wasting time with you

Chapter 24 I finally lost you (4)
Thinking of his father carrying the young him back to the countryside and never recovering from a setback, Xi Shuoliang couldn't go on talking.Father is a proud man, perhaps compared to those who have more capital and pride, his compromise is ridiculous.But as a son, he is not qualified to laugh at the father who gave him life.He could totally understand how such a strong man could be brought down by a failed marriage.His father never remarried. He collapsed and despaired because of the death of his ex-wife, but for the sake of his young son, he gritted his teeth and survived.However, he always blamed himself, blamed himself for why he decided to divorce so decisively and ruined the life of the woman he loved so much.

It turned out that his family was like this.No wonder he was so repulsed by her family background.

Finally understood.An Yiruo put her face on his chest: "Shuo Liang, I'm sorry. I thought I loved you more, but I didn't know that you endured more for me."

Xi Shuoliang hugged her: "Because I love you."

So struggling in every possible way, still reluctant to give up.

Just like an episode, the turmoil passed like this, Xi Shuoliang did not ask about the matter between An Yiruo and Mu Yan, and An Yiruo did not know that Mu Yan voluntarily applied to be an instructor at the new police training base, and the dust was collected by the closed training. own heart.She stopped hesitating and stubbornly kept some people and things out of her heart. On a sunny day, Xi Shuoliang arranged for him to be surprised, and was taken to the Civil Affairs Bureau by him.

The moment he signed his name, An Yiruo felt that he had lost something.

However, Xi Shuoliang's steady embrace, gentle smile, and the warmth of reality made her look forward to the future again.

Everything seemed to settle down like this.

In the blink of an eye, it was the eve of An Yiruo's wedding.

Mu Yan's name also seems to have been forgotten.

Even if they used to be very close, so close that Mu Yan thought there would be one, they could not escape the fate of passing each other.

However, the fate is shallow.

On a summer night in June, the night breeze was cool, An Yiruo staggered along the cold street, witnessing that the noise disappeared in the night, and the colorful lights of the city dimmed little by little, she put away the smile on her lips, Thinking of the desperate love in the past six years, and the friendship that has gone through life and death in the past six months, I suddenly feel tired.

"An Yiruo, you have to be happy." Mi Yu tried hard to flatten his tongue, and with Cheng Mofei's support, he sat down next to An Yiruo, with tears in his eyes: "Only if you are happy, can I believe that there is happiness in this world." Love." If six years of flying moths to a flame can't be exchanged for a lifetime of staying together, how can she believe in love?

An Yiruo raised his eyes to look at her, as if he wanted to see the depths of Mi Yu's heart: "Happiness is the same as life, you can't copy others, it can only be your own. Mi Yu, don't look at me, but believe in fate."

"But who knows which fate is the final destination?" Mi Yu compared Zhen'er: "You used to say that happiness is a natural smile, but now you, I only see a forced smile." She took She gesticulated drunkenly: "Living with a mask on, An Yiruo, are you tired?"

The answer is clearly yes.But he couldn't say it.

An Yiruo forced a smile: "I have worked very hard to be my true self."

Mi Yu poohed her unceremoniously: "Just you? The real self has long been lost."

An Yiruo almost wanted to cry.

Cheng Mofei, who had been silent all night, finally couldn't help but said, "Yiruo, are you really going to get married tomorrow? Why do I feel that you are very unhappy?"

Mi Yu also had the same question. She squatted in front of An Yiruo with a solemn expression: "Fool, have you really thought about it? After tonight, you won't have a chance to regret it."

There is no way out.

An Yiruo smiled, with a serious expression that had never been seen before: "Don't you find it ridiculous to ask such a question now? Legally, Shuo Liang and I are already husband and wife. As for tomorrow's wedding, it's just a formality. At this time , what else can be changed?"

It's a foregone conclusion.

Between him and Xi Shuoliang, there is the stubbornness of being young and frivolous, and the firmness of six years of selflessness. The more persistent, the tighter the shackles, and An Yiruo is powerless to escape.She pinched her face hard: "This wine is so strong, I'm talking nonsense."

Obviously speaking the truth after drinking.Ke Miyu can only say: "Forget the people you shouldn't remember, and cherish what you have."

"I'm working hard." The turmoil in his heart gradually subsided, and An Yiruo put his hands on his knees to support his face: "Sometimes you move forward in a daze, where to go, what to do, without any purpose, it might not be a kind of happiness."

The words that seemed to be exclamation were caught off guard by outsiders.Looking at the woman in front of her whose cheeks were slightly flushed from drinking, Mi Yu suddenly felt distressed.In order to love Xi Shuoliang, An Yiruo resolutely passed it on. In exchange for his promise, she gave in again and again. Why is she not half happy now?
Mi Yu cursed secretly in her heart: Believe in love? Fuck nonsense.

An Yiruo stood up at this moment, her eyes brightened inexplicably, and she even smiled softly unconsciously.

Mi Yu followed her figure to look over: the slender and handsome figure on the other side of the street was so charming that even the night had become a backdrop.

If it wasn't Mu Yan, who else could it be?
An Yiruo crossed the street, his footing was unsteady, and he almost fell.

Mu Yan quickly supported her with his hands and eyes, his eyes were as deep as the sea, "Why do you drink so much?"

The gentle tone and mellow voice give the illusion of being out of reach.An Yiruo felt sad, she wanted to break free from his hand, but her feet were weak, and instead she was pulled into his arms.

The heartbeats of each other were intertwined, and An Yiruo replied stubbornly: "I drink very well."

The stubborn smiling face was particularly pitiful, Mu Yan folded his arms, hugged her tightly, lowered his head, and greedily inhaled the faint scent of wine on her body.It seemed as if a century had passed before he finally said, "An Yiruo, you have to be good."

If you are not good, my letting go becomes meaningless.

An Yiruo, my biggest regret is that I didn't give you your happiness.

Sorry, I Love You.

But these words, he can only bury in his heart.

An Yiruo indulged herself, she stretched out her arms and hugged Mu Yan's waist, unable to say a word.

If you haven't started, then tonight, there is nothing to lose.

But why do you still feel so sad?

An Yiruo wanted to smile, but tears dripped on his shoulders, penetrated into his skin through the thin material.

Mu Yan's heart was burned by the scalding temperature, as if the pain was unbearable.

Hold her tighter.

Today, language has become pale and redundant.Morality, self-discipline, and worries have finally become weapons that bind their hands and feet.

The long street was quiet and cold, and the dim street lamps cast a faint light. The two figures overlapped and hugged each other to say goodbye.

At the end of that night, Mu Yan kept a long distance behind An Yiruo and sent her home.

He is not far behind, and you can see it when you turn your head. To be precise, it is his embrace when you take a step back.

but can not.

out on a limb.

Before entering the building, An Yiruo hesitated. She stood there for a long time, as if struggling.

Knowing that it was impossible, let alone impossible, Mu Yan still had expectations at that moment.

Unfortunately, he was disappointed in the end.

Mu Yan didn't leave until she disappeared from sight.He stood across the street, looking up at the lights of the whole building, wondering which one belonged to her.

"Yi Ruo, just stay with you for one night like this. Maybe it's better to be quiet."

Mu Yan's figure is covered by thick branches, and his long sighs and painful eyes reveal his deeply buried emotions.

Until the twilight of the sky sank, his slender figure was shrouded in mist.A window of the opposite building was pushed open by someone, and the glaring and bright red "Xi" character was pasted on it. Mu Yan knew that the eighth floor of Block A was An Yiruo's home.

She is getting married, and the groom is not him.

Mu Yan's eyes were obscure, and finally, he turned around.

If blessings are the only thing I can give you, I wish you well.

The tailored white wedding dress sets off the exquisite and graceful curves, and the exquisite makeup makes the bride more charming and charming.Looking at herself in the mirror, An Yiruo smiled peacefully.

Her love, her life, is a brand new beginning from today. No matter what she has experienced, she will stay with Xi Shuoliang until she grows old. Don't be vigorous, just plain and meaningful.

Expectations for the future are rekindled.

Relatives and friends came to the house one after another, Mi Yu and An's mother greeted the guests, and Cheng Mofei, who was a bridesmaid, was busy checking things.An Yiruo sat quietly on the bed, occasionally chatted with those who came to congratulate her, and waited for Xi Shuoliang to pick her up.

Mi Yu was busy going in and out, and ran to An Yiruo to complain to An Yiruo when he had time, "I didn't make it as a good bridesmaid, it's really frustrating. I don't care, you have to give me a gift for your bridesmaid, or I will be with you." Cut off the friendship." Tan Ziyue couldn't be the best man, so naturally he wouldn't let her be the bridesmaid, and Mi Yu felt sorry for her layoff.

"It's not as shameless as you, how old are you!" Cheng Mofei smiled and pinched her angry face, "If you want to blame it, you are too tall. How incongruous such a bridesmaid stands next to the bride."

Miyu snorted: "It's my fault too? If you want to blame, you can only blame you for being a little shorter."

"If you want a gift, you can help me honestly, otherwise there will be nothing." An Yiruo couldn't help laughing. At this moment, in front of happiness, she suddenly felt that those experiences of love and pain might just be inevitable on the road of life. What you can't open, but cherishing possession is the most important thing in life.As for the delicate relationship with Mu Yan, she told herself to be relieved.Because for marriage, she faces it with a pious attitude.

"What's going on, it's already 09:30, and Xi Shuoliang hasn't come yet." Mi Yu stomped his feet anxiously, "You call to remind me, don't delay the time, the ceremony can't be postponed, it's an auspicious time."

"You think I'm being laughed to death, remind me? People thought I was in a hurry to get married." An Yiruo picked up his phone to check the time, "Maybe there's a traffic jam, wait a little longer, there's still time."

"Then we have to make a fuss for a while. We agreed to come at nine o'clock." Mi Yu couldn't hold back, "No, I'll call him. Don't think that if you come late, you can pass the customs easily." I thought Xi Shuoliang came late on purpose in an attempt to escape the checkpoint set by their bridesmaids.Thinking of something suddenly, Miyu said with a playful smile: "I have to remind him to seal two big red envelopes, Feifei and I can't just send them away."

Cheng Mofei slapped her: "You are a money fan."

Mi Yu shrugged nonchalantly and made a phone call.She got through but no one answered, she frowned, "What's the matter, I lost the link at a critical moment."

An Yiruo's heart tightened inexplicably, and while reassuring that he should be arriving soon, he dialed it with his mobile phone, but the ringtone rang twice in full and no one answered, and it was the same when he called his landline at home.

Suddenly there is a bad feeling.

Time passed by every minute, and even Mama An couldn't hold her breath anymore.She pulled her husband aside: "Call the Xi family and ask what's going on?"

Of course it doesn't work.

Father An's complexion became more and more ugly as time passed.

It was approaching eleven o'clock, and it was two hours late for the pre-arranged nine o'clock meeting, An Yiruo finally couldn't sit still, she put on her shoes and got out of bed by herself, and kept dialing Xi Shuoliang's cell phone on the balcony, and then The landline, until the battery of the mobile phone is almost exhausted, still can't contact there.

"Maybe, there is a traffic jam." Even I can't convince myself, how can I appease my parents?An Yiruo suggested to An's father without confidence: "Why don't we go directly to the hotel, maybe Shuoliang has already passed." She secretly prayed in her heart that maybe there was just a little mistake, maybe Xi Shuoliang was rushing to the hotel.

Father An looked at the well-dressed daughter in front of him, took her mobile phone, and heard the notification that the other party turned off the phone, he "slapped" the phone and threw it on the bed, "Yi Ruo, what do you think this wedding is going to be like?" Is there any need to continue?"

An Yiruo knew that he had touched the bottom line of his father's tolerance.

However, there were tears in her eyes: "Dad, wait a little longer."

Father An's heart was very blocked, and after the silence, he still said: "Miyu, please go downstairs to the hotel directly, and say that the groom is stuck in traffic and can't make it on time."

Mi Yu had a faint sense of the seriousness of the situation, so she said "OK" and turned around to make arrangements.

Tan Ziyue greeted the guests to go to the hotel, Cheng Mofei accompanied Mama An, and An Yiruo and Mi Yu went straight to Xi Shuoliang's apartment.The doorbell rang for a long time and no one answered. After some hesitation, she took out the key given by Xi Shuoliang on the day of registration.

The moment the door was pushed open, An Yiruo was frightened by the mess in front of him, and stood at the door in a daze, unable to recover.

Looking at the messy living room as if it had been robbed, Mi Yu was also taken aback, "Xi Shuoliang was kidnapped?"

The uneasiness in his heart rapidly expanded, An Yiruo took a deep breath, and searched all the rooms, but there was no one there.

Xi Shuoliang's cell phone is still turned off.

Suddenly thinking of the situation where he was kidnapped by Gu Ye, An Yiruo slumped down on the sofa, forgetting to think.

Mi Yu picked up the magazine with a torn corner on the ground, the cover photo dazzled her, "This—"

An Yiruo looked over, and when his eyes touched the photo, his expression changed.

At this time, the door was pushed open from the outside.

It is Xi Shuoliang who is back.

An Yiruo turned his head to look, and saw his slender figure standing silently by the door, with a tired expression and bloodshot eyes.

Is it because of wavering results?
However, all the guests and friends were waiting for the wedding, so he couldn't leave her like this.

Just because of a report?Not even giving her a chance to explain?

Four eyes were fixed, the pain in An Yiruo's eyes was like hard sand stuck in his heart, as for Xi Shuoliang, his eyes were dim, without any light, as if he was disheartened.

Looking at each other for a long time, An Yiruo walked over, seeing his bearded face, she reached out to brush the hair on his forehead.

was avoided.

Her hands were frozen there, her heart was sinking rapidly, and she pretended to be strong: "If it's because of that photo, I can explain it."

There was a sarcasm in the dark eyes, which was quickly covered up, Xi Shuoliang unnaturally hooked the corner of his lips: "Can you still explain yourself clearly?"

An Yiruo wanted to ask back, "Why not?" Xi Shuoliang had already said: "Maybe I should have asked you earlier what happened? Your silence, hesitation, resistance, every emotion shows that you are no longer what you used to be for me. An Yiruo who was waiting, but I still deceived myself and never even mentioned your experience. Do you think these tolerance and forbearance are too ridiculous?"

of course not.I cherish every minute of your contribution, because I treat love and you with sincerity.

But the doubts and accusations in his eyes were so obvious that An Yiruo felt embarrassed. She tried to explain: "I don't deny that after experiencing life and death, I have changed my opinion of Mu Yan. If I have to say that I like it, it's not an exaggeration. But between me and him, we only had two experiences of distress that others may never have in their entire lives. Compared with our six years of relationship, I—"

Xi Shuoliang didn't give her a chance to finish: "But about him, you never said a word to me, even if I went to Shanshui to pick you up that day and saw you hugging each other ambiguously."

An Yiruo couldn't say it, because of the kiss in the dungeon, which caused a constant severance and confusion between Mu Yan and Mu Yan.

"About that hug, Shuo Liang, as your wife, please forgive me." She turned sideways, her eyes fell on the magazine, and continued: "This photo should have been taken in the hospital on the day I escaped from danger. I was injured and frightened and passed out.” The report was about Mu Yan, but the background of the photo was a hospital.An Yiruo guessed that it was taken by the reporter waiting there.

Xi Shuoliang guessed this, but he was most dissatisfied with her relationship with Mu Yan.

(End of this chapter)