i like you for many years

Chapter 29: Stubbornness (5)
She was taken aback, and before she had time to react, she saw him standing up from the corner of the corner of her eye, with his back straightened and standing on the other side.The setting sun shone on him through the window.

She didn't think about anything, stood up decisively, and looked at him.She actually saw a calm smile on the corner of his mouth, as if comforting her, it's okay, don't be afraid.

She immediately felt that she was full of courage, like a raging flame ignited behind her.

When she described it to him later, Chen Xin almost died of laughter, he said why are you so funny, what the hell is this description.

Abao curled his lips and said, very appropriate.

In fact, she didn't tell him that she not only thought she was funny, but more because at that moment, because of him as a company, she had a feeling of "don't be afraid".

No matter what happens next, she's not alone.

After school, the head teacher arranged for them to write self-criticism in the classroom.She nodded in admiration, took out the paper and pen, and prepared to fight side by side with him.At this time, the crowd dispersed, and everyone rushed out of the classroom in a swarm, leaving only a few slow-moving ones who were still dawdling.Fu Xiang appeared at the door so suddenly.

Ah Bao had never seen her before, but he heard Chen Xin waving at her affectionately, Fu Xiang, here!

You wait for me first, I have to finish the review with Bao before I can leave.Chen Xin said.

Fu Xiang has long golden curly hair and long eyelashes, like a Barbie doll.Seeing that A Bao was a little dazed.She can almost understand why Chen Xin fell in love with her back then.But in the next second, she quickly came to her senses and subconsciously asked him, why... she couldn't say what happened next.

She wanted to jokingly ask "how did you hook up", she wanted to pretend she didn't care, but she just couldn't.

So when Chen Xin smiled and said to her, "It's not thanks to you delivering the letter last time", she was deeply stunned, and tears were only a hair's breadth away from bursting into tears.

This turning point came too suddenly, and she didn't even have a chance to look back at the sweetness she thought she had at the beginning, so she was beaten back to her original shape.Copying each other's homework, passing notes in class... These scenes that she cherished the most, once placed in front of Fu Xiang's charming love, are instantly worth mentioning.

She couldn't help thinking that they had been together for so long, so long that he probably took her hand for walks often, and maybe even kissed her cheek tenderly under the street lamp.

The classroom was so quiet, Ah Bao seemed to hear the sound of his heart hurting.She gently, gently, wrapped her arms around herself.

Once the weekend is over, there will be a new round of monthly exams.Ah Bao listened very carefully in class, as if he hadn't recovered from the emotion of breaking up.

Although she never told Chen Xin about this feeling.To blame him is actually not true.

But she is just angry with herself, angry that she is not as beautiful as Fu Xiang, and praises her high love luck.But the seat was adjusted again, and Chen Xinfu sat next to her again, poking her arm during class, wanting to chat with her.She pouted, looking displeased.

I have to review and have an exam.She refused to continue his conversation.

Will we sit together in the exam?You can borrow me to copy it.Chen Xin deliberately smiled flatteringly, winking at her mischievously.

After all, she still couldn't resist his offensive, and agreed with a smile.The alienation that had been built so hard before also crashed to the ground.

The physics test was Ah Bao's strong point, but Chen Xin's seat was not right next to her as he wished.Instead, it was placed exactly behind her, on the right behind her.

The boy behind her happened to be fairly familiar with her, and he was easy to talk to.She finished answering the questions as soon as possible, and checked the time, there was still about a quarter of an hour.Taking advantage of the teacher's inattention, she turned around and exchanged a look with Chen Xin.Chen Xin means "Give me the answer quickly", and she means "Okay, don't worry".

She quickly copied all the answers on the draft paper, then rolled them into small paper balls, and tapped the boy's leg at the back table.

Pass it to Chen Xin for me.A Bao said, come on, I will write another copy for you right away.

The boy was taken aback, but after thinking of the level of "Abao's answer is basically the same as the standard answer", he quickly followed suit.

Chen Xin received the answer and naturally finished it smoothly.But the boy at the back table was not so lucky. Ah Bao only remembered that he kept asking in his ear, Ah Bao, is it finished?Ok?

But she simply said perfunctorily "soon" and "immediately" in a malicious manner. In fact, she was checking her answer for the last time.

The boy later handed in the paper disheartened, and then came to her in a vicious manner.At that moment, Ah Bao was really dumbfounded, but she never thought of it, he just deliberately knocked her head hard, and whispered in her ear, do you like Chen Xin?
Abao's heart was sour, she gave the boy a blank look, and cursed, crazy!After scolding, I laughed with him again.

The heart is so sour.

Look, even others can see that I like you, but you refuse to guess my mind.

When the test results came out, Chen Xin said that he would treat Ah Bao to dinner.As soon as she agreed, she heard him say that Fu Xiang would also go.

He didn't even ask her a question, don't you mind.

But Abao seemed to be used to him being so casual. She followed him to the school gate, and Fu Xiang came up to meet him, took his hand, and asked with a smile, "Abao, what do you want to eat?"
She was in a daze for a moment and didn't say a word.Fu Xiang didn't ask any more questions, just pulled Chen Xin and walked ahead.She followed after, but naturally opened a distance between them.

This was the only time when she was walking behind him, but she was able to see him so clearly without hiding it.

They chose a roadside stall to sit down, and Fu Xiang asked him to order a pot of bullfrogs in a dry pot and a few dishes of cold dishes.She sat across from them, but she looked uncomfortable.Listening to their chat, she couldn't get in the way.Chen Xin will also take care of her thoughtfully, and give her something to eat.But Fu Xiang suddenly said, "Ashin, do you feel... what?"Chen Xin asked.Abao naturally looked at her with a puzzled face.

Fu Xiang paused for a moment and said, do you think Abao is like your girlfriend?

As soon as the words came out, Ah Bao's face quickly turned red.It's not as easy to pretend as before, she doesn't know what to say for a while.

Fortunately, Chen Xin immediately asked nonchalantly, why?
Because you sit face to face.Fu Xiang took it for granted.After speaking, he laughed.

A Bao lowered his head to pick up the food, and even laughed awkwardly.Chen Xin got up at this moment and said, I'm going to the bathroom.After speaking, he left his seat.

Where did you buy the clothes you wear?Fu Xiang seemed to be looking for something to say.

Oh... Ah Bao fell into memory, as if he was trying to recall the answer to this question.But before she opened her mouth, Fu Xiang continued to casually say, I just saw it on the street stall in front of the school.

Bao was startled.

You don't have a boyfriend?Fu Xiang asked again.

A Bao hummed cautiously.

I think so too, haha.Fu Xiang went on to say, if you want boys to chase you, then stop wearing street clothes, understand?
……

After Chen Xin returned to his seat, Ah Bao didn't speak again.Within a few minutes, she excused something and left first.

When she was leaving, she walked across the road, and she turned her head to look at Chen Xin.But he just talked with Fu Xiang and smiled, and didn't even look at A Bao again.In fact, Fu Xiang's intentions were so obvious, how could she not understand.Her intentions were too obvious, and Fu Xiang was only defending her love.

But she felt that Fu Xiang was right in saying something.

She has no capital to be loved at all.

Without beauty, she actually has nothing.She will always remember his neat handwriting on that love letter, he praised the girl he liked and said, you are so beautiful.

She has never received such approval, so she has no right to look forward to his favor.

After that day, Ah Bao never wrote a diary entry for Chen Xin.

In class, she still had a playful smile with him; when it came to exams, she still tried her best to deliver the answers for him; after school, she never took the initiative to look for him, and she would never ask him to borrow books for him, or wear his coat to support him. his umbrella to go home.In front of Fu Xiang, she has practiced the ability to remain calm.

She didn't expect anything else, she just wanted to be friends with him, it was as simple as that.

Even though years passed by in a hurry, he still discussed with her on the eve of the college entrance examination that they would take the college entrance examination together. They were sitting on the grass together, and she suddenly asked him, is your birthday on February 2th?

He nodded, and she asked again, do you remember when is my birthday?

He insisted, of course!
She smiled happily and said, what university did you go to?Let's go together.

He was elated, okay, Fu Xiang is with us too!
I know it even if you don't tell me.She prevaricated him, then raised her head and looked at the vast night sky.

That was the only evening time when they were alone, Fu Xiang was doing self-study last night, but she dragged him to skip the self-study and ran out.The reason she used was, you come with me, I will tell you a secret.

But when he asked what it was, she always refused to mention it.

Until the end, when the evening self-study was over, she still didn't say anything.But he had already been called away by Fu Xiang's call. Before leaving, he turned to her and said, forget it, I'll ask you next time.

He was still so casual.

Even if it is changed casually, anyone will be curious about the secret, he is so indifferent, it doesn't matter.

After all, it was not because he was too careless.

If he was more careful and smarter, he would not be so easily deceived by her.

She didn't apply for the university he was going to attend at all.

Even though he chose the same city as him, he deliberately told him the difference between the north and the south.

Love is such an awkward thing, she doesn't want to get too close to him, and doesn't want to give herself so many opportunities to secretly hurt herself.But she didn't want to stay too far away from him, and wanted to meet him secretly when she had the chance, so that he wouldn't find out.

I don't like Chen Xin, I just want to be good friends with him.This sentence, Ah Bao said to himself for two full years.Two years later, no one felt that she loved him anymore.

It is easy for a person to deceive others, but it is not necessarily possible to deceive himself.But if you have really lied to yourself and want others to believe it, it will not be a problem.

Fu Xiang never troubled her again, nor did she do even one thing that would be misunderstood.

Two years later, Chen Xin called her and said, I'm at the train station, won't you come see me off?

She didn't tell him that she was actually on the same train as him.At this moment, she was standing less than ten meters away from him, but he couldn't see her.

It's because he never had her in his heart.Po thought.

She was not in the same carriage as him, so he couldn't find her from the beginning to the end.There was a text message from Chen Xin on the phone, and he complained that she was a liar.

She didn't reply.

But only at this moment, she finally wants to go to a brand new city and start a life without him by his side.Even though she worked so hard to keep a distance from him, she couldn't get rid of her sincerity.

She finally couldn't bear it anymore, buried her head deeply alone, and cried.She thought of that song again, why it was so sad, it could always be sung until tears welled up in her eyes.

You and I are friends now, you are so good, but you can only be friends.

In the first year of college, she didn't look for him.

In the second year, she didn't call him a single time.

In the winter of the third year, that night, she received a call from Chen Xin.He said that he broke up with Fu Xiang.Then, cry until disconnected.For so many years, it was the first time Ah Bao heard him cry so embarrassingly.

Only at this moment did she really feel that all those feelings had returned, returned to her chest, and all of a sudden sadness filled her.She wished she could cry for him, wished she could hurt for him.

Time had precipitated those pure white feelings at the beginning, but it made her even more fascinated by it.

She waited, waited, wanted to wait until he called again to tell her what the result was.

But until 03:30 in the morning, he still did not send her any news.She was finally too tired to open her eyes, and finally took the initiative to call him.He answered quickly, hello?

She clearly made up her mind, even in the second she heard his voice, her nose was astringent, and she cried, Ashin, I have always missed you.

But as soon as the words came out, she immediately woke up.No matter how much I forced myself to say the following words, I couldn't say them anymore.She had to hasten to add, I haven't contacted you for a long time, I'm sorry, I didn't forget you as a friend.

Chen Xin's mood was also very low, so he didn't ask any questions or say anything.Until she was almost crying, she said, then I hung up.

He just said, don't cry.

She said, well.

Turning off the phone, she remembered the only time he called her in her freshman year.She was so happy to see his name on the caller ID, and she answered, but she heard him ask anxiously, help me find out who wrote this poem.

As she spoke, she read a few of them and asked her to turn on the computer and go to Baidu.Just like those times in the second half of high school, he was no longer polite to her, and he no longer deliberately maintained any demeanor. When he needed her, he would speak directly without beating around the bush.

She understands that it's always like this between true friends, and polite words are all false.Also gladly accept.She checked it out for him, sent him a text message, and he called again.

She thought he was finally going to say the words she had been looking forward to for a long time.

But he asked unhappily, why is it wrong?How did you check it?

Her heart suddenly went cold.

It's not because of the tone, nor because he hasn't called her for so long, when he calls, he just asks her for help.

As expected, he didn't remember that today was her birthday.

Is your birthday on February 2th?

Ok.

Then do you remember when is my birthday?

of course!
Ah Bao thought he would never be so stupid again, so he believed him.

She really thought it would never happen again.

After that, even the thought of going to see him quietly was suppressed by herself.

She thought she would never receive his call again, but when he was saddest, he actually thought of her.

It's hard to sleep this night.Ah Bao followed the Weibo address left by Chen Xin in his QQ profile and clicked in.

Not long after he registered, the most recent Weibo post happened to be a photo with a friend.Ah Bao clicked on the photo, it was a girl.The girl's eyes are big, but they are not magical, and naturally they are not beautiful.The hair is draped, and it's fairly smooth, but it's not foreign.From Chen Xin's description, she should be his good friend now.

Ah Bao carefully looked at the girl's appearance, and was suddenly startled.

Girls actually look like her.

The face shape is like her, the outline is like her, the expression is like her, the temperament is like her...not like the beautiful Fu Xiang, but like the rustic her in Fu Xiang's mouth.

She never thought that there was nothing good about herself, that's why Chen Xin didn't take the initiative to find her for so long.She was just one of his many friends, and she never felt that there was anything special about her humble status.

But at this moment, she didn't think so anymore.

An idea came to mind, maybe, she was wrong from the beginning? !
She always remembered that before, he used to stand on the top floor, shouting at her who was walking from the school gate to the teaching building, Ah Bao!Po!

He had a big smile at that time, bright and beautiful.

The girl beside him was so eye-catching, she remembered that he praised her for being beautiful in the love letter he wrote to the girl.But in her view, that love letter is more like a causal sentence.Maybe it can be interpreted as, because you are beautiful, I want to be with you.

Because you are beautiful, I want to be with you.

I'm so ugly, how can I stand by your side, how can I make you like me.

I think of you superficially, I think so, is it wrong?If one day, you ask me what that secret is... I will wait for you, I will wait for you to ask me.

Po has a secret that he never told him.

She actually liked him, always liked him, secretly liked him, tried her best not to like him anymore, but still couldn't forget him.

Chen Xin also had a secret, which he never told her.

That night, Ah Bao said to him, "I've always missed you," and he was really afraid that the next second, she would reveal her secret and wait for his answer.Fortunately, she just took that sentence just right as before.

Fu Xiang didn't need to remind him, he knew that Abao liked him.But with her appearance, she is only suitable for being friends, and she can barely get by.

Love has never been just a myth.After all, Ah Bao couldn't stand it.

(End of this chapter)