i like you for many years

Chapter 12 Humble (6)
Gu Qingcheng was taken aback for a moment, then he came to his senses and smashed the wine bottle on the ground, Zhong An couldn't compare at all!Zhong An is really kind to you!

……

I didn't speak for a long time.

I buried my head in my arms, I didn't want Gu Qingcheng to hear me cry.I don't want him to stop crying too.

The end of the college entrance examination was on the night of June 6th. The classmates who had a good relationship with the class had already met and gathered together. They booked a private room at the KTV for the evening.

This also reminds me of that night, when Gu Qingcheng and I were sitting back to back in a gazebo by the side of the street at the foot of the mountain where people occasionally passed by, only the mountain breeze blew through the night.

The uncle at the roadside barbecue stall asked us several times if we wanted two more bottles of wine. Gu Qingcheng waved his hand and said, no need.

I know that he drank so much that he was not drunk.

I'm not drunk either.

Where is it so easy to get drunk?People who buy drunk are often the least likely to get drunk.Early in the morning, I was scolded by my parents on the phone.Of course, I was put under house arrest for many days afterwards, and except for occasional text messages with Gu Qingcheng, I didn't even talk on the phone.

The college entrance examination is finally over.Gu Qingcheng, me, and Zhong An all followed the monitor to the KTV.A group of people sat in a room with only one colorful light flickering, each sighing.

Some people are lamenting the grades, some people are lamenting the parting, some people are excited about the upcoming university, and some people are crying for "we will lose love together after graduation".

I put Zhong An aside and comforted him by saying that we had already decided to apply to the same university, and there will be more days of sticking together in the future, and let me catch up with Gu Qingcheng more, while you play.

Zhong An obediently gathered together and went to the boys' camp.

Gu Qingcheng asked where Zhong An and I were planning to report, and I asked him back, what about you?
He said, forget it, don't talk about this, you will be depressed when you talk about the future.

I nod in agreement.

Also from then on, Gu Qingcheng never came to ask me, where did you take the exam.I thought he didn't want to be tied to me any more, so I discussed with Zhong An about future plans with great pleasure.

But I always remember that that night, I ordered a song, and Gu Qingcheng praised me for singing really well.I said you got it, can you understand Cantonese?
Gu Qingcheng said, don't underestimate people, there are subtitles below.

That song is "Hug" by Joey Yung.

"I've never been used to being hurt / Waiting for you from the beginning / Don't have no relationship at all / Tenderness is in my heart / Sympathy is in your hands / Exchange love for friendship /"

I think, Gu Qingcheng must have long forgotten what I sang.

We sang and talked a lot.

I asked how he and Tao Jiang were doing, and he said, that's it.The buddies in college will meet better wild flowers, and when the time comes, they must be merciless.

I said, you are not very shy.

Gritting his teeth, Gu Qingcheng stretched out his hand to pinch my face, and said viciously, "Axi, I'll listen to you if you say it again—I hurriedly begged for mercy."

I think many years later, I will never forget that at the end of the show, Gu Qingcheng ran out after me, and told Zhong An beside me to borrow your girlfriend!
He quickly took me aside.

Under the most dazzling starlight, Gu Qingcheng held my arm tightly, like he did many years ago, he would not use the phrase "a man and a woman can't kiss each other" to me.His complexion was not as heavy as I thought, but he just said with a playful smile, Ah Xi, we will still keep in touch in the future, I don't want to lose contact with you.

After speaking, he unceremoniously slapped my face hard.Only then did I feel relieved to exchange me with Zhong An.

Treat Axi well, I handed over my sister to you.Gu Qingcheng said.

Zhong An nodded again and again, pulling me towards the endless night.I never looked back to take a look, even just a glance, at his back.

That kind of night made me feel that I was covered by a parting that I had never had before, and I couldn't breathe at all.

Otherwise, I am afraid that I will cry loudly.

I only found out later that Gu Qingcheng applied for a national defense student.No wonder I didn't ask where I was going, it turned out that I was sure that I was just a literary girl, and I wouldn't be in trouble with him again.

Before school started, Gu Qingcheng sent me a text message early in the morning saying, are you still sleeping?Don't send me off, keep in touch in the future.

I stood up like a carp, stood up, put on my best fat T-shirt and ran out the door.While stopping the car and going straight to the train station, he called Gu Qingcheng and asked him the exact location.

When I got off the bus, I hurriedly bought a ticket for the platform, and ran in. Gu Qingcheng was already bouncing up and down there, for fear that I would delay his time.I adjusted my pace, walked over generously, patted him on the shoulder, and said, bon voyage!
Gu Qingcheng smiled, and said after a while, yes.

He turned around, carrying a big backpack and two huge lockboxes, and lined up to get on the bus.When I came to the car door, I rushed up, took out a can of Wangzai milk that had not been opened in my bag, and stuffed it into the big pocket of his trousers.

My mother bought it for me yesterday, you can drink it on the way.I tried to show every last bit of empathy.

Gu Qingcheng was moved, he said, come, give a hug.

Then he stretched out his hand, and the password box stood upright on the ground.I paused for a full three seconds, looking at him.

Come on, let's go.I said, pushing and shoving him into the car.

Until the train started, I didn't find Gu Qingcheng sitting upright in his seat.He kept climbing up and down to put boxes, but the train was already drifting away.

I stood alone on the platform until the end of the car disappeared.Everyone who saw me off had already gone back, and I was the only one left, holding my shoulders and crying.

Gu Qingcheng, you will never know that I cried for you again.

I'm singing "Hug".

I want to hug / but I can’t get the love / my confidant can’t do it /
Unexpected/Who would want to vomit after being embraced by Shi Shi/
I want to hug/but the cherished friendliness is so unfamiliar that I escape and fall/
It would be great if you were all vigilant to me / I hope you still have mercy
If my heart is as pure as snow/May I hug my old friend innocently/It reminds me of the last hug you want to give me.I really want to hug you, but I am afraid that I am not willing to escape from this embrace.

If my heart is as pure as snow, can I hug my old friend innocently?
Gu Qingcheng, look, we have known each other for many years, but you never knew that Axi also fell in love with you.It's just that she never mentioned it to you, but just hypnotized herself every day, telling herself that she sincerely blesses you, treats you as a best friend and best friend, and sincerely hopes that you will be happy and happy.

Even if you fall in love with someone else, she will be full of joy for you.

She used to think that such a status was far more important than a "girlfriend" and could rival it.

It turns out that she underestimated your love.

She had envisioned too much and in the end you would have chosen the girl.Long hair or short hair?Beautiful or childish?She never thought that you would choose the one around you.Never thought that waiting can also get your love.

She assumed more than once that if she was the one who confessed earlier, would it be appropriate to break into your heart?
But she quickly shook her head in denial.

Because of what you said, you said you were "best-best-friends!"

She dared not go any further.No one knows better than her that your friendship to her is as pure as snow.

Gu Qingcheng, many times I was afraid that I would cry in front of you, afraid that you would see through my heart.Until you broke up with Tao Jiang, I watched you cry, I really wanted to hug you.But you said to me, "Zhong An is so kind to you!" Just this one sentence made me understand that me and you are the real forever... no play.

You know, Zhong An never made me sad at all.I was sobbing on the phone, but it was just to fit in your idea of ​​"I like the clock dark" drama.

I guess, if you knew all this, you must have thought that I would say goodbye to Zhong An as soon as you left?

No, I will not.Now that I have staged the episode in front of you, act ignorantly and without fear all the way to the end.

"Hug Hug" also has a Mandarin version - "Bleached Heart", a lyric of it is written like this: Think of our past, haven't you noticed the lingering silence.We ate ramen together, watched performances together, and the memories will never change.I don't hope that love will make me lose my head, don't let the unforgettable past become a wound, I will pursue others, and you can't ask for more.

I have always believed that I am definitely not like those girls who look up to you and obey you.

I firmly believe that I will be different.

But when you ask me, Axi, why don't you find a boyfriend.

But I didn't say anything, and found Zhong An.From then on, start pursuing others, what more can you ask for.

On the Kongming Lantern, the wish I wrote is actually to let me have the same courage as Tao Jiang.

But in fact, I know myself too well, and I have no way of getting the determination to love you even if I am willing to not be friends with you like other girls.

Over the years, I have learned to lie to myself alone.I am clearly sad, but I bless you; I clearly want to be with you, but I go to another territory; I clearly want to dance with you, but I dare not even take part in a hug; Feelings are unwilling to die.

The most unmissable thing about love is not only time.

And I, long, long ago, from the day when I decided to be a good friend with you, to accompany you, stick to you, and never lose contact with you, I was destined to be with you, only enough to exchange love for friendship, that’s all .

(End of this chapter)