surrogate wife

Chapter 148 Don't Touch Me

This was an unexpected incident, but it was not without warning signs. Hua Shipeng's feelings for me were obvious, and people before and after hinted at it. I was not stupid, nor was I unconscious, but I never Expected him to express it in this way.

During this time, I had a phone call with my mother.I told her about the competition, and as a mother, I was naturally happy, but after all, it was nothing more than telling me to work hard.

When it came to feelings, my mother was a little bit wordy, presumably my younger brother couldn't keep his mouth shut, so he told my mother about Hua Shipeng, and then my mother kept nagging, saying that I met a true love in my life. People who are good to me are really hard to come by. If I meet them, I will cherish them.Then he persuaded me to forget the past early, saying that I am still young and have a long way to go.

Now seeing Hua Shipeng kneeling in front of me, it would be a lie to say that I am not moved. Girls are sentimental species. If you flick it a little bit, the emotional strings will "da da!"However, I know very well that moving is not love, so I still can't really accept it so quickly in my heart.

I asked Hua Shipeng to get up, but he refused, and raised the bouquet higher and higher each time. I blushed and opened my mouth several times but didn't know what to say.

My younger brother was also worried for me on the sidelines. He thought of my happiness privately, and also thought that Hua Shipeng was a good person. Seeing this situation, he would inevitably favor him. Seeing that I couldn't respond for a long time, he came over and made a fuss. I reached out and took the flower, then stuffed it into my arms, and said with a playful smile: "My sister is thin-skinned, she accepted this flower, Brother Hua, get up quickly!"

Hua Shipeng raised his head and looked at me, and then his eyes were concentrated. I couldn't stand the contact of eyes, so I could only stretch out my hands to close the flowers, and then said lightly: "You get up first!"

When he heard me talking, he immediately smiled, stood up, walked in front of me and stretched out his hand to hug me, I stepped back unconsciously, his face darkened immediately, and I immediately whispered: "Give me some time! "

Yes, give me some time to organize myself, I am willing to give him this opportunity.I didn't love Chen Haotian at first, but gradually I fell in love with him for no reason.

Very early on, my younger brother talked to me once, and he said: "When you are young, it is a kind of beauty to meet someone you are attracted to. On the contrary, when you meet someone who is good to you, you will be moved by your heart and feel sorry for you. And those who are sad and happy because you are happy, accept them if you like them, don't procrastinate, and don't hurt each other, those who love you will last longer than you like, reliable, time is cruel, sister must cherish the people in front of you."

I know that the person in front of him in his words naturally refers to Hua Shipeng.

But I just gave up a relationship. I know that person will have nothing to do with me from now on. If I lose a moment of memories, the past will drift with the tide and will no longer be remembered. When I love feelings, I will naturally love them deeply, and I won’t When you are in love, you are always sad.In this kind of sad time, I can't accept someone so quickly, I am still ashamed, I think this is my biggest move.

Hua Shipeng seemed to be pleasantly surprised. I asked him later, and I said, "Were you disappointed at that time?"

He hugged me and said, "No, because I thought you were going to reject me like before!"

After the dinner, Liu Han called me. The voice on the phone was very calm, without any waves.She is the one who betrayed me, so I am afraid of her.

For most people, the most heinous thing a person who betrays you has done is to destroy the boundaries of trust in your heart. In Liu Han’s heart, everything related to friendship was shattered by her one by one. So I will be suspicious of her, and I will be cautious about the people around me. Sometimes I will speculate who is still standing by my side. Sometimes I feel that everyone has a second face. I was slapped by betrayal. I have been enduring this long period of trance in a trance.Even talking to her now is tense from head to toe.

She asked me, "Do you love him?"

Before I could reply, she continued on. She said, "You don't love him at all. For so many years, if you wanted to love him, you would have loved him already. Li Xin, you can't be so selfish!"

What Liu Han said was straightforward, but it made me so bored that I couldn't help laughing a few times. It was the first time I replied to her so indifferently and bitterly, and I said, "Is this none of your business?"

I was stunned, there was a dead silence on the other end of the phone, her voice was warm after a long time, but it sounded a little decadent, she said: "Xinxin, the matter between me and you is that I am sorry for you, I never thought that I would meet you This step, maybe I'm too paranoid, but I really like Hua Shipeng, if you don't love him, don't harm him, okay?"

I didn't want to get involved with her any more with such a theory, so I casually said a few words and hung up the phone in a hurry.

I was lying on the bed, my thoughts were flying, and Hua Shipeng's text messages came in randomly, so noisy that I didn't even have time to close my eyes. I opened it and scanned it. It was undoubtedly not those expressions about emotions. They all said that they would take good care of me and believe him. something like that.

Without delusions, I would not go wrong at the beginning, maybe I have passed the age of dreaming, so I don't want to touch any unexpected things.

Just because I know soft-heartedness is my weakness, so I closed my tearful eyes tightly and killed all right and wrong entanglements.

The greatest kindness between two people is not about the flowers before the moon and the moon, or the vows of eternal love, but the shared experience, including the economic ending, the weak body, the dissatisfaction and struggle with the status quo, and the confusion and expectation for the future.

However, human nature is undoubtedly one-sided. We who cannot see the overall situation often deny everything because of some small things. As the misunderstanding deepens, the other party may retaliate. The result of losing both sides again, just like now!
I don't know the purpose of life, but I know that the purpose of life is death.The meaning of all this is an epitaph, and the performance before reaching the destination will determine the dignity of the epitaph.No one needs to tell anyone, believe in those good things more, in fact, there are many bad things in this world, but this does not mean that we have no reason to live, of course we have to find the reason ourselves, and I hope that I Can live better.

I hugged my phone for a long time, and finally I just replied: "It's getting late, go to bed early!"

He quickly said good night, and then the phone went silent.

I found that I was fit to think in the dark. The darker I felt, the quieter I felt. Many pictures flashed in my confusion, bit by bit, about the past, but I lost my plan for the future. Maybe I was afraid.

Since that day, Hua Shipeng obviously no longer regarded himself as an outsider. Although I did not explicitly reject him, the sentence: "Give me some time!" actually contained some meanings that are unacceptable now, but he completely rejected him. He didn't take it to heart, and acted as a boyfriend on his own.

For the competition, I practiced dancing until very late these days, and he always went to the dance classroom to pick me up. After a long time, my classmates saw a lot, so they all believed that he was my boyfriend.

I have also talked to Hua Shipeng several times, but he didn't care. No matter how I put on my face or begged a little, he always put on a look that he must take good care of me. In the end, I was helpless , let him go.

During this time, Chen Haotian would call me all the time, but I never answered it. Afterwards, he texted me twice a day. On June 6th, the day of my finals, Hua Shipeng sent me to the competition venue at 7:[-] in the morning. My brother didn’t show up because I was busy in the store, and I was so nervous that I went to the toilet several times to make up in the background, turned on my phone, changed my signature on QQ, and said, “I’m so nervous, all kinds of anxiety!”

After putting on makeup, we have to check the order of appearances, and the producer has to tell us all the procedures again. In the end, everyone tacitly talked about the procedures and then sat back in their seats and waited for the appearance.

Only 20 minutes before playing, the staff brought in a bouquet of flowers with a card in it. I took it out and opened it, and the familiar characters came into my eyes clearly.

"Don't be nervous, believe that you are the best, I will always support you Xinxin!" This handwriting was Chen Haotian's, I could recognize it at a glance, and my heart jumped to my throat in an instant, and I quickly pulled the staff away and asked the flower. Who brought it.

The staff thought for a while, "Oh!", and said that someone outside the door asked for help to bring it in for you.

"Is that man gone?"

"I do not know!"

I didn't say any more, and immediately stood up and walked out. The staff pulled me and frowned: "It's about to start, where are you going!"

I withdrew my hand, smiled apologetically, and begged slightly: "I'll go out and have a look, come right away, I promise I won't be late!" After speaking, I ignored his objection and ran out.

The back stage was set inside, and there was a long corridor after going out. Chen Haotian was leaning against the corner, leaning sideways, with his head down and the cigarette between his fingers still unfinished.

Long time no see, I miss you very much.But now I can’t say more about this kind of miss. I told myself ten thousand times to let go, and I insisted on not answering any calls from him, but when I really saw something related to him, I still couldn’t help it. Out.

I clenched my fist tightly and felt my nails sinking deeply into my palm. I gritted my teeth and turned my head, but just as I took a step, I heard his extremely low voice, "Xinxin?"

My whole body froze, tears fell patter, but I still didn't dare to look back.

I heard a rush of running and saw him standing in front of me.There was joy and melancholy in his eyes, when he looked up at him, he realized that the vicissitudes on his face had increased a lot.

He laughed inexplicably, reached out to wipe my tears, and said: "The makeup is so beautiful, you are crying!"

I shook off his hand coldly, with a stiff tone, I said, "Don't touch me!"

(End of this chapter)