of him, his extraordinary, his sometimes cold and sometimes gloomy, and even his seldom smiling but wandering smile.

However, when he thought of Gu Yingning's unprecedented tiredness and slightly sad expression during the quarrel last night, Sheng Xia panicked.She doesn't want to go back, and she doesn't know whether she should go or not. In fact, to put it bluntly, Sheng Xia is timid and afraid—trust is so important to a couple, but she broke the balance last night, and maybe the result after that is an abyss that she can't bear.

Because she walked extremely slowly, she walked from afternoon to evening.Sheng Xia didn't remember how many alleys she had passed through, and she didn't know where she wanted to go, but when she was awakened by the sharp honking of a motorcycle that passed by, she suddenly recovered I found that I had come here unknowingly.

Seattle Park.

Two years ago, he and she had just begun to have the deepest bond.One Saturday morning, when Sheng Xia was still in bed and hadn't opened his eyes, the phone rang suddenly and persistently.She picked it up in a daze, and the voice on the other end was low and cold: "I will pick you up at two o'clock in the afternoon."

The familiar voice made Shengxia suddenly wake up from the hazy drowsiness. She immediately opened her eyes wide, sat up straight, clenched her hand holding the phone slightly, her voice trembling imperceptibly, and said, "This afternoon? But I have already I made an appointment with a friend..." She did ask Tan Jing to have afternoon tea together.

However, Gu Yingning's answer was as uncompromising as ever, "Push it off", he paused and said, "That's it for now."

On the other end, his phone has already been hung up, but Sheng Xia's mind on this end is suddenly chaotic and clear again.Pushing her hair back with both hands, Sheng Xia bent her legs in a daze.After waking up to freshen up, Sheng Xia made a cup of cappuccino, opened the window, leaned against the wall and stared at the scenery outside the window.At that time, she hadn't fully sorted out her feelings, and she hadn't made up her mind whether to let herself continue to approach him or stay away, so that morning, her mind was chaotic and her headache was splitting.

But in the afternoon, she still waited for him quietly at home.

I found out later that it was his birthday.

At first Gu Yingning didn't say anything, just brought midsummer to Xiya Park, Jiang Tan prepared a bottle of red wine and some long loaves of French bread.It was Shengxia's first visit to Xiya Park, and she had never heard of it before.At that time, the spirit of spring was strong, and the park was full of green grass, trees and green leaves, which was a lively scene of revival of all things.

At that time, Sheng Xia was attracted by a bunch of poppies, when he suddenly heard him leaning forward and whispering, "Today is my birthday."

She was stunned and raised her head in astonishment, but Gu Yingning's expression was always cold and indifferent.Without waiting for her to speak, he continued: "Father went to Germany last week, and my mother... she is long gone." Looking at Midsummer, Gu Yingning said word by word, "So today, you can stay with me for a long time."

He even said that loneliness was so strong, Sheng Xia's heart suddenly collapsed softly, and before she realized it, a part of her heart was inexplicably aching slightly.She smiled slowly, turned her head and said, "Why don't you have a birthday cake for your birthday?"

Maybe because of her words, the lines on Gu Yingning's face softened a lot, but her voice was still low: "No need, I'm not a child, and I don't like sweets myself."

They sat in a pavilion in the northwest corner of the park, a round stone table surrounded by simple stone benches.The flowing water on the rockery not far away is gurgling down, the air is full of the warm smell of the spring afternoon, among the flowers, midsummer thought about it, opened the bottle of red wine and filled two glasses, then smiled like a flower, and his teeth were like shellfish, He raised his glass and said, "Okay, then cheers, happy birthday to you!"

At that time, the words I said were still in my ears, but now, Sheng Xia stood outside the park and looked far away, the courtyard wall covered a corner of the pavilion, making the memories unreal.

Suddenly, she seemed to have thought of something, her back stiffened suddenly, and after a pause, Sheng Xia finally made up her mind.When she got to the side of the road, she raised her hand to stop a taxi: "Villa in the suburbs, thank you."

When Sheng Xia got off the taxi, it was already dusk.The sky in winter gets dark early, although it is only six or seven o'clock now, the outside is already dark, and you can see big clouds if you distinguish carefully.

Clutching the collar of his coat, when he was really standing at the door of Gu Yingning's villa, Sheng Xia hesitated.It's not that she feels regret, on the contrary, she feels timid, afraid that he will not forgive, and afraid that he will treat him coldly.However, God seemed to have heard her fear, so he cut off her retreat decisively.

Accompanied by a sharp "di-di-di", Sheng Xia turned around, only to see dazzling lights.The familiar car body made Sheng Xia's heart jump suddenly.The car door opened, and the familiar figure that seemed to have penetrated into her bone marrow and carved into her heart slowly stood five steps away from her.

It was so cold, but he was only wearing a navy blue woolen coat over the light gray striped shirt, and she felt her nose sore when she saw it.He wanted to go forward to gather his clothes for him, but he stopped after taking a step.Naturally, Gu Yingning also saw Shengxia, bent down and told Jiang Tan a few words to let him finish work and go home, and then walked unhurriedly in front of her.

"Didn't bring the key? Or," his expression was extremely condensed, and his tone was not very good, "you don't want to go back to this house at all?"

Hearing that Gu Yingning would still talk to him, Sheng Xia quickly shook his head: "No, I... I'm just waiting for you."

Her voice became smaller and smaller, and Gu Yingning's expression became more and more sarcastic.He raised his eyebrows, and the corners of his mouth were as sharp as a knife: "Wait for me? Sheng Xia, I don't know that your ability to lie is getting worse and worse nowadays."

After finishing speaking, Gu Yingning walked to the iron fence and opened the door. When he was about to close the door, he stopped suddenly, turned around and said coldly to Sheng Xia who had red eyes behind him: "If you don't come in, I will close the door." Sheng Xia Hearing the words, he was startled at first, then delighted, and hurriedly trotted in to follow.

Sitting casually on the sofa, Gu Yingning looked at Midsummer who was a few steps away from him. The light reflected from the large rhinestone chandelier above his head shone on her face. The scene of scolding him indiscriminately is exactly the same.Is what happened last night going to be repeated again?
Closing her eyes, Gu Yingning pinched the center of her brows, her voice tensed, and said, "Are you here to avenge your 'Yihui' again? Tell me, I'll listen."

He bit the word "Yihui" very hard, how could Shengxia fail to hear his sarcasm and defense, for a moment he felt his throat was blocked and he couldn't say anything.

After not seeing her speak for a long time, Gu Yingning opened her eyes, the eyes were as dark as thick ink, and said coldly:

"If it's okay, I'm going to take a shower."

He stood up and was about to go upstairs, but just as he reached the escalator, her thin trembling voice suddenly came from behind: "Yingning, I'm sorry."

Gu Yingning froze suddenly, and turned around suddenly after two or three seconds, but the darkness in his eyes got deeper and deeper, almost suddenly, he looked at her with angry eyes, gritted his teeth and said: "Midsummer!
Who do you think you are and who am I!A casual slap and a date?This kind of road, your delusional thinking will work with me! "

After he finished speaking, he was about to turn around and go upstairs, but in the next second, Sheng Xia hugged him from behind, his voice was full of fear and choked up: "I'm really sorry... Yingning, can you listen to me... "

Without looking back, Gu Yingning sneered, her voice cold: "Listen to what you said? Are you talking about how I tripped up your Yihui? Listen to how you protect your old lover and ignore your new one?"

He pulled her arm away with all his might, the color of his eyes changed as the temperature around his waist suddenly disappeared, and when he turned his head to look into Sheng Xia's eyes, Gu Yingning paused every word, as if biting out the words: "Don't Follow me, and don't let me hear a word from you again."

This time, he finally went upstairs without any hindrance and without looking back.

Midsummer felt cold, bone-chilling cold, as if being locked in an ice cellar for a whole day and night was so cold that he was on the verge of losing consciousness.But after a while, she felt burning hot again. This alternation of hot and cold made her feel like she was in a maze filled with fog. She tried to go out but couldn't see the way clearly, and tried to call but couldn't make a sound.She had lost her usual calmness long ago, and the growing anxiety and fear in her heart were about to overwhelm her from head to toe.

It seemed that it was slowly coming from a far away place, and Sheng Xia vaguely heard someone calling her name.The fog was so thick that she couldn't tell the direction at first, until light came in one by one, she looked over in confusion, and finally saw a familiar face—Gu Yingning.However, just when Sheng Xia wanted to call him to stop, that face suddenly disappeared again.Startled and panicked, she finally opened her eyes.

The throat was dry and dry, the corners of the eyes were sore, and the headache seemed to be splitting. Midsummer realized that he must be sick.

Reluctantly sitting up, reached out to the head of the bed and pressed the switch, and the room was brightened instantly.Turning over and getting out of bed, Sheng Xia only felt that every step was like walking on cotton, soft and unreal, and it seemed that he might stumble at any time.She fumbled and opened the door like this. Originally, she wanted to go directly downstairs to the kitchen to pour some hot water, but when she passed by the door of Gu Yingning's room, she didn't know whether she really couldn't walk anymore or she didn't want to go any further. Sheng Xia knocked on the door with the last of her strength.

Just when she thought that the door in front of her would remain so unmoved and was about to give up, the door suddenly opened from the inside, Sheng Xia didn't notice, her legs went limp, and she fell straight towards Gu Yingning.

At first, Gu Yingning's expression was sullen, and she was about to ask her what she wanted to do in a cold voice, but she suddenly collapsed into her arms, Gu Yingning's expression changed drastically, and she couldn't hide her anxiety and worry, even saying : "Midsummer, what's the matter with you, Shengxia?"

Touching Sheng Xia's hot forehead, Gu Yingning finally panicked and hugged the soft and hot body tightly in her arms, her half regretful and half gentle eyes poured out without any hindrance.

(End of this chapter)