swear not to be concubine

Chapter 85

"Are you crazy?" Xu Miaojin was startled by his words and suddenly stood up from the chair, and said in a low voice, "Even if you love sister Yan, she is just a merchant's daughter after all. A dignified member of the third rank of the imperial court is going to marry a merchant girl as his wife. If it spreads out, others won’t make fun of it? At most, it’s just a concubine’s room. It’s okay for you to love her more, but why do you have to marry her? To be a wife?"

"I'm not crazy." Xu Zhongxuan's voice sounded calm and calm, "I've been thinking about this issue during those few months in Shandong. I won't hide it from you, until I saw Jian Yan today. I didn't make up my mind to marry her as my wife, and I just thought it would be fine to let her be a concubine. But today, Jin'er, do you know? When I saw her sitting with another man drinking tea, even if they I just met by chance and talked to each other a few words, but I found that I couldn't bear it. And later, I saw her crying. It was obviously so sad, choked with grief, speechless, but still pleading like that As soon as I let her go, I knew at that moment that I would never let her go. Not to mention just being a wife, I couldn't refuse anything in this world, as long as she opened her mouth."

The moment he kissed her lips and pulled her into his arms, he knew that even if she begged him to let her go, he would never let her go.And when she got up from his arms, he knew the sudden emptiness in his arms, the sudden sense of panic in his heart, but he begged her not to push him away, even if it was what she wanted, he was willing to give it , not to mention just being a wife.It's just that these inner words are not enough to communicate with outsiders.

Xu Miaojin said anxiously: "It's not that I'm speaking ill of sister Yan behind her back, it's just that big brother, haven't you heard of the words "playing hard to get"? Sister Yan knows it herself. Maybe she will be your regular wife, but she may not want to be a concubine, and knowing that you care about her, she purposely made such an appearance in front of you. Brother, you should think about it. "

"She's not such a person," Xu Zhongxuan said without thinking, "I know, she doesn't bother to use such methods."

After a pause, he said with a smile again: "Even if she really used the trick of playing hard to get on me, it doesn't matter. But whatever she wants, I will always do my best to get it." Just give it to her."

"Brother, you are really stunned." Xu Miaojin sighed deeply, only to feel that since Xu Zhongxuan met Jian Yan, he was no longer the rational and calm elder brother she used to be. What do your colleagues think of you? How do the female relatives of those colleagues look after Sister Yan? Besides, this matter is not your business alone, even if you think about it again, I am afraid that your mother and grandmother will not agree. "

"I don't care what others think of me. As the saying goes, a husband is honorable and his wife is precious. I have reached the position I am in today step by step, and I will definitely sit in a higher position in the future. Those colleagues will naturally only be more respectful. Even if their female relatives look down on Jian Yan from the bottom of their hearts because of their birth, they still have to respect her on the face, speak politely, and dare not offend her at all. Otherwise, I, the husband What to do? As for the mother and grandmother, "Xu Zhongxuan's palms that were lying on the table slowly closed, and his eyes suddenly became a little cold and scorching," Xu Zhongxuan decided. How dare they point fingers aside?"

Xu Miaojin's pupils shrank slightly.

At this moment, Xu Zhongxuan only taught her the feeling that she would betray everyone in the world for Jian Yan. I'm afraid that if she, the younger sister, said something more about this matter, he would be upset, right?
Xu Miaojin sighed secretly, and chose to accept it as soon as it was good.Then he asked again: "How did you meet sister Yan today?"

Xu Zhongxuan's answer was very vague, but he just passed a few sentences and didn't say much.Seeing that he didn't want to talk, Xu Miaojin didn't ask any more questions.After a while, she still couldn't help but asked something else: "Did you tell Sister Yan about your plan to marry Sister Yan as your wife?"

Xu Zhongxuan shook his head: "I haven't said it. And I don't plan to say it to her for the time being. I'll talk about it later."

The decisive words that Jian Yan said to him in the Jade Emperor Temple are still in my ears. When she was in the carriage just now, she begged him to let her go. Even if he told her now that he would marry her, only She's a woman, I'm afraid she won't believe him.

With her strong temper, he really didn't dare to push her too tight.He can only comfort himself now, wait, wait, as time goes by, Jian Yan will always understand his thoughts in the end, wouldn't it be better when things will come to fruition?
Then he thought about her first menstruation tonight, and from now on she will be a big girl, no longer a little girl, and she can get married. For a while, he wished he could send someone to propose marriage to Mrs. Jane.But thinking of how much blood she lost during menstruation and how thin her body was, she called Qingzhu over and told her: "Tomorrow morning, you can take some money and go tell Mother Xia in the small kitchen, Let her make more blood-enriching meals in the next few days and send them to Miss Jane."

Qingzhu is already 16 years old, upon hearing what Xu Zhongxuan said, she immediately understood what was going on, and hurriedly bowed her knees and replied: "Yes. This servant understands."

Xu Zhongxuan was thinking again, Jian Yan taught him to see the first menstrual event tonight, I'm afraid she would feel uncomfortable in her heart, and she couldn't bear to see him.Forget it, it seems that I can't see her tomorrow for the time being, otherwise she will become angry from embarrassment, what should I do if I get angry and angry at such a small day?Let's think of a way to meet her next time when we rest.

Turning his head, he saw Xu Miaojin staring at him.So he asked, "Why are you looking at me like this?"

Xu Miaojin thought for a while, and finally decided to tell the truth: "I don't think you just now are the big brother I know on weekdays at all. Shouldn't you be calm and rational, big brother, and only focus on the important affairs of the court? How could you treat me like that?" Are you so concerned about these little things about women?"

"When you really like someone, you will know that any small thing about her will be a big thing in your opinion." Xu Zhongxuan found that now whenever he thinks of Jian Yan, he always feels full of heart , and there is always an irresistible smile on his face, "You are still young, and you don't understand these things now. When you grow up, you will naturally meet the person you are destined to I will know."

Xu Miaojin couldn't help but asked again: "Brother, do you care about Sister Yan like this? If one day, power and Sister Yan can only choose between two, how would you choose?"

She knew Xu Zhongxuan's desire for power.

He was born as a bastard, and he was ridiculed all the time since he was a child. He knows that only by standing on a high ground can everyone respect and look up to him, and he no longer dares to underestimate him.

Xu Zhongxuan was only suffocated by her sharp words. After a while, he said: "Of course I want power, and I also want Jian Yan. The thing you said about choosing one or the other will never happen. Regardless of How, I will definitely not let things go to such a step."

Xu Miaojin didn't speak any more, but she only thought in her heart, what kind of things will happen in such a long future, who would know?

Jian Yan was sitting in the bathtub at the moment, soaking her whole body in the warm water.

Whenever she thinks of the time when the aunt who just came got the clothes and the seat cushion of the carriage, but Xu Zhongxuan showed them all, and asked her with a smile if it was the first time, she couldn't help but want to put this All the heads were buried in the water.

Today in front of Xu Zhongxuan, I really lost all face.

First, I cried for no reason, then I was kissed by him irresistibly, and finally my aunt came again. I don’t know what kind of strange things will happen to Xu Zhongxuan’s heart now. Tag of.

Bai Wei was busy in and out preparing clean dresses for her.Seeing that Jian Yan had been soaking in the bathtub for a long time, she reminded her softly: "Girl, it's time to get up. The water will get cold after a while, and it's no fun to freeze your stomach."

Jian Yan opened her closed eyes, and seeing Bai Wei's smile, she couldn't help asking: "What made you so happy?"

"The maidservant is happy for the girl." Bai Wei handed over a clean and soft towel, and said with a smile, "This menstrual event means that the girl is a big girl, and she can marry and have children."

Jian Yan twitched her lips.

The last thing she expected to hear now was to marry and have children.A woman is a human being first, then a woman, and then various other social roles. She does not come to this world just to marry and have children.

But it's not easy to say such things to Bai Wei, and after all, she is also thinking of her with good intentions.So she didn't say anything, she just let Bai Wei go out, took a towel to wipe her body, and put on a dress by herself.

Of course she didn't sleep well that night.One is that the long-lost aunt came, and she felt somewhat uncomfortable, and the other was that as long as she closed her eyes, she could always think of the scene where Xu Zhongxuan bowed his head and kissed her in the carriage.

The faint fragrance of Canaan bracelets on his body, his warm and soft lips rolled over her lips inch by inch, sucking lightly and slowly.It was obviously so gentle, but it stirred every nerve in her body.Even when I think about it now, I even feel that my whole body, even my fingers and toes are numb, and even my face is hot.

After a long sigh, Jian Yan stretched out her hand to cover her face, only thinking in her heart, what should I do?The first kiss that had been kept for so many years was so simply confessed.At that time, why did she not resist like a wood carving and clay sculpture?Or did she not want to resist at all, in fact, she also expected Xu Zhongxuan to kiss her like this in her heart?
This night is bound to be a sleepless night.Finally fell asleep in a daze in the middle of the night, and there was another dripping autumn rain, knocking on the plantains in front of the window, pattering.

And this autumn rain lasted for two consecutive days, and it didn't clear up until the third day, and the warm sun leaked from the clouds.

Qin asked the little maid to carry the reclining chair and put it in the yard, padded the otter fur seat cushion and backrest, and placed a rosewood table next to it, with a tea cup and fruit box on it, and then she Holding Rue Xiang's hand, she staggered out of the house, half lying on the recliner, basking in the warmth with her eyes closed.

She could hear the sound of ding ding dong dong from the rooms on both sides, and she didn't open her eyes, but told Yun Xiang: "You and Hui Xiang urged those women and maidservants to tidy up the two sides. Wing room. If there is someone who is lazy and not meticulous in doing things, tell me, drag them out and beat them with [-] sticks before talking."

"Your maidservant knows," Yun Xiang hurriedly replied, "Madam, please take a good bath and warm yourselves. There are slaveservants in everything, so you don't have to worry about it."

The Qin family hummed lightly, then stopped talking, and just focused on basking in the warm early winter sun.

A few days ago, her elder brother sent a letter, saying that a bastard of his had passed the Juren examination in this year's Qiuwei.Because thinking that Tongzhou is close to the capital after all, it is good to come here earlier to get familiar with it and prepare for next year's spring.And Xu Zhongjing also passed the exam this autumn, and Xu Zhongxuan is so talented, let him come over as a concubine, communicate with Xu Zhongjing more on time and literature on a daily basis, and ask Xu Zhongxuan for some time and literature when he is free , it must be of great benefit to his bastard.And because Mrs. Qin wrote a letter a few days ago, she only asked if there was still that beautiful niece waiting in her boudoir, and she wanted to get closer, so now she asked her sister-in-law to bring her own daughter-in-law. If you come here with this bastard who won the exam, you will be in Tongzhou soon.

And Mrs. Qin received the letter from her brother, and today, taking advantage of the good weather, she hurriedly asked the maidservant to tidy up the two side rooms in her yard and come out, only thinking of receiving her sister-in-law and Nephew and niece.Because he calculated their travel dates in his mind, he thought they should arrive in two days.

(End of this chapter)