swear not to be concubine

Chapter 70

As soon as Jian Yan finished speaking, Xu Zhongxuan froze there, looking at her in disbelief.

In the past, he looked at Jian Yan's face as soft and docile as water, but now she is resolute and stubborn, it is like the hardest and sharpest stone, full of sharp edges and corners, and ruthlessly slashed across him without hesitation heart of.

How could she have such an idea?Shouldn't all women have the three obediences and the four virtues?Where did her radical idea come from?If you say it out, I'm afraid it will not be tolerated in this secular world.

It's just that Jian Yan can't take care of so much anymore.She has always felt that although the two things of backbone and dignity cannot be eaten, as a person, they are necessary.

Without backbone and dignity, when standing in front of others, the spine is not straight, and can only be submissive, what's the point of being alive?

Since she had successfully expressed her intentions, she didn't want to stay here any longer, and wanted to leave.

But Xu Zhongxuan quickly reached out and grabbed her.

Jian Yan turned her head and saw that the corners of his eyes were a little red. She didn't know whether it was because of excitement or because of her anger.

"I can promise you," she heard Xu Zhongxuan speaking quickly, "Even if I have a wife, I will never touch her in my life. I will not take other concubines, no With any other people in the room, I will only have you as a woman in my life. Even if I can't give you the title of wife, I will only love you for the rest of my life. Even if you and I are a hundred years later, I will tell us His descendants buried us together, with your and my names written side by side on the memorial tablet, entered into the ancestral hall, and received incense from future generations together."

A concubine cannot be included in the genealogy, cannot be buried with her husband after death, and the tablet cannot be entered in the ancestral hall.When Xu Zhongxuan said this, he actually regarded her as his wife.Except for the title of a regular wife, he gave her all the rights that a regular wife can enjoy.

But Jian Yan couldn't stop laughing.

"Xu Zhongxuan, you don't think that what I just said to you is actually retreating, playing hard to get, and forcing you to marry me as your wife? Let me tell you, I really don't mean that. As for what you said After you die, you will be buried with you, the tablet will be placed in the ancestral hall, and you will be enshrined by the grandchildren of the future generations. People are dead and don’t know anything. What do you do with these things after death? I don’t even care. "

Seeing that Xu Zhongxuan pursed her lips and said nothing, she sighed and said, "Forget it, it's meaningless to tell you these things. We two have different views after all, so it's useless to tell you these things. Anyway, I just Let me tell you something, I didn't use these words to persecute you, I really didn't mean to marry me, not at all."

After she finished speaking, she wanted to leave, but Xu Zhongxuan's hands were still holding her arm tightly, showing no intention of relaxing at all.

Jian Yan struggled a few times, but the more she struggled, the tighter Xu Zhongxuan pulled her.She had no choice but to sullen her face, and her tone became a little cold: "Young master, respect yourself."

Thinking about it, Xu Zhongxuan doesn't want to respect himself at all now.Because instead of letting go, he stretched out another hand, grabbed her other arm, and locked her within his controllable range.

"But Jian Yan, I would rather you were persecuting you." He lowered his voice, with a hint of pleading, "Tell me, you actually have intentions for me in your heart, don't you?"

If what Jian Yan said was actually retreating, trying to get him to force him to marry her as his wife, then at least it meant that she still had him in her heart.But if she has no intention of persecuting him at all, and is as indifferent as she expresses on the surface, it means that she doesn't have him at all in her heart.

Jian Yan struggled for a while, but she couldn't break free from Xu Zhongxuan's shackles, so she was a little annoyed.

"Eldest son," she said coldly, with a gloomy face, "it's boring for everyone like you. Ning'er and Jin'er are below, but whenever I yell, they will come up. What will they think of you when they see you, a wise and mighty elder brother, doing such an outrageous behavior?"

Xu Zhongxuan knew she was telling the truth, and rationally told him that he should also let go.But he just didn't want to let go, he just asked eagerly: "Tell me, do you still have me in your heart?"

Jian Yan frowned.

His hands were too hard, and it hurt a little to grab her arm.

"So what if I have you? What if I don't have you? That's not the point, okay? The point is that the three views of the two of us are different. You think you made the biggest concession, and you gave me all you can give , but I don’t care about these, you understand?”

"Where is the wife? What if I give you the title of wife?" Xu Zhongxuan's face approached, even though it was separated by a layer of black veil, Jian Yan could still clearly feel his burning breath, "If I I have given you the status of wife, and as you said, there will be no other women in your life, only you, will you continue to care about me in your heart and stay with me forever?"

Jian Yan was taken aback when she heard this.She didn't expect Xu Zhongxuan to say that.

It would be a lie to say that I am not moved.After all, it is normal for Xu Zhongxuan to be fascinated by men with three wives and four concubines since he was a child, right?What's more, he is still in a high position now, and a large group of people want to give him their female relatives such as their daughter or sister.Not to mention, isn't there Su Huiniang watching by her side today?
It's just that no matter how moved she was, Jian Yan couldn't believe it anymore.

A lifetime is too long, she simply can't afford to gamble.

"Xu Zhongxuan," she asked in a low voice, "do you know what you said just now? You just said this to me in a hurry right now, when you calm down and regain your senses At that time, would you still think like this? Would you still say such things to me?"

Then she slightly raised her voice: "Please let go of me. Otherwise, I will be called Ning'er and Jin'er now."

"Jian Yan," Xu Zhongxuan suddenly felt a wave of anger welling up in his heart, mixed with a sense of sadness, "What exactly do you want me to do? Tell me, what exactly do you want me to do, so that you will Promise to be with me?"

Jian Yan pursed her lips, and then said softly: "It's enough for you to do nothing."

"But I can't do it." Xu Zhongxuan suddenly became angry and his voice became louder, "You will still be angry with me a few days ago, you will care about me, you will have a small temper with me, and behave You care about me so much, but why are you treating me so coldly today, huh? Tell me, why is this?"

Jian Yan's tone was also a bit bitter: "I did something wrong a few days ago. I shouldn't, I shouldn't have made a wrong idea for a while, fantasizing about all impossible things."

"Wrong idea?" Xu Zhongxuan's face moved a little closer, and he stretched out a hand to take the scorpion on her head. He gritted his teeth and asked angrily, " When you are wrong, you can show that you care about me and make my heart full of joy. Then when you are right, you just kick me away like this and tell me so coldly that you don’t care about me at all. Have you never thought about being my concubine, or even my wife, so that I will never provoke you again?"

But Jian Yan turned her head to avoid it.So his hands came to hold her arms fiercely again, and asked angrily: "Jian Yan, what do you think of me? Come when you are called, and go when you wave? Do you believe it or not? Can you find someone to propose marriage to Mrs. Jian? I'm sure that even if I just tell her that I want you to be my concubine, she will definitely agree immediately. As the saying goes, it is the order of the parents, the words of the matchmaker, Jian Yan, At that time, I’m afraid it’s not up to you.”

When he said the last sentence, his eyes narrowed slightly, and his tone was a little cold.Presumably this is the true face of his love to control everything that he has cultivated in a high position for many years.

"Yes, the orders of my parents and the words of the matchmaker are out of my control. Since I have reached this age, I can't control everything, but so what?" After hearing what he said earlier, Yuan Huan's heart was full of Guilt, in my heart I still feel that I am the one who played with Xu Zhongxuan's feelings, and then gave up at the end, but after hearing the words Xu Zhongxuan said later, she couldn't help but feel angry straight to the top of her head, " But my life can still be decided by myself. In the worst case, I will quit the job, why do I have to live so hard every day?"

Her eyes were red, she stared at Xu Zhongxuan, and said word by word: "Xu Zhongxuan, remember, I would rather die than die. If you want to force me to death, just go and propose marriage to my mother and let me marry you." To be your concubine. I don't believe it, when you are looking for death alone, you can still watch me 24 hours a day."

After finishing speaking, she raised her chin again and looked at him fearlessly: "If you don't believe me, you can try it."

In fact, her emotions had the upper hand, so she talked to Xu Zhongxuan in a fit of anger when she was in a hurry.

If it was according to what she had thought before, Xu Zhongxuan really went to mention this matter to Mrs. Jian in a fit of anger, and her most rational answer was that she was still filial piety for her father, and no one would marry while she was filial piety for her father. Therefore, even if the marriage is decided now, it will have to be postponed until fifteen months later.And this period is enough for her to find a way to get rid of Mrs. Jane's control.It's just that in her heart there is still a faint feeling in her heart that Xu Zhongxuan cares about her and will not really force her to do such a thing, that's why she said such words with confidence.

Xu Zhongxuan was really shocked by her confident appearance.After a while, Jian Yan heard his hoarse voice asking: "You really would rather die than be my concubine?"

Jian Yan nodded, and said resolutely: "Yes. I would rather die than be a concubine."

Xu Zhongxuan stared at her firmly.Only through a layer of black veil, he still couldn't see the expression on her face at the moment.

"Where is your wife?" Jian Yan heard him asking again, there was a glint of hope in her eyes, "Be my wife, the only wife, would you like to?"

Jian Yan was silent for a moment, and then said in a low voice: "Xu Zhongxuan, I'm sorry, but I can't trust you right now. A lifetime is too long, and you are, after all, people of this era. There are many people who you think It is a normal thing, but in my opinion, it is unacceptable, understand? We, we are different from the source, the three views are too different, even if we are barely together, I am afraid You will not be happy in the future. Forget it, you should forgive me and yourself, find a woman in this era, and live your life well. I sincerely wish you happiness."

Xu Zhongxuan obviously couldn't accept her good person card.After Xu Zhongxuan listened to her words, he looked at her for a while, then suddenly let her go, turned around and walked away without saying a word.

Seeing his tall and straight back quickly disappearing into the lush flowers and trees, Jian Yan couldn't tell what emotion was in her heart.

Really mixed flavors.There was a sense of relief that I had finally explained everything to him, but there was also a feeling of reluctance and loss in my heart when I saw him leave like this.

She slumped down on the beauty of the gazebo, covering her face with her hands, thinking in her heart, what kind of crap did she do?How did all this develop into this?
(End of this chapter)