i like you for many years

Chapter 28: Stubbornness (4)
In the middle of the self-study, Jiang Wei was suddenly poked on the arm by her tablemate with a smile, and the other party asked her gossip, you and Zhou Muyang... what?Jiang Wei was startled.

Everyone is passing it on, don’t you know?My deskmate is mysterious. I heard that he wrote you an apology letter, which said, "Weiwei, don't be angry with me. You can punish me however you want." I haven't seen any letters like this... .Jiang Wei instinctively argued that she did not receive anything, what was going on.

Stop pretending, tsk tsk.The deskmate made a gesture of "I'm too lazy to tell you" and continued to do my homework.Only Jiang Wei was still trying to piece together those words in her mind.Zhou Muyang's letter?She subconsciously turned her head to look at Zhou Muyang, gesticulating and asking him without making a sound, did you write me a letter?

Zhou Muyang nodded, did you read it?
Jiang Wei only felt a loud noise in her head, she couldn't imagine what Zhou Muyang wrote in the letter, but now the whole class knew about it, I'm afraid her secret love is not a secret at all, she couldn't continue thinking, Thinking that the classmates around her might be talking about her in private, she felt ashamed and ashamed to the point of anger.

Zhou Muyang probably sensed that she looked bad, so he sent her a text message, what's wrong with you?
I haven't had any letters from you at all, but now the whole class is talking about the two of us.Jiang Wei felt that her hand was shaking when pressing the text message. She didn't want to be ridiculed by the whole world, but now the whole world knows it.

It took Zhou Muyang a long time to reply, sorry, what I put on your table may have been taken away by someone else.I didn't expect this to happen.

Ten minutes later, Zhou Muyang received Jiang Wei's last text message, no, please, don't look for me again.

He thought for a long time, and replied one, yes.

After more than half a year, I don't know whether it was Jiang Wei who had too much backbone, or Zhou Muyang who kept his word, but he never took the initiative to find her again.Even when it was her turn to collect homework, she would pass by her seat, and she had already finished writing it early, and put the homework book on the upper right corner of the desk waiting for him to pick it up.

Sometimes she also regrets the harsh words she has said.

But fortunately, the college entrance examination is coming, and she will hypnotize herself again, and everything will be fine when she goes to university.

Perhaps by then, these once brooding jokes may really pass.

On the day after the college entrance examination, Jiang Wei asked Sansan to help her find the C University that Zhou Muyang planned to apply for, and carefully followed the written form.

Lu Ran came to ask me where you plan to take the exam a few days ago, and I told him about University A, gossiping, didn’t you say you would squeeze into University A before, but now for... Jiang Wei hurried Make a "shh" gesture, please keep your voice down.

She couldn't explain why, although she had been angry with him all the time, but in fact, a large part of it was because her self-esteem was too strong, she didn't want to be pointed at by her classmates, and she didn't know how to bow her head to show favor with him.

But, I really don't want to be separated from him from now on.

The two of them finished writing the volunteer form, but the teacher hadn't come to collect the form yet, so Sansan proposed to go for a walk, after all, she would rarely come back to school in the future.When going out, Zhou Muyang happened to come in, she lowered her head in embarrassment, and left quickly.

When he walked to the corner of the corridor and turned back, Zhou Muyang's black T-shirt was no longer visible.She suddenly wanted to cry hypocritically.Because of her own pride, she had missed him for too long, and she hoped that everything would happen again in two months.

It's a pity that she didn't expect that Zhou Muyang would be stopped by Lu Ran just as he entered the classroom.

Jiang Wei is going to apply for A University.Lu Ran is concise and clear, you still like her.

Zhou Muyang was startled, but Lu Ran had already turned around and left. After a long time, he finally took out a ballpoint pen and wrote down the full name of University A on the first choice.

Two months later, Jiang Wei ran into Zhou Muyang at the train station. He mustered up the courage to walk up to her, greeted her with a smile, and seeing her luggage, he asked why you started school so early.Jiang Wei said yes, C University has always started school earlier, and all good schools are like this.she laughed.

After speaking, both of them were stunned.

What school did you apply for?Jiang Wei asked cautiously.

Didn't you apply for A major?Zhou Muyang asked back, Lu Ran specially came to tell me, I thought you... At this moment, Jiang Wei's ears only hear the whistling wind.She gripped the handle of the suitcase tightly, and she felt that the next second, the next second, she was going to cry.

It's a pity that it's not here that makes her sad the most.But Zhou Muyang laughed suddenly, and he said, do you still remember, when I first met you, there was a class meeting, and everyone was telling the truth, and when it was your turn, you said that if you meet someone you like, you will die I won't confess, if I dare to confess, it must be because I don't like that person so I can joke.I guess you forgot?But I remembered it at the time, and I thought it was true.

Zhou Muyang took a deep breath, Jiang Wei saw that his eyes were red, he continued, so you come and tell me... When you said you liked me, I just thought you were joking, really, I even I think this is enough to show that you don't like me at all and don't have any feelings for me.That's why I thought of taking that sentence to fight back.

I heard from Lu Ran that you want to apply for A University, so I also applied.It's ridiculous to say that, I also planned to take the entrance examination of C University, but I didn't expect that I would take the initiative to change my choice, but I was far away from you.If I had persisted... Zhou Muyang seemed unable to continue, okay, it's getting late, you should get in, I was here to see off my cousin today, I didn't expect to meet you by such a coincidence, those words just now... Don't take it to heart, I'm just afraid that if I don't say it, I won't have a chance to say it in the future.

During the whole process, Jiang Wei listened carefully, but she never answered, and forced herself not to cry.At this time, Zhou Muyang patted her on the head lightly, and he said, go in quickly.

She opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but her throat was full of astringency, and she was afraid that if she made a sound, she would really be exposed.

Should I tell him or not? In fact, she applied to C University because of him.

She was hesitating, but she had already been pushed into the waiting room by Zhou Muyang. She walked forward in a daze, and when she looked back at him, he was smiling and waving to her, very forcefully. Say goodbye.

Turning around and not looking at him again, her tears finally burst.Four years in college is too long, and she and him are separated by different routes. She really doesn't have the courage to tell him at this time that we are together again.

In the summer of 2012, during the summer vacation, Zhou Muyang happened to meet Lu Ran in a coffee shop when he was returning home.Next to Lu Ran was a petite girl, but not Jiang Wei.

Zhou Muyang went over to greet him in surprise, and Lu Ran seemed to see through his mind at a glance.

I'm in C University, and I'm in the same department as Jiang Wei.However, she just agreed to the pursuit of the president of the basketball club last month, and Lu Ran came over to put Zhou Muyang's shoulders. You and I have never had a share.

Before I went to find you that day, I actually read Jiang Wei's volunteer form, which said C University, but I really can't be great enough to match the two of you.He suddenly laughed while talking, so I deliberately lied to you that she was going to A University.

You shouldn't believe me, no one really cares about it.Lu Ran said.

Zhou Muyang didn't know how he got out of the coffee shop in the end. He thought of the girl he had been secretly in love with a long time ago, who closed her eyes tightly and said to him "I like you for a long time" on the windy top floor. My heart is stuffy and aching.

If he missed that day, he would never have the chance to hold her hand again.And the temperature of that light, short-lived hug, he can hardly remember.

And Lu Ran, who was drinking cappuccino with his new girlfriend in the coffee shop, had an imperceptible sneer on the corner of his mouth.In fact, Jiang Wei doesn't have any new boyfriend at all, she just rejected his pursuit repeatedly.

I said you shouldn't believe me.

like the way i look into your eyes

different from her
I walked past your angle

different from her
when i speak to you
different from her
my vocabulary is difficult

different from her
——Ai Yiliang "I don't know what love is"

Without beauty, she actually has nothing.She will always remember his neat handwriting on that love letter, he praised the girl he liked and said, you are so beautiful.

She has never received such approval, so she has no right to look forward to his favor.

Read a love poem to Po

On a winter night, Ah Bao was browsing Weibo with a warm water bag in his arms.The phone rang suddenly, and she stretched out her hand to take a look. The name displayed on it was so unfamiliar, she couldn't even remember when she knew such a person.It took a long time to wake up.It was actually a proxy name she set up for Chen Xin a long time ago.

At that time, she simply didn't want to see his name on the phone again, but she didn't want to delete his number.That's how I came up with this idea.

During the time she was in a trance, the bell had already rang once and then started singing from the beginning again.She hurriedly pressed the answer button and put her ear to the receiver, but for a moment she didn't know what to say in the first greeting.

Chen Xin's familiar voice came from the other end, Ah Bao...

He only called out her name once, and then he choked up so much that he couldn't continue.Her heart sank, she could hear him crying just now, she seemed to understand something, and asked him softly, what's wrong?
Break up, I broke up with her.Chen Xin's voice exuded a strong wet feeling.Ah Bao listened, his heart tightened.She lowered her voice, for fear that he might notice something, so she just tried her best to calm down and pretend to scold him, don't be sad, no matter how sad you are, she won't love you, it's not like you don't know, it's because you spoil her like this now.

Chen Xin's voice obviously paused, and then he burst out crying uncontrollably.She wanted to comfort him, but she didn't know how to comfort him; she wanted to simply scold him, but she couldn't bear it.I had no choice but to stay with him quietly.After three or five minutes, he suddenly said in a hurry, wait, she called me.Bao, I won't tell you now.

As soon as the voice fell, Ah Bao felt that there was no sound in his ears, and the whole world was silent for a moment.She thought of his teary-eyed face at the moment, and thought of the many years they had known each other, she had never heard him cry.

She saw him happy, saw him sad, saw him sing, saw him drunk, but never saw him shed tears.

He didn't know that she also wanted to cry at this moment.She would rather be the one who lost love at this time, but she never got it anyway, let alone try to lose it.

She heard a very sad song that was sung like this.

You and I are friends now, you are so good, but you can only be friends.

In high school, Abao and Chen Xin were at the same table.At that time, Chen Xin had just taken a fancy to a certain girl in the class next door, and discussed with a group of brothers how to do it.A Bao sat beside him, even if he was too lazy to listen or not, he could always know a lot.

Finally, there was one time when they were arguing over who should send the love letter, Ah Bao looked at the poor Chen Xin helpfully, and said lightly, I might as well send it for you.

A group of boys were startled at the same time, and then hurriedly agreed desperately, as if afraid of Abao's repentance, they stuffed the written love letter into her hand.Tell her to help praise Chen Xin a few more times.

She squeezed the letter and left the classroom, stood at the door of the next class, found a classmate who seemed to be more talkative, and asked him where Fu Xiang was sitting.

The other party looked around, then turned around and replied, she is not in the seat, you can go there first and wait.After speaking, he pointed to a direction for her.

During that boring waiting time, Ah Bao opened the unsealed letterhead in his hand.The content is short, just say, you are so beautiful, can you be my girlfriend?
Later, the relationship between Ah Bao and Chen Xin gradually warmed up. The two could go for a walk on Valentine’s Day when no one was with them. You talked about movies and I listened to you singing, and they talked about everything.

From being frank at the beginning, she admired him unconsciously later.In such a long time, what Ah Bao never forgot in his heart was this short love letter.

She couldn't forget his sincere compliments to the girl she liked, you are so beautiful.

How she hoped that one day, he would give her a slight compliment, even if it was just because she wore a new dress or she specially changed her hairstyle.

She did all this because she expected to hear him say to her too, you are so beautiful.

But for so many years, this wish has never been realized.

Just because he never got compliments from him, when Chen Xin jokingly asked her, why don't you fall in love?She just lowered her head and muttered in a low voice, no one will like me, I'm so ugly.

Until a long time later, Ah Bao never asked Chen Xin and Fu Xiang for their answers.

It was almost time for class that time, and Fu Xiang hadn't returned to her seat, so she carefully glanced at the schedule on the right side of the blackboard, and put the letter in the English book that Fu Xiang would use in the next class.After doing this, she turned around and left the classroom.

For a long time, the relationship went nowhere.But because of this cooperation, the relationship between Ah Bao and Chen Xin has taken a big step forward.All day long, they put their two heads together and chatted whenever they had nothing to do.Abao brings meals every day, so there will be a giant thermos bucket on the desk, which is just used to smoothly block the teacher's sight.

Once she forgot to bring her history book, and she realized it suddenly before class, so she complained to Chen Xin what to do.Chen Xin glanced at the time quickly, and said briskly, I'll borrow it!
After saying that, he rushed out of the classroom and went to the next class to help her get a crumpled history textbook.

It looks like it's for boys.Ah Bao thought so, and then quickly despised himself, so why should he care about it...even if it's a girl...it's nothing.

When she went home that day, when she was washing her face, she looked up and saw herself smirking in the mirror.I stopped writing several times in the middle of my homework, thinking of Chen Xin, I giggled again.

She carried her schoolbag over and organized it according to the next day's schedule.After thinking for a long time, I still took out the English book that was already in the bag.

The next day, Chen Xin volunteered to borrow books for her again, but unfortunately, the class next door was also an English class.He went back to the classroom, frowning into a Sichuan character, and spread his hands with her.

She didn't expect such a result, she laughed at herself in her heart, but she didn't dare to reveal the cause and effect to Chen Xin.Fortunately, as if he suddenly figured it out, he smiled at her, and the two of us will share it if we don't borrow it!
That smile is very bright and beautiful.There seems to be a lively little white rabbit in Abao's heart.

During class, she tried to put her head closer to him, and then closer, and then the little rabbit in her heart jumped even more happily.

She couldn't help but push forward. When it was cold, she rubbed against his coat and insisted on borrowing it to wear home; on rainy days, she never remembered to bring an umbrella. Looking at her pitiful appearance, Chen Xin would say righteously, forget it, use it. mine.

Ah Bao looked at his thin clothes and felt that he was too much.But these pictures sweetened her whole heart.Thinking of the holiness of love, and thinking that she was trying to get closer to this holiness, she thought, there is nothing wrong with it.

Ah Bao never thought that the name Fu Xiang would appear in her world.

Seats were rolled as usual this week, and she and Chen Xin were rarely divided into the first group and the eighth group, which were on both sides of the classroom by the windows.She greeted him and said, I'll write you a note later.

OK.Chen Xin agreed with a smile.

She found a cartoon copybook, the front was full of physical notes, and she wrote to Chen Xin from the first line on the back.It's nothing more than a few chats that come and go, from the latest new songs to the latest novels, there is nothing that cannot be discussed.

After a class, I can write several pages full.During the week of the exchange of seats, the notes she and he wrote have been completed in two manuscripts.

She never felt that she had so much to say to him.

In the last class on Friday, she and he wrote and drew in the newly opened third book, flying pigeons to pass books as usual.But he was bumped into by the teacher in charge who attacked suddenly.Before school was over, the head teacher really came to make trouble.In front of the whole class, I asked, who has passed notes in class this afternoon, stand up!
(End of this chapter)