swear not to be concubine

Chapter 69

Jian Yan stood in a pavilion built by the water, looking at a stream in the mountain stream below with a calm face.

Hearing the slow and steady footsteps behind her, she turned her head, with a smile on her face, and called out, "Eldest Young Master."

Xu Zhongxuan stared at her intently, his lips were tightly pursed into a line, but he still didn't say anything.

Both Xu Miaoning and Xu Miaojin were playing in the stream below, and their maids were watching over them.And the two maids beside Jian Yan are also standing outside the gazebo and waiting, and they have no intention of coming in at all.

Obviously, Jian Yan deliberately pushed them away, and wanted to say something to him alone.

Thinking of the words and attitude that Jian Yan said to him earlier, Xu Zhongxuan suddenly felt a surge of fear from the bottom of his heart, and he wanted to turn around and run away.

He felt that he already knew what Jian Yan wanted to say to him, but he didn't want to hear it, didn't want to hear it, and didn't dare to hear it.

But Jian Yan couldn't tolerate him escaping, and said with a smile: "My lord, it's rare that you and I are in this gazebo right now, so I have a few words to say to you."

Usually when she talks to him, she always lowers her head slightly, not only with an extremely respectful and elegant attitude, but also respectfully addresses him as you.But now, she is so uncharacteristically, not only looking straight at him with grace, but even addressing him as you.

Xu Zhongxuan felt that Jian Yan was a bit aggressive at this moment, and he didn't even dare to look directly at her.

He used to think that he had seen through Jian Yan and that he could completely control her.That's why he knows when to stay away from her, when to take a step forward, and when to take a step back. He has even figured out her temperament, so sometimes he will be in front of her Showing weakness will make her soft-hearted towards herself, so that she can go further in her heart.He felt that under his calculations, Jian Yan would soon be full of him, and then she would be very dependent on him, and would never be able to leave him.

But she will always have a side that he doesn't know.For example, right now, she stands in front of him with such a feeling that the wind is rustling, the water is cold, and the strong man will never return once he is gone, intending to talk openly and honestly with him about everything.

Xu Zhongxuan didn't speak, but his hands hanging by his sides were tightly clenched into fists.There were light blue veins bulging on the back of her white and clean hands. She lowered her head and lowered her eyes, silently looking at her.

It has to be said that at this moment, the aura on his body is really a little cold.In the past, Jian Yan might have been intimidated by him, and she was too scared to say anything.

But now, thanks to the power cap she was wearing, even though it was just a thin layer of black gauze, it still gave her countless courage.

Besides, she just thought about it for a long time, and felt that it was time to open the skylight with Xu Zhongxuan and talk to Xu Zhongxuan, otherwise, what's going on if she keeps being so ambiguous?As for Xu Zhongxuan's reaction when she heard these words, whether she would become angry, disregarding her wishes, and ran to Mrs. Jian to ask Mrs. Jian about taking her as a concubine, she was beyond her control.

Even if he really did that, she is not afraid.

She still bears the filial piety of Master Jane.Even though it's just been a year, don't children have to observe filial piety for 27 months as parents these days?There are still fifteen months to come, which is enough for her to plan a way out for herself.

So she stood here without fear, facing Xu Zhongxuan's dark eyes, still looking directly at him without fear, smiling calmly, and said calmly: "First of all, thank you very much! Jian Yan would like to thank you in advance for the young master's caring and caring for me these days."

After that, she bent her knees and bowed deeply to him.

Then she straightened up, met his heavy gaze, and continued to speak calmly: "I also know your love for me in my heart, but it's a pity that Jian Yan has no luck to accept your love. Please also, eldest son Don't do that in the future."

Although she only said two simple sentences, to Xu Zhongxuan's ears, it was like ten thousand steel needles piercing the heart.

The fine and dense pain made his breathing suddenly suffocated, and his gaze towards Jian Yan became deeper and deeper for a while.

Jian Yan met his gaze without fear, without any intention of retreating.

After a while, it was Xu Zhongxuan who looked away first.

"Why?" Jian Yan heard him asking in a hoarse voice, "I can clearly feel that you have some affection for me these days."

Can't you feel it?Jian Yan thought in her heart that her performance in front of him these few days was so much worse than before, she was worried about gains and losses, and she lost her temper because of jealousy, maybe even Xu Miaoning, who is as big as Xu Miaoning, could see it.

Jian Yan thought about it, and decided that she should simply tell the truth.It is really too difficult to lie in front of a smart person like Xu Zhongxuan.

So she smiled and said, "I admit, the last time you sent me Sophora japonica cake back at night regardless of whether you had to go to the official office of the Ministry of Rites the next day, I was very moved. Later Thinking back to your protection and consideration for me in those days, my heart is more and more tempted. To be honest, you are such a young talent, you are only three years old. Looking at the past thousands of years, I'm afraid you are the first one, right? And you are still so handsome, no matter which woman sees you, I'm afraid you will be a little bit tempted, right? Not to mention you were so nice to me a while ago Care, then maintenance, I am also a woman, how could I not be tempted?"

Xu Zhongxuan's heart was moved, and he hurriedly asked: "In this case, why do you still..."

He didn't say a word, but his words were cut off by Jian Yan.

"But so what?" Jian Yan chuckled, tilting her head to look at him, "No matter how good you are, you can't give me what I want."

Xu Zhongxuan's heart sank, he looked at her fixedly, and asked, "What do you want?"

No matter how big this world is, he is now a third-rank official, and his future career will be even more limitless. It is very possible for him to be an excellent official, what else can he not give her?

Jian Yan smiled and turned her head away.

There is a maple tree outside the gazebo.It must have been planted here for some years, the branches spread out in all directions, and clusters of ingot-like green fruits are dotted among the leaves.

Freedom, did you give it?

At this time, Xu Zhongxuan was asking her: "You said, what do you want that I can't give?"

His voice was low, with a touch of impatience and hostility.It seemed that if she didn't answer, he would shake her shoulder the next moment, forcing her to answer.

Jian Yan thought about it for a while, then turned her head, looked at him, and asked seriously: "Let me ask you, if I follow you, how do you plan to arrange me?"

Xu Zhongxuan was overjoyed.

He was thinking, Jian Yan must feel that although she has been good enough to her these days, but she has not given her a firm promise, that's why she feels uneasy, otherwise why would she say that he can't give her what she wants? ?
If what she wants is a promise, a title, then he can give her everything right now.

So he hurriedly said: "If you are worried, I will send someone to talk to your mother about our affairs when I go back later. And in the future, I promise that I will treat you well for the rest of my life, as good as I am now."

Jian Yan smiled slightly, and asked directly: "Then, what will you say to my mother? Marry or accept?"

Since ancient times, marry as a wife and accept as a concubine.

The expression on Xu Zhongxuan's face froze, but he quickly said: "I promise that I will only love and spoil you in my life."

Jian Yan was taken aback by his straightforward scum.

Then she couldn't help laughing out loud after reacting.

Sure enough, she still overestimated him, always thinking that he would be a little different from others, but after all, he is still a person of this era, and his thinking can't escape that frame.

Just like Jia Baoyu, who keeps saying that he only loves Lin Daiyu, and he will become a monk when she dies, but he still sleeps with Xiren, and is not clear with Qin Zhong?And even if he becomes a monk in the end, it's not because of Lin Daiyu, it's just because his family was ruined and he had to.

So, what is love?What face do you have to say you love her?When talking about loving Lin Daiyu, what is the son born with Xue Baochai?

Jian Yan thought in her heart, it is enough to say that even if I am married, but you are always the only one in my heart.Don't tarnish the sacred word of love.

She wiped the tears from laughing, feeling happy but also sour.

So she asked with a joyful voice: "But Xu Zhongxuan, if I told you that I, Jian Yan, would never be anyone's concubine, what would you think?"

Xu Zhongxuan's heart was shocked, and he looked up at her, eager to see the expression on her face.

He could clearly feel the determination and contempt in Jian Yan's words.

But separated by a layer of black veil, he couldn't see clearly at all.So he stretched out his hand, wanting to take off the miter that she was wearing on her head.

But Jian Yan took two steps back warily, his outstretched hand froze in the air.

After a while, he weakly lowered his hand, and his voice sounded a little rough: "You mean, you want to be my wife?"

Jian Yan laughed again.

She was thinking, what about the face, how big is the face?Do you actually think that she must stick to him?Is it impossible to live without him?

Jian Yan felt that she suddenly didn't want to waste time with him anymore, so she should cut the mess quickly.Anyway, she didn't think about changing Xu Zhongxuan's thoughts, it was enough to express her position clearly.

So she said: "I know your embarrassment. You are in a high position, and the officialdom is complicated. To you, your wife is just a bond between the two surnames. What you value is the family background behind her." background, not her. After all, I come from a family of merchants, so I am not qualified to be your wife, so I can only be a concubine. In fact, I also know that according to my identity, I can It is already a great honor to be your concubine, and to want to be your wife is tantamount to wishful thinking. But Xu Zhongxuan, since I have said these things to you today, I will simply tell you all the words Alright."

Speaking of this, she raised her eyes, looked directly at Xu Zhongxuan, and then said slowly but very clearly: "My Jian Yan's husband can only have me wholeheartedly in his life. I am his wife , the only wife. He can't have a concubine, can't touch any other woman, otherwise, no matter how outstanding he is, I would rather not have it. So Xu Zhongxuan, I don't even want to be your wife, let alone want to be your wife. Your concubine. It's better for us to maintain our nodding friendship in the future, and it's best not to have any other intersections, so it's good for you and me."

(End of this chapter)