i like you for many years

Chapter 15 Panic (3)
Qingman, why did you remember to call me? Didn't I tell you a few days ago that I was coming to Beijing?I'm at the train station with my brother, I just got off the train, I'll tell you later... Wait, I'm also at the train station!Qingman hurriedly interrupted him, afraid that he would hang up the phone if he was a second late, I just came to Beijing and I don't know the way, so I should go find you.

Of course, Song Ran didn't let the confused Qingman come to them. When he appeared at the bus stop with big bags and small bags, Qingman felt that there was a savior at last, so she trotted all the way to him.

I'm so lucky, without you, I really don't know what I would do right now.Qingman said.

Song Ran let his brother take his luggage in a gentlemanly manner, and reached out to take Qingman's two huge lockboxes and a bulging rucksack.

After three hours of tossing and transferring, he safely sent Qingman to the residence arranged for her by the company.During these three hours, Qingman checked her mobile phone countless times, but she never waited for Zhou Jiaming's call.

After carrying the luggage to the rental house on the eighth floor and settling it, Song Ran asked her why she thought of coming to Beijing, but she concealed it and said it was nothing, just wanted to try another place.Song Ran joked, then it won't be easy for me to see you in the future.

She was about to say something when the phone beeped, and Zhou Jiaming asked her what was the matter with a smile on the other end of the phone.She pretended to be calm, I'm in Beijing, won't you treat me to dinner?

Zhou Jiaming finally lived up to everyone's expectations. In his words, he rejected all kinds of gatherings that night, and appeared in front of Qingman vigorously.

At this time, Qing Man had already sent Song Ran away. She stepped on the high heels she was still not used to going downstairs. Zhou Jiaming's car had already stopped at the intersection.She walked forward, thinking how turbulent her heart would be when she saw that familiar face.But he didn't expect that it was his girlfriend who stuck out his head to greet her first.

This is Weiwei, and this is Qingman.Zhou Jiaming introduced with a smile.As he spoke, he pointed to the seat in the back row, signaling Qing Man to get in the car quickly.She opened the car door a little lonely and sat in.This seat is only enough for Qing Man to take a look at Zhou Jiaming's back. He is dressed in a neat suit and looks like a driver. It's been a long time since he's seen, he's too mature.

Really long time no see.

Qingman still remembers seven years ago, when she first met Zhou Jiaming.At that time, she had just learned to use QQ, and it was also the age when she just fell in love with a boy ignorantly.During the May Day holiday, she ran to her aunt's house and robbed her cousin's computer to play.Opened QQ, and entered Zhou Jiaming's number which he had finally found out.

It just so happened that Zhou Jiaming was also online.She saw the shaking small speaker in the lower right corner of the desktop showing that he had passed the verification, and she felt her heart was about to jump out of her throat.

At that time, the childish Qingman was still lonely and courageous, because the relationship had not yet experienced the precipitation of time, so it was not that deep.She just thought, if you don't succeed, you will be benevolent, so she might as well try him out!
She clicked on Zhou Jiaming's QQ and said, "Guess who I am."Zhou Jiaming thought for a while and said, A?Or B?

Qingman was taken aback for a moment, only to realize that he already had a candidate in his mind.

She let out a long sigh of relief, and turned off QQ abruptly.

Later, I took leave and went to school, and passed a few days without incident.Until one day after school, she was on duty, halfway through the sweeping, there were not many people left in the classroom.Zhou Jiaming suddenly rushed to her side without making a sound.

That ×× is you! ×× is her screen name, and Zhou Jiaming's tone was somewhat playful, and he looked at her with a smile.

She tilted her head slightly to glance at him, and with that casual glance, his expression, his cynical smile, his eyes that were fixed on her, and her rumbling heartbeat were all firmly fixed. During that time.

Although she gritted her teeth and shook her head fiercely, pretending to ask him innocently, who is ××, I don't know.

But she couldn't hide her panic at all, that's why Zhou Jiaming said with a sure face, it's you!I know it's you!It must be you!
After speaking, he laughed loudly, turned around, put his schoolbag on his back, and walked away.

Only Qingman was left clutching her chest, as if she would not be able to pretend if it was a moment later, she laughed guiltily.

Although in the years to come, Qing Man has developed a thick skin, no matter how intimidating Zhou Jiaming is, she will never admit that the silly girl who ran to test the confession is herself.

We have known each other for more than a year, and we are about to graduate.

Qingman did not perform well, and failed to enter the same school as Zhou Jiaming.She secretly inquired about the residence of Zhou Jiaming's house, and found that it was on the top floor of the tallest building opposite the bus stop she passed every day to go to school.

During Zhou Jiaming's birthday in winter, Qing Man bought a CD of his favorite singer with the pocket money he had saved for several weeks.That day, there was the heaviest snowfall since the beginning of winter, and Qingman was holding an old umbrella, and when the wind and snow blew, she felt that she was about to fall.

However, the road at the station was slippery. She stood in the snow and waited for almost half an hour before Zhou Jiaming hurried downstairs.She hurried to the opposite side, slipped and fell to the ground, covered in snow and mud.She was so embarrassed that she gritted her teeth and thought, how can she not let Zhou Jiaming see herself so dirty.

After making up her mind, she stood up and prepared to go back to the station, but when she looked up, Zhou Jiaming was looking down at her.He still had that rebellious expression, smiling with crescent eyes, and said to her, why are you so careless.

She frowned, didn't say a word, thought for a while, gritted her teeth and closed her eyes, and handed over the CD tightly clutched in her hand along with a poster that she had finally gotten from the boss.

This is for you, happy birthday.Green Man said.

Zhou Jiaming was stunned for a moment, took it over, and said with a smile, thank you.

She went home in a state of embarrassment in that snowy day, but she felt that she had never been so lucky. He supported her, held an umbrella for her, and sent her home.

Qingman would occasionally skip class and go to Zhou Jiaming's school.

There is a gazebo next to the teaching building where Zhou Jiaming and his class are located. Sitting in the gazebo and looking up, you can just see his classroom on the fifth floor.Every time Qingman went there, she would sit in the gazebo and pretend to be idle, but secretly looked up.

Zhou Jiaming would always come to the balcony during class breaks, and Qing Man always remembered that once, he was laughing and making noise with someone on the balcony, and then he sang a song so suddenly.

Sometimes it is really a memory the size of a sesame mung bean, but because it is related to the person you care about most, when you think of him, you always think of that scene first.Looking back many years later, the magnified tenderness still makes my heart move all night.

Only then did she realize that Zhou Jiaming sang so well, but it's a pity that there are always girls playing around him. Even if Qingman stood at the position where he could clearly see him when he looked up, she couldn't go up and say to him, I Come to see you.

She even had a stubborn mouth. When Zhou Jiaming asked her, "Why are you here?", she bit her to death and said, I came to see my friend.

She sent him a card for Christmas, but in the end she didn't put her name on the sign.

But not long after this winter, Qingman heard from her old classmate that Zhou Jiaming was in love.

The other party was his current classmate, petite and lively, and the gossip classmate described it vividly: Zhou Jiaming even brought roses to school to send her off during lunch break!

A whirlwind blew coolly under Qingman's heart.

Only then did she realize that the boy who loved to sing would no longer sing to her.

Song Ran appeared at this time.

During English morning self-study, Song Ran poked her arm and insisted on pulling her to memorize words together.She whined that I couldn't remember, it was too difficult.Song Ran said it's okay, I'll help you dictate, and we'll try to dictate it later.

Qingman thought about it and said that's fine.

In many morning self-study sessions later, Song Ran wrote tenderness on his face.Until one time he put a note in Qingman's dictation book, just like Qingman back then, he said, I like you.

Qingman was taken aback when she opened the dictation book, she didn't know Song Ran's words.But Song Ran looked at her with a smile on the side, and he said, I wrote this.

After a long silence, no one spoke, and the voices of many students reading the text silently covered the embarrassment.After a while, Song Ran finally asked her again, is that okay?

Qingman thought for a while, and suddenly found a familiar figure flashing outside the window.She was taken aback, how could Zhou Jiaming be in our school.But when he took a closer look, there was someone else beside him.

Of course he didn't come to find her, how could he be looking for her.

Oh well.Qingman gave Song Ran a sad look, but you can't tell others.

From then on, Qingman gradually understood what love is all about.In addition to having someone to take care of and care about, she can finally try to divert her attention and stop caring about Zhou Jiaming.

She still gets up early in the morning, but she won't send Zhou Jiaming to the car again.At most, she glanced at him from a distance at the station, and most of the time he was alone, carrying a schoolbag, and hurried past.

How could he still remember the girl who gave him a birthday present on a snowy day? He must have forgotten it long ago.

On Wednesday, when Qingman went to school, she found that her classmates were staring at her and whispering, and Song Ran's expression was ugly.She sat down carefully and subconsciously asked Song Ran what happened.

Song Ran didn't speak.

On the other hand, the girl at the back table who had a good relationship with her on weekdays poked her back with a pen, leaned into her ear and said, "Qingman, someone showed your diary to everyone."

Qing Man was startled.

I hurriedly took out my schoolbag to find the diary, but it was gone.

She already guessed what Song Ran knew, because the whole world already knew it.She didn't care about the embarrassment, she was just worried about what Zhou Jiaming would do if he found out.So I asked around for the whereabouts of the diary, but I couldn't find it.

That night Qing Man went to the Internet, and saw Zhou Jiaming's profile picture jumping as soon as she got online.

She had a bad premonition in her heart.

I broke up.Zhou Jiaming said this sentence without beginning or end.

Qingman didn't know what to reply, so she replied one, um, don't be sad.

Do you have classes at your school tomorrow? We are on vacation. Let me come and play with you.Zhou Jiaming said.

Before Qing Man had time to return, he added, I have your diary here, I read it, and it is very good.

At that moment, it is absolutely not an exaggeration to describe Qingman's feeling as dizzy.She didn't expect it to be so fast, and she didn't know who was so unreasonable to send the diary all the way to him.

But she has no reason to be unhappy, he is finally coming to her, this time he came to see her, isn't he?
For the whole morning of the second day, Qing Man didn't read any books, nor did she attend classes.There were ten thousand bees buzzing in her mind, until around noon, shortly after the last class started, she finally found out that Zhou Jiaming had arrived.

Outside the classroom was a lush flower bed, and he just squatted by the flower bed, looking at her with a faint smile.

His eyes are clear, still beautiful crescents.The sunlight outside the window was just right, and his white shirt was covered with a layer of gold.

At that moment, Qingman really felt that she had never seen a boy who was prettier than Zhou Jiaming.If his smile wasn't so contagious, maybe she wouldn't have to sink so deep.

After finally getting out of class, she ran out to find Zhou Jiaming.She will always remember that on that sunny day, the boy smiled at her and said, where shall we go later?
Would that count as her first serious date?Although just started.

Then when she turned her head, she saw Song Ran standing not far away, something inexplicable was flashing in her eyes.Her heart tightened slightly.

The girl at the back table suddenly ran out to find her, and asked her if she didn't have classes in the afternoon anyway, so she wanted to go to cram school together.Many students are going, the head teacher asked me to ask if you can go.Girls say so.

At this moment, Song Ran really thought that she would follow Zhou Jiaming and leave happily.

Even Qingman thought she would definitely do it.

But she didn't.

She didn't know where she came up with the weird idea, looking into Zhou Jiaming's eyes, his unruly smile seemed to remind her of a whole bunch of things.

She struggled for a while, and finally said to Zhou Jiaming, I'm really sorry, I have to go to the cram school later, why don't you go back first, next time... She hesitated for a while, but didn't say the second half of the sentence.

Zhou Jiaming already understood what she meant, he said, all right, I'll go first.You go with them, don't send me off.After speaking, he still smiled brightly at her.

That smile seems to have become his trademark, so that for so many years later, whenever Qing Man thinks of him, he can't forget that charming smile.

She looked at his back as he turned and left, and then she came to her senses, realizing what a fool she had done.

Just a little bit, really just a little bit.

She could approach his world right away.

Maybe there is still a chance to hold his hand and give him a hug.It's not in vain that she likes him so seriously.

This is the only time she almost got his favor.

And later, such a beautiful scene of him quietly waiting for her not far away really never appeared again.

For more than half a year later, Qingman couldn't muster up the courage to contact him again.

Including seeing him online on QQ, she typed out what she wanted to say several times, and just pressed "send".But she didn't in the end.

It was a middle school reunion later that made her meet him again.

In the dimly lit KTV room, she arrived early and sat in the corner.Zhou Jiaming sang the song "Ten Years" that day, and Qingman sat alone, sobbing softly as she listened.She and Zhou Jiaming haven't had ten years at all, not even five years.

After Zhou Jiaming finished singing, he found her, came over and asked her what was wrong, and when he found her crying, he started to make fun of her, laughing at her saying why are you crying, so stupid.

As he spoke, he stroked her hair lightly.

She will never forget that kind of tenderness in her life.

She wiped away her tears indiscriminately and told herself that she couldn't lose her composure anymore, so she turned to look at him, and she was stupid again.She asked him, are we still friends?
Zhou Jiaming paused first, and then said, yes, good friend.

When it was about to go to dinner at night, a group of people walked on the road and swayed mightily.Passing by a stall selling candied haws, Zhou Jiaming bumped into the green vine, and said in a coquettish tone, I want to eat it.

Qing Man said that I'll buy it for you, so she excitedly bought two skewers, handed them to him, and ate each skewer as they walked.

Later, a group of people ran to take a photo of Zhou Jiaming, which was the only photo of Zhou Jiaming she had.She has been carefully tucked in the new diary.In the photo, he turned his face sideways, narrowing his eyes slightly as usual.

No matter how beautiful the spring breeze is, it cannot compare to your smile. People who have never seen you will not understand.

For a long time afterwards, Zhou Jiaming seemed to really regard her as an old friend.Especially after the college entrance examination, Qingman and him were in two different universities in the provincial capital, but luckily they were still in the same city.

Song Ran's school and S Datong, where Qingman studied, are very close to the university town, but they rarely take the initiative to come to her again.

Zhou Jiaming often complained to her on QQ, talking about some trivial life surroundings.If you don't know how to repair a computer, and don't know how to dress up in Qzone...all these things will ask Qingman for help.His dependent tone always made her completely confused.

Only when he was broken in love, he never came to her to confide.But when he was alone, he always invited her to play around.

Qingman often learns about his new relationship trends from other people's mouths, or his QQ signature and other places.Whoever he got together with and separated again, whoever he fell in love with within a month, and whoever he fell in love with.

But she knew clearly that none of this was for her.

Until a certain weekend when she was a junior, Zhou Jiaming called her and said that she hadn't seen you for more than half a year, so why don't you come out to catch up on the old days.she asked where.He said I don't know, I want to eat dumplings.

Qingman said, then I'll pack it for you, and you come to my place.

Zhou Jiaming said it was fine.Not long after hanging up the phone, the taxi stopped downstairs in the small single room that Qingman rented outside the school.

The dumplings have been made for a long time, and they were tossed until it was dark before they were put into the pot.Qingman probably always felt a little uncomfortable in front of Zhou Jiaming, she was harboring ulterior motives, and was always afraid of being found out that she hadn't let him go.

It's so late, can I still catch the car back?Zhou Jiaming looked at his watch while talking.

Take a taxi.Qing Man proposed.

(End of this chapter)