swear not to be concubine

Chapter 83

At the turn of autumn and winter, the days are short and the nights are long.After Jian Yan and Xu Zhongxuan finished their dinner, it was only the first hour of the year, but it was already dark outside.

There are two bright horn lamps hung on the outer eaves of the carriage, and there is also a glazed wind lamp inside the carriage, illuminating the interior brightly.

Xu Zhongxuan got into the carriage first, and then stretched out his hand towards Jian Yan, with a gentle smile between his brows and eyes: "Come up."

Jian Yan stood there stubbornly without moving, but asked, "Where's Bai Wei? I can just ride in a carriage with her, and I don't dare to bother the young master."

What Xu Zhongxuan was wearing at this time was a straight gown with a Buddha head and a youthful autumn robe.Because of the cold weather, he was covered with a black crane cloak, reflecting the warm orange candlelight, showing the warmth of his face even more.

Seeing that Jian Yan refused, the smile on her brows did not fade at all, on the contrary, she tilted her head slightly and said with a smile: "I already asked Qi Sang to hire another carriage for Bai Wei to sit in. You ride with me in this car."

When Jian Yan heard this, she looked to the side, and she saw a carriage parked behind.It was just because it was dark and the lights in front of the carriage were not lit, so she didn't notice it for a while.

Now that she heard what Xu Zhongxuan said, Jian Yan immediately raised her feet and walked towards the carriage behind without saying a word.

But suddenly her waist tightened, and an arm came over, and by the time she realized it, she was already sitting in the carriage.

Perhaps because of the cover of the night, Xu Zhongxuan's courage also became fatter. Many things that he only dared to think about but didn't dare to do on weekdays actually dared to do them now.

She is really thin, Xu Zhongxuan sighed in his heart, obviously he tried his best to feed her some good food, but when he was hugged in his arms, he still felt light and light.

Being hugged by him so abruptly, Jian Yan naturally had to struggle.Xu Zhongxuan lowered his eyes, looked at her and said with a smile: "If there is any further disturbance, everyone will really know about it."

While placing her in the carriage again, he stretched out his hand and lifted the curtain in front of him, and asked Qi Sang, who lowered his head and kept his eyes closed, as if he was blind and had neither seen nor heard anything. He asked, "Have you done everything I told you?"

Different from the smile and whisper when he spoke to Jian Yan just now, his tone now is deep and serious.

Qi Sang bowed and answered respectfully: "Yes. My subordinates have followed the order of the young master, first threatened the driver and the two servants, and then sealed it with money. Using both kindness and power, I think the driver and the two servants will come to you. I will naturally keep my mouth shut about today's affairs."

Xu Zhongxuan nodded in satisfaction, and then put down the curtain in his hand.

At this time, Jian Yan shrank in a corner of the carriage, but she was only thinking, what does Xu Zhongxuan mean by this?Such words didn't even bother her.Could it be that he also wants to show her a combination of favor and power, so that he can make himself submit?

Xu Zhongxuan was as careful as a hair, seeing Jian Yan looking at him with warning eyes, he immediately knew what was going on in her heart.So he explained: "Don't think too much. I didn't mean to do the same to you."

But Jian Yan still looked at him warily.When Xu Zhongxuan saw him, he sighed, then raised his eyes to look at her steadily, and said to her in a low voice but sincerely: "I just want you to know what kind of person I am. Okay. One side, bad side, I want you to know, after all, this is the real me."

After a pause, he continued to speak in a low voice and sincerely: "I hope you can show the truest you in front of me. Jian Yan, what I want to see is the truest you, not a moment-to-moment You who are polite and alienated in front of me. Don't deal with me the same way you deal with outsiders, or I will be sad."

Jian Yan pursed her lips and did not answer, but she was thinking in her heart, why should she show her true self in front of you?Even the most intimate husband and wife will hide something, why should I show my true self in front of you?

Seeing the defensive look on her face, Xu Zhongxuan knew that she didn't listen to what he said.

He sighed again, and reached out to touch her hair, but Jian Yan turned her head away.At the same time, her eyes were like those of a frightened little animal, just staring at him warily, as if if you dare to touch me, believe it or not, I will bite you with my mouth open.

The hand that was raised in the air froze there like this.After a while, Xu Zhongxuan smiled helplessly, and withdrew his hands.

But in the end, he still discussed with her in a friendly voice: "Don't be like a little hedgehog, opening your thorns all over your body to face me. Let me spoil you obediently, okay?"

"Not good." Jian Yan replied indifferently, "I am not a pet, I need someone to pamper me. I can completely pamper myself."

Xu Zhongxuan sighed: "Jian Yan, why do you have to be so strong in your temperament? Too strong is easy to break, it's not good."

Jian Yan sneered, only thinking, is Xu Zhongxuan planning to give her some psychological warfare?First of all, the words were heart-to-heart and sincere, only when he confessed everything about himself in front of her, hoping to get her to open her heart in exchange, and she was moved to tears.Immediately when he saw that this was not going to work, he said that her temper was too strong, and she seemed to be sincerely thinking about her. Isn't this a combination of grace and power?Being so persuasive and persuasive, isn't his ultimate goal to make her obediently and obediently cling to him?

So Jian Yan said coldly: "It's my business whether I'm willing or not, and I don't dare to worry about you, Young Master."

After finishing speaking, he turned sideways, stretched out his hand to lift up the curtains hanging on the wall of the carriage, and just turned his head to look outside.But what is there to see outside?But it was pitch black.

Seeing that she was annoyed, Xu Zhongxuan didn't dare to say anything for a while.Seeing her open the curtains again, the cold wind from outside came straight in, blowing her temples flying, and worried that she would be cold if she kept blowing like this, so she said softly: "Put down the curtains. That's it." It's easy to catch cold."

Jian Yan ignored him.Xu Zhongxuan couldn't help it, so he had to say again: "Otherwise, I'll get out of the carriage and ride a horse now? You sit here alone, without me dangling in front of your eyes, you don't need to look outside anyway?"

After finishing speaking, he ordered the driver outside to stop in a low voice, then got up and wanted to stay.

But suddenly, Jian Yan's cold voice came into her ears along with the biting night wind: "Since it was already like that earlier, let them all know that the two of us are riding in the same car, what will happen now?" What is there to avoid? Just sit quietly."

As she spoke, she stretched out her hand to caress the mahogany multicolored mother-of-pearl flower, bird and auspicious beast collection box on her lap.

This box was stuffed by Xu Zhongxuan when she left Xu Zhongxuan's yard earlier, and he only asked her to eat it on the way.She opened it once, and saw that there were nine compartments in total, all of which were filled with various pastries, candied fruit, melon seeds and dried fruits and other food.

Mother-of-pearl is a thin sheet made of snail shells and seashells, inlaid with various patterns on various utensils according to needs.It's just that no matter how thin these snail shells and seashells are ground, when you touch them, you can still feel a slight tingling and numbness from your fingertips.

Jian Yan found out sadly that even though Xu Zhongxuan tried his best to use scheming in front of her, it was undeniable that he was still very good to her.And she found that she was shamefully greedy for the warmth he gave, so she was not willing to let him go out and sit on the horse to blow the wind in such a cold night.

As for Jian Yan's words, which seem to be ridicule on the surface, but are concerned on the inside, Xu Zhongxuan naturally understands.He was overjoyed in his heart, and then he did not get out of the car as expected, but ordered the driver in front to continue driving through the curtain of the car.While talking to Jian Yan in a low voice: "Then why don't you put down the curtains? It's really not fun to be so cold."

Jian Yan didn't speak, but in the end she reached out and put down the curtains, turned her head, then immediately lowered her head, just staring at the storage box on her lap in a daze.

Xu Zhongxuan advanced and retreated, once he noticed Jian Yan's resistance, he immediately and wisely chose to keep his mouth shut.

The night was already silent, and Jian Yan could hear the whining of the branches outside when the night wind blows through the branches, the sound of hooves of the horses, the sound of rolling wheels, and the horn lamp hanging in front of the carriage. It was shaken left and right by the wind, and there was an unstoppable creaking sound.

Such a moment is originally the most vulnerable time of the mind.What's more, the person sitting in front of me obviously likes him, and he also likes me, but why does he keep probing and calculating like this, and why does she have to be on guard all the time?It was because I mustered up all the courage that day in the Jade Emperor Temple, thinking that I had explained everything to him clearly enough, and I just hoped that he would not disturb each other from now on, so that she could continue to live her past life. In such a quiet day, there is no ups and downs in my heart.But he was not willing to let go of her briskly, but still kept pestering her.

Jian Yan only felt that she was like a little bug caught in a spider's web.Every time she was struggling desperately, seeing that she was finally about to escape from the sea of ​​suffering, but the next moment, there would always be another spider thread stretching out silently, clinging tightly to her again.

Is this really fun?She just feels so tired.

Tears fell silently from his eyes.She didn't reach out to wipe it, but just let the tears slowly flow across her cheeks, and quietly fell on her dress.

She kept her head down all the time, and there was nothing unusual. Xu Zhongxuan originally thought that she was angry and ignored him, and didn't think much about it.But later, he heard a very slight dull thud, as if water droplets had fallen on the storage box.At first, he thought it was his own illusion, but then, two more dull voices came, and he was startled, so he called out tentatively: "Jian Yan?"

Jian Yan didn't answer, she didn't even move, she just maintained the previous posture of sitting there with her head bowed.

Now Xu Zhongxuan didn't care about whether she would be angry, and hurriedly got off his seat, half-kneeled on one leg, stretched out his hands to hold Jian Yan's bowed head.

Jian Yan is still resisting, she doesn't want to raise her head.It's just that Xu Zhongxuan's strength was so great that she couldn't resist at all, so she could only be forced to raise her head.

So in the not-so-bright candlelight in the carriage, Xu Zhongxuan saw that Jian Yan's face was full of tears at some point.

He was startled for a moment, and then he only felt a dull pain in his heart, and his internal organs were all in pain.

Such a stubborn girl, even when she cries, she always cries so subduedly by herself, and doesn't teach him to know.

But Jian Yan was still struggling to turn her head away or lower her head, she didn't want Xu Zhongxuan to see her vulnerable side.

But Xu Zhongxuan held her face firmly with both hands, let her look at him, then sighed softly, and said in a low voice: "Silly girl, why are you crying? Even if you want to cry again, you can come to me crying in my arms, why do you hide so stubbornly and cry secretly by yourself?"

(End of this chapter)