wasting time with you

Chapter 25 I finally lost you (5)
Bending over to pick up the magazine, his tone was so indifferent, "Mu Yan, the special police captain, is the only son of the head of the army. He rescued the trapped hostage An Yiruo despite being shot wounded alone. After escaping, the truth was revealed, and the two They hugged each other tightly. When An Yiruo fainted due to fright and exhaustion, his hands were still tightly clutching Mu Yan's arm, but no one could separate them... Mu Yan followed him into the emergency room until An Yiruo escaped safely , Mu Yan came into the operating room in a coma due to the deterioration of the wound." Pausing for a while, he clenched his right hand into a fist and continued to read the last line of the report, "A talented man and a beautiful woman, a good family match, a talented man and a beautiful woman, compose a love song together. "One word at a time.

With a "snap", the magazine was slammed against the wall, and the papers fell down one after another.Xi Shuoliang turned around abruptly, put his hands on An Yiruo's shoulders, and growled: "Tell me, what's going on? You really want to marry me? The son of the chief of the military department, the chief of the military department, Is it equivalent to the level of deputy governor? It’s really a good match.”

It turned out that what stung his heart and made him absent on the wedding day was not the photos, but the words "well matched" in the report.

It really hit the nail on the head. Xi Shuoliang thought of his father's words, "Liangzi, it's not that my father is pedantic. There is a certain truth in the ancient people's emphasis on being well-matched. Even if she follows you now, there is no guarantee that she will not criticize our family in the future. You can also see When it comes time, her family won't back down even at a wedding, so how do you deal with it after marriage? Dad knows that you have your own business, but running a business is different from being an official, and money is not enough to balance the gap in status and power. Listen to Dad and cancel the wedding."

For half a month, Xi's father asked him to cancel the wedding almost every day, but he remained unmoved in the face of his loved one, and even obtained the certificate without telling the old man and An Yiruo.Until he had a heated argument with his father last night, until his father took out the magazines he bought when he went downstairs for a stroll, he was shocked.

In the photo, Mu Yan is wearing a black shirt, with slightly messy hair, holding his fiancée tightly with his arms.Xi Shuoliang noticed the look in his eyes, there was pity, distress, and - affectionate, undisguised love all revealed in one photo.Suppressing the emotions welling up in his heart, he read the report carefully, and when the word "good match" broke into his sight, Xi Shuoliang's tense heartstrings broke instantly.He rushed out of the house like crazy, and drove straight to An's house.He wanted to ask An Yiruo if she really thought about marrying him, he wanted to ask her personally if she really didn't mind his family, and he wanted to ask her if her love for him was still as persistent as before, but——

He unexpectedly ran into Mu Yan on the way, and the person in his arms was An Yiruo.

The overlapping figures on the street, every word in the report hit the heart mercilessly like a heavy hammer.Xi Shuoliang felt angry and embarrassed, and the hands holding the steering wheel had turned white due to too much force.He pursed his lips tightly, watching Mu Yan follow An Yiruo far away, send her home, and then stood guard on the side of the street all night.And he, always sat in the car and never left.

Promises and oaths were completely overturned in this difficult night.He no longer believes in love, nor does he believe that they can grow old together.Looking up at the "Hi" sign pasted on the window, he judged An Yiruo out of the love game.

The out-of-the-box reports were cruel, but his indifferent voice hurt her even more.An Yiruo lowered her eyes silently, despair, loss, pain, all kinds of complicated emotions poured out, she took a deep breath with difficulty, again and again.

She moved up to him, wanted to tell him about the struggles she had had, wanted to explain her determination to stay with him, and tried to make a last resort.However, Xi Shuoliang refused to give her a chance.His eyes were bloodshot, he pulled her hand vigorously against his chest, and asked in a cold voice, "An Yiruo, tell me with your heart, do you love me or him?"

A report obliterated all her efforts in the past six years.

Is he the one who betrayed him, or himself?

It seems that six years of love has finally become a joke.

The sunshine in early summer was very soft, but An Yiruo's heart fell into boundless darkness and ice-cold because of his words.She opened her mouth, but did not make a sound, only tears blurred her vision.

But not enough.

Xi Shuoliang said with hatred: "I thought you just had some good feelings for him. After all, the feeling of sharing weal and woe is incomparable to other feelings. It turns out that I am the complete fool who was played around by you, even in order to continue this ridiculous wedding Turned against the father who gave birth to him, sent him to the hospital, almost..."

Of course, An Yiruo didn't know that when Xi Shuoliang came back early in the morning, Xi's father fell to the ground due to high blood pressure, and he was actually staying in the hospital during the hours when he disappeared.She wanted to ask: "How is uncle? Is there any danger?" Before she could say it, she heard Xi Shuoliang say: "You can tell me clearly that you are in love with him, and I will never force it. After all, I am not as good as him in terms of family background An Yiruo, you are indeed in the right family." His words were like a biting cold wind, which hurt An Yiruo and himself.

She was so lightly accused of accusing her that there was no way to refute it.An Yiruo's heart suddenly became cold, cold, and hurt.

The photos are just the fuse. Their love is ultimately defeated by the deep-rooted views of family status.

An Yiruo staggered back two steps, his voice trembling: "Shuo Liang, I also want to ask: Do you really understand me?"

If you understand, you will not understand my struggle, let alone my firmness and determination.And your current performance only proves: you not only have no confidence in me, but also lose confidence in yourself.

Xi Shuoliang didn't understand her sadness at all: "It doesn't matter whether you understand or not. The key is: you are in the same family, he is more suitable for you than me." Locking An Yiruo's eyes firmly, he said very clearly: "An Yiruo, Let's call it a day."

stop here?On their wedding day, he said: "That's it.

An Yiruo pressed her right hand firmly to her chest, but she still couldn't restrain the clear pain there. Her tears rolled down in big ones, blurring Xi Shuoliang in front of her.This man who was willing to let her fall in love suddenly became strange, as if wrapped in a layer of frost, making it hard to see clearly.

Not even having the strength to stand still, An Yiruo slowly squatted down and covered his face with his hands.

Then, there was a "pop" sound.

It was Xi Shuoliang who received a solid slap on the face.

Mi Yu pointed his finger at his forehead: "How can you say such heartless words? Do you think that everyone like you is taking marriage as a joke? I think you forgot, who begged her to marry, who forced her to marry I can't! Playing you? Playing you at the expense of my lifelong happiness? You deserve it too!"

The last sentence was almost yelled, and Mi Yu poked his chest with his fingers: "You also ask yourself, do you love her? Your love can be compared to her little sacrifice? Six years, she loved you for six years, you have Do you treat her with six points of sincerity? You are determined that she will not let you go. You let her go abroad and let her work hard for you thousands of miles away. Can you understand her helplessness and loneliness at that time? ?Is it her fault that she has a good family? What do you have that deserves her love? You are not worthy. But she loves, and she endures your indifference, and she still endures your father's face. If it is not love, If she doesn't sincerely want to live with you for the rest of her life, why should she compromise? You still have the right to say you love her? Xi Shuoliang, how dare you!"

This is still not relieved.

"For you, how much pressure has she endured? Have you ever felt distressed? Do you think she should be like this? On the contrary, her persistence and retreat have satisfied your proud and noble heart? Are you still proud of yourself? Look, Miss Qianjin also bowed down for me?" Without giving him a chance to refute, Mi Yu let out the dissatisfaction pent up in his heart, "You don't want to be favored by the An family to go out into the world alone to prove your ability, I should have admired you. But you Relying on An Yiruo's love to treat her hot and cold, and now, because of the appearance of a man who matches her background, you gave up your wedding without a word of explanation or apology. Xi Shuoliang, you acted like this arbitrarily and recklessly. The drama of running around the groom is just to cover up your inferiority complex! Think about the dozens of tables of guests in the hotel, don’t you feel guilty? Think about An Yiruo’s embarrassment of cleaning up the mess, do you feel balanced? "

Compared with Mu Yan's uprightness, Xi Shuoliang's current behavior and actions are simply extremely selfish.Obviously he couldn't get rid of the deep-rooted views of family status and not An Yiruo, but he made it sound like she was cheating on her.

Mi Yu was really angry, so she helped An Yiruo up and walked out.When he reached the door, he stopped again, turned around and said to the gloomy Xi Shuoliang, "Don't make excuses for your cowardice, after all, you just don't have the courage to face failure." Seeing him raise his head suddenly, Mi Yu sneered, "If it wasn't for you Reminder, I really didn't find them more suitable. Although I always thought it was absurd to say that they are well-matched, I finally got proof from you that the concept formed in the feudal society has continued to this day and it makes sense." She paused for a while , "Xi Shuoliang, you will regret giving up her with such a ridiculous reason."

Six years may not be a long time, but when the ending becomes so ridiculous, people can't help but sigh that the precious youth of the past has been ruthlessly crushed.

The pain forced tears from the bottom of my heart.An Yiruo stood against the wind, stretched out his hand to caress the long tail, as if he had exhausted all his strength, he tore off a corner of the wedding dress and threw it into the air.Looking up at the white streak flying with the wind, she murmured brokenly, "From now on, there will be a clean break between us."

The hot tears reached the boiling temperature, burning her heart to pieces.The moment she was hugged by Mi Yu, An Yiruo burst into tears.

The weather in June is bright and sad, and a love affair has a tragic ending, which is embarrassing.

I forgot how I got here that day, I just felt that the biggest joke in my life was nothing more than that.

I also don't want to recall the torment of that period of time, I just feel that the world is falling apart.

But life has to go on.

In the early hours of the morning, An Yiruo was awakened by a crackling sound.She was stunned for a moment, feeling like she didn't know what night it was.When she was fully awake, she recognized the sound of raindrops beating on the glass window. She went to the ground barefoot, opened the window, and let the cold damp soak her face.

Her heart was already extremely cold, so how could she care about this bit of coolness? She leaned her head out of the window even more.

The rain was getting heavier, and the glass windows were left with tear stains from the raindrops.An Yiruo was firmly imprisoned by indescribable heartaches, the strong mask on his face cracked little by little, and his eyes were as deep as sea water.

Extremely tired.

The door was pushed open, and Mother An came in.

As the footsteps approached, An Yiruo turned around and threw herself into her mother's warm embrace, "Mom." This proved that there was still someone by her side who would never leave, never change.

Mother An hugged her gently, like hugging a wounded child, "Silly child, Mom knew you would be awakened by thunder."

An Yiruo said nothing, and rubbed against his mother's arms.

"Yi Ruo, no one's life is smooth and smooth. If you fall down, you always get up." Mama An patted her on the back with a soft tone, "Mom knows how hard this incident has hit you, but if it really If you can’t let go, it’s still too late to look back.”

As a mother, Mother An didn't want to see her depressed. Nothing is more important than her daughter's lifelong happiness. How can the so-called face be compared with it?

"It's too late." Holding her mother's waist tightly, An Yiruo heard a choked voice in her throat, "Shuo Liang and I, we can't go back." Sniffing, she tried hard to swallow back the tears in her eyes, " What happened this time is just a repeat of the scene two years ago, and we have lost the firmness and persistence we had before. Instead of accommodating each other, it is better to separate."

"In this case, be more tolerant to yourself." Mother An brushed her fine hair, her voice was still soft and gentle, "You are my daughter, and I feel your sadness. But you are still young, you can't just be treated like this." Knock down. In life, there are blessings we should enjoy and sufferings we should suffer. When we are hurt, we always think that we will never stand up again, and we will look back after the past, but that’s all.”

Seeing her mother's haggard look, An Yiruo had a sore nose and almost cried: "Maybe my life has been too smooth in the past twenty years, and now God will test whether I am strong enough. Mom, don't worry .” She rested her head on her mother’s shoulder: “I will work very hard to make myself happy.”

In addition to comforting my mother, I am also encouraging myself not to give up easily.

Mother An was relieved, but only distressed: "It will get better soon."

Yeah, it's going to be fine.

That night, An Yiruo fell asleep in her mother's arms, just like when she was a child and insisted on sleeping with her parents.She tilted her head, hugged her mother's waist, and finally slept the most peaceful sleep in half a month.In the haze, it seemed that she had a sweet dream. In the dream, her father carried her on his shoulders and teased her, "Xiao Yiruo, you are getting heavy again, and you will become a little chubby girl."

She giggled and yelled, "Father lied, Xiao Yiruo obviously didn't steal the cake, how could he get fat?"

Hearing this, her father lifted her up with a little force in his hand, and laughed heartily.

A smile escaped from the corner of An Yiruo's mouth.

In the early morning, awakened by the phone call, An Yiruo stretched out his hand to touch it. There was nothing around him, except for the note left by An's mother beside the bed:
Mom went to the hospital with your dad.Be strong, daughter.

The person who understands her best is her mother, who knows that she wants to spend this day alone.An Yiruo couldn't help feeling grateful and moved.

It was still raining outside, pattering.

An Yiruo couldn't help thinking: It would be great if the spreading pain could be washed away by the rain.It would be great if the wounds in my heart could be healed by the golden morning light.

It's just a hypothesis after all.

It is impossible to turn back time, just like life, there is no rehearsal and rehearsal, only live broadcast.

Lowering his eyelashes silently, An Yiruo told himself: Today is a new beginning.

When going downstairs, Xi Shuoliang's car was parked on the side of the road.

It was only a 10-minute drive, but he drove for nearly 10 minutes.The same way, the same person, already a different state of mind.When the car stopped, Xi Shuoliang held the steering wheel tightly, as if he was struggling.

Looking at his stiff back, An Yiruo's eyes slightly moistened, and then she stretched out her hand to open the car door.

Those who come to divorce are like strangers, especially the flash away.

The staff asked routinely: "Have you considered everything?"

Facing the silence between the two, the man pushed the form over: "Then sign it."

The bright red of the marriage certificate hurt her eyes, and the pen in An Yiruo's hand couldn't fall down.

Xi Shuoliang saw the tears welling up in her eyes, eager to make up for something.

He reached out and grabbed her: "Yi Ruo, we..." There was no more text.

Do you regret it?Maybe.When he realized that he was really going to lose her this time, Xi Shuoliang suddenly couldn't accept it.He thought he must be crazy, otherwise how could he run away on the wedding day.But he can't help but stay - he feels that he is not qualified.

An Yiruo suddenly remembered the embarrassment and embarrassment when she went back to the hotel alone to face a full house of guests and friends, and the situation where her father had a heart attack on the spot. She withdrew her hand and signed her name.

After reaching this point in the end, Xi Shuoliang slumped his shoulders in frustration. After a brief silence, he signed his name messily, marking the end of the six-year relationship.

Since then, we have been strangers.

The pen slipped from his hand to the ground, and the soft sound, like someone's heartstrings breaking, was extremely clear.

The rain keeps falling.

Walking out of the Civil Affairs Bureau, An Yiruo left without even holding an umbrella.Standing in the rain and fog, Xi Shuoliang watched her walk out of sight slowly but firmly, and said brokenly: "I'm sorry."

I lost you at last, when I thought you would never leave me.

(End of this chapter)