wasting time with you

Chapter 42
In a woman's world, love is everything.

When I was eight years old, my sister Xiao Yu and I became orphans.A man named Gu Cheng took care of his father's affairs and took us and my sisters into a luxurious villa.

Gu Cheng looked at the boy who came down from upstairs: "This is Gu Ye, my son, and he will be your master from now on."

Owner?This title is too unfamiliar to me.But Xiao Yu and I, who were helpless, didn't dare to ask even a single word.So, when six-year-old Xiao Yu timidly hid behind me, I answered wittily as my older sister: "Yes."

The boy dressed like a gentleman walked up to us, his eyes were full of disdain, then he walked past us with his head held high, "Dad, I don't want to be surrounded by annoying women."

woman?My sister and I are just "kids" as others call it.I frowned.

Gu Cheng laughed.It was the first time I saw him and saw him laugh. That laughter proved that he was in a happy mood, "Ye, they can play with you and train together. Don't you always say that being alone is boring?"

The boy stubbornly identified us as women: "I don't play with women." There was a sense of accusation in his tone: "Dad, didn't you say that women are disasters? Why did you find two women to accompany me?"

How old are you, do you understand women?Unashamedly criticized: women are disasters?Even though I am only eight years old and have no position to criticize a boy who is the same age as Xiao Yu, I still can't help thinking this way.

Of course, I also have doubts.For example, what is the relationship between Gu Cheng and our Xiao family?For example, why did he arrange me and Xiao Yu by Gu Ye's side?After all, with the family background, status and status of the Gu family, we two orphans are not worthy of it.

I don't have the right to choose and decide.

After losing my mother at the age of five and my father at the age of eight, I should be satisfied to have a shelter from the wind and rain with Xiao Yu, and to be able to provide food and clothing for three meals a day.

So, from that day on, Xiao Yu and I changed our names to Gu Xiaoran and Gu Xiaoyu as adopted daughters of the Gu family, and studied and trained with Gu Ye.It was also from that time that the people in the villa called us Second Miss and Third Miss.

This identity changed the lives of Xiao Yu and me.

Compared with other children from ordinary families, I am a high-ranking rich lady who has no worries about food and clothing, has Baobiao to follow, and can do whatever she wants.Compared with those children of the same age, I am a pitiful adopted daughter who has no personal freedom.My fate cannot be controlled by myself, even my life does not belong to me.

Unfortunately, it was ten years later when I realized these differences.

Ten years sounds like a long way off, let alone in a life like hell, how could it not be long?
In the past ten years, I have suffered countless injuries.During the training, I forgot that I was a girl, I only knew that I had to do my best, accurate marksmanship, and quick shots, otherwise not only myself would be beaten, but even Xiao Yu would be hard-pressed.So, I was very hard on myself, like desperately.

That year, I went on a mission with Gu Cheng's people for the first time.That day, when I handed over the goods tremblingly, the buyer turned his face.Not only did they want to swallow the goods, they also wanted to kill me in order to frighten Gu Cheng.

Simply delusional.

Until that day I finally knew that ten years of pain is my infinite vitality.When the muzzle of the opponent's gun touched my temple, I smiled contemptuously, and then, when the fat man's hand reached for my bare shoulder, I calmly pulled out the gun at my waist.

Of course he couldn't escape the fate of being killed by me.

If people offend me, I will offend others.Women are more ruthless than men.

Since then, I have forgotten kindness and inferiority, and become ruthless and cruel.

Afterwards, I didn't even know myself anymore.Looking at the bright and charming face in the mirror, I laughed and burst into tears, and those tears seemed to turn bright red in an instant, glaring, burning, and boiling, all of which were blood flowing from under my gun.

I hugged my shoulders with both hands, crying uncontrollably.

If I can choose, if I can do it all over again, can I escape this fate?
With such doubts, I celebrated my 24th birthday with Mu Yan, a man with a sunny taste.He appeared in my life without warning for a year, and then disappeared without a trace.

I vividly remember the first time I met him, he pushed me down in a trance and dodged a speeding truck.

He frowned and reminded: "Don't lose your mind while walking, it's dangerous."

It was still an hour before I met him.

In the Nine Diamonds office building, he passed me by.I stopped, turned around, and saw him enter the personnel department.Then, he successfully applied for the job and became an employee of Nine Diamonds, my subordinate.

While he was working in the security department, he was temporarily sent to pick me up in the banquet hall. I drank a lot of alcohol, but I was still sober.With a tempting heart, I took advantage of the strength of the wine and slumped in his arms unsteadily.

He supported me with one hand, and said in a displeased tone, "Women, don't drink too much, it's not good."

I half-closed my eyes, wrapped my hands around his neck delicately, and kissed his lips.

He turned his head away.

I laughed and thought to myself: It would be great if such an interesting man was mine.And he is really an incomprehensible man.I offered to show my favor many times, but he turned a deaf ear to it.

exasperating.

My beauty is unquestionable, and my sexiness is irresistible to a man, but his eyes are always calm when he looks at me.

The more he is like this, the more I want to conquer him.As the general manager of Nine Diamonds, I arrogantly asked: "Muyan, accompany me to the reception tonight."

In Jiuzuan, his name is Muyan, not Muyan.

It was a lie at the beginning, and we have never been honest with each other.

He looked at me as steadily as Qin Shan: "I'm sorry, Manager Gu, this is not within the scope of my work." Everyone who knew me called me Miss Gu, but he stubbornly called me Manager Gu.

"Stop." I said coldly, standing in front of him with my high heels on: "During working hours, I have the right to transfer you."

He pursed the corners of his lips tightly, tried his best to suppress the anger in his heart, and then turned his gaze elsewhere: "Time, place."

I laughed because of his helpless compromising, because of his stubborn expression.

Anyone would want to conquer this man.On him, I inadvertently smell the sun, so warm, so bright.I don't just want to play around anymore.

When we arrived at the reception, he actually wanted to leave me behind: "I'll wait for you in the lounge, and I'll take you back when we're done."

Of course it won't be allowed.

I took his arm and greeted the people who greeted me with a bright smile: "Mr. Wang, long time no see."

Mr. Wang smiled and said, "Your honor is welcome, Miss Gu. How is Mr. Gu? I haven't seen him for a while."

Mr. Xiao Gu refers to Gu Ye. According to his actual age, I should call him younger brother, but since the day Xiao Yu and I entered Gu's house, he has been our elder brother.At this time, he was leading Xiao Yu abroad in style.

"Brother is not in China, he went to Europe for vacation." I answered truthfully, seeing him looking at Mu Yan with a bit of inquiry and scrutiny, I introduced them for them: "This is Mr. Mu, my good friend."

"Oh?" Mr. Wang smiled ambiguously: "So we are good friends."

In his view, the relationship between good friends is not simple.I clung close to Mu Yan without any trace, but I smiled and said nothing, which was my acquiescence.

But Muyan opened his mouth to stand up for himself: "Hello, Mr. Wang, I am Muyan from the security department of Jiuzuan."

I was smiling like a flower on my face, but my heart had already turned into anger from embarrassment, and I was completely unable to arouse my interest in dealing with those masked men at the reception.I put down my wine glass and left the table early with Mu Yan on my arm.

He has never been a talkative person, so naturally he would not ask more questions.But after sending me home, when I leaned forward to offer a kiss, I refused again: "Manager Gu!"

I let go of my reserve several times and took the initiative to show my favor, but he remained so indifferent.I don't understand, and I don't believe that any man can hold back in the face of temptation.I clasped his hand to my chest, trying to subdue him with my body.

Of course, I am willing to have everything for him.

Unfortunately, I saw the wrong person.

In the face of love, I was too self-righteous and lost my whole life.

Mu Yan pushed me away with his strong arm, calmly and heartlessly: "Manager Gu, please respect yourself."

Such indifferent eyes and words made me sad and embarrassed.

"Why? How dare you say you don't like me?" I'm betting that men are also good at playing hard to get. After all, with my current status, there are too many men with ulterior motives who want to get close to me.

His answer hit the nail on the head: "Why should I like you."

I was so angry that I waved my hand and slapped it.

His wrist was caught in mid-air by him: "Don't try to fight a man, no matter how good your skills are, you may not take advantage of it." After he finished speaking, he pushed the door of the car expressionlessly and went down. Before leaving, he added: "Manager Gu Come on, I'm off work."

I yelled at his back uncontrollably: "Muyan, you're an asshole!"

My voice echoed in my ears, while his figure disappeared under the streetlight.

Humans are such strange animals, the more they can't get them, the more they want them.After a period of time, I pestered him more and more, and I happily went to the banquets that I hated before, and as the head of the Nine Diamonds Security, he must accompany me to protect my safety.Seeing his helpless expression, my embarrassment disappeared.

This man, I must take him down.

Finally, facing my entanglement, he couldn't bear it anymore: "Manager Gu, it's true that I'm an employee of Jiuzuan, but it doesn't mean you can send me around at will. Please stop pestering me, as I said, I don't like you. "

I calmed down and stared firmly into his eyes: "Give me a reason."

I want to know what's wrong with me, and then change it until he likes it.Until then I finally understood why Xiao Yun would rather be beaten by me than give up on Gu Ye.She said: "Sister, I love him, no matter how many women he has, they can't make me not love him. Don't try to make me give up, I can't turn back."

When I heard her say that there was no turning back, I just felt childish.Love, what a ridiculous word, how can people like us have love?I do not believe.It's ridiculous that I can't escape this catastrophe of love.In comparison, Xiao Yu was luckier than me, at least Gu Ye was willing to give a little bit of love, at least Gu Ye gave Xiao Yu the love he wanted, and I, the man in front of me, even smiled at me stingily.

He's just the Minister of Security, why should he?
But he still looked calm and calm, "There is no reason, even if you don't like it, you can't like it."

I'm almost about to explode.

But in any case did not understand the hidden meaning of his words.It turns out that the so-called impossibility refers to our very different identities.As for the disappearance of his protruding electric plate later, it was the end of the undercover mission.

Later, when I learned the truth, I couldn't help laughing at him for being stupid. If he was willing to let go of his stubbornness and start with me, perhaps the undercover mission would be completed more satisfactorily.However, when my life came to an end, I was very grateful to him.Thank him for not taking advantage of my feelings. If so, I would feel that my love is even more ridiculous and unbearable.

After that, I was very busy, because Gu Ye was not in the country, and I had to complete the business independently. I couldn't let him intervene in this kind of invisible life, and I couldn't let him know my true identity.So, I will not pester him for the time being.

It's a pity that I overestimated my ability, and this business fell into my hands.During the transaction, the buyer and I were trapped in the warehouse by the sudden appearance of the police.If Gu Ye hadn't sent someone to respond, I would have been captured alive even if I didn't die.

After that night, Mu Yan disappeared.

Until we met again at the airport in City A, I saw him kissing another woman——

At that moment, I moved to kill.To An Yiruo.

But it was obviously not the time

I left with Xiao Yu expressionlessly, and then, in the shortest possible time, I found out Mu Yan's true identity.

He really is a cop.

I sat by the window and drank the whole bottle.I cried and fell into Xiao Yu's arms and told her that I fell in love with someone I shouldn't love.

Xiao Yu swore: "I will kill him with my own hands!"

Blinded by hatred, Xiao Yu and I lost our vigilance and intelligence. We naively thought that we could easily frame An Yiruo. Yes: Xiao Yu died tragically under Mu Yan's gun.

In a second and an instant, I will say goodbye to the only relative in this world forever.

revenge!I lay prostrate on the cold ground, all my thoughts were occupied by hatred.

When the killer accompanying me was caught, Gu Ye ordered me to return to Jiegao immediately.

I never disobeyed him, only that one time.

I think I'm mad, that's why I'm stupid enough to try to kill her in the fairgrounds.That was the first time I confronted Mu Yan as a policeman and a drug dealer. I stared at him closely, trying to find some emotion in his eyes.It failed.

The moment I was shot, tears fell from the bottom of my heart.Mu Yan, do you really love me?Otherwise, when you make a move, you won't have the slightest hesitation.But do you know, when you threw An Yiruo down, I regretted how much I shot you.

My sister told me to go, and I made up my mind to die.So stubbornly wanting to walk with him is just an extravagant hope to stay with him for one more day.On the plane, I leaned in his arms, resting my head on his shoulder, feeling so distressed that it was difficult to breathe.

Because of false appearances, it hurts more.

That night, I finally knew how hateful a stubborn man was. He would rather die than get entangled with me. Seeing the blood dripping from the corner of his mouth, I felt ashamed.Mu Yan, you are so ruthless and cruel, you don't even want to touch me until you die?I was made to cry by him, I was completely driven crazy by his ruthlessness.

I changed my mind, I suddenly didn't want to kill An Yiruo, but the last sliver of reason I had left was gone when I saw them hugging, I couldn't wait for Gu Ye to do it before looking for an opportunity to inject drugs into An Yiruo's body , I was stupid enough to make a move first, but Mu Yan got the upper hand and hurt Gu Ye.

The man Xiao Yu loved the most was defeated. When Mu Yan's gun was pressed against his forehead, I could clearly see the killing intent in his eyes, but I was powerless to turn the situation around.

Giving up hope of life, I swallowed the deadly poison I had hidden under my nails before I set off.I thought: If I die, maybe he won't forget me.

I thought I couldn't wait for him to come, but he did.

In the ward, I saw the sweat on his forehead.I laughed, but this smile was accompanied by tears.

My emotions gradually calmed down, but I couldn't control my mind and became more and more chaotic, "Muyan, I don't want to leave here, because this is my hometown." I coughed violently, and the fishy sweetness in my throat began to surge. I know, if I die, "Let me stay here and send me to my parents, okay?"

In life, I am poor and have nothing, and in death, I want to stay with my parents.That way, I won't feel alone.

Mu Yan's warm skin can no longer warm me, but his choked voice makes me feel that everything is worth it, especially when he said: "Okay, I will send you to them. I will send you personally. "At that time, death did not frighten me anymore.

As I was dying, I really wanted to ask him, "Have you ever loved me?"

However, the heart is too clear.

This is actually a question that does not need an answer.No matter how ruthless or stupid the man is, at this time, he will give an answer that will move the woman beyond anything. Even if it is a false comfort, they will not be stingy in giving it, let alone the kind-hearted Mu Yan.

At this time, even I didn't feel the need to deceive myself.

But Muyan, I have a wish:
I hope that in the next life, I can meet you cleanly.Don't ask for love, as long as you can get along peacefully, that's fine.

In this life, just leave it alone.

In the past three years, under An Yiruo's careful care, Mu Yan's limbs did not show any signs of atrophy.However, when he regained consciousness for the first time and woke up, he never spoke a word except for the question "Where is Yiruo?"

However, he has created a miracle of life, and even the experts said in disbelief: "It's a god, it's a god!"

What else is An Yiruo worried about?She firmly believes that Mu Yan is not far away from truly waking up.

(End of this chapter)