wasting time with you

Chapter 26 If It Wasn't For You (1)
If it weren't for your persistence, I would have lost the courage to love again.

Thank you for waiting for me and giving hope to my love.

The peaceful world became noisy again, because a reporter photographed An Yiruo and Xi Shuoliang coming out of the Civil Affairs Bureau at the same time. Combined with the previous speculation that the groom did not show up at the wedding, the news of their divorce was confirmed.

The media reports are overwhelming, and the speed is astonishing. "New News" sharply accused Xi Shuoliang of being ungrateful, turning his face and denying others, while "Evening News" held an opposing attitude, insinuating that An Yiruo abandoned her six-year relationship and threw herself into the embrace of her new lover Mu Yan who shared weal and woe, causing the groom to destroy the marriage.In short, gossip and gossip can't be stopped, and I can't wait to eat them alive.

Hongtai's new season's fashion show was forced to be cancelled. In less than a week, Xi Shuoliang lost five orders, and even had problems with bank loans.The company's finances were in crisis, so he didn't have the energy to deal with the media, he could only care about running around the bank.The result was little effect.

Compared to him, An Yiruo is also very troublesome.The wound in my heart has not yet healed, and I have to deal with the entanglement of reporters guarding the door and the hospital.Every time she showed up, the spotlight flashed endlessly, and the reporters were of different shapes and colors, speaking faster and faster, and the questions they asked were even more embarrassing.

An Yiruo had never experienced such a battle before, so he thought that he would ignore it, and the matter would be discussed naturally.Unexpectedly, until Ann's father was discharged from the hospital, the reporters were still besieging her.

had to respond.

An Yiruo tiredly rubbed his forehead: "Please give others the most basic respect, and don't speculate without knowing the situation. Mr. Xi Shuoliang has not received any kindness from An's family. He worked hard alone to create Hongtai, relying on ability rather than Whoever gave the support behind, so there is no such thing as ungrateful."

The slender woman stood among the reporters, her eyes swept over everyone one by one, "The breakdown of the six-year relationship between me and him is in the final analysis just a private matter between us, who is right and who is wrong, who is right and who is wrong, not you guys These outsiders can make a conclusion. I hope you will stop disturbing our lives, and don’t bring our family and friends into it. Perhaps feelings are as fragile as glass, and no one can guarantee that people who have loved each other will be able to accompany each other until they grow old. In love, we are just ordinary people, and we really can't bear your attention."

Even the breakup was known all over the city, and even his company was affected.An Yiruo suddenly woke up, her identity might have really put too much pressure on Xi Shuoliang invisibly.

In the past, she really didn't know.

The days that followed were unexpectedly peaceful. Father An returned to work after recovering, Mother An gradually had a smile on her face, and An Yiruo chose a powerful clothing company from the letter of employment he received after resting for a while. , officially became an office worker.

Life seems to have returned to the original track, but the wound buried in the bottom of my heart is still aching.An Yiruo tried to use the busyness of work to make himself unable to think too much, but living in the same city, it was really difficult to close his eyes and ears so as not to hear each other's news.Occasionally attending events with the boss, and inevitably meeting Xi Shuoliang, at first she still had the urge to tear up her eyelashes, and she could only nod in a hurry and pass him by, then she was depressed for several days, and finally she was able to calm down It was late autumn when I greeted him.

When I woke up, it was not yet bright outside the window, and the city under the mist exudes a peaceful and peaceful atmosphere. The cool wind gently brushed over the lilies of the valley in the flower pots in front of the window, and the gently trembling flower branches dropped crystal dewdrops. The aroma permeates.An Yiruo stood in front of the window, touched the white lily of the valley lightly with her fingertips, and smiled softly.

The flowers were sent by Miyu last week, saying that placing potted plants in the room can make people feel happy.What kind of person is she? How could An Yiruo not understand, he slapped Xi Shuoliang in a rage, and the one who rewarded her with embarrassment in desperation was Mi Yu, who would carefully send flowers, it must be a counterfeit version.

Passing by a flower shop by accident, she got curious and asked Lily of the Valley about the flower language.

The boss said enthusiastically: "The roots of lily-of-the-valley are never separated, and every pair of lily-of-the-valley is inseparable."

It turned out that he said to her: Never separate.

In this world, is there anything eternal?

That night, An Yiruo suffered from insomnia, and the person whom he deliberately ignored jumped out from a corner of his heart, and he couldn't get rid of it.

When her father was out of danger on the day of the wedding, Mi Yu said: "Mu Yan has been here. He rushed to fight with Xi Shuoliang." She was also surprised: "I don't know if I was mad, but I was beaten by Xi Shuoliang as a special policeman His nose is blue and his face is swollen, and his skills are not flattering."

The more Tan Zi was afraid that An Yiruo might misunderstand, he explained bluntly, "What do you know, it's difficult for Xi Shuoliang to get close to him with Damu's skill, but he was willing to take that punch. It's because of An Yiruo's grievance."

They are good friends, it is not surprising that Tan Ziyue told Mu Yan about the wedding incident.But he came so quickly, An Yiruo was surprised.In particular, Tan Ziyue said before leaving: "In my opinion, Damu couldn't help but hurt you because he hated himself. Rather than saying that he was beaten by Xi Shuoliang, it is better to say that he beat himself."

During the chaotic days that followed, whenever she left home, Dali's car would be parked outside the complex.He would always calmly block the pestering reporters for her, and then smiled slightly: "Miss An, I'll take you to the hospital."

An Yiruo refused, and got into the car driven by his mother.

But at the entrance of the hospital, he was surrounded by reporters again.

Da Li followed and pulled her out of the crowd, "Miss An, our leader also doesn't want you to be disturbed. We all know about the reports. It's not appropriate for him to come forward at this time. You should know that he is not afraid of being involved, but I don’t want to make things worse for you at this time.” Thinking of Mu Yan’s embarrassment, Da Li added: “Even if it’s just an ordinary friend, you don’t have to refuse his kindness.”

An Yiruo didn't know that he didn't show up since the accident was out of protection for her, but he was so discouraged that he didn't want to have anything to do with anyone anymore.

The phone rang suddenly, breaking the silence of the morning.An Yiruo withdrew his thoughts, turned his gaze back from the lily of the valley, and saw the familiar but unfamiliar name on the phone, and suddenly felt a little nervous.If I remember correctly, they haven't been in touch since the wedding, except for the two-line phone call last night.

After hesitating for a moment, she pressed the call button.

Mu Yan's apologetic voice came: "Did it wake you up? It's inconvenient to make a call later, so..."

As if infected by his calmness, An Yiruo restrained his expression, "I'm already awake."

Her tone sounded quite natural, and Mu Yan was a little relieved: "The operation on Zhang Heng's side is not over yet, and your car probably won't be back until the afternoon. You can see when it's convenient to meet, and I'll drive there for you." .”

Something unexpected happened last night. An Yiruo, who was driving home after work overtime, was stopped by a policeman who suddenly appeared on the way. The man flashed his ID in front of her eyes, and said anxiously, "Miss, hello. I'm an anti-drug agent." Team Zhang Heng, now we need to requisition your car, please bring your driving license to the anti-drug brigade to collect it tomorrow."

An Yiruo slammed on the brakes, still in shock. Hearing what he said, he took out his mobile phone and dialed Mu Yan's number, and asked, "Is Zhang Heng from your team?"

Mu Yan on the other end of the phone was obviously startled: "It's a police officer named Zhang Heng. What's the matter?"

"As long as you have it." Before he could speak, she hung up, left the car keys and walked home.

Looking back at the pot of lily-of-the-valley again, he seemed to hear "Never parting" softly in his ear.An Yiruo pursed her lips, and it took a long time before she responded: "Don't worry, I'll drive there when I get off work." Inexplicably, she resisted seeing him.

Mu Yan didn't force it: "That's fine, I'll find Da Li to get the key then."

An Yiruo let out an "um", and then fell silent, as if he had nothing to say.Just when she was about to hang up, Mu Yan asked: "How are you doing?" His tone was soft, like an ordinary inquiry between old friends.

An Yiruo replied, "I'm a bit busy at work."

It seems that the question is not answered.Fortunately, Mu Yan didn't mind either: "I know. Ting Ziyue said that Miyu is filming a promotional video recently, and you are helping." Before she could answer, he instructed: "Pay attention to your body and don't get too tired." The words fell At that time, a beeping busy tone came from the phone.

He just hung up the phone.

An Yiruo frowned, and muttered, "This guy."

After a busy day, it was nearly seven o'clock when he left the company. An Yiruo hailed a taxi and went straight to the anti-drug brigade.When she arrived at the place, she stood outside and struggled for a long time, as if there was a scourge waiting for her, but she still didn't have the courage to go in.It wasn't until she suddenly remembered that Mu Yan said in the morning that she asked Da Li to get the key, and that Da Li had called in person to say that he would wait for her before, that he was relieved.

Walking into the office hall, she asked, "Excuse me, is Captain Gu there?"

I heard from Mi Yu that after Mu Yan was promoted to captain, Gu Li took over as captain, so An Yiruo changed his title.

The police officer looked up at her and smiled: "Is it Miss An? Our captain just went out and said before leaving that you would come to pick up the car."

She smiled politely and was about to take out her driving license when the police officer said, "The key is in our captain's office. He hasn't left yet. You can go up and get it. His office is on the third floor."

Sometimes love is a wound.The wound is buried deep in the bottom of my heart. Although it stops bleeding as time goes by, it still hurts when touched.For An Yiruo, Xi Shuoliang is that wound, so is Mu Yan.In that messy and painful memory, two names appeared alternately, one knife after another pierced her heart.

On the eve of her wedding, Mu Yan said, "An Yiruo, you need to be well."

Xi Shuoliang said on the wedding day, "An Yiruo, let's call it a day."

The dim light in the hall shone in An Yiruo's eyes, revived her sleeping mind, and only then did she realize: compared to her acquaintance and love with Xi Shuoliang, she didn't know how to face this reunion with Mu Yan.

Seeing that An Yiruo was standing there, the police officer thought she didn't know where Mu Yan's office was, and asked empathetically, "Do you need me to take you there, Miss An?"

An Yiruo thought, "Can I trouble you to go up and help me—"

"Are you here?" A mellow voice came from behind him, and he knew who it was without turning around.

An Yiruo took a deep breath.

Mu Yan came downstairs: "Why do you get off work so late, I've been waiting for you for a long time." The tone was frank, with imperceptible caution.

"Captain." The police officer got up to greet Mu Yan, saw him nodding, and continued to fiddle with the computer.

An Yiruo had done a good job of psychological preparation, turned around and said, "Long time no see." He thought that he hid his emotions well, but he didn't know that such a strange greeting had already revealed his thoughts.Facing Mu Yan, she was extremely nervous.As for the reason, it is unclear.

Mu Yan didn't need her to explain either.He walked over while putting on his coat, tilted his head and rubbed his forehead: "It's been a long time. What, are you losing weight?"

"Huh?" An Yiruo was startled, seeing him pursing his lips into a smile, he realized that he meant that she had lost weight.

She lowered her head slightly, "Yes, I succeeded in losing weight."

Seeing her discomfort, Mu Yan frowned, "If you become so thin, your body's resistance will decrease. If you have time, take part in more outdoor activities."

The tragic past was intertwined with reality, entangled with each other, which made An Yiruo physically and mentally exhausted. Even though he ate a normal diet, he still lost weight day by day.Ignoring his concerns, An Yiruo cut to the chase: "I'll get the key, sorry for your inconvenience, Team Mu."

She called him the Shepherd Brigade.This was the first time An Yiruo called him that.She used to call her by her own name before, and Mu Yan had a complete sense of belonging in her soft voice.But now, before he even had time to see the complexities in her eyes and the expression on her face, she had already covered everything up with a polite smile.

Mu Yan felt that she was using this title to tell him: there is nothing between them, no matter before, now, or in the future.She doesn't want to walk into his world.

Suddenly unable to control her emotions, Mu Yan asked her: "What did you call me?"

He is willing to wait until she walks out of the haze, but he can't wait, fearing that if she waits any longer, she will really go far away.The experience of letting go, once in a lifetime is enough.So when he received Xi Shuoliang's punch, he said as if no one else was there, "This punch is regarded as the punishment for letting go. Xi Shuoliang, please remember, from now on, An Yiruo, I will never let go again." Maybe He didn't have the right to say that, but he said it regardless of the consequences.

No regrets, and nothing wrong with it.

But now-

The faint anger in his tone caused An Yiruo's eyes to heat up, she didn't dare to look up at him, she just stretched out her hand in embarrassment: "Give me the key." She was as awkward as a cheating child.

Mu Yan's heart softened suddenly.

What is this doing?After finally waiting for her to come, are you going to force her to leave?Mu Yan sighed inwardly.Knowing from the morning that she was coming to get the keys, he was restless all day long.Before leaving get off work, Da Li knocked on the door of his office and smiled wickedly: "Boss, I have to leave earlier."

Mu Yan was looking down at the case at the time, and coughed lightly when he heard the words: "Leave after get off work, no need to report." But he was slandering in his heart: colluded with Zhang Heng to plot him first behind the scenes, and now he is blatantly swaying in front of him, Really, boldly.However, he didn't seem to be angry.

Facing his cold stare, Da Li said bravely, "I called Miss An, she will come to get the key later." Then he came over and put the key on the desk, "Just wait, boss. "

Shall I wait?Well, I'll wait.

When the door was closed, Mu Yan smiled without knowing it.

In fact, when An Yiruo got off the taxi, Mu Yan saw her from the window, so she didn't miss the scene of her struggling outside.He looked at her, then looked down at his watch, for a full 10 minutes, she actually stood outside for 10 minutes.Just when he thought she would turn around and leave, and was about to rush downstairs, she finally walked in.When she heard that the key was with him, she hesitated again.Mu Yan understands that it is not easy to get to this point, he shouldn't force too much.So, standing at the turning of the stairs, he showed up and talked to her like a friend, just not wanting her to be embarrassed.Unfortunately, the effect is not as good as expected.

"It's getting dark, I'll see you off." Not giving her a chance to refuse, Mu Yan turned to the policeman in the hall who dared not breathe loudly and said, "Snacks are on duty, and I need to contact your boss."

The policeman poked his head out from the computer: "Got it. Don't worry, the captain." After speaking, he retracted his head, afraid of seeing something that shouldn't be seen.

Seeing him walking out alone, An Yiruo had no choice but to follow.

But still stubborn: "Don't bother you, I'll just drive back by myself."

Mu Yan didn't mind waiting a little longer, but he wasn't ready to continue stealth, so he said angrily, "Do you have to be so polite with me?"

Seeing him staring at her without blinking, with a dangerous aura all over his body, An Yiruo remained silent.

The sky was pitch black as far as the eye could see, and there was a fiery flame beating in her heart, and she was tired and flustered.

"Let's go, you'll freeze if you stand any longer." The late autumn night was very cold, Mu Yan saw that she wasn't wearing much, so he took off his windbreaker and wrapped it around her body.Resisting the urge to shake her hand, he strode toward the parking lot.

Don't scare her, she is such a sensitive woman.

The dark windbreaker carried his unique masculine breath, An Yiruo subconsciously took a deep breath, and slowly followed behind him.

If Mu Yan turned around at this time, he would see the fragility and nostalgia instantly revealed on her face.

It hurts so badly.An Yiruo was afraid of love.She began to suspect that there is no such thing as forever and forever.

Mu Yan wanted to have dinner with An Yiruo, and he had already booked the restaurant, anyway, she couldn't be more stubborn than him in the car, but unfortunately her phone rang just as soon as the car started.Hearing that it was An's mother who urged her to go home for dinner, Mu Yan gave up the idea of ​​forcing her to stay.

After getting off the car, An Yiruo still refused to look him in the eyes: "How did you go back?"

Mu Yan really wanted to understand this sentence as a sign of concern.But he knew too well that this was An Yiruo's words of greeting when he had nothing to say, and he was inevitably a little helpless: "Thinking of my physical strength, it's okay to run home, let alone a taxi."

An Yiruo realized that he was angry, "Then, goodbye."

goodbye?Mu Yan smiled bitterly.

(End of this chapter)