sorry i love you

Chapter 3 I'm still where I am, but you've gone far

In the season when the spring breeze made the earth green, she encountered an earthquake.Her few relatives were killed in the earthquake, and she was orphaned.

She was adopted by the Xu family shortly thereafter.A teddy bear was the only thing she brought out from the home that no longer existed, and all her dependence on the home was placed on that bear.

She doesn't talk to people, doesn't let people touch her, in other words, she has strong autism.

In that state, she was taken back to the Xu family.

Xu's father's name is Xu Zhiqiang, and he is the deputy secretary of the Municipal Party Committee of S City. Xu's mother, Wang Lanqing, and her younger brother inherited the family business together. took care of 16-year-old Xu Nancheng.

Whenever Xu Nancheng thinks about the first time he saw her, he always feels a little dumbfounded.

She held a big dirty bear in both hands, and watched him vigilantly with her eyes.He wasn't unhappy because of the sudden addition of a burden, but she looked at him like she was looking at a class enemy.

Wang Lanqing told Qingyang that the boy in front of her was called Xu Nancheng, and he would be her brother in the future. He also told Xu Nancheng that her name was Su Qingyang, and told Xu Nancheng to take good care of his little sister.

At that time, Xu Nancheng didn't know that she had autism, so he naturally wanted to shake hands with her to show his formal acquaintance.But just stretched out her hand, the girl backed away.He stepped on the carpet at the door, and accidentally fell heavily on the ground.

Xu Nancheng's hand was frozen in the air like that. He was also a school prostitute after all, and he had never met anyone who would have such a violent reaction when shaking hands with him.It's natural to feel uncomfortable, but seeing the girl's watery eyes blinking at him and refusing to cry, all the anger in his heart can't be vented, he just bent down, wanting to pull she gets up.

She still ignored him, and even flinched back again.

He wanted to help her hold the big bear, but before he could use his strength, he heard her cry loudly.

He was stunned, looking at the crying girl in front of him, he even wondered if he hurt him?This little girl was so strong just now, why did she cry bitterly in the blink of an eye?

Xu's mother beside her sighed slightly, saying that he said: "Nancheng, Qingyang's relatives were all killed in the earthquake, and she has autism."

So there was a rationale for all her erratic behavior.The first time we met, Xu Nancheng saw what kind of strong and fragile girl this was, and also clearly realized what kind of difficult challenge he was facing.

Parents don't go home often, he used to be simple alone, but now he has another Qingyang, he has to ask Qingyang's opinion before eating, but no matter what he asks, Qingyang keeps silent, that means he wants to poison As dead as she is.He couldn't help sighing, how could there be such a guarded girl in this world?
He tried his best to cook a table of meals according to what ordinary children like to eat. The shredded potatoes and chicken wings were placed by her hand. He admitted that the dishes he cooked were not very good, but they were not so disgusting to her. , Not even willing to move a chopstick!
She just concentrated on picking up the rice in her bowl, even though the dishes next to her were full of aroma, she was also stingy to take a second look.He finally couldn't help but put a chicken wing in the bowl for her, but she could still turn a blind eye to it, bypassing the chicken wing and continuing to eat the dry rice next to it.

It was the first time for Xu Nancheng, a three-good student with a good family background, good looks, and good grades, to please others so much. A red heart met an ice cube that would not melt for a thousand years, and he was terribly frustrated.Stretching out his hand, he pulled all the plates on the table to his side. He ate the food angrily, and looked at Qingyang out of the corner of his eyes, but saw that her face was still expressionless.

This is really a hateful little girl, Xu Nancheng thought so, she can ignore other people's kindness to her so naturally, as if that kind of indifference is justified...

In the black Mercedes-Benz, the scarlet flames flickered on and off.Xu Nancheng took a deep drag on his cigarette, looking at the room upstairs that hadn't been lit for a long time, his thoughts wandering.

He should have left, and he had already left, but he made a half-circle at the intersection in front of him, and he came back here again.It's like five years ago, he clearly left, and five years later, he still came back.

Just because she was here, he circled half of the earth and returned to the origin.But she still ignored his kindness to her as she did at the beginning.

Putting out the cigarette in his hand, Xu Nancheng wanted to start the car, but the familiar cell phone rang.Xu Nancheng tilted his head and found that the mobile phone that she dropped on the car seat at some point was ringing non-stop.

He reached out and took it. The pink phone was very old. Xu Nancheng recognized that it was the one he gave her ten years ago. Even the ringtone was the popular song "I Don't Want to Grow Up" when he left. ".He still remembered that when he bought her the mobile phone with the money he earned from working, he said, "Su Qingyang, I'll give it to you. From now on, don't let me not find you again."

It seems like nothing has changed, but everything has.He looked at the center of the phone screen, and there were two prominent words: rogue.

Qingyang has autism. Although she has improved a lot over time, she still doesn't get close to people, which means that such intimate names should not appear on her mobile phone.

Xu Nancheng took a deep breath, the veins in his clenched hands were bulging, but finally he let go slowly.

It turned out that during his five years of absence, someone else had taken his place.He really wanted to press the call button and ask who the other party was, but in the end he just watched the screen of the phone go dark.

The smoke burned to the end one by one, the fire was on and off, and the car was filled with the pungent smell of smoke.Xu Nancheng sat quietly for a long time, and when the tenth ringing of the mobile phone stopped, he opened the car door with his mobile phone and got out.

Stepping into the dark building door, Xu Nancheng's footsteps were unconsciously light. He remembered that she once said that she liked the quiet night the most. The voice from the bottom of my heart.

But why does he still feel heartache?Why can't he hear clearly whether he is saying approach or leave in his heart?

He stopped in his tracks and stood leaning against the wall. He didn't care when his expensive handmade suit touched the dirty wall. He took out a cigarette and lit it, and the scarlet flames loomed.

He stood at the corner of the second floor, and she was on the stairs of the third floor, as if their lives were always a few steps away.

15 years ago.

Although Xu Nancheng has always been polite and demeanor, it doesn't mean that he has enough patience to let a little girl ignore him.He hated his one-man show, obviously she made him angry, but in the end she buried her face on the big bear and looked at him with innocent eyes, as if he was a child who made trouble out of no reason.

When he met Su Qingyang, Xu Nancheng didn't even have a chance to lose his temper.The only time he was extremely angry, he turned around and left, but since then, he never dared to repeat that behavior again.

Nancheng recalled that day, the weather was fine.

As usual, he took Qingyang home from school.When crossing the road, a car suddenly passed by, he was startled, and naturally wanted to give him a hand.

Qingyang avoided his hand and took two steps back.The car rubbed against her back, Xu Nancheng was shocked and angry, and his expression changed on the spot.

He devoted himself to being her full-time nanny for three months, but she would rather be hit by a car than let him hold her hand!Thinking of this, Xu Nancheng's nest had been burning for three full months, and within a few tens of seconds, it had already started a prairie fire.

He didn't look at Qingyang any more, turned his head and walked away at a faster pace.

Cars come and go on the road, rolling up dust on the ground from time to time.In the scorching sun, without that petite figure following behind him, suddenly, an unspeakable feeling surged up in his heart, grabbing his heart.The anger gradually faded, replaced by a kind of worry.

Sighing, he still turned back. After walking so many roads, he saw her standing at the same place just now, without moving a step.Holding the big bear tightly in her hands, she buried her head in the bear, as if crying.

He took a few steps to rush over, bent down, showed 120 points of patience, and said softly to him: "Xiao Qingyang, can you go home with your brother?"

Qingyang raised her head and saw Xu Nancheng in front of her, a surprise flashed in her red eyes.It was this surprise that made Xu Nancheng's already soft heart a little sour. Since then, he never dared to get angry with Qingyang again.

"I don't want to, I don't want to grow up, I will lose him when I grow up..." The phone rang suddenly in the corridor, the voice-activated light turned on, Qing Yang suddenly came back to his senses, his eyes were shocked by the sudden light pain.Subconsciously, she reached out to touch her trouser pocket. She wanted to take out her mobile phone, but the pocket was empty.

She hurriedly stood up, searched all the pockets on her body but couldn't find them.

The word rogue was still displayed on the phone screen, Xu Nancheng pressed the hang up button, and for a while, the corridor returned to silence.

It wasn't my cell phone that was ringing, it was so late, there were still people staying in the corridor like her.Her thoughts stopped here, Qing Yang turned and went upstairs, skillfully took out the key to open the door and enter the house.

Xu Nancheng didn't pay attention to the sound of the door opening and closing in the corridor.The cell phone in his pocket rang again, but this time it was his own cell phone.He took out his cell phone, it was Pei Xinying's call.

Throwing the cigarette in his hand to the ground, he crushed it with his foot.Pressing the call button, Pei Xinying's hesitant voice rang in her ears: "Nancheng, we're about to start sharing longevity noodles. Grandpa asked me to call to ask when you will be back?"

The wind blew in through the open windows and carried away the lingering smell of smoke.Under the thick black night, everything finally became invisible, as if nothing had happened.

(End of this chapter)