i like you for many years

Chapter 16 Panic (4)
I didn't bring enough money.As he spoke, he glanced at her lightly.But Qingman felt it.

She didn't answer, Zhou Jiaming continued to playfully said, how about if I live with you, you make a floor bunk and let me sleep on the bed.

let me see.Qingman began to fight against heaven and man in her heart. She couldn't figure out Zhou Jiaming's mind, but she vaguely felt that this represented something.

Seeing that she didn't make a clear statement, Zhou Jiaming continued to laugh and said, "It's okay if I share half of the bed for you."

Qingman is not stupid, she immediately understood the deep meaning of this hint.At this moment, she clearly felt that her arrogant heart had returned again, and she didn't want to be so ambiguous, so she gritted her teeth and said simply, don't make trouble, I'll give you the money to take a taxi.

Zhou Jiaming lowered his head, picked up a dumpling and threw it into his mouth, saying vaguely, yes.

This night, after Zhou Jiaming left, Qingman hugged the pillow and stayed until the early morning.She wanted to send Zhou Jiaming a text message several times, but in the end she didn't.She knew that she had been waiting, and what she wanted was always an answer, not a temptation.

She remembered a sentence she had read before: It is better to care about someone silently than to let them know without getting any response.

At this moment, how much she regretted letting him know, even if what he noticed, compared to her huge feelings, it was a rare thing at all.

A year ago, Qingman was about to graduate, she came out for an internship, and found her current job.And Zhou Jiaming went to Beijing at that time.

Qingman had never deliberately kept in touch with him, so he didn't look for her, and she was too guilty to contact her frequently.

That night, the three of them ate an authentic roast duck meal, but Qing Man didn't think it was very appetizing, and it might also have something to do with her mood.After the meal, she said early on that she was too tired and wanted to go back to rest. Zhou Jiaming said that we would take you off, but she quickly declined and said no.

In the middle of the night, she walked alone on the streets of strange cities, imagining what kind of posture the boy she loved once passed through these streets.There was a poster of Eason's new album pasted on the door of a small shop by the road. She calmed down and remembered that year, listening to him sing "Ten Years".

She did a very stupid thing.

She called Zhou Jiaming and told him to send Jiang Wei away and find her later.Zhou Jiaming agreed.When he came, she gently stretched out her right hand, and she closed her eyes, afraid of getting the answer.

Zhou Jiaming approached step by step, he pulled her into his arms, and rubbed her eyes gently.He said, let me take you back.

Qing Man shook her head and refused to leave.

Zhou Jiaming showed a helpless but doting expression, he spread his hands, where do you want to go then?

Qingman said what about you, where do you want to go?

Zhou Jiaming slowly, slowly shook the phone in his hand.He said, I will go find her later.

She still wanted to ask him if he could go, but she thought about it, but didn't speak.But Zhou Jiaming seemed to see through her mind, he said, I'll take you home first, and I'll call you later.

She thought about it and said, okay.

That night when Qingman was sitting in the car, Zhou Jiaming kept gently holding her hand.But she didn't know why, but felt so sad.She asked herself why it hadn't been earlier, why she hadn't nodded to him that night.Now that there is someone else beside him, what is she Qingman? !

She didn't even dare to think about it any further.

When she returned to her residence, she simply washed up, then nestled under the quilt and waited for Zhou Jiaming's call.One hour, two hours...Five hours passed, and it was daylight. She suddenly woke up from a light sleep, and hurriedly looked at her mobile phone, but there was no missed call.

She dialed worriedly.

Zhou Jiaming picked it up, his voice still gentle, he said, what's wrong?
Didn't you say you'd call me?she asked carefully.

Oh... I fell asleep just now.His voice was really lazy, what's the matter with you, is there something wrong?
Qingman didn't say a word, at this moment she thought of that hug and his gentle smile, but only then did she wake up.That wonderful dream last night didn't even have a happy ending.

She hurriedly said nothing, I feel a little uncomfortable, I'll go buy some medicine, you go to sleep.

After hanging up the phone, she threw herself into the quilt and cried uncontrollably.

So what for seven years, don't you have to be rejected for seven years?

In the future, she would not dare to take the liberty of looking for him, and would only concentrate on her work.Three months later, when Qingman was helping a client arrange a place to stay, she saw Zhou Jiaming just getting out of the elevator from a distance outside the hotel entrance.She turned her back hastily, but he, who was only interested in chatting with the girl beside him, how could he notice her.

But that girl is not Jiang Wei.

She couldn't describe her state of mind at this moment, but it was definitely not hatred, and it was no longer pure love.

She finally understood that once time passed, there was no reason to look back.

Qingman planned to wait another six months, and when the headquarters was short of manpower, she would apply for transfer back.Or wait another half a year, if you have other options, you can change jobs.

She dragged Zhou Jiaming from QQ to the column of strangers.

Ten years is too long, she doesn't know if she will wait.But she thought, at least she shouldn't allow herself to sink into the mud anymore.She remembered an old song she heard seven years ago, in which the girl sang, I will wait for you for half a year, and if you are overdue, you will be severely forgotten.

She still doesn't know whether Zhou Jiaming has ever liked her, but she thinks that she will never get that answer again.

When she recklessly went to confess, when she fell embarrassingly in the snow, at that time he was sending off the girl Rose.She didn't know how many people he loved and was loved by.But it was only when she came here that she realized clearly that even if she really fell in love with him one day, there was no guarantee that he would not leave her.

She used to think that deep love was a lonely and courageous one who did not care about one's own safety, but unfortunately the love she had longed for would never happen to him.

Zhou Jiaming sometimes thinks of that summer many years ago, when he was still a childish middle school student, he took the diary of a girl named Qingman from someone else.The diary is densely covered with his name.He thought, this girl must like him very much.

For many years later, every time it was his birthday, Qingman would always stay in the early morning and send him congratulatory text messages.At first he didn't take it seriously, until the fifth year, sixth year, seventh year... when he found that many people no longer remembered his birthday, he still received messages from Qingman.

That evening, he went to eat the dumplings made by her on a whim, and he suddenly wanted to know what was in her heart, why he had shown her favor when he thought she would welcome him with joy, but she didn't.Didn't she like him, or did she not like him again.

So he became playful and tested her.

Her reaction was still unpredictable to him, did she think he would really stay?It's just a joke, not really.But he seemed to understand a little more, that is, she didn't like him that much either.

He hinted to himself like all men and women who are loved but have peace of mind, as if he is right in this way, it is clear that she is not affectionate enough, so how can he be blamed for not accepting it readily.

Otherwise, why can she reject the person she likes several times.When she came to Beijing, he took time out of his busy schedule to treat her to dinner and send her home.When she stretched out her hand sadly, he wanted to ask her what happened, did she escape to Beijing because of a broken relationship?He thought about it, but didn't ask any further questions.

He doesn't need to worry about her relationship history.

If he said that she really loved him for seven years, he would not believe anything.

I will meet the wind and snow in the future
have new umbrellas

lamp for me
can you leave it alone

don't feel bad for me
Don't be interrupted by despair
Whiteheads who can't be together
Don't let the wind and snow stain you
——Chen Xuedong "See You Again"

She bought the movie ticket for the premiere of "Tiny Times" by herself. Everyone in the big theater was amused by Tang Wanru, but she was the only one who thought of him sadly.Thinking of how he once traveled across half of the city, just to give her this sad fairy tale.

Everything about you is sad

Ah Bao saw on a TV program that the horoscope experts made a list of love for men of the twelve constellations.No.1 at the top of the list is Cancer.Zhong An saw her forwarding on WeChat, and replied that you should stop talking, who would believe it.A Bao said that your sophistry is useless, what the experts say is the truth, okay?

In that show, the so-called witch, with big waves, explained to the audience very elegantly that Cancer boys are not only playful, but also very smart.I can give you an analogy.Maybe you have been with him for 30 years, and he has always been a good man in the eyes of others, but one day you are seriously ill and you receive a bouquet of flowers from another woman.The woman tells you that she has your husband's flesh and blood, and I hope you don't blame him when you die.There was a burst of laughter from the audience, but the witch continued to say without changing her face, Cancer men are very good at lying, don't look at them on the surface they are gentle and gentle, in fact, if you have never worked as a detective or a female police officer when you are in the golden house, you really can't see through him.

Ah Bao was stunned for a while, and hurriedly searched in his mind who was a Cancer among the boys around him, and after thinking about it, he found that only Zhong An was the only one.He had chased her before, and she thought about it for a while and couldn't help sighing. Fortunately, she didn't get caught, otherwise she would have lost her life.

Zhong An didn't believe this, and didn't order this show to watch.He just thought it was Ah Bao who was deliberately looking for trouble and provoking him, a Cancer man.After thinking about it for a while, he felt a little secretly happy. It was rare for her to take the initiative to pay attention to his zodiac sign. Does this mean that something good is about to happen?

Ah Bao met Zhong An at a friend gathering when he was in middle school.At that time, he had a smooth cropped haircut, and his altitude belonged to the category of killing all beings in seconds. He was tall and thin, and he stood out in the crowd. She was sitting next to her friend. When he came over and asked her which school she was from, she immediately became wary. asked him what he wanted to do.

At that time, Ah Bao belonged to the school of particularly good students. When he saw the type of man like him, he couldn't help but think about it, for fear that the other party would use his brains on him.In fact, Zhong An had indeed taken a fancy to the quiet young woman, Comrade A Bao, ever since then.His way of striking up a conversation seemed too old-fashioned. He said he would borrow her mobile phone to make a call, but Ah Bao said that I am really sorry, my mobile phone just ran out of battery. Give me your phone number.

Of course Po refused.

But when she returned to school the next day, the sun was scorching at noon in midsummer, but she was yelled by classmates she didn't know to rush to the gate, and someone was looking for her.She folded her hands and ran out covering her eyelids, her shadow was sunburned into a very small circle.From a distance, I saw Zhong An standing there upright, he waved at her, she walked over suspiciously, still looking defensive, and said, what are you doing?
He took out a copy of "Tiny Times 1.0" from his pocket, and said this to you, don't you girls like to read it, you won't tell me that you have already bought it, right?Abao was stunned for a moment, and asked something out of the question as if thinking of something, where is your school?

Zhong An reported the name of a place, Ah Bao paused thoughtfully, took the book over, and said thank you, you are very smart.It was rare for Zhong An to hear her praise him, showing his white teeth triumphantly, saying that of course, it's not too late to know now.Ah Bao said that you are all right, if you are all right, I will leave first, and I will roll the roll before the lunch break later.He waved his hand and said yes, then you go.

Abao turned around, walked a few steps, then turned around and added, Actually, I didn’t mean that when I praised you for being smart, I meant that you guessed it right, I did buy a copy, but I haven’t finished reading it yet, and it happened to be I left it at home, so I put this book in school to read, thank you.

After she finished speaking, she strode away.The sun was still very strong, so that Zhong An could hardly open his eyes, but Ah Bao had walked a long way, and when he was about to turn into the teaching building, he turned around and found that Zhong An was still standing there, looking in her direction .like a tree.She remembered that he said just now that their school is in No. [-] Middle School, it is so far away, it will take more than two hours by car, can he go back to the afternoon class?
At that time, Bao actually had a very exciting goal.

The boy's name is Feng Ting, two grades higher than her, and he is an athlete of the school team.In her spare time, she would go to the stadium to watch them practice.Later, I don't know who Zhong An got to know about this matter through inquiring, and he didn't come to her again for a long time.Ah Bao has watched "Little Times 1.0" five times, but every time she reads it, she still feels very sad. She hasn't watched "Little Times 2.0", but she thinks it should be very cruel, and she doesn't want to watch it.

Time passed too fast, Feng Ting was about to graduate in a blink of an eye, and Ah Bao, seeing that he had not had time to confess, began to appear frequently at their practice place.Later, Zhong An came and asked her if she needed help.She gave him a meaningful look and said how can you help.

Zhong An raised his eyebrows, and successfully teased her with a funny expression. He took out his phone and quickly dialed a mobile number. After connecting, he called the actor's name straight over there, saying that you should come here quickly.

Abao was frightened for a moment, clutched his chest and said, why do you even have his phone number, are you an undercover agent sent by our school, or how can you know the market better than me.Zhong An ignored her, because Feng Ting ran over quickly, and when he stopped, he wiped his forehead with a sweat towel.Ah Bao couldn't help but took a deep breath, and heard Zhong An say, what do you think of her?
How could she have thought that Zhong An would come out like this, and it was too late to cover his mouth with her hand. Feng Ting looked at her, then at him, and asked with a compelling smile, are you afraid that I will kill her? Take it away, don't worry, my famous flower has an owner and I don't step on wild flowers.After speaking, he smiled and patted A Bao on the shoulder, and said, I'm just kidding, Zhong An is not bad, you just follow him.

Ah Bao thought to himself how could this be possible, the male god whom he had been silently following for a long time actually met Zhong An, the relationship seemed so close, it was almost to the point of hooking up with each other.She couldn't digest it for a while, so she had to hesitate and say, I don't have it, I don't have it, I have something to do and I'm leaving first.After speaking, he turned around and ran away as if he was in an idol drama.

It was a long time later that Ah Bao knew that Zhong An had already figured out her background when he gave her "Little Times", and she didn't know which number one best friend betrayed herself.But it was because of her that Zhong An tried every means to become brothers with the male god. She said that he didn't have the kindest intentions to help support the scene, and he had already plotted to disrupt the situation half a year ago.

She suddenly felt a dull pain in her heart, oh my god, how could she meet such a flirtatious and talented person who has a good skin and such a scumbag character that she wants to play tricks to clear her rival.Abao obviously felt that he couldn't play with him, and the male god had already graduated and left school before them. On the day he came to pick up his diploma, Abao followed him all the time, thinking of saying goodbye to him, and finally it was over. This heart knot, but Zhong An reappeared at this time, Ah Bao had a rare temper, and yelled at him, you don't even have to go to school, why do you follow me wherever I go.

What's abominable is that the male god who should have heard it didn't hear it, and when he shouldn't have heard it, he happened to be on stage.She looked back in embarrassment and found that the male god had a smile that was not a smile. He was obviously admiring the rhythm of the young couple's quarrel. She subconsciously waved her hands desperately, but Zhong An suddenly put on a sad expression, and said, Ah Bao. Don't you rely on me to like you?
Abao was startled, and blurted out, are you confessing?
After speaking, I saw the male god walking over.

He is clearly about the same height as Zhong An, but for some reason, at this moment, Ah Bao feels like he needs to look up at him so hard that he can't reach him. The male god gently leans into her ear and says to her He said a sentence that was enough to make the girl's heart lethal five and a half stars.

He said, I think it will work, or you should seriously consider it.

After finishing speaking, he gave a secret wink to the clock, turned around and left.It was as if from the beginning to the end, Ah Bao's thoughts had never been exposed to the scorching sun, but had already been strangled from the mother's womb.She just wanted to squirt a mouthful of blood on the screen of the phone at this moment, but unfortunately Zhong An still remained calm, leaned over and looked at her with a smile, and said a word with a good feeling about herself, you should thank me, if I hadn't saved it for you Bureau, do you think you can still hold your head up in front of him?
(End of this chapter)