It's a pity I still love you

Chapter 24 It's a pity that I still love you (1)
Yi Luoluo was carried out, Liu Nian stared blankly at the direction she was leaving, her eyes were empty, Ran Zhimo looked shocked, he wanted to hug her and give her some comfort, but she pushed away, She walked out of the room in a daze, in a trance, he followed her, she took a step, he followed a step, I don't know how far she walked, she stopped suddenly, turned her head to look at him, her face was neither sad nor happy, Without even a slight ups and downs in her voice, she said, "Go! I don't want to see you again!"

He looked at her, and didn't dare to take another step, for fear that his actions would offend her, and she would make such a decisive thing.

She went home all the way, the house was cold and cold, she remembered one night a few months ago, when she came back here, the man was standing outside her door, holding a big bag of food in his hand, smiling Ask her: "Fleeing Years, you haven't eaten yet, have you?"

The tears flowed more fiercely, she didn't dare to think about it, she fell asleep on the bed after entering the room, without a single dream, when she opened her eyes again, she felt her head was heavy, and Yi Luoluo was moved flashed in her mind When she left, she thought of the sleeping pill bottle on the table, and the last words Yi Luoluo left her, and she suddenly felt as if she had just had a dream, a nightmare, and she suddenly felt relieved, thinking It's okay, it's just a nightmare, I just wanted to raise the corners of my mouth, but at this moment I felt the tears that had dried up on my face.

As if falling from a height all of a sudden, she felt her body trembling.

The mobile phone was left in the hospital, and the phone at home kept ringing. She scanned the number on it and simply unplugged the phone line.She knew that it was Cheng Ranming's call, a call from someone she no longer knew from now on.

That person always appeared when she was in the most embarrassing situation, but now the relationship between them ended in the most embarrassing situation.

There was no strength in her body, and she vaguely felt that she might be hungry, but she had no feeling in her stomach, so she couldn't confirm it.Leaning on the wall and leaving the room, she opened the refrigerator, wanting to find something to fill her stomach, but when she opened the door of the refrigerator, she saw several cans of beer, the beer left over from Yi Luoluo's last visit.

She carried the beers to the coffee table, and the remaining vacuum-packed chicken feet. She opened two cans of beer, one in front of her, and the other next to her own. She turned on the TV and gnawed Looking at the TV series with countless advertisements on the screen while holding the chicken paws, I seemed to hear the familiar smiling female voice in a trance: "Liu Nian, you said that these advertisers are really good, and they can't be used without them." It is estimated that within two years even the novels will have advertisements!"

Fleeting Nian smiled: "You can only come up with this kind of idea. Adding advertisements to the novel, the author can't write the heroine's long white, and then add a parenthesis to say that this is due to the use of some cosmetics, right? What? Maybe someone believes it?"

The man pretended to be serious and answered her: "Why is that impossible? In this era when some boys wear girls' clothes, you might marry him as soon as you get excited. How do you know that?"

Just as Liu Nian wanted to sigh and lament the rapid changes in the world, he suddenly realized something, stared at Yi Luoluo and asked: "Are you saying those boys are abnormal or I am abnormal?"

Yi Luoluo smiled cheerfully.

Fleeting Nian was slightly annoyed, turned her head and stretched out her hand to pinch her neck, but when she raised her hand, all she caught was a handful of air. She listened to the audience's laughter on TV, and tears kept streaming down her cheeks.

She picked up the beer on the coffee table and poured it down one can after another. She drank a lot of wine, but her memories became clearer and clearer. She remembered the girl who cried while holding herself at the airport when she just returned home Yi Luoluo; she thought of the Yi Luoluo who always said "I believe in you" to herself; she thought of the Yi Luoluo who spent a day shopping in the mall just to pick out a piece of clothing to see Cheng Ranming; Yi Luoluo, who put the repaired watch in her hand; she thought of Yi Luoluo who came here to accompany her on the night when she just found out about Ran Zhimo's accident...

Why does she remember everything at this time?

Nine years after she left, that girl picked her up when she had just returned home and was helpless. Yi Luoluo accompanies her to find a job, accompany her to move, and accompany her through those difficult moments, but Yi Luoluo Luoluo died, dying in her entangled love.

She has been so hesitant and repeated, always feeling that others are hurt because of her, but in the end, those who should be hurt and those who shouldn't be hurt, none of them can escape. They are stuck here, and only they know their pain. In the end, Yi Luoluo made a decision for her with her life.

The injured part was very painful, and her whole body was hot. She had no strength and fell on the sofa. It was dark outside. I don't know how long it took, and the TV suddenly went dark. Maybe it was out of power, I thought.

In the darkness, Fleeting Nian only felt that her eyelids were getting heavy. She closed her eyes and was about to fall asleep. Before she lost consciousness, a thought suddenly flashed in her mind: Maybe she would just die quietly like this. Raising the corners of her mouth, as if a kind of satisfaction, she thought, that's fine.

For a whole day, Ran Zhimo was in a state of anxiety, wandered downstairs for a long time but did not dare to go up, no one answered his cell phone, and the phone at home simply couldn't be connected, it was so dark, and there was no light in the room.

He felt very uneasy, went upstairs to the door of Liu Nian's room, he reached out to knock on the door, but there was no response for a long time, he had no choice but to shout: "Liu Nian, if you are inside, can you answer me aloud?"

For a long time, no one responded.

A bad feeling welled up in his heart, and his flustered even worse. He took out the key chain, found the two keys of this house, and opened the door. He never told her that this house was specially designed for her. bought.There was no homeowner going abroad, no coincidence, it was all just made up for her to accept.

After entering the room, the room was completely dark. Ran Zhimo touched the light switch, but when he pressed it, there was no response in the room. He was shocked, and hurriedly took out his mobile phone to search for the fleeting time by the faint light, and finally found it on the sofa. There she was seen.

When he saw her lying there, he didn't know if she was asleep or something, and was about to breathe a sigh of relief, but at this moment, he noticed the beer cans on the coffee table. Empty beer cans, he groaned inwardly, hurried over to help her up, kept calling her name and shaking her.

"It hurts..." He heard the word coming out of her mouth, and when he touched her forehead with his hand, he found that it was so hot. He hurriedly picked her up on his back and went downstairs, carefully placing her in the car , he drove through countless red lights all the way, and finally sent her to the hospital.

The door of the emergency room was closed in front of him. He was so helpless, he could only wait anxiously in front of the door of the emergency room again, every second was so long, he was restless, his eyes were fixed on the An emergency light was on.

I don't know how long it took before the light finally went out, and Liu Nian was pushed out. Ran Zhimo hurriedly asked the doctor who came out after him how the situation of Liu Nian was. How did the family take care of it? How could the patient be allowed to drink alcohol? Although the patient is out of danger, once again, I can't guarantee that she will be so lucky!"

He heard that she was out of danger, looked at her who was still asleep, and felt a feeling of rebirth from the bottom of his heart. He was very happy, and he cherished it even more. He stood by her hospital bed and dared not let her be single again. one person.

Fleeting Nian woke up one morning. When she woke up, the sun shone in through the drawn curtains, as if everything had returned to the way it was before, as if she had never left the hospital, as if Yi Luoluo was at home ready to visit she…

There was a drop of tear flowing from the corner of her eye, she reached out to wipe it away, then closed her eyes gently, she heard the door of the ward being gently pushed open, she heard familiar footsteps, she knew who it was, she She didn't want to open her eyes, and didn't dare to open them again. The sunlight outside would hurt her, and the temperature seemed to burn her. She couldn't bear such a warm thing.

Sometimes I can't help but think, why did she come back?Let the years witness the friendship between her and Yi Luoluo, but it was lost in the end. If she hadn't come back, everyone could live well in their own world.

It was her selfishness that ruined everything.

Ran Zhimo's care for her can be regarded as meticulous. She did almost everything by herself. She watched him busy and did not stop her, even without saying a word, while he stayed by his side all the time. By her side, in the first few days, he even stayed in the hospital for a few days and nights without leaving. At night, he was so tired that he fell asleep beside her bed, but she couldn't sleep. The moonlight shone through the window, and she stretched out her hand, Gently stroked his eyebrows.

There will never be such a time again. Between public and private, she knows what he has put down. Every morning when she is half asleep and half awake, she can hear the voice of him arguing with his father at the door of the ward, but he still stays and walks away. He even had a smile on his face when he entered the ward. He was like an actor with poor acting skills. Facing her who was silent all day long, he pretended that nothing had happened, and that everything was full of hope.

As before, he knew that she was afraid of pain, and every time the nurse came to give her an injection, he would specifically ask the nurse to be gentle. As time went on, everyone around could see that Ran Zhimo was meticulous and considerate to her. Once, Ran Zhimo went out to buy porridge for her. She was alone, leaning on the wall, and wanted to go outside the ward, but just as she went out, she heard a woman's voice not far away: "I really don't know the one in ward 208." It's a woman, that's Deputy Secretary Ran! Deputy Secretary Ran is close to her every day, and does everything by himself, but she is fine, she doesn't even say a word every day, and puts on that cold look for anyone to see. !"

Another person continued: "Who says no, if Deputy Secretary Ran is willing to treat me like that, I will be willing to become a nun!"

Liu Nian leaned against the wall and wanted to laugh when he heard this, but he didn't even have the strength to laugh. They all envied her and envied that she could be taken care of by Ran Zhimo, but only they knew the price. She was the same as before, but she clearly knew that everything had changed a long time ago, there were only the two of them left here, and Yi Luoluo and Cheng Ranming never came to see her again.

Fleeting Nian thought of her father, mother, Shao Qiren, Sister Chen, and Yi Luoluo, those people whom she thought were sincerely kind to her, either deceived her or left her one by one.

She didn't know what she had done or what had happened. She only remembered that not long ago, there was a smiling woman who came to see her every day. She looked at the door, hoping that someone would push the door in the next moment, but Finally, when the door was pushed open, it was the nurse who came in to change her dressing.

When Fleeting Years was better, Ran Zhimo would report her to a wheelchair and push her out for a walk. There were many people in the small garden of the hospital every day, some played chess, some did aerobics, some read newspapers, There are those who listen to the radio...

Every time I see this, Fleeting Nian always smiles involuntarily, like watching a play, she is like an old man with vicissitudes, as if she is no longer in this world, watching the world, there is no disturbance in her heart, she is far away from this world Nothing to worry about but one step away.

Thinking about it carefully, it didn't take long for her to return to this city this time, but she felt like she had spent most of her life. Reunion, parting, bullets, and Yi Luoluo's departure, she had already experienced so much, these TV dramas The scenes that often appear in the movie, outsiders might cry after watching them, lamenting that the person who is still with her behind him has a deep affection for her, but only she knows how she feels in her heart.

He does everything for her, she can't speak more than three sentences in a day, but he can carefully understand all her needs, just like back then, when she stretched out her hand, he knew what she wanted What is it, it is the tacit understanding between lovers, it is sweet, but now even the word "old lover" needs to be added before lover.

Under his care, her body is getting better day by day. She is trying to stand on her own, but he doesn't stop her, but only helps her when something goes wrong. She is still weak and often dizzy, but her movements have already He became more and more comfortable, and his existence became more and more redundant, but he was still persistently staying by her side, and she did not stop her, and the time of getting together seemed to be coming to an end.

I don't know how long after that, Liu Nian was able to walk on the ground, and Ran Zhimo still pushed her out every day. When she stood up while supporting the tree, she said the first sentence to him for so many days: "You can walk gone."

This is cause and effect. With so many causes in front, this is the result they have to bear.

He didn't make a sound, just quietly watched her walk forward a little bit, she took a step, he followed behind, she walked very slowly, he waited patiently, there was a little bit of water where she walked Dirty, he knew she must be crying, he felt distressed, but there was nothing he could do.

The person in front stopped again and raised his hand to wipe his face. He also stopped, and said softly from behind: "Liu Nian, you said that you brought me with you when you wanted to run. Now, where are you going alone?"

Where are you going?How does she know?Where in this world is she supposed to go?Where else would anyone need her presence?The only person she cares about the most in this world is here, where is she going?
Desperate, unable to wipe away the tears, she slowly knelt down, hugged her knees and cried bitterly.He walked over from behind and hugged her, she didn't push away, tears soaked his clothes, he hugged her tightly, his voice was soft and almost coaxed: "Everything will be fine, fleeting year, everything will be fine."

On the day when Liu Nian was discharged from the hospital, Ran Zhimo took her back to the house they bought when they were in college. Halfway through, Liu Nian remembered that he wanted to go back to the house he rented to get some things, so they went there again.

Going upstairs, Liu Nian was a little surprised when he saw the intact door, and asked Ran Zhimo, "Did you repair it?"

Ran Zhimo smiled without saying a word, just took out the key from his pocket and opened the door, Fleeting Nian was even more surprised, "When did you use my key to match?"

Ran Zhimo knocked her on the head helplessly, "Forget it stupid, what do you deserve, the key I gave you deserves it!"

Fleeting reacted for a while, and then reacted for a while, and finally realized a fact: she thought it was luck, but she didn't expect his intentions for her behind it, her nose was slightly sore, but she still laughed: "So you just came back from me?" Then start playing tricks on me!"

(End of this chapter)