wasting time with you

Chapter 27 If It Wasn't For You (2)
No matter how strong a person is, they will be weak in the dead of night, and they will habitually relapse.After having dinner with her parents, An Yiruo went back to the room, she turned off all the lights, and let the lights and moonlight outside the window clearly reflect her shadow on the glass, forming an artistic conception that she was having a sincere conversation with herself.

An Yiruo recalled Moloya's words: Nothing in the world can last long in the forgotten and abandoned. Houses will collapse when abandoned, cloth will rot when abandoned, friendship will fade when abandoned, and happiness will fade away when abandoned. Dissipates, love dissolves when abandoned.

She was a little confused, not sure if she really wanted to dissolve those secretly growing emotions.His gaze fell on the pot of lily of the valley for a long time, and the little confidence he had gathered with great difficulty was shattered when he thought of Xiao Ran.

Life is real, how can they never be separated like Lily of the Valley?

Just when An Yiruo was trapped in a dead corner of love and was struggling, the Mu family was staging a "tragic" forced marriage incident.

In the living room, Mu's mother asked her son in an orderly tone, "Da Mu, Mom made an appointment in advance for the weekend, so you stay at home obediently and don't go out."

Mu Yan raised his eyes, the meaning of asking for an explanation was obvious.

Mother Mu is still going around in circles: "I have already made an appointment with your Aunt Xu, and we will meet up on the weekend. Her daughter will also come. You young people have something to talk about. Help Mom greet the guests."

"Get together if you want, but don't drag me." Of course understanding her intentions, Mu Yan begged for mercy, "Mom, I'm afraid of you, so don't arrange blind dates for me anymore, okay? Can't marry a wife?"

Mother Mu lost her temper: "Then tell me where my daughter-in-law is? Didn't you promise me that you would bring her back at the end of the year? What about her?"

Mu Yan said poorly, "I'm not comforting you."

Sure enough, he lied to her.Mama Mu was reminded of her sadness: "I finally told the truth, didn't I?"

Mu Yan scratched his head, and put his arms around his mother's shoulders in a fawning manner: "I'm working hard, you say I'm working hard here, and you're tearing down the stage, is there any chance of winning?" He was thinking about how to make an appointment on the weekend Yi Ruo came out, worried that her mother would ruin the plan.

"It sounds like I'm wrong." Mother Mu reacted, "You said you were working hard?" Seeing Mu Yan pursed her lips and smiled, her expression turned serious, "Tell me frankly, is there a girl you like? gone?"

Mu Yan said bluntly: "Yes, there is."

Accustomed to his attitude of fooling around, Mama Mu didn't believe it anymore: "Really?"

Mu Yan suppressed his smile and nodded solemnly: "It's more real than real gold."

Mu's mother immediately smiled: "Who is it? Tell Mom quickly. What's your name? What kind of job do you do? How old is it? How does it look? Is your temper good? When will you bring me home to show Mom?"

Mu Yan has the illusion of being interrogated.

"You ask so many questions at once, which one should he answer first?" Mu Kaisheng heard the conversation between mother and son when he came out of the study, and couldn't help but help his son, "You are not at all competent as a mother. Introduce girls to him at night, but don't care about his thoughts." Since Mu Yan didn't hide anything, he simply said, "I already have someone in my heart, and it's that girl named An Yiruo."

"Who?" Mother Mu reacted for a moment, then looked at Mu Yan with an uncertain expression on her face, "Your father is talking about An Yiruo? The girl you rescued from Burma?"

Mu Yan nodded, seeing that his mother's expression was a little off, he quickly winked at the old man.

Mu Kaicheng smiled, with an expression of getting everything done, and sat down next to his wife without rushing, "Let me tell you the details from the beginning."

How did he know it?

A few months ago, the turmoil of An Yiruo and Xi Shuoliang's divorce could not be subsided. In order to save An Yiruo, Mu Yan had no choice but to
Then he turned to Mu Kaisheng for help.In the study that day, Mu Yan said: "Dad, please do me this favor. If this continues, she will be crushed by public opinion."

The news of An Yiruo's marriage and divorce with Xi Shuoliang caused a sensation in City A, and Mu Yan was mentioned in many reports, how could Mu Kaisheng know nothing about it.Hearing this, he asked: "Damu, tell dad the truth, do you really like her?"

After returning from Yunnan, Mu Yan was very depressed for a while, and then he offered to go to the new police training base, and now he begged him to divert the attention of the media. After thinking about it, Mu Kaisheng understood.But he still needs Mu Yan to admit it personally.

"Yes. I like her." Meeting his gaze, Mu Yan said slowly but firmly, "Before I went to Yunnan, I found that I liked her." If there is no kidnapped Fa Ya, he might still watch I don't know my mind.

Mu Kaisheng got up, walked to the window and stood still, his eyes cast far away.

Mu Yan bowed his head: "Dad, I'm sorry." I'm sorry for the concealment before, although he said that saving people is his duty, but he has to admit that his being injured and rushing to Yunnan has nothing to do with him being a policeman.He left for An Yiruo.

Mu Kaisheng waved his hand to express that he didn't need to apologize, he was silent for a moment: "Then you have something to do with Xi Shuoliang's breaking up the marriage?" It wasn't a blame, but his tone couldn't hide his seriousness.As a father, how could he not know what kind of temperament Mu Yan is. After reading the report, he never asked a question, half out of understanding, and half out of trust, but now Mu Yan said that he likes An Yiruo.

Mu Yan didn't know how to answer, "I actually don't understand what role I played in the whole incident." But I want to protect her and not let her face the mess alone.

The son has always been resolute and courageous, when was he so confused.

Mu Kaicheng turned around and said earnestly: "Dad doesn't want to interfere with your emotional affairs. You are not young, so you have to be measured." He thought about it and continued, "You have to think twice before making a decision. Dad doesn't want What happened to Shuhui happened again."

Mu Yan's chest was choked when he heard the words, he didn't want to argue for himself, he just said: "At that time, I had youthful and frivolous impulses, which left me with an indelible pain. This time when I face An Yiruo, I will always remind you Since I decided to be with her, I must not end in tragedy."

But Mu Kaisheng was worried: "But she and Xi Shuoliang had a marriage contract, and they have been together for six years, how can your overnight feelings be able to offset it?"

I never thought of letting her erase that experience, I only hope that I can make her forget the pain caused by the wound and live confidently and peacefully.Mu Yan's tone was so firm that no one could doubt it: "An Yiruo is different from Shu Hui, and I am no longer the Mu Yan of the past."

After staring at him for a full minute, Mu Kaisheng finally nodded, "I see, you go."

The conversation between the father and son was very brief, but it seemed that they had spent their whole lives talking.

Only Mu Yan understood that his father silently promised him an important choice.

Mu Kaisheng had concerns, after all, An Yiruo's divorce caused a lot of trouble in the city, and he had to worry that if the two got together, it would definitely cause an uproar.However, to make Mu Yan put down his body and beg him, Mu Kaisheng knew that his son was genuinely moved.That being the case, as a father, he called his old friend: "Lao Li, Xiao Li's magazine is one of the most influential in City A, let her do my uncle a favor."

Mu Kaisheng had never begged anyone in his life, and Lao Li immediately agreed upon hearing this: "What's the matter, brother, tell me."

On the issue of his son's love, Mu Kaisheng and Xi's father have completely different attitudes. He gave Mu Yan the greatest respect and freedom, and in return, of course, completely different results.

What Mu Yan said is right, An Yiruo is different from He Shuhui, An Yiruo is brave and strong in the face of life and death, but He Shuhui is a woman who is afraid even when she hears a gunshot.Mu Yan does not want to compare the two, the person who has loved, the person who loves, there is no comparison.

As for why he confessed his thoughts to his mother at this time, Mu Yan wanted to remove all obstacles that might become worries about the future.He understands too well that after going through all kinds of things before, it is very difficult for An Yiruo to take a step towards him, and any disturbance may lead to the wastage of previous efforts.In this love, he needs to hold up the sky alone, for himself and for her.

The youthful years are over, and many memories of the past have begun to settle in his heart. Mu Yan is glad that An Yiruo appeared at the age when he knew how to love.He is a rational person. After struggling and suffering, he knows that nostalgia for the old days is useless. What he should and can do is to keep the person he likes by his side, stay together like a lily of the valley, forever Not separated.

He held his mother's hand like a child, his eyes full of expectation, "Mom, An Yiruo is a good girl, and no one should underestimate her just because she has been hurt like that. I like her, and I hope to get the love from you and dad." bless."

The expression on the son’s face was so resolute that she couldn’t allow her to doubt it. Mother Mu stroked his short hair and smiled slightly: “Mom believes in your vision.” However, those overwhelming reports said, “The road ahead is not good. let's go."

Wrapping his mother's hand in his palm, Mu Yan bent his lips and smiled, "Nothing will be more difficult than me saving her."

With such a confident expression and such a firm tone, she couldn't help but not believe it.Looking at her husband, Mother Mu sighed: "Aunt Xu has to talk about me again. She said several times that she would introduce her daughter to Damu."

Mu Yan hugged his mother's shoulder coquettishly and shook: "Mom, you can handle it."

Mother Mu pouted and complained that her son was not considerate, and seeing him look pitiful, just like when she was naughty and disobedient when she was punished to stand when she was a child, her heart softened. Waiting to hold my grandson."

Mu Yan stood at attention and saluted: "Yes, I obey."

Looking at his wife and children beside him, Mu Kaicheng slowly raised the corners of his lips.Having lived to such a great age, he has traveled, toiled, suffered, and tired. Today, he is satisfied with his wife, virtuous son and filial piety.

With the approval and support of his parents, Mu Yan shot his bow like an arrow stretched on a string, aiming straight at An Yiruo's heart.

When he kept making explicit, subtle, euphemistic and direct invitations, An Yiruo was so busy with work that he refused him time and time again, not on purpose.Regarding this, Mu Yan was not discouraged at first, and only calmly said: "Okay, then you are busy, we will next time." After many times, he became a little impatient.

On the treetops of the moon, An Yiruo beat his sore back, inadvertently cast his eyes out of the window, and saw the familiar Cherokee parked across the street.

She clearly said that she didn't have time to work overtime, but he still came?

An Yiruo frowned, got up and walked to the window.

The owner of Daqie was leaning in front of the car, looking up at the sky in boredom.After maintaining the posture of looking up for almost 10 minutes, Mu Yan got into the car.By the light of the street lamp, An Yiruo saw a faint light inside the car, and soon, she received a text message.

It was Mu Yan who asked her: "Tell me, the process and the ending are all over, how long will you be stubborn?"

Is it reminding her that she should no longer be attached to the past?
An Yiruo smiled wryly, and replied: "I have tried hard, I have struggled, I have tried many times to smile, but I found it too difficult."

When she wavered, he accepted the invitation to fulfill her happiness; when she wanted to give up her unspeakable feelings to spend this life with Xi Shuoliang, the latter chose to abandon her because of her family status.After the ups and downs in love, An Yiruo lost the courage to give and fight.Don't dare to start again, afraid of being lost again.

Mu Yan was a little surprised that she could reply.He pushed open the car door and looked upstairs at the lighted windows.An Yiruo didn't hide, she stood there, her eyes were hidden by the long eyelashes, and there was an undisguised tiredness on her face.

Clearly separated by mountains and rivers, they seem to be facing each other, and there is a depressive silence between the two.

After a long time, Mu Yan got out of the car suddenly, kept staring at her, and handed the phone to her ear.

When his whispering voice drifted into her ears, the surrounding air seemed to freeze for an instant, and An Yiruo heard him order her in an irresistible tone: "Come down, let's talk."

It seemed very boring to continue like this, and An Yiruo also felt that there was a lack of a peaceful conversation between them.

After hanging up the phone, she turned and walked out.

The moment the elevator door opened, Mu Yan was walking quickly from outside the hall. His dark coat made his shoulders broad and his legs long. When he saw her, his usual cold eyes were still unobtrusive.Without stopping, he walked up to her, took her hand, turned and walked out.

An Yiruo held her breath and listened to her own heartbeat, feeling that if she let him wait any longer, her fragile defense would eventually be defeated, and she would be unable to pull back any longer. In an instant, she made a decision.

She was silent, and he was not in a hurry to speak.It wasn't until Daqie slid smoothly into the street that Mu Yan asked, "What are you thinking?"

An Yiruo looked up at him, and found that he was very deep tonight.Looking out of the window, under the rapidly reversing street scene, she said frankly: "I don't know, my head is very blank."

While paying attention to the road conditions, Mu Yan looked into the mirror: "Don't you understand what I mean?"

The memory suddenly flashed back to the meeting when he was taken to Shanshui by Miyu when he just came back from Yunnan, An Yiruo's tone was repulsive and empty: "I have never been smart, I understand too late."

It's too late.Mu Yan understood what she meant: "Does it have to be so thorough?"

"Mu Yan, don't waste your time on me." Looking at his side face, An Yiruo said bluntly: "The result is already like this, what happened in the middle is really not important."

Unimportant experience?Mu Yan slammed on the brakes, and the moment Daqie stopped suddenly, he put his long arms against her ears and supported the back of the chair, "Tell me which experiences are not important? Is it the kiss in the dungeon, or did you block it for me?" The knife? Or the tears when we met you that night? An Yiruo, are you going to send me away with these few words?"

So relentless?He doesn't allow it.

An Yiruo was enveloped in his annoyed atmosphere, hearing his cold questioning so close at hand, she lost all confidence.She subconsciously moved her body, trying to stay away from him.But her back was pressed against the seat, and there was no way she could avoid it.

The silent night made Mu Yan's eyes twinkle with starlight. He fixedly looked at the face close at hand, and he asked forcefully, "Speak!" in a sharp tone.

Just as An Yiruo was about to speak, Mu Yan approached suddenly, with an overwhelming aura: "Don't just say you don't have feelings for me, and don't use such a lame excuse as an excuse that you don't fit, do you need me to remind you: the kiss in the dungeon, You didn't resist."

"Enough!" Perhaps because of his vacillation, An Yiruo suddenly lost his mind and raised his hand impulsively.

"Do you want to smash everything down? Can a slap kill your mind?" Mu Yan was furious, holding her wrist tightly, "If there is a gap between you and him, you have worked hard to fill it. He was so unlucky that he was so stupid that he let go. How long do you want to punish yourself? Since you don’t want to look back, why don’t you try to be tolerant to yourself? You deliberately let the heart lock rust, even if I have the key, I can’t get in, you know ?"

Still afraid of hurting her under the rage, Mu Yan let go without showing any signs, his voice was low and hoarse, "I understand what you are afraid of, but do you know that you can't solve the problem by hiding like this. I didn't want you now Just love me, I have no right to ask you to forget him and be with me immediately, but at least you should give me a chance, maybe you will find that we are more suitable."

How do you understand my fear of love?

An Yiruo cried like a child.

She understands his intentions, but six years of relationship can change at will, how can she have the courage to commit again?Moreover, the report said it was so unsightly, and Xi Shuoliang proposed to break up with such a reason. She had already started to be afraid before it started.Now that he still "forced her" like this, An Yiruo couldn't get out of that predicament with no way out.

She cried so miserably that she was surrounded by a sad breath.

Mu Yan's heart ached so much that he folded his arms unconsciously and hugged her into his arms.

(End of this chapter)