Practice being alone: ​​when I started to love myself

Chapter 9 Be quiet, my heart (3)
Later, I chose to settle in Shanghai, and returned to London several times. I also passed by Paris. In the interval between being exhausted from work, I always wondered: Where is she in this city at this moment, and what did she dream of at that moment? What?
pisces man

I'm lazy, I don't like to judge others, and naturally I don't have strong emotions towards Hu Lancheng.

But he is the only man who can write and detail all the embarrassments and achievements in life with such interest.

The first time I read Hu Lancheng was "This Life and This World", which was given by another Libra man.After reading it, I thought of the most appropriate adjective for this man: interesting.

The word "interesting" is neither praise nor derogation, it can be good or bad, it doesn't matter, and you can study it carefully (if you have the heart).

Hu Lancheng's writing style can be regarded as first-class.The first part of the book tells about his hometown when he was young. In the article "Screening the Peony", it is written that in the summer when he was 13 years old, his father decided to send him to Shaoxing, Hangzhou to go to school, but he did not tell him in advance, but only told him to go on the journey together.So he carried his father's purse and followed him for more than 10 miles. Finally, he got on a night boat and left home to study.

Just such a confused person.

Those who play politics must understand and understand the art of politics, and must not hold unrealistic expectations in their hearts.Hu Lancheng is ignorant and bookish, thinking that he knows it well, and he is still thinking about "May the years be quiet and the world be stable", and it seems impossible not to stumble.Therefore, Hu Lancheng was criticized many times later, mostly because of his political leanings.Someone once sighed: You are a beautiful woman, but how can you be a thief.

For example, when he was a school newspaper editor at Huilan Missionary School, he had a dispute with the dean over an article, and in the end the dean was speechless by him, so he thought it was acquiescence.Finally, the article was published, and the dean went to the principal and threatened to resign. Hu Lancheng was finally expelled.

If you don't know how to read words and expressions, you won't be able to get along in the office of a foreign company now, right?
He claims to be a person without homesickness, wandering all the way, and doesn't want to go back to his hometown.There is no great joy or dislike, all are treated the same.Regardless of being equal, they are all equally good.When dealing with the world, this is indifferent and pure; when dealing with others, it becomes frivolous.This is Hu Lancheng's second sin: in troubled times, he failed Eileen Chang.

Zhang Ailing is a "person who looks at flowers near the water", and he said this.No one understands her better than him.For a long time, Zhang fans copied his sentences to understand a more specific Zhang Ailing, and also copied his sentences to scold him back.

He said to Zhang Ailing: Only when people owe something can they meet each other.As if he had never heard of it, there is also responsibility in emotional affairs.Because of the innocence in his character, when he told the story, it seemed that no one was wrong, everyone was right, and they were all helpless and desolate.It was obviously a matter of right and wrong, but suddenly there was no way to scold.This is the strength of Hu Lancheng's writing.

Of course, Hu Lancheng also has advantages, such as not talking bad about others.For example, when he was expelled from school, he only said that he was expelled and went home.Didn't say a word.

Hu Lancheng is quoted in the preface of "This Life and This World": "I am confused about politics and like a peach blossom account." It turns out that he himself knows it very well. From this point of view, Hu Lancheng is not really confused.

So he is an interesting person.

Clever is stupid, and stupid is smart.

leo man

One of my favorite games is: If you can travel across time and space, who do you most want to meet?

I wanted to meet Laszlo Almasy, the untitled Hungarian nobleman, and travel with him across Western Sahara to find the fabled oasis Zezula.Or, just enjoy the long afternoon in Cairo, squinting in the sun and waiting quietly for the dark clouds of fate to gather and descend.

To sit next to this Leo man is to sit in the middle of the mystery, in the calm of the eye of the storm.

Laszlo Almasy, who re-emerged in the public eye with The English Patient, makes his stint in the German counterespionage service a regular one in the book With Rommel's Army in Libya, based on his diaries. Work is no more rare than a bank teller.

However, in 1942, with the approval of General Rommel, Almasy crossed the 3370 miles of the Libyan desert to the Nile River with a simple map he hand-painted, and sent two spies to the hinterland of the Allied forces. Then he turned around and returned alone. The prosperity of the city, bars, and shower facilities turned a blind eye.Not long after, that is, in May 1942, Rommel relied on his map and led his tank troops to march more than 5 kilometers in the desert within 10 days to Alamein in Egypt.Then there was the famous Battle of Alamein, which began the defeat of the German army in the North African battlefield.If Rommel advances another 500 kilometers, the German army will capture the Suez Canal, cutting off all links between Britain and its eastern colonies.

Almost, a map scribbled by this man will change the fate of the world.And he just turned around on the spot and left.

Many years later, when the war was over, Almasy, who once stood opposite the entire British Empire, said to others: Iam English. I am an Englishman.

The understatement of a Leo man is light weight.I want to tell him that today, the general Rommel who made him questioned has been deeply respected for his superb military leadership, and he has long since given up his political identity as a Nazi officer.Leaving him alone, Almasy still cannot be classified.But he doesn't mind the loneliness, just as he doesn't mind walking through the thousands of miles of desert alone.

I want to ask him: Why do you never explain your actions after writing so many materials on desert research.Have you lived in the desert without borders for too long, you have already forgotten the so-called boundaries of right and wrong in the civilized world.You go through life and death, unable to follow the rules of survival in the civilized world. You have already established rules for your own world, and you do not say a word to implement them. That kind of persistence and undivided attention is like walking alone in the vast desert.

The king's inscrutability.

In "The English Patient", Almasy opened the hotel window and said to Cairo in the twilight: "We are sinners in the holy city." Killed himself in a villa in the Italian countryside like in the book.The real Almasy was finally buried in Austria, on a simple tombstone inscribed in Arabic: Father of the Desert.

A man who hides himself behind the wind and sand.I want to look at his thin face and listen to his night-like silence, but I know that there is a flame burning in his heart. His love for the desert and his attachment to the oasis will eventually swallow him like a flame.I want to ask him, how much truth is hidden behind the fictional love story in the book.

I want to ask him: Are you more familiar with the arrangement of stars and the veins of wind and sand than your own palm prints.And how do we define right and wrong?I want to say to him: Almasy, take me away, let's set off to the legendary oasis, and never look back.

Sagittarius man

The man who lived in a hotel all his life

Many years ago, there was a French movie called "I Married a Shadow" at Zhengda Theater. Helene, an unmarried and pregnant lonely woman, was abandoned by her boyfriend. On the train home, she ran into another enthusiastic pregnant woman. She was about to follow her husband. Go back to visit the in-laws who run the vineyard, and take Helene, who is not feeling well, back to her box to take care of her.Just then the train derailed.The couple died unfortunately, and Helene was picked up by the vineyard owner's family as a daughter-in-law who had never met because she was in the carriage and wearing the ring of the victim.The clever brother-in-law, Pierre, keeps in touch with his elder brother. When Helene woke up, he felt that she was a counterfeit, but he kept silent looking at the hopeful parents who regarded her and the child as all comfort.

Helene is called by another name now, and the child has a stable and comfortable living environment, and she gradually feels the warmth of home.Despite his doubts, Pierre fell in love with the mysterious but innocent Helene. Even if his parents wanted to revise their will and leave most of the inheritance to her and their children, he was unwilling to reveal his secrets.That's when Helene starts receiving anonymous letters from the boyfriend who dumped her in an attempt to blackmail her and ruin her happiness.

It's all almost clichéd coincidences and bridges, but I don't understand why after so many years, I still can't forget it.

After checking the information, I found out that the film is adapted from the crime novel I married a dead man published by American writer Cornell Woolrich in 1948. The film was shot in France in 1983.So when I saw this movie, it was already an old movie made more than 10 years ago.

This story was later re-adapted into a romantic movie by the Americans. I remember it was broadcast on the CCTV TV drama channel, and the big-eyed Brendan Fraser who starred in "The Mummy" played the handsome uncle.This story was also used for reference in a [-]-episode Taiwanese idol drama.

So charming, so magical.Perhaps, as the cover of the novel I married a dead man said, Cornell Woolrich deserves to be constantly re-recognized in different eras.

Cornell Woolrich is an unfamiliar name to many people, and he even prefers to publish his works under the British pen name William Irish.But films based on his novels include Rear Window, Married in Black and Original Sin.What these three well-known suspense films have in common with "I Married a Shadow" is that they have all been remade more than once in different eras.The most recent version, "Original Sin," based on the novel Waltz into darkness, stars Angelina Jolie and Antonio Banderas, while its decades-old French version, "The Mississippi Mermaid,"

It is played by Catherine Deneuve and Jean-Paul Belmondo.

2001's "Original Sin" can be called an outright commercial film, and the female liar Julia played by Angelina Jolie is almost too gorgeous in the film.But my favorite is the scene where Antonio Banderas plays the rich businessman Louis sitting in the dark.

Julia, who came back with the poison, walked into the living room, and Louis, who was sitting quietly at the dining table, lit a match.

Julia: What are you doing in the darkness?

Louise: Thinking. I wonder if my life will be finished without you.
Julia didn't answer, and put the poisoned drink in front of Louis.Staring at the drink for a long time, Louis lowered his eyes and asked:
How do they die, you think?

Does it take long?

Is it painful?

Julia began to feel uneasy. Louise pressed on every step of the way, as if he was the one who wanted to kill.

Before swallowing the poison, he faced the female thief who killed his original bride and used an impostor to plot his entire family and ruin him, but what he said was: I love you, yes, I love you.All I love is you, no matter what your name is.I know you, so I love you, for better or worse.From the beginning to the end, from the beginning to the end... So Julia shot and killed her partner who had cheated with her for many years at the station in order to save him, and went to jail.

A story written in 1947 is still full of sparks more than half a century later.

(End of this chapter)